Catie Disabato's Blog, page 4
December 8, 2015
zanopticon:
As usual, talking to my lady of pop @catiedisabato has clarified my thinking on the...
As usual, talking to my lady of pop @catiedisabato has clarified my thinking on the issue, so I’d like to submit something to the canon of reasons that girls love boybands: because they’re one of the few groups of men who end up getting held to the standards for women about sex– or a version of them, anyway.
Boybands are expected to be charming above all else: absolutely always attractive and available. They are allowed to flirt with sexiness but not to talk directly about sex. They have to make you fall in love with them and at the same time make you understand that they will never fall in love with you, and you shouldn’t be hurt by that. They perform their own desirability as an occupation. Girls see themselves in that as much as they see themselves as an object of that desire in the lyrics, I think. This idea that everyone has to love you in order for you to do what you want to do in the world.
Thinking about this again this week. Desirability as in: needing to be so conscious of vibes and how you move your body and what you wear, in order to cultivate and grow your desirability. A slow and delicate gardening of your own body, and the extensions of your body (mostly Twitter and Instagram for me).
December 7, 2015
If Everything
If every object in my apartment was perfectly organized, if every object and surface were perfectly clean, the plants watered and even the ceilings scrubbed, I would still be unhappy, I would be sitting on the floor of my closet, sobbing despondently, unable to decide how to arrange my jeans: my darkness of wash or tightness of fit.
December 3, 2015
November 26, 2015
heartbarf:
(another excerpt from the same new project as this,...
(another excerpt from the same new project as this, which is all largely about what girls mean to me.)
it’s not fair how excited I am for Niina’s new project
please give it to me now, i need it
melvillehouse:
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November 22, 2015
Depression as the Boring Part of Janga
The boring part of janga, if you were wondering, is the part right after someone pulls out the piece that makes all the others fall. Not the big pop, when the tower collapses and everyone’s shocked and excited and shouting. The moment after that, once the blocks have dropped and scattered, all their tension removed. (Inert, flat.) After the noise dies down.
The blocks lay there, that is depression. (Inert, flat.)
At this point you can walk away from the blocks, they can lay there for a while, who knows how long.
Eventually you have to rebuild another tower if you want to play again. It’s scary to try to build another tower because it’s hard to tell if it will be structurally sound enough to get fully rebuilt, or if it’ll crash before the game begins again. It’s hard to know how solid the foundation is. If the blocks fall in the middle of rebuilding, they might lay there for a while again. Who knows how long.
Eventually you have to rebuild another tower if you want to play again. Maybe this time you’ll get the whole thing built, right? Depression is not the fun part of janga, when blocks are removed but the thing stays upright. Quivering, maybe, but solid enough to stand. Leading up to the next fall, tho.
