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The Struggle is Real

Leaping into writing is a wonderful thing. It’s magic and inspiration and worlds only you can build.

For many folks it is the culmination of their dreams to get published. They push and they push. They hack out little spaces of time to write. They wrestle with real life, while trying to create an imaginary one. They try so hard to be the author they always wanted to be.

That is difficult enough, right? That should be the whole struggle.

It isn’t.

One thing emerging writers don’t understand, is that those initial pains are not the only pains ahead. You think once you are past those initial struggles everything will be alright. You’ll reach the promised land of publication and all will be well.

However it isn’t. Wow…that sounds awful to say to writers…but it doesn’t get better. There will always be pains and struggle in being an author, and they don’t stop coming when you ‘make it’ either. To say otherwise would be disingenuous, and I think by not saying it, many writers early in their careers are shocked when they encounter them.

Perhaps people don’t talk about those struggles, but they are real. Reviewers might not like your book. Publishers might not do the things they promised they would do. Sometimes payment is that thing. You might get a cover that horrifies you. Rejection, which you thought you had left behind, still can haunt you. Editors may rip apart your manuscript. Heck, I know of one author who had a contract for their second book, and when they delivered it was told nothing about it was what they want it. That author had to write a whole new book.

My first manuscript edit made me cry at the sea of red ink, and I was sure there was nothing to be done with my sad, sorry self.

However, I did pick myself up. Eventually, I found that my determination to write was greater than the despair. The urge to write was stronger than all of those things put in front of me.

That is what you as a writer have to feel, all the way through your career. Some don’t. Plenty of writers get a book or two published, and decide that it isn’t really for them. They’ve scratched that itch, and there might be other things that become more attractive to them than writing. That’s OK. Constant rejection and pain will be worth it for some, and for others it will be too much of an emotional burden to bear.

Are words really worth all that effort?

For me, yes they are, but I also know there are the highs that make the struggle through the problems worth it.

As you set out on this journey, the best weapon you have is knowledge. There will be struggles. Just like life. It is up to you as a person to decide if you are prepared to fight through that.

If you are, pick up that pen, and join me on the journey.

Our Ghost Rebellion Cover

A few weeks ago I wrote about my experience doing our first cover shoot, and now I can reveal the first of the fruits of that experience. When we received the final product we were blown away, and knowing we were there to see how it was made makes it even better. In all the years of being published authors, this was the first time we’d done this, and it was incredibly memorable.

This was truly a team effort, and it was great to have so many friends involved in creating this.

Cover model: Verena Vorsatz

Photography: Michael Ward of Go ForWard

Book design: Starla Huchton of Designed by Starla

Make-up Artist: Tamara Barnett of Tennille Makeup Artistry

Additional Costuming: P J Schnyder and Kevin Houghton

Behind the Scenes Wrangling: Matthew J Drake and Christina Payton

The first pre-order link is now live for the ebook

 

 

From authors Pip Ballantine and Tee Morris, the award winning steampunk series continues…

The chase is on! After rescuing Queen Victoria from the clutches of the Maestro, Agents Eliza D Braun and Wellington Books are in hot pursuit of Dr Henry Jekyll. While he continues his experiments on the aristocracy of Europe, he leaves a trail of chaos and despair in his wake. However when Eliza and Wellington run him to ground in India, they are forced to come face to face with ghosts from the past, and the realities of empire.

Meanwhile Ministry agents Brandon Hill and Bruce Campbell travel deep into Russia hunting down a rare ingredient to save Queen Victoria’s life. Amid the cold they uncover a threat from the revitalized House of Usher that comes directly from their new Chairman.

All in the Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences will find their allegiances in question, and their mettle tested as a new dastardly era of international intrigue dawns.

Rumination on Ten Years of Podcasting

Ten years ago this month I released my very first podcast episode. This realization struck me last Christmas, and I was once again reminded, damn time flies.

Weaver’s Web was my first novel that I had finished, and I had sold it to a small Australian ebook publish in 2002. Ebooks back then were…well they weren’t a thing, and the amount of money I made in a year was perhaps enough to buy a cup of coffee.

Then the second book I sold was Chasing the Bard, to DragonMoon Press, and that was when everything  changed, and not just writing wise. I was soon corresponding with another author, Tee Morris, and it was he that convinced me to get into podcasting. So I took my first book that wasn’t doing anything, bought myself a microphone, and leapt into it.

Since that moment I have recorded and released four complete novels as podcasts, produced nearing seventy short stories, and done three chat-style podcasts. I’ve learned to work with guest voices, wrangle sound effects and bed music, and mix it all into an mp3.

But it is far more than the technical strides I have made over these last ten years. A lot more. In podcasting I found an online home. It has given me a voice, a particularly New Zealand voice, on the internet. Along the way I made friends. So many friends. More than I had in New Zealand, and in places I had never even heard of. I remember getting an email from Estonia about how much a listener had enjoyed Chasing the Bard. These were the kind of things I could never have imagined happening when I tentatively posted my first episode of Weaver’s Web.

It also gave me that necessary but required thing, a platform. When I got the first nibbles from Ace publishing about Geist, they wanted to know my author platform, my numbers, and podcasting was definitely one of those things. All together they counted, and Ace took a chance on me and my writing.

Podcasting has come a long way in those ten years, and yet in someways is still exactly the same. Big business has moved into the sphere and many of the faces I used to see at the top of the podcasting category in iTunes have been pushed further down. However, the success of podcasts like Welcome to Nightvale do show that there is still plenty of room for great story-telling. And even better, a lot of the people I listened to are still podcasting in some form or other.

I am sure that podcasting has changed a lot of lives, not just mine.

In short, I don’t know how my life would have gone without podcasting. I wouldn’t be living in America, a mother, or with half of what I have done accomplished—if anything. I look back on that first choice to pick up a microphone as one of the important pivot points of my life.

And most of all, I have no plans to stop podcasting anytime soon.

Author Adaptation instead of Extinction

There’s a lot of negative commentary out there for authors to digest right now.

The Authors’ Licensing and Collecting Society out of the UK, reported in 2014 that writers earnings had dropped 29% from 2005. Major publishing houses are being called on by the Society of Authors, to do things like release rights that they don’t actively exploit (like ebook and foreign), to stop putting crippling restrictions on authors (like non compete clauses) and to give authors more of a cut of ebooks.

Philip Pullman, the author of His Dark Materials series, called authors ‘an endangered species’.

Terrifying language.

All of these changes would be lovely, but are we likely to see them from major publishing houses in the near future? I think not. Big publishing is a business first and foremost, and the only way businesses are ever forced to change, is when they absolutely, cannot choose any other path.

So what are authors to do while we wait for that major sea change to be forced on publishing?

I still believe hybrid is the way. Use the good bits from major houses, but also pursue your own publication goals.

It’s not easy. Many authors have become used to simply writing, and independent publishing is hard work. The author has to arrange covers, editing, launch dates, and then do all the backend work like crunching the numbers, paying contractors, and also the taxman.

Some authors simply don’t want to do that, and for the largest sellers they might be able to manage to ignore it. However, every other author below that level is going to have to make some hard decisions, especially as major publishing becomes more and more risk adverse.

So those that will survive are the ones that see the truck coming and move into a different lane.

In short, authors have to take control of their own businesses. They have to put aside the idea that big publishing is the only way they will be saved, and become instead entrepreneurs. Certainly, pursue contracts with major houses, keep pitching them ideas, but don’t just lay down and die when they fall on deaf ears.

Right now, I am trying to walk that walk myself. This year I will have four books (two co-written with Tee Morris) coming out, and we will be in charge of them. Everything that happens will be because of our work both on the page, and behind the scenes.

I’m choosing to make exciting, rather than terrifying.

I have upped my daily writing goal, and aiming myself in a more business like direction. I’ve learned new skills in preparation. Over the years I’ve made friends and contacts who have skills I don’t. I know photographers, book designers, editors, beta readers and book bloggers.

Yes it is scary standing out there, but I am far from alone.

So here’s my tips for being a hybrid, and if you have any to add, please throw them into the comments section. Although we generally write by ourselves, it doesn’t mean we can’t share our ideas as a community.

Maybe we are endangered, but we’re not extinct yet!

Independent

Practice Writing faster. The best way to build an audience is to have multiple titles out there; that means you have to write as much as you can. To that end use brackets [] around facts you don’t know, or names you’ve forgotten in that moment. Then in the editing process you can go back and check. For the moment, keep going. Set that daily word count and hit it!
Write series. Readers love series, so give them what they like. Maybe the first one will not pull in great sales, but build on it. Keep going, and the quicker you can put them out the better. Big houses might make you wait 18 months for your book to be produced, but the joy of indie publishing is you can be much more swift and nimble.
Be professional. Set yourself a publication schedule. Work with professionals like editors and cover designers. Act like the person you would like to be is pretty good general advice for life, but also works here.

Publishing Houses

Write what you enjoy and are passionate about. Explore the limits and find an editor who will love your work. Maybe that area you love isn’t trending now, but what publishers are looking for—what is hot right now—changes all the time.
Keep as many rights as you can. Audio and foreign rights are cash sitting on the table. If you do sell them to the print publisher, then make sure they exercise them. Have it in the contract if they are not used by a set time, then they revert back to you. That way if they don’t use those rights then you can produce them yourself (hey, remember you’re a hybrid). Don’t leave that money just sitting there.

The Importance of Pants – Seven tips for writers working from home

Since last week I talked about Habitica and how it has helped me reinvigorate my to-do list and become more productive, I thought I’d go a bit further and talk about things I have learned being a full-time writer.

Back in April 2010 I quit my full-time librarian job which I loved, and took the leap into writing as my career. My first New York published book Geist was coming in October, and I decided it was time to ‘back myself’. It was terrifying and invigorating.

That first day I didn’t have to rush to work, I slept in. However once I got up and realized this was it, I’m not going to lie, it was weird and very unformed.

When you are in an office there is someone telling you want needs to be done, reminding you if you are slacking off, and there is a rhythm to life in an office. It took me a little while to work out that I was now responsible for all of those things.

So here are some of the things I have learned in that time.

Pants – Put them on. Certainly, it might seem like a good idea to sit in your PJs all day, and sure you can do that on the odd occasion, but putting on your pants/trousers every day, and getting ready to face the day gets you in the work mood. Without it you might just watch TV and eat ice cream. Remember this is your job, you need to take it seriously. Pants are required.
Schedule – To take the place of the boss, you need to become the boss. Police yourself. Give yourself a weekly schedule and deadlines, just like you had at work. Try not to remember that if you don’t hit them there is no senior manager to yell at you. Without some sort of structure you are going to fall off the rails hard, and then the only person to blame…well unfortunately that is you. Are you sensing a theme here?
Distractions – Sure that floor needs to be mopped, there’s dust on the mantel, and the bathroom needs a scrub. Facebook is tempting you with memes, hilarious cat videos, and your friends latest crisis/adventure/success. Admit these distractions are going to be there and learn to manage them. Sure you need to keep your house clean, but limit it. I do a chore a day, just half an hour or so, and it is scheduled, so that my vacuuming the floor doesn’t turn into an all day scrubfest…
Eat and Move – seems simple doesn’t it. But sometimes while you are in the depths of writing, or creating a cover you might forget to move your butt out of the seat. On my Habitica I have a habit, called Move After Writing. After a thousand words, I get up and circle the house a few times. Luckily only the cats are there to see me do it. It gets the blood flowing (remember your brain needs blood!) and it also is just good for your health.
Eat properly. One of the advantages of working from home is that you can do that. You have access to a kitchen, use it and keep that brain supplied with food as well as blood.
Have a space for writing – make a spot for you to write undisturbed. At first I thought I could write anywhere, on the couch in front of the TV, by the kitchen counter, balancing on one foot. You get the idea. Turns out I need a flat surface and music in my ears to get words out. Editing I can do anywhere, but for writing I either sit at the dining room table with my headphones on, or down in our office, with a cat sprawled next to me. Find the location(s) that work best for you and get in the habit of using it. It also acts as a trigger, to remind you to get working.
Get outside – after awhile the house is not going to be enough. So get out of it now and then. Go for a walk. Join a nearby writers group, or start one up. It doesn’t have to be everyday, but once a week it is nice to see a human during sunlight hours. Don’t forget when you are creating things, you can learn from humans. You write about them after all.

Oh and here is a bonus tip, that I am still working on. Have a weekend – OK, sure maybe not every weekend. Like most small business owners a weekend might seem a luxury, but like going outside, a weekend is a refresher. Spending time with the family, going further afield is the reason we work right? Even if we love what we do. This year I realized I had been working most weekends, sometimes all weekend. So I adjusted my schedule (see above) so I get more word count in during the weekdays, and have some mental and physical downtime Saturday and Sunday

Those are the things I have learned since 2010, but if you have any more tips and advice for those working from home, please post them in the comments.

Habits and Habitica

The to-do list. The bane of my existence. Seriously I would use whiteboards and markers for those long term goals, which I thought worked pretty well. However, it was the day-to-day items that would pile up; little things on social media, around the house, and writing tasks.

The feeling of being snowed under and losing control was something I really wanted to get under control in 2016. (Not resolutions, goals!)

I have at various times tried paper, and I know a lot of people swear by pretty, fancy day planners. However I have tried those myself, and while I always start off with a bang, soon I forget where I left it, or I forget to write in it. Then next thing you know it is tucked in the bookshelf, mocking me with my failure. The one thing I use all the time, and always have on hand is my laptop. I write on it, bank on it, chat with friends on it, and yes…check Facebook on it. Sorry paper, I am an electronic girl at heart.

So the our good friends Piper J Drake and Matthew Drake introduced us to Habitica. Now if you are or were a roleplaying geek, this will hit you right in the sweet spot, and maybe help you get a little more organized.

Habitica is both available online and as an app for Android and iPhone. You create an avatar of yourself, and then add Habits, Dailies and To-Dos. Each one that you tick off you earn gold and experience points for. Soon you are upgrading your armor, finding pets, and eventually getting yourself a mount.

This has replaced my electronic sticky notes. I took what I do on certain days, and turned those into dailies. For example writing a blogpost for this site is something I do on a Thursday. You pick a difficulty level, can add notes, and mark which days you want this daily to show up. Watch out though, if you don’t do a daily it will take away health points…and your avatar can die in Habitica!

Habits are the things you want to do or not do. Maybe you want to drink more water, every time you to as a plus habit you get experience. Then again, maybe you want to train yourself out of eating junk food, then you make that a minus. If you do that you lose health. I’ve gradually added to habits to tweak myself into walking between writing to get myself out of the chair now and then.

Then there are the to-dos. You can add dates to get things done, assign difficultly levels, and break down large projects into smaller check lists. Overtime you knock one off, you get gold and experience. Unlike Dailies, you won’t lose health on to-dos.

Habits, Dailies and To-Dos can have tags added, so you can break things down into projects. I have created tags like ‘housework’ ‘social media’ ‘Kickstarter’. Very helpful for keeping track of where you are in different parts of your life.

Not only that but you can also find a social aspect. You can chat in the Tavern, join a guild, create challenges others can join you on, or my particular favorite, join a party. When you are in a party you fight monsters together (each tick off you make counts as an attack on the beast), and when they are defeated share loot. However, beware if someone doesn’t complete their dailies everyone takes a hit on their health. So far our party has destroyed the Basi-List and the Laundromancer.

I am up to week three with this system, and I am already Level 8…soon I will be able to chose a career path like mage or rogue…that is enough to keep my on track.

Also you can ride a blue cotton candy tiger. Who wouldn’t want to do that?

The Chameleon Takes His Leave

David Bowie passed away yesterday. You’ve probably read the news that cancer took him—just like it has taken so many bright stars. He was, in his later years incredibly private, happy to live with his wife and daughter in New York, but he left us one last album as a parting gift.

I can remember when Bowie came into my life, and I can feel the thread of his influence running through it, like one of those beautiful and bizarre melodies he made. I even wrote a blogpost about how his creativity, inspired me, and  what lessons fellow creatives can take from his life. Go read it if you need a lift, or a kick in the  pants.

This time, I wanted to share my personal memories.

What’s That Feeling?

Like most women in the 1980s, I watched Labyrinth and put myself in Sarah’s place. I had a little more connection with her than most. I was fifteen years old, and I too had a younger brother that might have been Toby. David Bowie was an eye-opener. Here was his wild haired man, who could manipulate glass spheres, steal babies, and sing so beautiful you might just forget about the baby. He also had this air of knowledge and control, that to a teenage girl was intoxicating.

I admit it, Bowie had my attention.

Not Like the Others

Then as I went through school, everyone was listening to Duran Duran, A-Ha, and I was listening to Bowie. I would walk everywhere, with Ziggy in my ears, blaring from my Walkman. Gradually I learned it was OK to be different, and to make your own path. That was a powerful message to a teenager, and I know there must have been thousands of people just like me who got that same thing from Bowie’s songs. Changes was the anthem for what I was feeling at that time, but then so was Rebel, Rebel.

Unable to see Bowie

Then there was the time Bowie came to Auckland, New Zealand. I was in Wellington, I was sixteen, and my Mum wouldn’t let me go. Seriously, I thought, they hate me! Of course, his concert was on a Sunday, my English exam for School Certificate was on the Monday. Now, as a mother myself I totally agree with my Mum, back then it made no sense. I contemplated in my head jumping a train, and riding it all the way to Auckland. I didn’t, and I learned a lesson; life isn’t fair, and sometimes you just have to cope with that. Waiting was all I had.

The rewards of a little age

It was years, years and years until I had another chance, but this time I didn’t need a train. Bowie came to Wellington, and apart from listening to him sing, he also taught another lesson to me. Wellington wasn’t kind that night. She lashed the open air stadium where he was playing with rain, lots and lots of rain. Bowie however, played on. Roadies ran out and mopped the stage, and he sang on. He didn’t huddle, instead he strode out onto the catwalk, rain pouring down him, and singing. He gave up comfort, and safety (heck he could have broken a hip out there) to get the job done. He was a professional, and he sucked it up to get it done. He was magnificent.

I sat there, soaked to the skin, and cried in the rain.

Now he is gone. I said to my husband this morning, “I’ve never lived in a world without David Bowie.”

He looked at me and smiled. “Baby,” he said, “There will never be a world without David Bowie. We still have everything he did.”

And when it comes to it, we all have to leave this world, but at least Bowie left it with more beauty and creativity than it had before.

Thank you for that David Jones…oh and Tesla too…

A New Year, and a New Alignment

I think all people are a work in progress, and writers—as far as I am aware—are people too.

As an author my career and craft have been an organic things. I started writing as a teenager, and while I did have some training, did some courses, I still am largely self taught. I stumbled, I took some bruises, but at this point in my life I am pretty confident that I can write a variety of fiction, finish projects, and produce something some people will enjoy reading. Even pay for it.

However, what I have never been very good at is being organized. It is something I wish they taught at school actually! But like my writing craft, these organizational skills have been discovered along the way, and I have moved organically towards getting better at it. Not perfect, just better.

This year, I have set myself some goals that cover producing more, and doing it more efficiently. Tee Morris wrote a great blogpost about the new year being a time to form your commitments for 2016, but not resolutions. For writers words are important, and something about the word ‘resolution’ has always seemed fragile to me.

Resolutions are things we tell ourselves we want to do, while commitments seem more concrete. We make plans on how to achieve those commitments. So here are mine for 2016 and the tools I plan on using.

Produce More Words

While I do have writing as my full-time job, I have been feeling lately that I am just not making enough of the time. I can write about 1,000 words in half an hour, which is pretty damn good actually. However, because of that speed I somehow have been lax in pushing forward on a daily basis.

So instead of getting angry with myself, I am going to make a commitment to get 3,000 words per day out. That’s probably a mere two hours work, and that still leaves me plenty of time to manage audio production, the social media platforms, and self publishing.

Tools: Write or Die is a brilliant app for me. I know it isn’t for every writer, but having that relentless timer going gives me the push I need. I do it in 1,000 word sprints, and then later go back correct spelling errors made since I am going so fast, and flesh out the scene a little more.

Manage My Time Better

I have been using whiteboards, and to-do lists for this, and I have been getting better at it. However I think this year is the year to step it up. People who work in offices have schedules, and a boss to tell them off when they aren’t producing. I am going to let my schedule be the boss of me this year and see how it goes.

Tools: Continuing to use the whiteboard—because there is nothing more exciting than rubbing things off it. In addition this year I am going to give Habitica a go. It’s a program that rewards you for tasks completed, and it’s almost like an roleplaying game. I love that idea. I’ve given it a go before, and let it lapse. I think the whiteboard experience has primed me to use it better this time around.

Publish at Least Three Books in 2016

Words need to be out there, and this year I’m going to release some backlog stories. The Ghost Rebellion will be out May/June. Verity Fitzroy and the Case of the Silver Pharaoh will be out in August. This is the Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences spin-off series, with a young, feisty, tinkerer girl, trying to find the mystery of her parents’ murder. It’s a bit Young Indiana Jones, and a bit the Secret Seven. Then I am planning on releasing another book for Christmas. I have a couple to choose from, but haven’t settled on which one I will pick yet.

Tools: I have plenty of great tools for self-publishing, and plenty of friends who are editors and cover designers to assist.

So there you have it; my commitments to you, dear reader. I’m looking forward to this year, and getting things done. Along with all these things planned, Tee and I are also attending a good amount of conventions, and events. Hopefully we’ll catch you at one, and you can ask me how I am going on these!

 

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We Can Have More Than One…

So this week I’ve been watching a lot of TV with women in it. Sorry, not just in it…they are the heroes and the main character…no, not just that, the programs are named after them!

I’ve been watching Jessica Jones and Supergirl. Jessica Jones is more the character that I prefer to write myself. She’s complicated, messed up, and in your face. She has super powers, but those are almost secondary to the force of her personality. She makes me think of Socha from my Books of the Order in those respects, and I love seeing that on television. Krysten Ritter brings in an amazing preformance as Jessica, being tough with just enough of a hint of vulnerability underneath to keep her interesting.

The series is dark, superhero noir, and explores issues that many shows would shy away from: rape and its after effects. I know there are people who have gone through these traumas, and can’t watch Jessica Jones because it is just too close to home. For the rest of the world though, these are important dark subjects that we should examine, we should shine a light on. If Jessica makes us as a society look closer at these things, then all the better. However, like Daredevil before it, it is not for children.

However, if you are looking for something the kids can enjoy with you, there is Supergirl. This is a show which only has in common with Jessica Jones the superpowers. If Jessica is turning over rocks at the bottom of the garden to see what is hiding underneath, then Supergirl is leaping away from the darkness into a bright blue sky.

It took a little bit longer for the show to find its legs—much like a rookie superhero might—but now I am really enjoying it. Melissa Benoit does geeky, awkwardness well, but watching her develop into a powerful superhero is just as much fun.

I cannot tell you the enjoyment of seeing our daughter entranced by Supergirl, and wanting to see more. It made me suddenly understand the power of who you are, whatever race, sex or sexuality, reflected in media. Suddenly there is inclusion, where you almost had given up noticing its lack.

And yet, some said that because we had Jessica, Supergirl was in danger, or started comparing the shows, saying one was better than the other. Yes, apparently we can’t have more than one super-powered woman on the TV screen…you know even though apparently we can have the Flash and Arrow at the same time. Arghhh…too many women!! I nearly threw my bowl of cereal across the room.

Also, they are different. We want variety. We want optimism, we want dark, we want shows that are fun, and shows that make us think.

We also want women’s stories where they are front and centre, and we want them in genre shows, because women watch, read, and buy stuff. We’re geeks too.

Some have complained that there is too much diversity in TV and in books. This statement just makes me scratch my head. Too much? How can there be such a narrow world few? The world is not white and not male. It is full of all shades of people, so many cultures, and yes…different sexes. I am excited that girls like my daughter can see herself represented in media, and when I see her riveted to shows like Supergirl, I have hope there will be much, much more to come.

Oh that’s right, Agent Carter Season Two starts next month! Now about Wonder Woman…

A Writer in the World…and not

It’s been a difficult week for pretty much everyone with a eyes to see and a heart to break. The news has been full of pain, loss and huge amounts of fear. Innocent people all over the world have had their lives forever changed and broken by humans who fail to see the humanity in us all.

Writers are just like human beings…in fact some of us are human beings. And this week I have been struggling come to terms with the wonderful things happening in my life, while horrible things happen outside it.

The wonderful things in my life—apart from the awesome kid and husband—have been one of those real milestones for a writer. The book Tee and I wrote Social Media for Writers is now available. I’m truly proud of what we have written, and I hope it helps a lot of people.

It’s huge for a technical book (clocking in at around 70,000 words—nearly a novel!), and it has something for everyone; best practices for people already in social media, and appendices for those that want some helping getting into the pool.

We also just finished the audio version, which concentrates on best practice, since screen shots really don’t work in audio! That should be out in the next few weeks and it was fun putting that together.

Then there was the massively exciting results of the Kickstarter we ran for the Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences. We funded two novel and a novelette in a one month campaign. As a writer you can’t ask for more validation than people laying down their hard-earned money for a book you haven’t even written yet. Thanks to our readers, we are going to produce stories, they are going to have awesome covers, and it is going to be an exciting year in 2016.

And yet, I feel guilty about these things when so much is going on around us—especially this last week. The bombings in Beirut and Paris. The attack in Nigeria. Even for those people not directly affected by these horrific events, it feels like a stone cast into dark pool—the ripples touch us all. Compared to these things a couple of books coming out doesn’t seem like much.

Yet as I thought about it, I realized every little positive thing we do in the world, is fighting back against those that would destroy it. Every act of kindness and creativity must do something to balance this all out.

And perhaps if we writers are honest, maybe this is why we write in the first place. A little creative spark in a dark world. If we add them all up, don’t they make a greater light, and maybe we can reach minds lost in hate… Probably not all of them I know, but the act of creation is powerful.

Writing is more than that too.

When we write, we create worlds in which we have control—in which bad things might happen, but we have a say in how they end. In our reality right now there seems to be no one with answers or any chance at control.

That might seem like escapism…which it is in part. The human mind has always craved a place to go where things make a kind of sense, a place of magic and heroes. That is why legends contain all those things, and why our ancestors after a back-breaking day in the field huddled around a fire to listen to a bard tell a tale. That ability to transcend time and place is incredible.

However, stories are more than a place to hide and dream. They are also places to gain strength and understanding in. Probably we will never understand why bad things happen to good people, but we can build heroes there and fight back towards the light. We create better versions of ourselves in stories.

Perhaps, that visualization of ourselves helps us in the real world too. We need to read stories about the nobody person, who fights on against the odds and wins. We want to read about the victim who chooses to change her own narrative and make herself into a survivor.

Stories matter. They always have, and they always will. It might not seem much to fight back with, but stories have opened peoples minds and eyes since we found language.

As the initial panic and pain wears off, we are finding stories in the rubble.

As they emerge, they bring hope that we can find meaning and strength in the chaos. This man who lost his wife, and yet refuses to hate her killers…now that is a story worth holding onto.

Such strength is something we need to write about, repeat, and hold up against what those that bring terror want to achieve.

Keep making, keep hoping, and keep your heart open to others even if it hurts.