Alter Ego Part Two

Alter Ego

Part Two

            I’m taking a deep breath and holding it while I write this blog. This will probably be the most honest blog I’ve written to date. So, bear with me as I take you through my thoughts.

            Since I decided to write about alter egos this month, I have been thinking about how I represent myself to people. I sit here today as a forty-one-year old woman who seems to be becoming more like herself now than she ever has before.

            As I get older, I realize more and more the misconception people have of me. It’s my own fault really. I’m the one wearing the mask that gives people the misperception of who I am…or maybe who I used to be.

            I was a people pleaser, a conformer. It didn’t matter how much you hurt me, I couldn’t willingly do that to you. I was the “good girl” who did as she was told. Because of certain events in my life, I was perceived as innocent and naïve, weak and simple. I made the mistake of allowing those misperceptions to continue. I couldn’t handle someone being ashamed of my, if I showed my true self.

            I sit here today and I find myself regretting ever allowing myself to wear that mask. It’s time to show my true self. My big, beautiful, slightly intolerant, tired of the bs self. I’m no longer afraid to be me. I am proud of who I am. I am proud of what I have accomplished and I am proud of where I am going.

            I’m in a new stage of life and I’m going to embrace it. My Creator took the time to create me as I am. Shame on me for hiding it all these years.