Alter Ego Part Five

Alter Ego

Part Five

            Halloween is in two days. So, let’s wrap up this blog theme with another admittance…

            Who did you always want to be when you were growing up? Who did you look up to? Who did you dress up as on Halloween? Who did you sit in front of the tv and idolize every time the show came on?

            My answer will probably seem silly and predictable, especially with the movies that came out this year. I’ve been thinking about this particular blog for most of the month. I’ve tried to revert back into my childhood and think about my answer to the above question.

            So, first the simple answer…

            I loved watching Wonder Woman when I was little. What girl didn’t! I didn’t watch the cartoon version. No! I watched the Lynda Carter TV series. I watched a person become this amazing woman. Man, I wanted to be her!

            But, did I actually want to be Wonder Woman?? Depending on my age and imagination at the time, probably a little. I think, though, it was more about what she represented. She was a strong, independent woman. She was strong enough, not just physically, to do anything she needed to do.

            I have always admired strong people. People who I believe have this amazing inner strength to live the life they have been given. Life can throw some seriously hard curve balls at them, and somehow, they still move forward. They may be a little bruised from the ball but, they still move forward.

            I have told a few people how strong I believe them to be. I get crazy looks when I say this to people. They don’t seem to see the strength they have. At least, that is how I feel when someone tries to tell me I have amazing inner strength.

            I don’t view myself as strong. I simply live and do what is necessary to survive and move onto the next minute and day. I cower from the word strong and I think others do as well. It’s a hard word to hear and once associated with you, there seems to be this fear that you are no longer allowed to break or show your weakness.

            I think that is where the disbelief in your own strength comes from. Once it’s said out loud, are you allowed to have a weakness? No one ever shows their one hundred percent self to anyone. Do you now have to hide even more of ourselves for fear of falling off the pedestal you’ve been put on?

            My belief is this…

            In order to truly be the person you are supposed to be, you have to show all sides of yourself. Not to everyone. No. People still get bits and pieces. That’s the nature of life and relationships.

            What I’m saying is this…

            Be who you are. If you are not comfortable showing parts of yourself to certain people, then don’t. If you aren’t afraid to show all of your strengths and weaknesses to someone, then go for it! Just be you. Be comfortable with who you are all of the time. That is where true inner strength lies.