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If You Find Me by Emily Murdoch

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Mar 14, 13

bookshelves: ya-fiction, read-in-2012
Read from August 26 to September 01, 2012

Carey and Janessa live in the woods -- Nessa's been there her entire young life but Carey's had a taste of the outside world, way back in the day. Their mother brought them there to protect them, but mom is never around. She's always out, looking for a way to feed the girls, for a way to keep them safe.

The story begins when that all changes. Carey and Nessa are taken from their home in the woods by authorities, who introduce them to their biological father and inform them they're going to be released into his custody.

Mom was not coming back for them.

Murdoch's book follows Carey and Nessa's reintroduction to the world -- how do they adjust to living in a house again? With a family? With a new sister? Why did their mother take them away from civilization and into the woods? And maybe the most important question: what happened to those girls in the woods to make them who they are today?

The concept and storytelling were compelling; this was a plot unlike any other I'd read before. I was hooked immediately and blew through the book in no time. However, I think that was where I found a number of problems: it was too polished, too tidy, too easily resolved.

This book needed more depth and less back story info dumping, particularly in the final section where we get the entire history of Carey and Nessa. I starting finding the technique of weaving the back story into the narrative via Carey's flashbacks distracting and unbelievable in the second section of the book, especially when (view spoiler)[ we get a flashback where Carey's been used by her mother to make a little cash by way of her body. Although I'd gotten the sense there was something off about her and something damaging to her, this came up a little too late for me to believe and pushed the story over the top. Even the final revelation -- that a man had come to the trailer and raped Carey and attempted to rape Nessa before Carey shot and killed him -- worked better for me than that. (hide spoiler)]

I had a tough time buying Carey's voice. Even though I could see something in her position being mature, the language didn't work. There were multiple times a turn of phrase or an observation felt off. Likewise, the writing itself came off as trying too hard at times, working in one too many forest-related metaphors in situations where it was unnecessary. It dragged down the pace in places where pacing didn't need to be slowed.

Subplots in the book were wrapped up too cleanly for me or were in and of themselves too convenient and contrived. I didn't buy the tension between Carey and her new sister Delaney. I understood and sympathized with both of their situations; I could see why Delaney would feel like getting two new siblings after 15 years of being an only child would suck. However, the turnaround in their relationship was not satisfying or believable. I had trouble buying into the relationship between Ryan and Carey, too: (view spoiler)[ how he figured out who she was so quickly and easily didn't work for me. They were so young when Carey was kidnapped by her mother, so him recognizing the last name was a stretch. (hide spoiler)]. I wish there'd been more story about adjusting to life with not just a biological father the girls had been taken from, but also, I'd have liked more about adjusting to life with a stepmother. I will say, Melissa was one of my favorite adults in YA in a long time. She was patient, caring, and offered real bits of wisdom and hope for the girls that were such a stark contrast to everything they'd been used to.

Despite the flaws, I enjoyed this book, and it reminded me a lot of Carol Lynch Williams's Glimpse. I think this could have benefited from more, actually. There were a lot of fascinating threads and a lot of subplots to explore, but they weren't. I also felt that the ending of the book, where we finally learned the whole of what made Carey (and Nessa) who they were, left enough for real further exploration, too.

Full review here: http://www.stackedbooks.org/2013/03/i...

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Reading Progress

08/29/2012 page 45
18.0%
08/30/2012 page 100
41.0% "This is really different."
08/31/2012 page 175
71.0% "That was a bit unexpected. Maybe too unexpected. The story has me but the writing and voice are hard to buy at times."

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Belinda sheesh. you're supposed to be a librarian and should know better and it's malicious for you to give away every one of miss murdoch's plot twists and revelations in your review even with spoilers. wtf? shame on you. it's like you want to ruin it for the author and the rest of us who haven't read the book yet.


Kelly Belinda wrote: "sheesh. you're supposed to be a librarian and should know better and it's malicious for you to give away every one of miss murdoch's plot twists and revelations in your review even with spoilers. w..."

I put the plot twists behind spoilers. There's no need to do more than that.


Belinda most people are respectful including all the other people who reviewed this book without having to give up every single twist of the book. it's just wrong on so many levels. you do this with every book you review? glad i don't follow you and i stick with my original comment.


message 4: by Hollyberry (new)

Hollyberry Um Belinda, I think if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all. This is her review, if you wish to write your own, feel free.


message 5: by Carrie (new)

Carrie Belinda, honestly. How long have you been on GoodReads? Get acquainted with how things are done before you go losing your mind on people. SHEESH


Belinda i just joined goodreads but i've been using it over a year to read about books and i didnt have the time between college and two jobs before to bother joining until now. you won't see me going and getting all my friends to give you a hard time because you don't like my opinion. i didn't say anything about kelly's rating or review just that its malicious to give out every last twist and turn of an author's book when the book is their livlihoods and its like putting a piece of cake in front of a child and saying don't eat it, with the spoiler argument. the rest of what you all are saying is distractions.


message 7: by Hollyberry (new)

Hollyberry Belinda, I have no idea who Kelly is, I just don't think it is appropriate to comment the way you did. If you start reading a review and feel that they are giving away too much, then stop reading it, no need to keep reading and then say something nasty.


Belinda then why are you tweeting with kelly hollyberry1980 when you don't know who she is? that's a different hollyberry right? right. its all public you know no need to outrageously lie like that and then call me nasty. its wrong to do an author that way like she did to miss murdoch and i'm not the only one who feels that way by the way. people talking are saying its because kelly is friends with another author with a book coming out after miss murdoch's who stole miss murdoch's storyline. so kelly is helping her friend regardless of what hurt she may cause miss murdoch who i follow on twitter for years and who helps other writers and is kind and would never hurt a fly. so let me apologize to miss murdoch and say im sorry but i know you will be just fine because you are an amazing author and i know the fighting would make you sad so i'm done here.


message 9: by Hollyberry (new)

Hollyberry Yes, she is on my twitter, I follow her as a fellow book blogger, that is it, still does not mean I know her, and am "friends" with her. This is the last I am saying Belinda, I think that it was rude what you said period, I am not going to continue commenting with you, I liked Kelly's review, and it does not sound like she gave too much away.


message 10: by Cyndy (new)

Cyndy Aleo This is amazing. I managed to read the whole review -- for a book I haven't read -- and when I saw "spoiler," I skipped over it, figuring I wouldn't want to know if I read the book later on.

Then again, I am an adult and able to make decisions for myself about such things, such as trusting the reviewer. By the theory that spoiler tags shouldn't exist on Goodreads I assume that means the authors should also hold the last pages of books for ransom so we can't skip ahead and know how it ends before we get there. Maybe there could be a test or something to prove you read the book, and then they mail you the pages?


Emily Whoa, everyone.

I've been on the fence about whether to reply to this or not. I believe Goodreads is for readers and reviewers, not authors. I try not to drop in too often, unless it's out of professional courtesy. A writer friend told me about this, and before it gets out of hand ...

Belinda, thank you so much for caring so much, but it really is okay. Books are public items for public consumption. Everyone has different likes and dislikes and opinions, and that's all okay for me -- I wouldn't want it any other way!

For many of us authors, we're glad to get read and reviewed regardless, especially in an age where so many other things vie for readers' attention. Regardless of the review or rating, it's obvious to me that most reviewers care enough about books, or my book, to take the time to write out a thoughtful review. So, in that respect, all I'd ever have to say is a huge THANK YOU. Because my book is only one of many, many, MANY books, and a debut, at that.

As for the other observation you made, thank you for not naming names. I know what you're referring to because I know that author and I have to disagree with you, there. Please believe me, that author is a DOLL and it would hurt me GREATLY if she were hurt.

People often come up with similar ideas. It's just the way it is. As my husband says, "there are no original ideas". And, you could give a premise to ten different writers, and they'd all write a different story.

Thank you for ending this conversation. You're right; it does make me sad. I understand you have the right to comment and the right to your own view. But I honestly don't believe anyone meant any harm or set out to hurt anyone, including me. That hasn't been my experience, so far.

So, I hope you don't take this as me taking sides. I appreciate your concerns, but I don't think Kelly did anything wrong. She just took the time to read and review a book, for which I'm very, VERY grateful. I do hope you hold to letting this go. Because you could hurt my book, too, and it doesn't seem like you'd want to do that. Thank you!


message 12: by Belinda (last edited 12. November, 21:14 Uhr) (new) - rated it 5 stars

Belinda only for you emily because you are so nice and asked so nice and maybe are too nice. i still stand by what i said and still i find it rotten she gave away the plot and twists of a book months away from it coming out when it wasn't necessary for giving the review. others didn't do that. Hmm.


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