Scaredy Cat

Do you ever feel afraid? I remember as a child being so afraif of the dark, my basement, and my reflection in the morning, and during puberty.
I guess as I got a little older, some fears diminished, yet as a 36 year old, I suppose I thought most fears would go away, yet somehow now, I feel like a kid as I think about what truly scares me. Why is it that becoming a parent instills you with fear? I mean where was the real manual about parenting fears? I read 'What to expect when you're expecting' but where is the book entitled, 'What the hell was I thinking in preparing for this?' There is no warning manual on how scary parenting is because that would be the end of life as we know it. I mean why didnt someone warn me that making sure your babies are still breathing every single night would continue when those babies are no longer babies? Yes, I check on all three of my daughters every night. I know worrying about thiet safety is normal yet there I am still making sure that even in sleep mode that they are safe.
And whoever writes that manual needs to mention worrying about kids getting hurt, wearing enough sunscreen, broken hearts and the day they leave. Ahh I loathe you said day, and I wonder after years of hearing,the nightsongs and pitter,patter of little feet? Oh and it will just be my husband again and myself. Sure, he will fill in the nights of song with his own rhythm of snoring, and the occasional passing of gas, yet I worry that wr will still find ourselves longing for these days of little girls, bows and bikes. So I know I probably worry too much, but I wouldnt have it any other way. Bring on the challenges, but beware, I have my worry wart on high alert as I pray again tonight to keep my loved ones safe. My cup runneth over.