Contemplations - Things We Take for Granted by Putri

Sometimes in life we take things for granted. We take our parents ‘love for granted because we know that they will always love us no matter what. We take our friendship for granted because we know that somehow they are not the “only” friends we have. We take our lover’s love for granted maybe because we are so confident that they won’t leave us for someone else. We take our health for granted because we think that we are still “young” therefore we won’t catch with any disease. Sometimes we take time for granted thinking that there will be tomorrow and day after tomorrow and so on. Sometimes we take our life for granted just because we think that we still have plenty of years to come and catch up whatever we missed.

And often in life, I take things for granted. Often I feel overwhelmed with my mother’s loves and affections but the moment she stops doing that I bet I’m going to plead her to give them back to me and somehow I couldn’t see the small affections she has given to me, I still feel that it wasn’t enough. But hey I forgot that when you accumulate small things, it becomes big.

Also often in life, I take my husband’s love for granted. It seems that I can’t get myself satisfied if I’m not bitching about him in one day. Everything seems not all right. I couldn’t see small things that he has done for me, like always picked me up from the library every night during my exam time, hugs me every night, brings me some silly stuffs from overseas like body butter or some five bucks pink jacket that I rarely wear because it was a bit big, brought me UGG boots even though later on I had to exchange it because the size was too small, feeds my piggy bank every other day. And just because he sometimes short fused and he sometimes can’t really say things the way I want him to say, I feel cross and after that I feel upset and all those stupid thoughts play on my mind (like he doesn’t love me, he’s not the one, I’m doomed, this marriage sucks, I’m not happy, etc...). The thing is often all I can see that my husband is a cranky, perfectionist, annoying, insensitive etc. But I forget to see his good qualities that he’s a very loving, affectionate and generous.

Also often in life I take friendship for granted. Never really realized things that they have done to me and just because we had some misunderstandings, friendship is over. Why is it difficult to forgive and forget? Sometimes I forgot that to keep a friendship, it takes two to tango, I need to make some efforts as well. There’s nothing wrong to drop a message in facebook or YM, or email, or send a sms or if I have time maybe I could call them just to let them know that they are in my thoughts. But I rarely do that and now I realized that finding good friends is not an easy task and how much I miss those good ol’ days.

Also often in life I take my health for granted ( ironically I’m so-called-doctor), when I should have jogged in the park every morning, I chose to stay in bed sometimes until 9. Well my reason is that I sleep late every night. But not doing any work in particular or studying, I spend my night watching the afternoon recorded programs, so what’s the point of having “IQ” anyway if I still have to stay put till morning? And my diet also total disaster, in spite of having balanced diet with 5 portions of vegetables, well I choose instant noodles. I’m so hooked on Indomie even though sometimes I kindda annoyed for the thirst that I have to suffer after eating it due to excessive sodium in content ( now I’m so hooked on mamee that I carry it everywhere, anywhere) that I forgot that there are some other things as delicious as Indomie but healthier. Until I come down with just as bad as flu then I’ll realize that health is important (hopefully I don’t have to come down with flu to realize it).

And last but not least, I often take my life for granted. I take my own sweet time to do things. I took the AMC exam after few months landed in Australia and that too I failed and it took total 6 months plus to pass the exam. I wasted my 6 plus month unemployed. I’m only taking OET exam next month despite the fact that I could have done it long time ago. Probably by now I would have got a job somewhere in one of NSW hospital. And alas despite realizing that I have wasted my times I still can’t focus, this is like me prefer to chat with some random people or play cooking dash or wedding dash or any dash game than studying and pursuit things that I have to pursuit. The thing is time flies, and I can’t have it back, and therefore I wasted my time big time. Almost feel like a looser (it sounds like “Hi my name is Putri, aged 28, doctor by profession and yet unemployed”) and I was silly to say that I can catch up things that I missed, wake up, look at your age please. So this should have, could have, would have are not really working.

So, I think it’s quite relevant to say that I, Putri , take almost everything for granted. But at least I realized it and hopefully (finger cross) that I’d make some progress in my life to change this.