The first love of my life never saw me naked - there was always a parent coming home in half an hour - always a little brother in the next room. Always too much body and not enough time for me to show it.
Instead, I gave him my shoulder, my elbow, the bend of my knee - I lent him my corners, my edges, the parts of me I could afford to offer - the parts I had long since given up trying to hide. He never asked for more.
He gave me back his eyelashes, the back of his neck, his palms - we held each piece we were given like it was a nectarine that could bruise if we weren’t careful.
We collected them like we were trying to build an orchid.
And the spaces that he never saw, the ones my parents half labeled “private parts” when I was still small enough to fit all of myself and my worries inside a bathtub - I made up for that by handing over all the private parts of me.
There was no secret I didn’t tell him, there was no moment I didn’t share - and we didn’t grow up, we grew in, like ivy wrapping, moulding each other into perfect yings and yangs.
We kissed with mouths open, breathing his exhale into my inhale - we could have survived underwater or outer space.
Breathing only of the breathe we traded, we spelled love, g-i-v-e, I never wanted to hide my body from him - if I could have I would have given it all away with the rest of me - I did not know it was possible.
To save some thing for myself.
Some nights I wake up knowing he is anxious, he is across the world in another woman’s arms - the years have spread us like dandelion seeds - sanding down the edges of our jigsaw parts that used to only fit each other.
He drinks from the pitcher on the night stand, checks the digital clock, it is 5am - he tosses in sheets and tries to settle, I wait for him to sleep.
Before tucking myself into elbows and knees reach for things I have long since given up.”
“Our model ships look perfect in their bottles, but we do not know if they are seaworthy. Sometimes the one that reaches your harbor has already been through the storm.”
No Matter the Wreckage
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This book club is ONLY for books that are WRITTEN VERY WELL and have a GREAT STORY LINE. We ask that each member shelve at least 2 exceptional books tThis book club is ONLY for books that are WRITTEN VERY WELL and have a GREAT STORY LINE.
We ask that each member shelve at least 2 exceptional books that they've read but may shelve as many as they want.
I spend a lot of time trying to find those EXCEPTIONAL books and have to wade through many poorly written books to find them. If you have this same problem then join our group and add to our group bookshelf ONLY the books you believe are EXCEPTIONAL.
This group can encompass any genre of book, fiction or non fiction. As long as you believe that it is a book someone MUST read before they die.
This group is not about getting a lot of members, it's about getting a lot of great books shelved on our bookshelf. That way when your feeling in a reading slump, you can come to this group and find an exceptional book listed on our bookshelf that you know will be written well and have a great story line to it.
If you put a book on our bookshelf, please create a shelf for it so other people can easily pick out a book from the particular genre they like.
Note to author's: You are all more than welcome to join our group but please do not shelve your own books. You probably wrote a great book but let others say its great. Please only shelve the books (other than yours) that you think are exceptional books. ...more
Social Change & Activism
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People interested in progressive social change for advancing social justice and the environment. Exploring issues, ideas, solutions, organizing, methoPeople interested in progressive social change for advancing social justice and the environment. Exploring issues, ideas, solutions, organizing, methods, challenges, opportunities, etc.
Topics: aboriginal rights, activism, advocacy, ageism, animal rights, civil rights, class, community, cooperation, democracy, dialogue, ‘disability’, economics, environment, feminism, gender, globalization, human rights, identity, imperialism, justice, oppression, peace, politics, poverty, protest, ‘race’, revolution, tactics, ......more