** spoiler alert ** On this my third read of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, I made two lists: 1) A list of every death in the book, and 2) A list of every thing that made me cry (read: sob) on the first night I read it. Several of these things were on the same list. There ended up being thirteen things on the second list, and I made it all the way to #13 without crying this time. And then, as I was typing it in my little listy thing, with absolutely no hint that it was even coming, I started sobbing uncontrollably and didn't stop for ten minutes. In the middle of all this sobbing, I turned around and saw that my cat was staring at me with an extremely worried look on his face. This made me laugh, which in turn made me cry even harder. I am a basket case.

Here's the list:

1. Dudley shakes Harry's hand as they say goodbye.
2. Hedwig dies, without any warning.
3. Harry buries Dobby's lifeless body without any magic.
4. Harry's friends and classmates insist on helping Harry defeat Voldemort. "We're his army," [Neville:] said. "Dumbledore's army." Harry realizes he doesn't have to do it alone.
5. Percy returns. "Am I too late? Has it started?" and "I was a fool!"
6. The other students band together to fight for Hogwarts and stand up to the Slytherins, who wish to hand Harry over to Voldemort.
7. Fred dies. (I knew this would happen, because it was the worst thing I could think of. Didn't stop me from crying. And incidentally, this is the point where I completely LOST IT on the first go round.)
8. Lupin and Tonks are dead. (Their baby!)
9. Harry walks into the Forbidden Forest alone to willingly face his own death. "Why had he never appreciated what a miracle he was, brain and nerve and bounding heart?"
10. James, Lily, Lupin, and Sirius accompany Harry to his death. "Does it hurt?" he asks them.
11. Hagrid (and McGonagall and Ron and Hermione and Ginny) sobbing over Harry's 'dead body'.
12. Harry speaks to Dumbledore's portrait.

and the thing that is fucking killing me now, even though it didn't really at the time:

13. Harry tells his son, Albus Severus, that Severus Snape was the bravest man he ever knew.

Fuck. There I go again.