Annaleah had a secret relationship with Brian. When Brian dies of a heart condition, Annaleah is overwhelmed by emotions and questions. Brian never told his parents about her. Also, he’d be hot and then cold with her. Why? Was he embarrassed by her? Was he seeing someone else? He could be so sweet towards her--she even lost her virginity to him--but he never made the relationship public. Annaleah visits his burial place pondering the relationship she had with him, her love and desire for him switching to ambivalence. When her friends try to pull her out of her dolorous state and when a new boy takes an interest in her, Annaleah resists because she can’t pull herself from Brian and the memories of when they were together.
I liked the book, but I thought Annaleah should have resolved her grief and mixed feelings earlier. Too much happens towards the end of the book. Also, Annaleah put too much emphasis on Brian, who was a real jerk (there’s a revelation about him at the end that hurts her deeply). At the same time, this gives Annaleah the impetus to pull herself out of her grief and move on. This is a touching verse novel and my only gripe is the pacing.