Devon Volkel's Blog, page 40

Which color looks better on me? #snowdayboredom

Which color looks better on me? #snowdayboredom

A butterfly emerges. Legally single. 2.23.16. #dday #flyfree...

A butterfly emerges. Legally single. 2.23.16. #dday #flyfree #newsingle

Trying on red lips today :)

Trying on red lips today :)

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There’s Beauty In The Breakdown

Once upon a shattered heart

amidst the fragments of broken dreams

stood alone a girl apart

in a world devoid of pretty things

This bleak and darkened world of hers

had become her silent hell

where meaning melded with the curse

a man she once had loved had spelled.

In the aftermath of the final end

like a winter’s wrath, a take-down,

the floor had taken her knee’s bend

but there’s beauty in the breakdown.

This lonely soul had endured all

ALL that was meant to break her

and stood up from the fractured fall

daring anything out to take her,

To get at her soul just one more round

for the fire in her still thrives.

Going toe to toe and pound for pound

with any force that craves her life.

And the coward behind the curse still hides

Not man enough to face the lonely.

As the warrior that was his bride

says, “Loneliness don’t own me.”

She stood through rain that was lit on fire

and said, “It’s only coal, just burn me.

I’ve lived through worse being his live wire

when he never did deserve me.”

Even though he dulled her spark

she’ll find it in the ache that drowned.

For even among the serenity sharks

there’s beauty in the breakdown,

And he’ll forever remain the same

jumping from one fix to the next.

Without fixing the parts to blame

primarily creating the next ex.

When she’ll create a beauty

in herself from his faults

and he will try futilely

to replace her with defaults.

A New

Every day there’s a new emotion

an new feeling

a new phase.

Every week there’s a new level

a new broken

a new craze.

Every minute there’s a new lonely

a new idea

a new thought.

Every hour there’s a new strength

a new battle

a new fought.

Every evening there’s a new inadequate

a new empty

a new afraid.

Every morning there’s a new anger

a new lie

a new betrayed.

Stranger

Two worlds collided long ago

and left one heart in danger

for the other heart was half way cold

and his eyes were even stranger.

The path began with rocky rules

 and just a few of those game-changers

for just himself he’d always choose

to keep part of him that stranger.

Moments became memories,

became scars I look at later.

No matter what he meant to me

he was always a familiar stranger

Shatter Me

I thought I knew you

thought I knew your heart

but this stranger before me

has taken me all apart.

Laid to waste in rain

as our dreams are destroyed

dismantled by pain

while the anger is deployed,

You’ve broke me slowly

& the passion has ceased

with each lie that you told

you removed a new piece,

You’ve shattered me slowly &

drained me of life.

You’ve paralyzed me wholly &

bound me with strife,

So NOW…

shatter me quickly for

I’ve been broken for years.

Please release me quickly

from this prison of tears.

I thought this bond was forever or

our friendship at least.

My home was with you wherever,

even a box on the street.

The sacrifices I’ve chosen

to keep a family as one

have all gone unnoticed

since the sorrow’s begun.

You’ve shattered me finally

with one final move

that ended our era

and left nothing to prove.

So NOW,

Shatter me gently

leave my pieces behind

let me heal intently

from my shattered mind.

I thought you were my hero

even though love’s been long gone

you still hung my moonlight

and haunted my songs.

Now it seems you don’t care

about the past we created

and millions of memories

are being deflated.

You’ve shattered me cruelly and

put me through a hell

and left me effortlessly

when my heart didn’t swell.

So NOW

Shatter me easily

leave my heart on the ground

for the love that you promised me

he cannot be found.

I thought you were my life’s love

till we were old and gray

but the way that you treated me,

I guess the love couldn’t stay.

I know I treated you poorly

after you shattered my soul

but I was lost in loneliness

that was beyond my control.

I know we both have faults

in the end of our story

maybe we should’ve fought harder

to reach our glory.

You’ve shattered me harder

than I’ve ever had to weather

and the shards of our bond

cannot be put back together.

So NOW

Shatter me gracefully

for in agony I’ll weep

for the dreams we once had

& the memories I’ll keep.

Shatter me kindly

don’t be oh so cruel.

For I once was your everything

Now I’m just a fool.[

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I’m broken & tattered & tired & torn

through the facade of happiness is where I dwell.

I’m shattered & haunted, tormented & sworn

to be bound to someone in a living hell.

I’m wasted & wasting & waiting & worn

cursed by a love that once made my heart swell.

In sickness, in health, in happiness, in scorn

Feeling like I’m trapped like I’m under a spell.

Got a my smile back. Oh how I missed it.

Got a my smile back. Oh how I missed it.