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March 12, 2016

Getting Rid of Negative Thoughts

When a negative thought hits your life, you have to attack that thought with the Word of God and literally crush that thought. Now we get thoughts, the key is that we have to bind those thoughts that are not of God and speak the thoughts that are of God.
Now someone might be asking, is it good to talk to yourself? It all depends. If you’re not going to talk to yourself correctly, don’t open your mouth. Example: if you tell yourself that you’re not going to make it, you’re not going to succeed, don’t open your mouth! Now if you are telling yourself that you’re an overcomer, I will succeed, this dream will be mine, you better open your mouth (so what you can resonate within your body).
Well, how do you get rid of negative thoughts? It might be a challenge especially if you’ve seen negative around you, and the people around you are just negative. Here’s a starting point. Say something nice about yourself and the accomplishments you’ve done in your life. If you can’t think of one, I could’ve been dead, but I’m still alive. I am free to breathe the air outside and I can soar the heavens like a bird in the sky. I have overcome the worst in my life, and this storm is over now. I am a survivor and I can do anything I set my mind to.  These are just examples, but let me add a few more. I am worthy of love, and I am smart enough to get that job. What’s also needed to get rid of negative thoughts is a transforming of the mind with something positive.
Sometimes negative thoughts will come from negative people. I hear that classic jam roaming through my head: I know you know someone that has a negative vibe… If you know it, go ahead and sing it because it’s the truth. What negative people will do is sew thoughts to cause you to doubt, to quit, and to think lowly of yourself so they can boost their ego. In this case, you may need to get rid of these negative people so you aren’t fed negative thoughts.
This is just a short blog to help someone who’s battling negative thoughts in their head. I’m sure I’ll be blogging more on this as the year continues.
Blessings.

The Mayne Man
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Published on March 12, 2016 17:30

March 8, 2016

There Is A Queen In You

I don't know why I'm writing this blogpost, but I believe this will touch a woman's heart, mind, soul & spirit. Back around 2009, there was a popular song by Donald Lawrence called "There Is A King In You," and it's dedicated to those who have struggled in life no matter what the situation. You can say that the song inspired this blogpost and now, I would like to target this post to the ladies because all of you need to know that there is a Queen in you. But first, let me give you a few definitions of the word "Queen."
1. the female ruler of an independent state, especially one who inherits the position by right of birth.
2. (Before I give this definition, if you have heard me talk about chess and my love for playing it, this confirms what I have said about the power of a woman, especially in a relationship) - the most powerful chess piece that each player has, able to move any number of unobstructed squares in any direction along a rank, file, or diagonal on which it stands.
3. A Biblical Queen using Sheba from 1 Kings 10 as an example - is a woman who knows her worth.
So what do I want to share with you? A few years back (in 2012) I did a blog entitled the attack on women. You see, when the devil tempted Eve, his sole purpose was to get her tied to him and her focus off of her husband as well as God. As a result, she started guessing her better judgment, she settled for temporary (like settling for coach instead of first-class). I know there are many women who can relate to this scenario to include being tied to men who aren't even the same faith and to destroy the true Queen that she's supposed to be and live. It's sad to see Queens destroy each other and tear each other down and it's even worse when men manipulate them forgetting that he's nothing without her (just like in chess). But this is simply an attack on a spiritual level. Because Christ the true King was born via a woman and would crush the devil's head, he hates women and will do anything to destroy her true Queenship through doubt, situations such as rape, being abused sexually, physically, emotionally, financially and the list goes on. Romans 5:17 says For if because of one man’s trespass (lapse, offense) death reigned through that one, much more surely will those who receive [God’s] overflowing grace (unmerited favor) and the free gift of righteousness [putting them into right standing with Himself] reign as kings in life through the one Man Jesus Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One). So if we're to reign, then we have to shame the devil wants us to do is not drop our pants and engage in pre-marital sex because that's below the level of a king and a queen.
We as brothers and sisters in Christ need to stop writing off those who are knocked down. We're siding with the devil when we do that and those knocked down are wounded and need us to build them up via prayer, fasting, intercession and with love AND the authority of Christ. Ladies, I stand with you as a friend and a brother in Christ and know that you are a Queen and I see you as God sees you. A woman who is made in God's image. There is truly a Queen in You! Believe it, say it, and walk in it by faith, even as you are healing. Don't give up on your healing. You're not out for the count (even though many believers think you are), I will never count you out because God doesn't see you out for the count. So, for every woman reading this, I declare this over you (and I encourage you to declare this over yourself), there is a Queen in you.
Blessings,
The Mayne Man
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Published on March 08, 2016 07:26

March 6, 2016

Finding A Mate Is Like Flying

A few days ago on my Facebook wall, I was posting about the similarities of how finding a mate is like flying. I want to take my posts (along with some of the comments I received) to make this blogpost come alive. As I was preparing to put this post together, I was thinking about Apostle Melissa Mimi Ewell’s post that she contributed to my wall last year entitled “Finding A Wife is Not Like Shoe Shopping.” Great post, and you can check it out right here.
http://mayneman.blogspot.com/2015/04/finding-wife-is-not-like-shoe-shopping.html
But I thought about it, finding a mate is like flying. When you board an airplane, there’s typically a first class section (with no more than 4-5 rows in the front of the aircraft), and the remaining seats are coach. On some aircrafts, you’ll find a section right behind first class called business class. Coach tickets are cheaper than first-class (in fact, you’re so cramped in coach, that you have to pay for extra legroom if you want it). Most people won’t consider flying first class because it’s expensive (now I'm not judging anyone who doesn't fly first-class, I'm just using analogies for this post) just like many won't strive for a first-class relationship because it's like shopping for an expensive engagement ring. Now, I've flown in coach, and I’ve had the privilege of flying certain parts of my flights in first-class, and I can tell you it’s an experience sitting in first-class (but there are also differences between the two). Now in relationships, if you are just trying to find a fling for the moment, or to satisfy a need (what we simply call “settling”), it’s like flying coach. And you end up trying to look through the curtain that separates coach from first class to find an escape route (especially if the relationship is a volatile one). But when you get first class in a relationship (a mate that’s truly chasing after God), you don’t look back at the curtain to see what the folks in coach are doing (those that settled).
Here’s another thought that separates coach from first class. Now, when I’ve flown first-class, the minute I sit in my seat (which is much more comfortable than a coach seat), I’m asked if I want something to drink and they bring me some warm mixed nuts (that are actually good). It’s like I’m being served and treated with respect. Now let’s be real for a minute, how many of you have flown in coach and wondered, “why is it that I only get a cup of soda and the folks up front get the full can?” Relationships are no different. In coach, you’ll get a cup of your mate or just a portion of your mate – that means your mate is more & likely withholding things from you; you're not getting their true devotion; and the list goes on), and in first-class, you get 100% of your mate (they are true, faithful, and love God like all get-out)! Now I'm not saying there won't be problems in a first class relationship, but in this type of a relationship, both parties are determined to make it work and keeping it a 100-100 love (not just a 50-50 love – smile). In a coach relationship, one is making all the sacrifice and I'm sure many can testify to it being draining.


One comment made under this particular post was that sometimes ladies don’t recognize first class because they are so used to coach. I would say that one reason is due to the upbringing they had (it may not be a bad thing especially given the circumstances). The environment they grew up in can play a role and they may not have been able to envision a better life beyond the environment they grew up in.
Another comment was many have gotten tired of waiting for first-class because it takes too long. I can see many have grown tired (if you think about it, on an aircraft, there's not that many first-class seats), and there are plenty of coach seats going around. It's a sacrifice to reach for that status and decisions have to be made, to settle, or declare and decree that over your life (I’m first class, and I’m going to have it).
The last comment I received under this post requires no additional response from me. It said this: Why settle for 70% ground Chuck when can have Prime Rib? It's knowing your worth and value that makes all the difference. Even when you’re tired of waiting and use to coach know that God has a better plan. Trust Him!
I pray that this post blesses you. You can have the best in all areas. And if you are in a relationship that’s first class, I pray God will continue to bless your relationship! If you’re in a relationship that’s coach, I pray this will empower you to not settle!
Blessings,
The Mayne Man


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Published on March 06, 2016 18:08

March 5, 2016

The Dangers of Punishing "Self"

If you’re like me, you may have succumb to the concept of “punishing yourself” when you intentionally or unintentionally did something wrong. Or perhaps you may have punished yourself when someone else did some form of harm to you – and now you’re taking the blame of the hurt upon you. Now here’s one that bothers me because it happens at times – people will put guilt trips on you to puff themselves up and then you could fall to the trap of punishing yourself.
Regardless of how you got to the place where you are punishing yourself, there are no positives to it. In fact, the greatest danger to it is death (whether physical, mental or emotional). I would like to use Judas Iscariot as the best example. He was one of the twelve disciples but as we draw closer to the last supper before Christ was to be crucified, he decided to sell Christ out to the chief priests. Let’s go to Matthew 26:14-16.
Then one of the twelve [disciples], who was called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand Jesus over to you?” And they weighed out thirty pieces of silver. And from that moment Judas began looking for an opportune time to betray Jesus.
Judas was intentional in what he was doing. Drop down to verse 21 (and we will go to verse 25): And as they were eating, He said, “I assure you and most solemnly say to you that one of you will betray Me.” Being deeply grieved and extremely distressed, each one of them began to say to Him, “Surely not I, Lord?” Jesus answered, “He who has dipped his hand in the bowl with Me [as a pretense of friendship] will betray Me. The Son of Man is to go [to the cross], just as it is written [in Scripture] of Him; but woe (judgment is coming) to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had never been born.” And Judas, the betrayer, said, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” Jesus said to him, “You have said it yourself.”
What I like about this is that Jesus actually called him out on it.
In verses 47-50, Judas came with a large crowd representing the chief priests, kissing Jesus in a deliberate act of betrayal. Once that happened, Jesus was arrested.
Now let’s go to the next chapter and go from verse 3 to 5:
When Judas, His betrayer, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was gripped with remorse and returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders, saying, “I have sinned by betraying innocent blood.” They replied, “What is that to us? See to that yourself!” And throwing the pieces of silver into the temple sanctuary, he left; and went away and hanged himself.
Notice that the chief priests didn’t care about the money or the fact that Judas betrayed Christ. All they cared about was Christ being crucified. Judas was remorseful knowing that he sinned, but instead of seeking forgiveness from Christ, he hung himself. Some people would say that he truly wasn’t remorseful, and that may very well be true. The end result is still the same, because he didn’t let go of the guilt, he took his own life.
Now what if you are one who had a wrong done to you and you’re punishing yourself? First of all, don’t blame yourself because you’re not at fault. I ask that you allow Christ to heal your heart and the pain that you suffered.
There are so many people who are punishing themselves for mistakes they made, for the relationships that they got in that they knew they shouldn’t have (or perhaps they were blindsided after they were in the relationship), for the abuse they suffered in childhood or the abuse they endured in a relationship. Of course, this list can go on. However, the tragedy for many people who are steadily punishing themselves may not be dead physically, but they may dead internally (i.e., mentally and/or emotionally). If this is you, know that my heart cries for you.
I’m not going to just tell you to let it go (because it may have to be in stages), but I ask that you allow Christ to heal you in areas you know you’re hurt, and even in areas that you don’t know you’re hurting. If you continue to punish yourself, the enemy will do anything he can to make you stay in that state of mind so you can die in every area.
I can’t close this blogpost without saying this: if you’re one who intentionally did something you shouldn’t have done, don’t punish yourself (and the devil will do anything he can to make you believe that you can’t recover), just look at 1 John 1:9 (that’s your homework assignment – smile).  
Know that we don’t have to punish ourselves and put our lives in danger. Much love to you all.
Blessings,

The Mayne Man
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Published on March 05, 2016 11:41

Why Faith Communities Bash Autism

This topic has been heavy on my heart for a few weeks, even though I address some of this in my novel Deaf, Dumb, Blind & Stupid. If I have to answer the question (especially since I’m so involved in the faith communities), it’s pure ignorance. Many people are so narrow-minded to the point that they think that autism is a disease. The truth is that autism is not a disease; it’s a different way of learning. Sure, for many people who are autistic or are on the spectrum, anxiety and a mental illness will come with it (and there’s a cure for that). I find that the older I get, the more ignorance I see when it comes to people who have challenges. In fact, many will bash others who are autistic, but heaven forbid they have a child living with autism. They would want others to be sympathetic to them and their children. According to Autism Speaks, autism is a complex disorder of the brain. And when I minister to faith communities about autism (as I educate people about it), I say that just like body parts get sick, brains get sick. Autism is a little different because although it’s associated with intellectual disability, and there are difficulties in motor coordination and attention to include physical health issues, many are gifted in visual skills, music, math and art.
I encourage you to visit www.autismspeaks.org to find out more information about it.
Continuing on with the topic at hand. Faith communities bash people with autism because of pride within themselves (believing they’re better than others because they don’t have it).  As I said in my blog last month entitled “My Healing Journey (Part 1),” the better neurotypicals (non-autistics) understand our journey, the more acceptance and support we will receive from them. And it’s recorded in Scripture that people perish for a lack of knowledge. Because of that lack of knowledge, it’s very easy to judge and discriminate against those living with autism. There is no cure of autism, but some of the symptoms do have a cure.
I find it very interesting that faith communities frown on people who are struggling with something (a life crisis, a health crisis, etc.), pointing fingers at them saying it’s because of a lack of faith. But when the table is turned, they want all the sympathy they can get, and will stand in any prayer line for prayer. In my book, I call it hypocritical. Everybody needs mercy and not everybody is perfect like YOU! I also find it interesting that we tend to bash the spouse when they have challenges, as if they had nothing tragic happen to them. Faith communities need to be able to support each other, just like married couples challenge each other (and not ridicule each other).
Think about it. Faith communities have become so callous to the point, when someone says they’re going through something, one of two things will happen: either they’re say you’re healed (and you don’t need to see a doctor), or it’s because of a sin that you caused or your parents. That’s not very loving if you really think about it. What I love about God is that He created everyone unique. I believe everyone has a thorn of some sort (according to 2 Corinthians 12:9), but watch this: His grace is sufficient. We don’t glorify God FOR it, but IN it.
Near the end of my novel DDBS, I make this statement: There are so many people who are plagued with ADD, AD/HD, PTSD, BPD, or Bipolar, and we steadily punish them for their mental differences and chemical imbalances. Galatians 6:7 says ‘don’t be deceived because God is not mocked. Whatever we sow, we will reap.’ I ask you a question: Why are we only sympathetic if OUR child has a mental disorder? On the contrary, if you know someone whose child has a mental disorder, they need a beating. This is unfair, and reflects the worse part of human nature.
Faith communities have challenges, and we need to stop acting like we’re immune to them. Faith is acting on what we believe, but denying it is faith. In fact, denial is foolish. And denial has been the trend for generations. We need to grow up, deal with what we’re struggling with, so that we can overcome. Everybody deserves love and compassion, not judgments because they are different!

This blogpost post is not intended to bash the faith communities, as I am a part of the Christian faith communities. And because I deal heavily with it, I see a lot of attitudes that are not godly causing church dropouts or causing other brothers and sisters to be infected with that attitude and they become extremely callous. That’s not healthy, and we must be healed from our pride. The easy way to heal from pride is to deny yourself and humble yourself.
Blessings,
The Mayne Man
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Published on March 05, 2016 07:12

March 4, 2016

The Anatomy of Prayer (Part 2) (by Min. Adria Carpenter)

One of my friends wanted to be featured on my blogpost, so this is a brief expository on my friend's study on prayer/intercession – this is part 2. Without further ado, here's Minister Adria Carpenter.
On a previously blog I wrote, I discussed what is an intercessor. An intercessor is someone that intervenes for another person especially in prayer. Now, I would like to enlighten your interest on a productive prayer life. Prayer is communication that you have with your Heavenly Father. In prayer there is a giver and a receiver. We make our requests known, but we must also expect an answer to be given. We must believe and have faith that God hears us and be mature enough to accept whatever direction you receive. I want to focus my attention on this Prayer Warrior, Gate Keeper and Intercessor by the name of Daniel. Daniel was one of the four Major Prophets that God used to be a beacon for the people in Babylon. Daniel, whose name means God is my judge, understood at an early age that he had an assignment to complete. Daniel, like many of us, didn’t ask for this assignment but he carries it out as God instructed him to do. Daniel lived a life that consisted of prayer and fasting and this got him through many challenges that he had to face doing his time in captivity. Luke 18 vs 1 say that men always ought to pray. Prayer was second nature for Daniel and you see how favor was release for him. Daniel 6:10-11 says, Now when Daniel knew that the writing was signed, he went into his house, and his window being open in the chamber toward Jerusalem, he kneeled upon his knees three times a day, and gave thanks before his God. Then men assembled, and found Daniel praying and making supplication before the Lord. In other words Daniel was attentive to the voice of Lord for an answer before any decision was made. He didn’t give fear any room to creep up. He understood that he needed specific instructions for his next move. In prayer there is authority that takes place that releases your mind so you can represent God’s Glory. What is Glory? The Hebrew meaning for Glory is (Kabowd) which carries the idea of heaviness and weight.  People of God when we say “Thank you for the Glory of the Lord,” we are saying “Thank you God for carry my heaven burden and weight that tries to suffocate our movement in the Spirit realm.”
Intercessors, your ear must be trained and attentive to the voice of God so the prayer that you release will be from the mind of God.  The word “ear” in Hebrew (qashad) means to give heed, hear and incline. Remember you are standing in the gap for someone that is depending on you. Prayer is a weapon used to dethrone every enemy that’s trying to hinder your walk and keep you for being what you were created to be. I pray that this revelation will bless the mind of your people. I pray that we will know the power that we carry within us if we used it effectively. Lord, teach us how to yield and hear your voice. Lord, let prayer be second nature just as it was for Daniel so we will be in your will.
There will upcoming blogs on the different types of prayer.  If you have any question on prayer.  You may email me at ACarpenter51@aol.com or inbox me on Facebook.
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Published on March 04, 2016 07:00

March 3, 2016

How We Tend To Miss Our Blessings

During my drive home from work this afternoon, I thought about how I am seeking to bless other drivers by letting them in my lane when a lane is ending and they have to merge onto my lane. Some will not consider my desire to be a blessing to them, and then they'll speed by and drive on the side of the road and then squeeze between other drivers. Of course, this creates accidents in some cases or it causes traffic jams. This made me think about this principle. There are some people in life that won't accept a blessing. When you seek to bless others, people will reject it. Now watch this, the same one who will reject will seek to demand a blessing from others on their own terms. Esau wanted to demand a blessing from Isaac on his own terms, and he cried, "bless me, even me" (I hope that song didn't come from what Esau said). The message: people who are wrapped up in "self" will always want things their way, and then when true blessings come their way, they won't be able to because they either become callous to it, or they are not prepared to receive it.

The children of Israel got mad when they had to wander in the wilderness. As they believed the 10 spies who said they can't inherit the land, they would die. They had their blessing right in front of them, but they forfeited it. Now watch this, they tried to achieve it on their own terms, and they died as a result.
Another way we miss our blessing is because the devil does not want us to have it. So, he will come through obstacles or people. And as I think about it, the devil wants us in a position where we are not paying attention. 
So how can we not miss our blessing? Let me just give one way to you to consider. Get away from people who constantly tear down the very thing you're believing God for in your life. Another way of saying that is this: get away from those who want to glorify your problem causing you to nullify the very thing you're believing God for. Because if you don't they will talk you out of receiving your blessing and you will miss it. Now this isn't a bad thing and it doesn't mean you're cutting them off. The message is that not everyone is going to support your assignment or rejoice when you receive your blessing especially if your heart is close to God's heart. Again, it's not a bad thing, it's just where people are in their life. But seek to get with people who have your solution and will support your assignment and rejoice when you are blessed.
Blessings,
The Mayne Man
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Published on March 03, 2016 16:01

March 1, 2016

Who Are You Listening To?

If you’re on social media and have read my morning posts from yesterday and today, you’ll see that I’m talking about people who may have your best interest at heart, but the truth is, many don’t fully understand (and granted, they can’t understand) the promise that God has for you. In fact, many will not be able to understand what you truly believe. It always bothered me for years about how some people (believers & unbelievers) will go out of their way to make you seem crazy just because they don’t believe the Bible or because their faith isn’t where yours is. The primary objective of people doing such a thing as this, is to make you question what you truly believe. Many legalistic Christians will do this, but the root is strictly from the devil. Think about it, the devil took the Word of God and twisted it to tempt Christ. I said all of that to say this, no one who reads the Bible or knows the Bible but twists it to make you crazy or play Pharisee with you should tell you what it says.
They always say, “if that were me!” The problem is, it’s not them! 1 Corinthians 2:14 says (from the Message Bible):  The unspiritual self, just as it is by nature, can’t receive the gifts of God’s Spirit. There’s no capacity for them. They seem like so much silliness. Spirit can be known only by spirit—God’s Spirit and our spirits in open communion.
This issue is damaging so many believers within the Body of Christ. We’re so legalistic and want to play God to the point that we’re hurting others. It’s one thing that the devil and his demons are after us, but it’s more of a tragedy when it’s coming from people who say they are Christians.
Let me use the realm of relationships as a perfect example.
Psalm 1 says blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly. There are many believers who are giving advice that’s ungodly (granted, that lacks any form of common sense). Why is this? Many are trying to play God and not allowing God to be God. The Bible says “do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers” (2 Corinthians 6:14). But we’re turn around and tell Christians, they can go ahead and marry an unbeliever because God gave Hosea the right to do that in the Old Testament. Newsflash: even though this happen, this was under the old covenant, and God is actually showing a picture between the relationship between God and the children of Israel.
And then we’ll turn around and say God can save your husband and/or wife. This is true, He can, but at the same time, but under the new covenant, we’re not to be unequally yoked. And then we have the audacity to tell believers, don’t divorce your unbelieving spouse (even though they went into the marriage with an unbeliever – which you approved) while he’s beating the living daylights out of you, he’s financially bankrupted you, separated you from your church brothers and sisters, and the minute you think about leaving, he’s beating you with a baseball bat. And we legalistic Christians are saying, God approves of your marriage.  How in the world can we allow a Christian to become part of a far country – to the point where we’re like the prodigal son? Praise God the prodigal son made it back, some people don’t make it back, so why would you want to take that chance? And oh yes, telling an unbeliever they are to submit to the Bible is a waste of time, considering they have not made Christ Savior and Lord. Yes, God can save them, but we as believers should be lovingly tell each other that they can find someone that’s saved and loves God with His heart. But you must discern, because many have played the front, walked down the aisle with the woman, and then BAM, the angel of light became a devil that is about to shred your life in every area of your life. And we brothers and sisters need to be standing in prayer for each other, and for the life of me, stop putting the institution of marriage on a pedestal as an idol (caring more for that than over the woman who is actually living in fear for her life).
Ok, I think I beat a dead horse on that, let’s move to the next thing. The counsel of the ungodly can actually come from people who hold a position within the five-fold ministry (apostle, prophet, evangelist, pastor and teacher). So many especially on social media have puffed themselves up to the point where they will twist the Bible around to gain followers, or they are so much in a BAM state (bitter, angry and mean) to the point that they’re preying on believers who are in a BAM state. What does that do? Create chaos when we are to show love, compassion and healing. Being in a BAM state especially in a five-fold is ungodly. I understand the zealousness, I understand the passion, but where’s the love? And granted, you don’t have to prove you are a five-fold by wearing your title like people need to bow down to it. If anything, that’s playing Pharisee.
Listen, the premise of this post is to say that it’s time for us to see things with our spiritual eyes. People are hurting, and where we seek advice from can make or break a believer. We’re not praying for them, interceding for them, but we are sure shouting that it’s a new season and a new day (and praise God for that). Please watch who you’re taking advice from and who you’re following.
Blessings,
The Mayne Man
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Published on March 01, 2016 06:00

February 17, 2016

My Healing Journey (Part 1)

If you're reading this blog and are living with Aspergers (Autism) and/or PTSD, I welcome you to my journey of healing. One of the reasons why I love writing is because it's therapy and my desire is to write to right the broken soul (mine and yours). So, I thank you for accompanying me on this journey to healing. Even though we may have Autism and/or PTSD, we can be very thankful that there's a healing for the anxiety as a result of it. Of course, there's a cure for PTSD, Autism is a different story. But as I have learned, Autism is actually a gift (I'll share more on that as I share part of my journey with you all). So let's get up close and personal as we heal together (in fact, lift your hands up in victory)!
I heard someone say that he better neurotypicals (non-autistics) understand our journey, the more acceptance and support we will receive from them. Well, when I was diagnosed with it in 2014, very few people were very supportive with me. But I know that for some people, my anxiety disturbs them I can totally understand (some know that it's due to autism). One of my dearest friends recommended that I looked into a support group, and I did. I'll be honest, anxiety and stability are the things I struggle with the most. I'm sure anyone who struggles with anxiety has been told by others if they would just learn to relax, the anxiety would go away. Well, it's not that easy (especially if you have Aspergers/Autism). Over a period of time, the anxiety-filled memories from childhood become locked in our brains, tending to make the anxiety stick with us throughout our lives (I'm a living witness to that). When you think about it, Autism breeds other disorders such as OCD, PTSD, and different forms of anxiety.

If you could watch my life via a movie throughout my school years, you would find an anxious boy. Some would even call it obnoxious due to trying to find my place in this world (as Michael W. Smith would say). Fear was my best friend at home and at school (I didn't experience that much fear during my last three years of high school though). What were my greatest fears? Well at home, it was the belt. This is not an attack on my parents by any means. If I received notes to take home from elementary school that stated that my behavior was terrible or that stated I called out a great deal, I had to fear the belt. There were times I would come home and hide under the bed because I knew that a belt was waiting for me. At school (especially my freshman year), I was bullied because most of the upper classman knew my uncle (and him molested me), so that made me fresh meat! So, the world was a scary place for me, and as a result, I lived most of my teen years in isolation. Now some would say that I had no reason to be anxious during that time, if only you knew. Now that I'm an adult, I still have to face these fears, just in a different way. One of my first jobs out of college was working as a teller at a bank. I was written up mainly because I didn't gossip with the co-workers. The write-up did indicate that I dressed professionally, I was never rude to my co-workers or to customers and I did my job in excellence. But it was the one negative thing that was harped on. And truthfully, that was my life at home. Never mind the good things I did, it would be the one thing that was harped on. In fact, during my 5th grade year (this was the year of my molestation), my grades were average - wasn't failing in any subject, but my behavior was atrocious. My parents didn't know about the molestation, but they sure harped on my behavior and bypassed my grades. As an adult, I struggle with social situations. One of my dear friends said to me that she can spot me out in a group photo, which is usually buried in the back to myself. And truthfully, that's due to my inner anxiety. Now some would say, just come out my shell. It's easier said than done. But not to worry, I will journal more as I am on the path to healing from the anxiety that Aspergers brings.
Blessings,
The Mayne Man
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Published on February 17, 2016 18:28

When Life Beats You Up

I was sitting in my office last Thursday and this topic was dropped on my spirit. So, I was wrestled within my mind deciding if I wanted to release this in two parts. Well, it will be in two parts, in this blogpost. So, I pray that you are relaxed and that you hear my heart as I’m writing to write the broken soul. Let’s begin.
(Part 1 of 2)
This part was dropped on my spirit 2/11/16 at 11:49am.  If you are broken, beaten and battered due to life (but especially because of what another human being did to you), always remember that the devil is behind the pain and the shame and he wants you to take the blame for it. If you ask me if there's an agenda to what the devil is doing with this pain, shame and blame, I will tell you it's to steal, kill and destroy your life. If you are volunteering to remain bitter because of what you allowed the devil to do to you (or because of what he did to you), you are indirectly giving the devil power over you. Know that you are saved, but simply oppressed, that's all. I'm also not saying that you don't have a right to grieve over it. The focus here is the choice of healing and moving forward. Will I agree when you say you need time to heal from what life has done to you? Yes. Will I understand when you say your faith is wavering as a result of life? Yes. Do I disagree when people say that you should give thanks FOR all that you have been through? Absolutely!!!! Did you deserve all that you have been through? Absolutely not!!! Why did it happen? It’s because of sin in the world and the devil, plain and simple. Notice that I didn't say that you're the blame for this.
(Part 2 of 2)You see we all have to walk through this path called life. I’ll be the first to tell you that’s not easy. Many of you know my story, but for the benefit of those who don’t know, I suffered under the hand of abuse within my family, and a few years back, I wanted to end my life due to the pressures of life. I have been rejected, abandoned and neglected at certain points of my life. To me, that’s life beating me to the core. I could easily have asked, “why me? Why do I have to suffer?” Are my questions legitimate? Absolutely!  
So how can you and I be able to stand tall when life beats you up? If you feel that you can’t get up, know that a just man (I’m talking to you my brother and sister) may fall seven times, he still gets up. Let life know that I’m not quitting until it’s time for me to leave the earth. Don’t go before your time. One way to stand tall when life beats you up is to have the truth in your heart, put that on your waist; you need the shield of faith – it’s your faith that overcomes the world and anything it throws. You’re not out for the count – the devil wants you out! I could go on and on, but I believe you get the point.
In closing, know this: Sometimes things happen that we know not the reason for... bad things, even when we are not the one in sin. It's called life. It's in the knowing that God is still with us, that God still loves us... it's in knowing that we can find the hope to move forward and receive God's peace.
Blessings,

The Mayne Man
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Published on February 17, 2016 16:22