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Now We Rise Blog Tour: A Children of Blood and Bone Inspired Post

So today I am posting my piece for the Now We Rise Blog Tour. This blog tour is celebrating the release of Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi based around your Manji Clan. 

For this I decided to write a poem based on that theme. So I hope you like it...












Now We Rise

Now We Rise,From the Ashes,From the Ground,Ready to fight.
With our friends, With our family,With all our might,With everything that we have.
To protect what we have,To challenge everything, To reshape the world that we live in, To end all that we disagree with it. 
This land is ours,This is our family,This is our history,This is our ground,This is ours.
Ours to defence,Ours to protect.
Ours.
And we won't let it go easily.
Now We Rise.

*** 

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See you soon, 

Amy

Books That Made Me: World Book Day Inspired Post

Books are the way to new worlds. 
They allow us to experience anything 
And everything that we want to do in the world. 
They are the way to worlds that we didn't even know existed 
But we don't know what to do without. 
Allow us to open doors in this world
That change us, make us learn, 
Allow us to know that anything is possible 
If only we believe.
Books are escapism when we need them the most. 
Books can change our lives, for better. 
Books make us better people. 
They made us, well us. 
Here are the books that made me...



Book One: Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

This book opened the door to a new world that I didn't know existent. It opened the door to YA and I haven't looked back...







Book Two: Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging by Louise Rennison 

This book opened the door to a world I already knew existent but not in fiction. It taught me that life can be messy and embarrassing and that that's OK and the female friendships rule!





Book Three: The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins 

This book opened the door to a world of fun and fans and films. It changed my life and stained my heart, I would not be the same person without this book. 








Book Four: Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli

This book illustrates that sometimes you make mistakes and that you have the chance to correct them. That to kind is always the best route. 









Book Five: The Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling 


This book opened a door to a magical land of witches, wizards, dragons and everything that my imaginations wanted and I haven't left since. 





Book Six: Am I Normal Yet? by Holly Bourne

This book opened my mind and told me that it's OK not to be normal and that what is going on in your brain is as important as what goes on the inside. 








Book Seven: All Of The Above by Juno Dawson

This book was the first time that I saw a part of myself in a book and showed me how important representations is. 












Book Eight: Radio Silence by Alice Oseman 

This book taught me that sometimes university can be shit and that's OK and that friendship will always help you through it. 







So this was a different kind of post and was inspired by the YALC of the same name. I had fun writing this post as I have definitely been feeling in a writing mood the last couple of days. 

I hope you enjoyed this post and I will see you soon, 

Amy

Book Review: Bygone Badass Broads by Mackenzi Lee

* I have received this book for review from the publisher but this in no way affects my review *
Title: Bygone Badass BroadsAuthors: Mackenzi LeeSource: From PublisherPublisher: Abram ImageRating: 5/5 stars

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Book Summary:

Based on Mackenzi Lee’s popular weekly Twitter series of the same name, Bygone Badass Broads features 52 remarkable and forgotten trailblazing women from all over the world. With tales of heroism and cunning, in-depth bios and witty storytelling, Bygone Badass Broads gives new life to these historic female pioneers. Starting in the fifth century BC and continuing to the present, the book takes a closer look at bold and inspiring women who dared to step outside the traditional gender roles of their time. Coupled with riveting illustrations and Lee’s humorous and conversational storytelling style, this book is an outright celebration of the badass women who paved the way for the rest of us.

Book Review: 

When I was going through books that I could read this year, I stumbled across this book, Bygone Badass Broads and just by reading the title I knew that this book had to be mine. I have also loved following Mackenzi Lee on twitter which made me even more excited to read it. Overall Bygone Badass Broads celebrates badass women from history, making easy to digest for everyone and anyone even though who dislike history. 

Being a history student, it is not a surprise that I loved this book especially as someone who often seeks out history which focuses on those who are forgotten in traditional history, women, people of colour, those with different sexual orientations. It is therefore like this book was made for me and I loved every page. 

Even though I knew a maximum 3 or 4 people in the overall book itself, the book contains 52 of these great and inspiring women and I even found out some information that I didn't already. The book itself goes through the women chronologically from the past to the present day and has a wide variety of women from varying backgrounds which was something that I again loved. History tends to focus on Western countries so with this book I discovered women throughout history who didn't fit this norm and I love everyone that I learnt about. 

Mackenzi Lee has this way with words that allows people to easily digest the history in this book as well as making it easy and entertaining to read which let me tell you is extremely hard to do so I commend her great. I can officially say that if  I am able to write like this then I will be very shocked but I can dream.

The illustrations in this book are also just so beautiful and amazing and I hope the illustrator is recognised for the beautiful work that is included in the book! 

I also like this book is so important and that these stories deserve to be told and I will definitely hand everyone and make them read this book. If that doesn't work then I can always shout it from the rooftops.

The Verdict:

Bygone Badass Broads is a book that I want everyone to read. It's important, witty and overall just amazing! Please get this book!

Self-Doubt, Anxiety and Rejection

My head feels like a mess right now. 

My whole body doesn't know quite what to do and I feel like I have a billion different things in my head right now but I have no idea what to do. 

Part of me wants to say that I feel numb because I kind of do but at the same time I am feeling a million different feelings that I kind of don't know what to do. 

I'm in a shock kind of, my body just doesn't know what to do. Run? Hide? Fight the world?

But nothing?

I mean I guess not quite nothing I'm writing this so that's something. 

All of this started because I've had a rough couple of days.

On the outside my life seems fine, I've been reproductive, have been doing work, even today, I have tried to put on a nice front but inside it feels like I am collapsing under the weight. I think a part of me won't let me stop. I know that if I don't continue something might make me stop. It's like I am trying to run away but I'm not. 

This post is clearly me trying to get through that so here is me trying...

I don't know if I will ever post this but I really want to because I hope someone will feel the same. 

My whole life feels like it is changing. It will change in July, yes, but it feels like I need to make those decisions now. 

Decisions that I do not feel wholly ready to make. 

I know that I want to apply to do a Masters but every day I question this reason. I want to do it so I can continue in a field a love and love to learn about not for something else that doesn't give me all the enjoyment that I need for it. 

I just made a tough decision. Something that my God I hope I stand by because I feel like I need to make a stand. Yes, one of the reasons that it because I had self-doubt and I think that with anything like this you have self-doubt but I think that the other reasons like because I hate being self-doubted when I feel it myself. 

This is also because I feel like I need distance and if this was much later then I could feel different but right now this is what I feel and I want to be true to that. I know that my decision shouldn't have consequences and that makes me happy because I hope they succeed. I really do. 

Now for the anxiety, all of this is because I have anxiety over myself and maybe a little anxiety is good because I feel like that decision is going to make me so much happier in the long run. 

If I do a Masters, then I can focus on the things that I truly love. My degree. This blog. My writing. My future.

I have done everything that I want to and I have nowhere that I need to go which makes me so happy that I finally can do. 

So the rejection. I do have this feeling of rejection for my Masters, like when you apply for everything. But I feel like everything happens for a reason and I am happy with that and I feel like I made the decision to prevent rejection which will make me so much better in the future. 

The topic of rejection and social media is definitely something that I want to cover in the future but I think that this is enough for now because I don't feel like any of this makes sense which is fine because it helped me. 

See you soon, 

Amy

Why I Volunteer and My SVW Experiences

I have been volunteering with Vteam, my university's volunteering team, since the first year at university and I have been asked by them to share my experiences as it is Student Volunteering Week for the rest of the week. 

Over my experience of university, I have had many experiences of volunteering including at the Colchester Film Festival which I have done which is basically volunteering, knowing the schedule and marshalling people as well as watching films on some occasions which is the best of both worlds. 

Over the past couple of days, I have also been taking part in volunteering opportunities myself and although I had some bad experience as you will read later, the skills and enjoyable that I have had generally are a great way to get skills without having a job and you have fun too. 

So let's get started with my volunteering experiences...

Sunday 18th March: Junior Park Run 

For this volunteering opportunity I decided to help out at the Junior Park Run because although being an early start, I knew that by doing a couple of hours in the morning, then the whole day would be ahead of me. It is therefore great for when you want to do volunteering but you don't really have time which is great for everyone. 

So waking up at around 6am, I got ready to go to the park to help, which lead me to walk to the location quite early on a Sunday morning but I didn't mind as the weather was quite nice and the route was quite easy.

At around 9.30, we were told that we would be doing marshalling around the Junior Park Run which allowed us to monitor the children as they ran around the park in a mini-marathon type of thing. 

I really enjoyed my experience, it was just really lovely seeing the enthusiasm of the children as they ran in the run. I have to give them credit because there is no way that I would be able to do that at 9am in the morning. It was also nice to see the encouragement of the parents and there were dogs in the parks which made it even better.  

Monday 19th March: Shelley RDA

So on the next day, I decided to volunteer again which is kind of where it all went wrong but weirdly I still had a good time and trust me I will still be volunteering again. 

So it was another early morning, waking up a little bit later than I did on Sunday. I then saw that it was raining outside, not being scared of a little rain, I knew that would still go. 

It turned out that I went to the wrong place for pick up, so running across campus, I found the bus and got on, after having a little trouble opening the door and found that there were only two of us at ready for volunteering. Although a small number I still hoped that it would be a good day.

After the thirty minute drive, we finally got there and sorted out our stuff, I was advised to wear wellies but they didn't fit so I wore my boots, they were fine after a little wash in the washing machine, which did get slightly muddy but I was fine. 

The aim of the day was to find the plant, ragwort, and dig it up so it doesn't poison the horses. So let me set the scene, it was raining, it was a little cold and armed with gloves and things to dig out the ragwort, the five of us were on the hunt to find some to dig up. After a few fields where we didn't find any we finally found some!

After a couple of fields where they were in abundances we had some, I dug some myself. I wasn't really complaining, it was I it would be better had the weather been good but... It was also kind of fun, trying to find it although it did take some time.

After a couple of hours of searching, we were offered cake which was always fun and tea and the cake were really good so I can't complain. After lunch, we switched jobs and got to look at the centre which was cool as it is run by volunteers and gives them so therapy for horses. They also have a mechanic horse which is really cool and must be great for everyone who needs it. 

After this, we had other jobs included grooming horses which are kind of scary for me as I am a very small human being height wise and I feel intimidated by me. This leads the other volunteers to start grooming horses and I just watched from the sidelines and I started to sneeze... a lot. 

I was not really ill before at all, by being surrounded by hay and horses kind of freaked me out as I knew I had hay fever but I didn't think it would be a problem today... It's fair to say I was wrong...

I was then tasked with buffering the saddles which I was totally fine which is away from the hay and or horses and it was fine and was enjoyable. 

We then went for lunch which was totally fine. But it was after lunch that things got worse. Basically, I ended up grooming a horse, my sneezing got worse, I started wheezing heavily and ended up going inside which meant that my eye started swelling up and I was having trouble breathing. 

To cut the story short, I was having a localised allergic reaction to something, maybe the hay, maybe the horses that meant that I needed to go to a medical centre. I was OK, the medical centre gave me an antihistamine and I went home. The ironic thing was that I actually had fun combing the horse. It is safe to say that it will definitely be a memorable experience.  

Conclusion:

So if you are wondering whether I will be volunteering again, the answer is of course, yes but maybe I will just stay again from hay and/or horses. 

The thing about volunteering is that you can get experience whether this is marshalling, time management or just communication, these are still going to be great for you in the future. You can also get experiences that will last a lifetime, for better or for worse. 

Have you volunteered? Or would you like to volunteer after reading this post?

See you soon, 

Amy

Book Review: The Epic Crush of Genie Lo by F.C. Yee

* I have received this book for review from the publisher but this in no way affects my review *
Title: The Epic Crush of Genie LoAuthors: F. C. YeeSource: From PublisherPublisher: Amulet Rating: 3/5 stars

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Book Summary:

She annihilates standardized tests and the bad guys.

Genie Lo is one among droves of Ivy-hopeful overachievers in her sleepy Bay Area suburb. You know, the type who wins. When she’s not crushing it at volleyball or hitting the books, Genie is typically working on how to crack the elusive Harvard entry code.

But when her hometown comes under siege from hellspawn straight out of Chinese folklore, her priorities are dramatically rearranged. Enter Quentin Sun, a mysterious new kid in class who becomes Genie’s self-appointed guide to battling demons. While Genie knows Quentin only as an attractive transfer student with an oddly formal command of the English language, in another reality he is Sun Wukong, the mythological Monkey King incarnate—right down to the furry tale and penchant for peaches.

Suddenly, acing the SATs is the least of Genie’s worries. The fates of her friends, family, and the entire Bay Area all depend on her summoning an inner power that Quentin assures her is strong enough to level the very gates of Heaven. But every second Genie spends tapping into the secret of her true nature is a second in which the lives of her loved ones hang in the balance.
Book Review:
The Epic Crush of Genie Lo was a book that many people had mentioned and was something that had been on my radar and then I got sent a review copy. The Epic Crush of Genie Lo was a highly entertaining read that I enjoyed from start to finish. 
Although this book was a lot of fun I can definitely say that it did take me a while to read and I think that this hindered my experience of reading it on some levels. I often found that because I left it for so long that this dampened my overall enjoyment of the book. This was mainly my fault though and not the fault of the book. 
One of the best parts of the book is definitely the diverse element throughout and Genie Lo as a whole. Genie Lo as a character was so funny and a wonderful part of the book and it goes into the writing which was so witty and had so much humour which was the best part of it. I guess the best part of the book was how humorous this book was. Genie took everything like a normal person did and it was so interesting to see how these situations were handled. I also loved her relationship with Quentin as it was really funny but also really lovely and the best parts of it were their relationship grow over the course of the story. 
The plot of the story also follows Chinese mythology which I loved reading and learning about and it was really enjoyable reading something that I had never seen before in YA. I feel like it does have some interesting elements to it and the plot was really entertaining and keep me enjoyed throughout. 
The Verdict:
The Epic Crush of Genie Lo is a unique urban fantasy which was thoroughly entertaining and highly enjoyable. 

BLOG TOUR: Book Review: The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton

* I have received this book for review from the publisher but this in no way affects my review *
Title: The BellesAuthors: Dhonielle ClaytonSource: From PublisherPublisher: GollanczRating: 3.5/5 stars

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Book Summary:
I am a Belle. I control Beauty. 

In the opulent world of Orléans, the people are born grey and damned, and only a Belle's powers can make them beautiful.

Camellia Beauregard wants to be the favourite Belle - the one chosen by the queen to tend to the royal family.

But once Camellia and her Belle sisters arrive at court, it becomes clear that being the favourite is not everything she always dreamed it would be. Behind the gilded palace walls live dark secrets, and Camellia soon learns that her powers may be far greater - and far darker - than she ever imagined.

When the queen asks Camellia to break the rules she lives by to save the ailing princess, she faces an impossible decision: protect herself and the way of the Belles, or risk her own life, and change the world forever.
Book Review:
The Belles was a book that had been on my radar for the longest time. A lot of people were interested in it and raving about it and so was. I really enjoyed The Belles as it was an in-depth look at how the world sees the beauty which is so important today.

The Belles plot is definitely interesting and I really was not expecting the plot of the book when I first started reading it. This is obviously not a bad thing and I was definitely intrigued by it. It also did not go in the direction that I was expecting and there were some smaller twists that I found quite unique and unexpected to some extent. 

The Belles also deals a lot with beauty and after reading the letter featured in the book I understood how this was really important to Clayton. I do feel like this is really obvious if you go in looking for it which I was also this was one of the key reasons why I kept reading and enjoyed it so much. I also feel like the book can be seen in a way that doesn't take this into account which is good for anyone who doesn't want a message book. It can just be seen as a book that is a fantasy where girls can help beauty. 

The characters were often what I problems I had with this book. I often found the characters quite one dimension and especially found her sisters were not developed at all which I didn't really enjoy. As the main character I often also found her quite disposable and there was something that I couldn't connect to. 

I feel like although The Belles is a really interesting concept, in general, there was something in general that I just couldn't connect to. I feel like this was just me and that if you do want to read this book then you will probably really like it. It was just the wrong time for me.

The Verdict:

The Belles is a really interesting and unique read that deals with beauty but just did not connect with me but could really interest you.

The Bus Stop: A Short Story

It was a silent night at the bus stop. Everything was quiet, eerily quiet for a Friday night. Too quiet. With that the night was broken. A boy was walking towards the bus stop, with his friend who was talking loudly.Beer bottle in hand, it was clear that the pre-drinking that been in fall force. The boy’s friend was yelling that the boy had broken up with his girlfriend earlier that night.“Forget Alice man. Drown your sorrows in drink. Tonight, you will be a man. A free man.” He said, slurring his words as he spoke, walking towards the road rather than on the pavement. Being scared for his safety, the boy was unsuccessfully trying to get his friend out of the pavement.Attempting successfully, the boy said to his friend, “I think we need to get you home.” The boy himself was not drunk, he had so wanted to be, but he thought that he was going out for a film night with his girlfriend, but this didn’t happen, instead the breakup did. One text later and his girlfriend was gone. After his breakup, his friend had decided to drink. For the both of them. He was therefore drunk at 10pm on a Friday night.“I’ll call you a taxi.” The boy said.“You do that.”“Taxi should be here in 5 minutes.”His friend nodded. “I told them your address. Thought you were too smashed to tell them.”“You coming?” He said getting into the Taxi.“No. I bought these tickets might as well use them.”“Fair.” The friend replied.It was quiet waiting for the taxi, the friend was worried that he was going to be sick, so it was taking all his energy not to do so. The taxi arrived, they whispered their goodbyes and the night was quiet once again.Ten minutes had passed and not one sign of the bus. The timetable said every ten minutes, but he wasn’t convinced. When were they ever on time?His thinking was broken, along with the silent night, the sound of heels echoed there. The wearer sounded uncomfortable being her first time wearing them, she just wanted to get to the bus stop.A female voice called in the night, “Eliza, where are you going? Come back. His here. Tonight’s the night if you know what I mean.” She winked. Eliza wasn’t paying attention. She tried to drown out the music, she had had enough of the party. The people. Her friend. Everything.“I’m tired, Molly. I’m going home. Maybe Adam isn’t the one for me. Tonight, was never the night. Enjoy the party. Maybe you can try instead.”“OK.” She closed the door behind her, not bothering to say Goodbye. Molly was quite pissed off, but Eliza was past caring. Her feet hurt, and she wanted nothing more than to curl up in bed and finish the book that she was reading. Turns out parties were not her thing. Who would have guessed?She stumbled to the bus stop. The boy was staring at her, but she didn’t have the guts to say anything. She was embarrassed after all her business had been aired on the street and he had just heard everything.She sat at the bus stop taking off her heels, placed them in her bag that she had and then brought out some foldable flat shoes that she had.The boy looked at her amazed. He wanted to say something, but she had just had all of that happen to her. I should just keep my distance, he thought.She left her bag on the seat and checked the timetable, every ten minutes. It may have said ten minutes but was it right, probably not.He sat down on the seat. Eliza ignored him, wanting to stay out of his way. She texted her Mum, explaining that she was leaving early and put her phone away. The party was weird, she had been looking forward to it for weeks but was disappointed. Not because of the boy, she didn’t want him anyway. She had been waiting for weeks to tell Molly that she was ace, but it never materialised. Fast forward to the party and it was too late.The boy was getting bored, 15 minutes had past, and the bus hadn’t arrived. He spoke, “15 minutes it’s taken this poxy bus.”“Really 15 minutes. When are they on time?  It’s a joke.” Eliza replied.“Sorry about what your friend said earlier.” He replied. “I’m Adam by the way.”Eliza was shocked. Why was “Adam” talking to her? They were just waiting for the bus. “It’s OK. I didn’t really want to be there anyway. I’m Eliza but you know that anyway.”“Yes, I do. I mean not that I want to, but you know, the party… I’m going to spoke talking now. Before I say anything stupid.”Eliza laughed. She was content in leaving the conversation as it is, but Adam continued.“Going anywhere else tonight? The night is still young?” He was nervous for some reason, not because she was good looking but because she was sweet and he kind of felt sorry for her. “I know that I said that I was going to shut up, but it’s been a shit night.”“Home. Where I don’t have to be standing up and can just read books with my cat, no boys or anyone allowed.” She replied. “Looks like we have both had shit nights then.”“OK. I know you didn’t ask me but I’m going to the cinema. My girlfriend broke up with me, so you could say that I’m riding solo.”“I can’t believe you just said that.” She sighed, laughing at the same time due to embarrassment. “Have fun at the cinema.” She hoped that the bus would finally make an appearance, but she had lost all hope as the road remained empty.“You can come with me you know.” He asked but quickly added. “You know if you want. You don’t have to.”“What film is it?” She asked tentatively. She didn’t even know why she was asking but she was interested. “I’m not going with you if it is something shit like Transformers or something.”“Transformers aren’t shit.” She gave him a look. “Explain.”“Fine. You ready.” He nodded, and she took a deep breath. “Where are the plots in these films? Literally, it’s all action and no substance. Don’t get me started on the female characters. They are basically just eye candy. Talk about the female gaze. Seriously, they are just shit.”“Finished?”She nodded. “Do you understand?”“I mean I don’t think there meant to be highbrow films which I guess you are in to and no I am not watching Transformers or some trashy action film.”“So, what are you seeing?”“Something good. My girlfriend loved popcorn films and it was my choice so no popcorn films for me. I am going to see Baby Driver.”“Baby Driver? Now you’re talking. Still a popcorn film though but just more complicated”“Yeah. Edgar Wright is kind of my filmmaking hero. I want to be a director you see.”“That’s cool. I have heard good things about the film. So, you want to be a director?”“That’s the plan.”“Well, I guess tonight will help then, all experience is a good experience.”“True.” He was beginning to like her. Not in a romantic way. She seemed like a cool human. “So, you joining me?”“If this bus actually turns up.” She responded. “I have wanted to see it for ages, who cares if it is a random boy that I literally met like 5 minutes ago.”“Hey, I am not a random guy.”“I mean... I only know your first name.” Eliza replied.“True.” He smiled. He touched her arm to get her attention. “Look the bus is coming.” It was just turning around the corner.“Finally.” She said.They requested the bus and it stopped. They walked onto the bus with Adam allowing Eliza to get on the bus first, going up the stairs and onto the upper deck.It took 20 minutes to get into town that night. They spoke the whole way speaking about anything from school to life and especially films.
The thing about chance was that it was the right time and the right place. Two people collided over a really late bus. A chance for friendship to bloom and for relationships to form. Somethings are just right and that was true of the relationship of Eliza and Adam. 
The End

Blog Tour: The Eden Paradox by Barry Kirwan Book Review

* I have received this book for review from the publisher but this in no way affects my review *

Title: The Eden Paradox Authors: Barry KirwanSource: From Blog TourPublisher: Rating: 3/5 stars

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Book Summary:

A murder... a new planet mankind desperately needs... a thousand-year old conspiracy... What really awaits us on Eden? In a world beset by political turmoil, environmental collapse, and a predatory new religion, a recently discovered planet, Eden, is our last hope. But two missions have failed to return.Blake Alexander and his crew lead the final attempt to bring back good news. Meanwhile back on Earth, Micah Sanderson evades assassins, and tries to work out who he can trust as he struggles in a race against time to unravel the Eden Paradox.
Book Review:

When I got the opportunity to review The Eden Paradox I was really excited because I really enjoy sci-fi but tend to read much of it so this was the perfect way to do so. I found the book really enjoyable and highly entertaining and would definitely recommend it to those who love sci-fi or those who want to start reading more of it.

I have to admit that I found the plot a little hard to get into at the beginning and do feel like I had to grasp the idea of the story before I really liked it and this was quite slow going for me but once I was into the actual story I really enjoyed where it went. The world building for the story was also really solid and it was definitely a world that had much support gone into it. The plot itself is also really interesting and was something that kept me invested throughout. 

The writing of the story was also something that I really enjoyed and that found it was really interesting that we got to see the story from the different perspectives of characters who were quite developed and who were exciting to follow their journies throughout the story. I was excited to see where the story was going and would definitely be interested in reading the sequel. 
The Verdict:

The Eden Paradox is a solid sci-fi read which is equal parts compelling and enjoyable. 
As well as this book, there is also the opportunity to win a £20 Amazon Gift Card which you can find here:

a Rafflecopter giveaway

See you soon, 

Amy

Turning 21?

You see I have put this blog post for such a long time but tomorrow the inevitable will happen and I will turn 21. I don't know why I decided to add and to keep a question mark in the title because it's not like it is going to happen it will but maybe it's because I just don't feel like it. Queue all the age is nothing but a number talk but I  guess that this is not what this blog post is going to be about. 

Being 21 has always been the number that I have aspired to, the one that has been in the back of my mind for the longest time. When I was 18, I knew that at 21 I would be in my final year of university, which I am, and that I would graduate this year and on to the future. But am I right?

I feel like so much has changed it want this magic number must be, given the bears with keys in their hands as if a sign that this would be the time that we would get keys of our own and would gain so much independent. But this is it, it is just a dream. 

That's not going to happen, I am not going to a key to anything and I am just going to be the same as yesterday. Nothing is going to change but I just feel like it would. I have pinned so much on this one age that it feels like I have nothing has changed. 

At the time, I just thought that I would be at the end of my degree and that I would have everything planned out. That I would know what I wanted to do with my life but this is far from the case. I mean, yes, I know that I really love and want to write, for a living, would be the ultimate pipe dream but I also know that I would also love to get experience in publishing. But my whole life planned out? Whether this is actually going to be my ideal and ultimate career?

I have no idea. And I am OK with that.

I know that I am still young and I have time to find out what is really "for me."

So let's started again. 

Hi, I'm Amy. I'm 21. I am going to graduate university this year. And I have no idea what I am doing with my life and I am OK with that.