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Confessions of a Video Vixen by Karrine Steffans
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Apr 02, 12

bookshelves: contemporary, biography
Read from March 18 to April 02, 2012

Her story might be more interesting if told by someone else. As it is, she's a pretty lousy writer (grammar/language wasn't as bad as I expected but narrative needed an editor in a BIG way), and I can't tell if it's the writing or the person that fails to compel me or evoke true understanding. Is she not a good or interesting person, or is she just not capable of communicating what is good or interesting about her?

All told, I found this tale rather sad, as it should be, but almost more because of the shallow level of reflection/character than because of the actual abuses she endured and invited. She constantly seemed to fall in love/lust at first sight, which is unusual but largely unaddressed. In a Q&A at the end, she explains that her nonchalant attitude about sex comes from her island childhood, but in the book itself the most she ever does is refer to using sex as apology, manipulation, income source or fun. She never thinks to really claim her sexuality in a strong way and largely fails to distinguish sex in her weaker days from sex today. I focus on this so much because, let's face it, she may claim this book is her story and a cautionary tale and all, but she gives way too much of the wrong kinds of detail for it not to also be a celebrity tell-all. When she fails to adequately show that personal growth and self-reflection, the shallow accountings of her quick affairs seem more tell-all, less memoir, and certainly not cautionary tale....

Re-reading what I just wrote, it strikes me that one of this book's biggest problems really isn't the sex per se. It's what i said first: the instant feelings of "love" (often in overlapping time frames), the surprise the boys wouldn't feel the same way or would disrespect her, etc. There's nothing necessarily wrong with sleeping with these hot and/or powerful celebs, but there's something kind of sad/pathetic/pathological about expecting them to love you for it. She really didn't get that at the time, which makes her naive to a point that I personally could hardly relate. Even now, she never seems to question whether she loved these boys, only whether they felt anything back. It just all comes across as very...shallow, off, fake, something I can't quite describe. It's like she is a psychologist's case study, but almost none of the analysis has been done for us. So what might've been a powerful story is instead a bit of a dud.
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message 1: by Kate (new)

Kate Reid-christie well good to know cheated on me with more guys than i knew about but not suprised? guess be proud of that cause never onced showed any remorse? if anything got off on it! guess kids read it one day? an no doubt ur still seeing that dog adam burton mr Holloywood that excites going hotels paid money stole from my accounts (germany)?? i paid hotel for another guy? thats sad id be embassered to let girl pay! oh but he gave u coke in return u where what making pornos with him treesomes his mates while i at hom e looking after kids? mother of the year so much wasted money couid gone to kids but ur looks clothes drugs hotels taxies so on u stole from money my mum worked so hard for? oh didnt tell stacey going leave stephen before mum died? but oh well im coming into some cash sex berto my mum died night befotre wedding when hospital ur sic evil! vin desiel! well i have over 6 porno u an one u chad bet his misses like to see? thats right over fours years having sex with him he 4 girlfrinds not only did u not care u got off on it? well itunes hay?? stannum nom>?? hay MB_member benenif caresuper?? so why one urn old statements 2008 child support? well i know or didnt know to know u even claiming childsupport? one more thing i remember 2011 around sept. ur lover adam burton ask borrow $10,000 for drugs that he do all work i kick back split profit well me knowing that he owes alot money to othersv for drugs no way it going to happen and now can recall u saying u think its a good idea? gee now i know why pushing me to do business with him cause at the time i didnt know use two where fucking? both working together scam me my money ur family doesnt know how much and belive u dnt see or contact berto any more! now remember this u show me no remorse? played my mind agaisnt me? not once told truth? now i make a bet adam be in jail within 6 mnths as for u what did u say take myproof to ploice ! now as much as i tsomethink not right with u? i woulnt want mother my kids locked up? but i know been still doing what u do? shows u havent changed? u destroyed broke up family an say look me im on drugs that because of u an whats adam burton drug dealer u nver took drugs to u met him! one last thing i was so paranoid wasnt i about u cheating after u claimly looked me in eye swore kids life u never had sex with him? well take my proof to ploice! ur in alot bigger trouble than me! stephen crazy so on we will see kate when ready! now im going to look like fool if im wrong! urr family going to be so shocked! well atleast got family ur family to me like family loved ur nan ur family but what done they yet find out is sic i feel sad what done kate but yet when once have u told truth? its adam i want but if u want to push or dare me we see! i will get my shit together after all been through for u tu do that??? u didnt cover ur tracks to well i loved be friends for kids an loved u more anything but if comes out never work withn u an kids when older know truth ! oh im ten times better berto what i liked wanted was real kids being dad family person yet tell me adam is what i once was player false! that u like isnt it! oh his 40 still doing same! what u lijke false just like u! what did u say when said save house kids who cares about bying house we all going die one day well i likje leave something behing for kids that u stole all my money just so feelm love cause confidence so love that when someonelike adam comes along u just cant say no after being bart big step up hay! dnt look at kids say fuc i hurt there dad for what i woulnt let u have best both worlds? take care


message 2: by Lyla (new) - added it

Lyla Couldn`t agree more.


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