Joseph Grammer's Blog - Posts Tagged "draft"

I love all the words in my book. I know no one else will forge the same relationship with those squiggly syllables, and that no one else will care as deeply, but it's still hard to push the text out of the nest. I.e., publish.

I have the story in my head. It's cinematic, full of neon lights and guns and tearful subversions, but on paper it looks like a deformed pancake.

I'm okay with this half the time. The other half, I'm sweating like Rents in Trainspotting, resolving to either burn my book (it's in a computer file, do I burn the computer?) or run away to Siberia, where, according to the documentary Happy People, life is rugged and simple and full of minks.

I have a list of literary agents I'm going to contact, but I haven't sent any emails. I teeter on the edge of connection, biting my nails, losing myself in Wikipedia holes and emerging in the middle of the night, naked and gnawing on unsalted almonds.

I'm in the stage of wondering if I'll find the "perfect" (shut up, fool) agent to sell my book and make up all the rent I haven't been able to pay myself. Good luck, me.

The Beach Boys' "Please Let me Wonder": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kc4jR...