Months went by and life was great. Me and Heath were madly in love as always. And no we haven't done it yet. We both want to wait until we get married to each other. I love Heath and we have had a great beginning to our junior year. I truly believe he is my soulmate.

Krissy, Lacey, Ashton, and I started a game/movie night every friday. sometimes we watch movies and sometimes we play games. We have the best times! We would call it girls night in, but, even though he is gay, Ashton wasn't too okay with that. Also we talk about boys, of course! :)

And then there is Landon. We are the best of friends! We have great times passing notes in biology. He joined our little family at lunch and everyone loves him! We laugh ALOT! In history, Heath, Landon, and I got to do a project together in October. We had a great time working after school at each others houses. We are like brother and sister, you know with those accessional fights. Krissy was right; he is my soulbrother. Haha.

Today is Wednesday, December 5 and I'm just waking up. i walked over to my closet and grabbed my favorite jeans. Now i needed a top. I grabbed my dark green, tight, V-neck sweater, and put it on. After applying my eyeshadow, mascara, and gloss i slipped on my brown flats. I grabbed my bag and ran down the stairs.

I made a bowl of cereal, sat down, and ate. I saw my mom watching the news in the living room. She looked awful and it killed me. She looked as pale as paper with her blue an teal scarf wrapped around her head. She looked like she hadn't slept in days and looked horrible. I had pretty much gotten over the whole "My mom has a chance of dieing" thing. I am keeping strong and only break down in Heath's arms every once and a while. My mom was doing good and i knew she was going to make it. She has to.

I finally got my own car in November. So now I drive my self to school, but sometimes I ride with Heath. I cleaned my bowl and say goodbye to my mom. I got into my car and drove off to school.

Next thing I knew I was in biology.

"Hey Night!" I said as i sat down.

"Hey Day! Did you learn how to walk?" He said, referring to my tripping a million times yesterday.

I laughed, "Ya, I asked my sister for some lessons, they really helped." I smiled and he laughed.

"Okay class, today we are going to..." Mr. Greg went on but i didn't pay attention. I just waited for Landon to pass a note, like always.

Landon: Do you want to hang out after school

I thought about for a sec. Sabrina: Sure. Want are we doing?

Landon: Going to the park. We are going on my bike.
When i read the note Landon laughed silently at my shocked look.

Sabrina: On your bike?

Yes, Landon has a motorcycle. He didn't ride it when he came to Lacey's or to school, at the beginning of the year, because he didn't want to come off as the bad new kid. I had rode on his bike a few times and I hated it.

Landon: Yes, we can just leave your car here.It will be okay over night. I can give you a ride in the morning.

Sabrina: I can just get Heath to drive me in the morning.

Landon: Okay, your missing out.

Sabrina: You know how much riding on a bike that you are driving scares me.

He laughed. Landon: Yes, yes i do.

I kept the note and started paying attention to the lesson. When the bell rang, Landon and I walked and talked to our next classes. Lacey and had our usual good time in spanish, then headed off to lunch.

"Landon did you finish the english homework?" Heath asked.

"Ya, here you go man." Landon already had the paper in his hand. He seemed to always know what people wanted.

Lacey, Krissy, Ashton, and I were having a conversation about the Secret Life. we were kinda arguing about ben leaving for Italy. Ashton and i thought he shouldnt have left. Krissy and Lacey thought there was nothing wrong with it because he asked her if she wanted to go and she couldn't.

By the time lunch was over, the rest of the day flew by. I was at my locker when Heath walked over.

"Hey Sabrina, do you mind if i come over today?" he asked me

"Well, no, but I won't be there. Landon and I are going to hang out. But if you want, you can pick me up in the morning." I smiled waiting for his reaction.

"Okay Sabs. Thats good with me." He smiled back. "Don't do anything bad with Night." He kissed me on the cheek and walked away.

"Ready to go?" Landon walked up about a minute after Heath left.
I shut my locker and threw my bag on my shoulder. "Yes, let's go." I smiled and we walked out to his bike. He got on and I just stood staring at him.

"Come on Sabrina," he put on his helmet and me the one I wear. "Nothing is going to happen, I promise. Just hold on tight." He did his half smile.

"Fine," I put on the helmet and sat behind him. I wrapped my arms around him. "I'm trusting you."

"Good," he backed out and we were out of the parking lot in seconds.

The ride was actually good. It was relaxing. The wind blowing on my face, my arms wrapped around a warm body. I rest my head on Landon's shoulder.

"Better?" He asked.

I laughed, "Yes."

When we go to the park we went straight for our favorite tree. I sat down while landon reached for something in the tree. He pulled out a black, kinda worn out, guitar case.

I gasped, "You play guitar?"

"Yep ever since I was 12." He smiled and sat down.

"That's amazing. I never knew."

"Listen Sabrina, I didn't write this song but it's perfect for you and me." He went into playing position and began to tap on the wood.

Then he played. " Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now,"
His voice was low and beautiful,
"And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend,"
He smiled at me,
"Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all (He sang this out like allllllllllllllll)

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong(he sang this out)

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again,"
He started humming,
"All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me."
He played a little more then ended in a soft strum.

I sat staring at him, shocked and confused.

** I don't own any rights to this song they are all Jason Mraz's. I also suggest that you listen to the song. It's called, If It Kills Me ~Jason Mraz. **