After moping around all weekend, I found going to school on Monday easy. I had given my heart a good two days to at least start working again. I felt better than I have since Landon left.

When I got to school I hung out with my real friends. Krissy, Lacey, and Ashton. Krissy has a crush on Jake and I have a feeling she is the one he has a crush on for a while. It was kinda weird not seeing Heath but I figured that I would see the super football player at some point.

I had a good time in math with Ashton. Ever since Friday, he has done nothing but try to make me laugh. He is actually pretty funny. When english was over, it was time for biology. I walked in and sat in my usual seat. I tried not to look at the empty seat to the left of me but it was hard. It broke my heart that he would never sit in that seat next to. Sometimes I swear he was sitting there. I don't know what he did to me but I think I'm going crazy because of him. Today was one of the days I actually paid attention to Mr. Greg.

Lunch was weird. There was only 5 people instead of our usual 7. My heart ached even more thinking about the good times with Landon at lunch. After lunch came history. I could feel the emptiness behind me and I refused to turn around.

Heath turned around. "Sabrina look I'm really sorry for being so rude last week."

"That's great," I said emotionless.

"Please Sabrina. I just want your forgiveness, nothing more." He pleaded.

"Look I'm not doing to great today, so could you please just stop talking to me?"

"Fine," he said rudely and turned back around.

Gym was awful. I was glad the day had finally come to an end.

When I got home I quickly did my homework and then went to sleep after my awful day that was all I wanted to do.

The next day was pretty much the same thing. The only time anything exciting happened was when I was with my friends. When I got home my parents had an announcement. My mom was now cancer free. I was extremely excited. That was probably the highlight of my day.

When I got done with my homework I decided to watch E!. In the middle of "Keeping up With The Kardashians" someone knocked on the door. I got up an answered the door. It was Heath and a little teddy bear.

"Can I talk to you?" He asked.

"Fine," I said and walked outside.

We started walking down the sidewalk. "Look Sabrina, I know your going through tough times but I really just want your forgiveness. I didn't mean to hurt you, I still love you."

The whole love part hit me like a stone. I felt bad for the guy. I know he meant to do good on thursday, it just didn't come of as that. My heart was aching and I just wanted something to help it. "I forgive you. I still love you too."

His eyes brightened and he stopped walking. "Really, you love me?"

"Like a brother." I smiled.

"Oh come on Sabrina. I know you love me more than that. We have so much history. You can't just snap at of love like that."

I thought about what he said. It was true. I couldn't fall out of so quickly. I didn't. My feelings for him were just hidden behind my feelings for Landon. I couldn't believe that I never thought about this before. I really did still love Heath more than a brother. I mean yes I was mean to him but that was because I was mad at him. And Landon just has a crazy affect on me.

"I know I can't and I didn't, I'm still in love with you. I was only mean to you because you were being a jerk and I'm sorry."

He took my hand, "It's okay. I'm sorry too. I love you Sabrina and I always will. You're my first love and you are my world."

I smiled. His words warmed my heart. The "you are my world" part sounded kinda familiar. They I realized why. When Landon left one of the things that I thought was "my world is crashing". The two statements are pretty close. I still loved Landon and now that I think about he is like my world. But he left, so does it matter?

"Really? Your world?" I asked like a sweet, little, shocked girl.

He smiled. "Yes Sabrina. You are my world, my everything. You don't know how much it hurt me to see you holding that guy's hand. I didn't want you to leave me so quickly."

When he mentioned the leaving quickly tears came to my eyes. My heart had somewhat recovered but was now torn in two. My feelings for Landon words can't describe. I was crazy that those feelings came so quickly. But, yet again, it doesn't matter because he is gone.

"I love you but when I realized I loved Landon it just over powered my love for you. I'm sorry for hurting you. Things really did happen quickly. I think that there is something like magical between me and Landon. That is probably the reason why things changed quickly and easily. But," I looked down at our hands, "he is gone now."

I kept looking down. The tears had started spilling when I said that he was gone. I wanted Landon back so bad. I missed him. I wasn't even sure he would come back to me. The only hint of him coming back to me was his quote from the song he sang me. I will find a way to you if it kills me. Then I broke down. I started to cry and my knees felt like they were going to give out. Heath hugged me.

"I don't care if you are crying because of him. I love you and really want you back," he whispered in my ear.

I knew he would ask. I could say that I want to be with him, I wanted to. Landon and I never said anything about dating people. So it would be okay to say yes. I mean, I would be okay with Landon dating another girl. Never mind, I would be mad.

I looked at him, "You won't be able to get me back Heath. He will come back for me. If he found out he would be hurt. I wouldn't want to loose him because of someone else."

Heath kept his arms wrapped around my waist and looked straight into my eyes. "Are you sure?" He whispered. "How would he know?" He leaned in closer. "He won't find out. We can be together Sabrina," he whispered. I could feel his cool breath on my face. "I love you. You are really sure you can't?" his lips now brush against mine as he spoke. I was mesmerized by his appealing voice and cool breath. "You don't want to want to be with me?"

I tried to snap out of whatever was happening to me, but couldn't. Our eyes were still locked. I sounded dazed as I spoke, "I-I really don't want to. I can't, I love... I love... Landon." I closed my eyes.

"Oh come on Sabrina," he whispered in a sweet voice. "Really?" He leaned in closer eliminating the little space between our lips.

His kiss was very gentle. I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck. It was amazing, I had completely forgot about everything but Heath. My mind was now wanting to be with Heath. My heart was just a mess. Then I heard a car coming. I quickly ended the kiss right after it passed. I looked down the street, the car looked familiar but I didn't know why.

"Fine, you have me back," I smiled up at him.

"I promise I won't ever do anything to hurt you again." He wrapped his arms around me once more.

We walked back to my house. We said goodbye and Heath went home. That whole scene was something that I hope Landon doesn't figure out about.