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My Bookshelf Heart

My Bookshelf Heart 

Her heart is a bookcase
Filled with books to read
Some are written with love
While others still do bleed.

Pages filled with her poetry
Written in blood, sweat and tears
You can almost feel her words
And some of her darkest fears.

Some are inked in footprints
While some leave behind a stain
Telling about her struggles
And her excruciating pain.

One tells of a friendship
Through tears she often wept
Giving a reason to believe
In a promise that was kept.

There’s pages for the guy
Who broke her heart in two
And how she holds it together
With her paper and some glue.

Each person has a line
And some even a chapter
Her favorite books of all
Are the ones filled with laughter.

Some books she’ll never read
And leave them to collect dust
For they are written words
Of the names she can not trust.

She holds her books tightly
Like those she loves the most
For each book on this shelf
Was written by the host.

Written by Catherine Mellen aka Irishgirl692

Thank you for reading my heart and I hope you enjoyed this poem.   Be sure to follow me on social media and say hello, so I can follow you back.

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My Books:

A Childhood Tragedy Under A Mother’s Watch: Part One 1975-1982…

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610161

A Life Given To Me: Part Two 1982-2019….

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610382

Survivor’s Mind: When Childhood Trauma and Poetry Collide…
 
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610161https://www.amazon.com/Survivors-Mind-Childhood-Trauma-Collide/dp/B08ZBMR2MR

Christmas in Poetry Land…

https://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Poetry-Land-Catherine-Mellen/dp/1097313468

Next release June 2023: Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now?

AuthorShout Cover Wars

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My book  ‘A Childhood Tragedy Under A Mother’s Watch’  is in the AuthorShout Cover Wars.  If you have a few seconds to spare, could you, would you cast me a vote?

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I Did It ♡

Hard to believe in just three short months, I will be publishing another book.  

I promised myself at age 14 that if I ever published a book, I would publish my life story first.  Not so people knew what I lived through, but what I survived through.  Not so people knew how cruel ‘my family’ was towards me, but why I say I didn’t have one.  Not so people would have pity on me, but so they would see how strong I’ve always been.  Not so people would see how alone I was, but to give hope, encouragement, inspiration and a voice to the so many who are alone under a cloud of shame, secrets and silence.  I wrote this for the voices gone silent, the city of Lowell, the Lowell Police Department and to bring awareness to the monstrous predator my birth mother harbored.  I wrote this because I am not a statistic, I am a survivor.

Forty-four years of Shame, Secrets and Silence… SHATTERED

Part One 1975-1982: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610161

Part Two 1982-2019: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610382

Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now? Coming in June ♡

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Book Cover Reveal: Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now?

What began as an illustration in my Survivor’s Mind book for a poem called Child Abuse Awareness, is now the book cover for my Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now?  It starts off with a 20 page briefing of my two-part memoir. (Because you can’t jump in the middle of my story and think you can understand it ) Then I take you behind closed doors, into life’s aspects, schools, laws, courtroom lawyers, society, accustomed ways, family, neighbors, doctors, medical diagnosis, triggers, social workers, bullying, shame, silence, secrets, repressed memories, moving on and the reality of them all when you are a statistic in a world full of abused children.  An informative, eye-opening and very blunt tell-all written by this abused child’s fifty-year-old perspective. 

Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now? Coming June 2023 

Next up:
Only Beautiful Remains: Word’s of a Poet coming February 2024
  77 poems listed in five chapters; Faith, Love, Life, Society and Pieces of Me ♡

A Promise Made, A Promise Kept coming October 2024
  A fascinating true story of friendship, faith and the unexplainable gift of a promise ♡

‘They say blood is the bond that makes family, yet I was left to bleed on my own.’

Part One 1975-1982:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610161
Part Two 1982-2019:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610382
Poetry Book: 
https://www.amazon.com/Survivors-Mind-Childhood-Trauma-Collide/dp/B08ZBMR2MR

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My Favorite Heartache

My Favorite Heartache 

You were the needle 
And I was the thread 
Stitched up the pieces
I once considered dead. 

A tingling sensation 
That started at my toes 
Twinkled with sparkles
Straight up to my nose. 

A quite charming man
Who wiped away my tears
Turned my words into poetry
And chased away my fears.  

Crumbling the walls 
I had built from trust 
What was once a barrier
Became particles of dust. 

Drowned in the empathy 
With your caring ways 
You added the sunshine 
To my rain soaked days. 

You came into my life
And I was never the same 
The cards I’ve been dealt
And a cruel dating game. 

One day you were there
And the next you were gone
Like seeds to a garden
Where no flowers stay long.

I’ll dig up our memories
Every once in a while
When my days get rough
And I need myself a smile.

Remembering the pain
A bad habit I try to break
But my memory of you
Is my favorite heartache.

Written by Catherine Mellen

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Wishing you and all members of my website a fabulous Friday and a wonderful weekend ahead ♡ 

A Christmas Gift

What is a Christmas gift to you? From my Christmas in Poetry Land Collection, here is… A Christmas Gift

A Christmas gift for me
If I had to choose
My own created family
I hope I never lose.

I don’t want a necklace
Or things made of gold
Items will never replace
Gifts you can not hold.

Don’t wrap me a present
No gifts in a bag or box
I don’t need the air pleasant
By mood soothing rocks.


Once were the days, in stories often told
Of gift giving ways, in a world gone old.
Give me a visit, show me some love
The holiday isn’t, a sale priced glove.
Cost no money, just a big heart
No traffic, no lines, no shopping cart.


A Christmas gift for me
Is all laughter and smiles
They come absolutely free
Memories made in piles.

It’s not sold in stores
No accompanying shelves
Giving loud morning snores
For the overworked elves.

If I have to choose
I hope you catch my drift
A family I’ll never lose
Is the best Christmas Gift.

Written by Catherine Mellen ♡

Also please remember Toys 4 Tots, Salvation Army, the homeless, the elderly and our Veterans this and every holiday season… Peace and blessings to you and yours

I Talk To Angels

For our loved ones above, because even on Christmas Day… 

           I Talk To Angels 

If I had a wish, one that would come true
I’d wish for one more Christmas, just to be with you.

I’d tell you all about the times, I was left alone & cried
Close my eyes, I talk to you, until my tears are dried.
I’d tell you how I miss the way, your quirky little smile
Close my eyes, I talk to you, I know its been awhile.

If I had a wish, one that I want the most
Maybe a Christmas photo, for a social media post.

I’d tell you how it feels, to miss you to the core
Close my eyes, I talk to you, if only for once more.
I’d tell you of days ago and of Christmas past
Close my eyes, I talk to you, hoping it will last.

If I had one wish, one that is on my mind
I’d make my wish for you, a Christmas miracle kind.

I’d tell you how I dream, of days when you were here
Close my eyes, I talk to you, please don’t disappear.
I’d tell you how I begged, days I wished you stayed 
Close my eyes, I talk to you, everyday I prayed. 

If I had a wish, with just one destination 
I’d wish for one more Christmas with your visitation.

I’d tell you I’m glad you’re here, please don’t go away
Close my eyes, I talk to you, even on Christmas Day.

Written by Catherine Mellen 
  

Wishing everyone a joyous holiday week ahead.   Peace and Blessings to you all ♡ 

This poem is from my Christmas in Poetry Land Book: 

Ebook:

https://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Poetry-Land-Catherine-Mellen-ebook/dp/B08W9BYYX5

Paperback:

https://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Poetry-Land-Catherine-Mellen/dp/1097313468

Do You Santa?

From my Christmas in Poetry Land Book, here is Do You Santa?

Dear Santa

If I behave and rules I abide
On Christmas Eve, can I go for a ride?

It’s been my dream, since I was a kid
But climbing the roof I always slid.
I saw you one time, under the tree
Afraid I ran, so you didn’t notice me.
I don’t want a doll made for a girl
I want to ride your sleigh all over the world.
I don’t want a game made for a boy
A ride on Christmas Eve, is what I’d enjoy.
I’d take a ride, over all of my gifts
I want to be in it, when Santa’s sleigh lifts.
Up off the roofs, to the home next door
Riding Santa’s sleigh, so much to explore.
I can be a helper, reindeer I can guide
If only I could get a Christmas Eve ride.
I wrote you this letter and made it a poem
Sent it with love to your North Pole home.
When it arrives, please respond fast
A Christmas Eve ride, finally at last.

Do you give rides Santa, on Christmas Eve?
Cause if you do, I’m all ready to leave.

 
Ebook:
https://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Poetry-Land-Catherine-Mellen-ebook/dp/B08W9BYYX5

Paperback:
https://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Poetry-Land-Catherine-Mellen/dp/1097313468

The Hardest Books I’ll Ever Write

They broke every inch of her being until the day she fought back.

The hardest books I’ll ever write… 

Part One 1975-1982:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610161
Part Two 1982-2019:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1953610382
https://www.nfbpublishing.com/

Next release: Understanding Childhood Trauma, Do You Understand It Now? Coming in Spring 2023. 

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Thank you for stopping by, your host and friend… Catherine Mellen aka Irishgirl692 ♡ 

No One Seems To Stay

No One Seems To Stay 

Her collection began quite young
Of her loves along the way
Never really knowing
Why no one seems to stay.

It started with her family
Though most she barely knew
She tucked them in her heart
Despite what she’d been through.

Sometimes she would question
What she did that was so wrong
It was hard understanding
Being part of a family you don’t belong.

Her questions went unanswered
And remain to this very day
Still, she often wonders
Why no one seems to stay.

She formed a lot of friendships
Many which she holds dear
Some lasting a lifetime
While some would just disappear.

She remembers those who cared
And those who made her smile
Happy scattered memories
She’s collected all the while.

Often they remind her
Of cards she’s dealt to play
Just another scenario
Why no one seems to stay.

A few went off to Heaven
And they play a big part
Of the huge pile of love
She has resting in her heart.

Though heartaches often came
She found the positive in each
Blessed for the experience
And the lessons they did teach.

She keeps her collection close
In the hopes that some day
One may love her just enough
To make them want to stay.

​Written by Catherine Mellen