At first, I was intrigued..Here is Aysel who is obsessed with trying to find someone she can partner with so she can finally be free and commit suicidAt first, I was intrigued..Here is Aysel who is obsessed with trying to find someone she can partner with so she can finally be free and commit suicide. The feelings she goes through are very similar to someone who is depressed, but what I didn't really understand was WHY. It felt like such a flimsy reason to me. The fact that she is deathly scared that she could have the genes that her own father has that could make her go out of control? It didn't really fit for me. Roman's reason is completely understandable. What happened to him was just so sad. I kind of wanted the story to be from his point of view instead. It would have been a black hole of sadness though.
“I bet if you cut open my stomach, the black slug of depression would slide out. Guidance counselors always love to say, “Just think positively,” but that's impossible when you have this thing inside you, strangling every ounce of happiness you can muster. My body is an efficient happy-thought-killing machine.”
There's always the people who say to just snap out of it. Stop being sad and just get on with your life. Both Aysel and Roman encounter this and I could relate to these characters in that way. Depression is something that I am still going through and to see characters in books go through what I go through on a daily basis, can be quite daunting. Knowing you're not alone helps. And the hope that Aysel realizes in the end made me tear. She says something to Roman that was so beautiful and thought-provoking, it felt like she was telling it to me.
It isn't easy to place yourself in their shoes, but I believe Jasmine did a good job. A really great job actually, because it got this book nerd to look at her own life as well. That's something that the greatest books do. Relate to your own life and remind you about the beauty of life. Pick this one if you like tough topics, and a little bit of romance though that's not the main story-line (thank god). I find other books completely romanticize the state of depression or any other mental illness, but this one didn't.
There are enough broken things in the world. You shouldn't go around breaking things just for the fun of it.
Depression is like a heaviness that you can't ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty-mile hike uphill.
Depression is a part of you; it's in your bones and blood.
What people never understand is that depression isn't about the outside; it's about the inside. Something inside me is wrong.
I want to die, but I don't want to hurt anyone else.
What if this isn't the end and we just go on to a place even worse than this one?
It's like your sadness is so deep and overwhelming that you're worried it will drown everyone else in your life if you let them too close to it.
She had hope. Hope is beautiful.
I think you're crampy in a completely different way. In a beautiful way.
Maybe we all have darkness inside of us and some are better at dealing with it than others. ...more