"For what its worth Livvie, I never thought of you as a whore. And you are....the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
Captive in the Dark held me prisoner right along with Livvie throughout the entire book. There were so many times that I was screaming in my head at my nook to Livvie - JUST CALL HIM MASTER!!!! JUST OBEY!!!! DON'T RUN, WHAT ARE YOU THINKING????? But in the end she never listened to me....she was stubborn and strong and paid the price at the hand of Caleb...a man who was a prisoner in his own war with himself.
It took me several hours before I could write this review because all day I have been on the verge of tears struggling with how I was feeling about this book. The subject matter is not something that is easy to read about, but CJ Roberts captivated me from page 1. This book really did a number on my emotions!!!
As a mother of a teenage daughter, I struggled with Livvie's loss of her innocense and knowing (even as she did) that her life would NEVER be the same. No matter even if she got free of him, the damage was done and she lost a part of her that she would never get back. The fact that Livvie met Caleb on the street when he tried to "protect her" from the drive by and she had fantasies of him from then on made her develop a love/hate relationship with him. She could justify the hate....but she struggled with the fact that she fell in love with him (Stockholms she remembered)as well. And because of her love for him she decided that she would do whatever he needed her to do - partly because she came to the conclusion that she would never get away from him the other part because she needed him to love her back - something she craved from her family but never got.
On the other hand Caleb (Keleb the dog) was an awful and dispicable human being, probably not born that way (his mother referred to him as "her handsome little man") but became what he is today because of tragic events of the past similar to what Livvie is going through. The biggest difference between their two kidnappings is
1. Nahweh - Caleb's Master was violent and cruel
2. Caleb loves Livvie.
"You'll always be Kitten to me....Livvie"
As much as I wanted to hate Caleb - and there were definitely times that I did, I knew ultimately I wouldn't....I knew ultimately that I would love him and hope the best for him and Livvie. I knew the author was pulling at my sense of hope that things between them would blossom and flourish into love...and she was right on the mark. I fell in love with them, with their story of daily survival and I can't wait to see where the next book takes them and how they handle it.
"Caleb could and would hurt me. Not today, but maybe tomorrow or the next day. Still, for the first time I knew he could not destroy me. It would matter to him if I didn't exist. And no matter what happened, I'd land on my feet because Caleb had shown me I had it in me. It was a strange gift, from and unexpected source."
While waiting for Seduced in the Dark, Caleb and Livvie live free of any pain in my heart!