The heart-breaking beginning almost cost me the whole book (I had to “step away” from Dan and Vadim and gather...moreWhat can I say about Special Forces 2?!
The heart-breaking beginning almost cost me the whole book (I had to “step away” from Dan and Vadim and gather my thoughts for a few days) but I came back and my guys didn’t fail me.
For every heart wrenching page the reader is gifted with another one full of companionship, trust, passion and love.
Even thought the stories are massive (almost 600 paged each) and the main characters take up the most of it it doesn't become boring, in every page you learn something new and you love the guys more (If that can even be possible). All the other side-characters (Jean, Hooch, Matt, etc, etc) piss me off and I would be better off without them.
A must read but only for the brave-hearted! (less)
Reading a Voinov book is always a unique experience! Unhinge the Universe is taking place in the climax of the Second World War somewhere in the French countryside .
Hagen is a fierce German officer, an SS soldier on a mission to find his brother Major Siegfried Friedrichs and the information he holds, when he is captured he comes face to face with John Nicholls a captain of the American army and his interrogator.
John is decoder, a man that exploits weakness and he is determined to break Hagen down, to degrade him and uncover secrets that might finish the war. But step by step John becomes protective of this captive, he is interested in his well being and he undertakes the great obligation of bringing him to safety.
Watching those two MC’s interact is like watching a game of chess, decoding words and gestures, making a step and withdrawing, giving up and retrieving power. Even the sexual play was –initially- a well balanced tool of persuasion.
“”The blade caught there, held for a second, and the thread snapped. It was a quiet snap, but Hagen somehow thought all the tension in the room would release with it, Instead it only bore down on him harder.””
I felt very intrigued by Hagen’s character, he was full of life, full of anger and fire and he thought he was indestructible until he met John. I tried to get in his mind and in his heart, how he might feel, or how any German soldier in his place might have felt; believing that they are fighting on the right side and then realizing the futility of it, trying to survive or be true to a country that is untruthful. Hagen was giving up but never really surrentering and always maintaining his integrity.
“”Now, he was the prodigal dog who’d broken his tether, run a few yards, and come trotting back with his tail between his legs when he realized he was better off with his master. John had vowed to shatter him. He’d succeeded. And now….what would he do with the pieces?””
I loved the way Hagen handled John’s injury and the scene at the hospital was breathtaking…. Plus I love their letters, so breathtaking vulnerable and so plain beautiful.
“”When I am released, will you come for me?””
I'm quite familiar with the way A. Voinov writes (can't say the same about L.A Witt but I will try to remedy that), I know that he can be poetic and I know that his words can be cut like steel but in this book the writing seems almost lyrical even when handling tough subject of captivity, bloodshed and war.
A favorite book, enought said!!!!
* This ARC was provided by Netgalley for an honest review.
"It was startlingly sweet and achingly familiar, like finding harbor. Like I had been waiting decades for this, traveling leagues, Odysseus sailing at...more"It was startlingly sweet and achingly familiar, like finding harbor. Like I had been waiting decades for this, traveling leagues, Odysseus sailing at long last into the blue crystal waters of Ithaca-- and never considering the trouble ahead."(less)
I don't know which got me more Toreth's family story, Toreth's insecurities and vulnerability or Toreth's struggle...moreI absolutely loved this story!!!!!!
I don't know which got me more Toreth's family story, Toreth's insecurities and vulnerability or Toreth's struggle to protect......
"He'd kill them, Toreth decided on the way down the corridor to General Criminal. Warrick first, then Carnac. Or maybe Carnac first, because if he was caught between murders, he'd prefer to be sure of Carnac."
Although this story is all about Warrick and his family we at last get the answer to the mystery of Toreth's family, the what and how things happened in Toreth's life to mold the man he is now.
"You know what?" Toreth said."I'm sick of living out of that fucking suitcase. I just want to have somewhere to call home."(less)
"I could've lost him, Toreth thought, the idea shockingly sudden. He could've fallen and fucking died, and then...oh, Christ, what the fuck would I ha...more"I could've lost him, Toreth thought, the idea shockingly sudden. He could've fallen and fucking died, and then...oh, Christ, what the fuck would I have done then? Unbearable." (less)
First of all it takes place in Athens (that alone deserves 5 stars)!!!!
Second I loved Toreth!!! My sweet maniac I really l...moreTotaly, completely loved it!
First of all it takes place in Athens (that alone deserves 5 stars)!!!!
Second I loved Toreth!!! My sweet maniac I really love you! (view spoiler)[ "Warrick, you're right, I am paranoid and pathetic. I had you followed because I thought you were fucking Carnac."
But (there are two buts):
Warrick WTF is wrong with you? Really dear? You will let him get away with THAT stud? without at least the silent treatment for a week?
And Paul! Is he real? what exactly does he drink, or smoke? "And while you told me many wonderful things, your address was not one of them, making you a creature of mystery as well as enchantment."
"Someone so exquisite shouldn't have a dangerous job."
"Were you to call me, you would find me speechless with rapturous ecstasy at hearing your voice again."
Whatever he is having I want it!!!! (hide spoiler)]["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>(less)
"Zane looked down at Ty, and Ty grinned. This was nothing special for Ty. In his world, every time Zane's lips touched his, something somewhere caught...more"Zane looked down at Ty, and Ty grinned. This was nothing special for Ty. In his world, every time Zane's lips touched his, something somewhere caught fire."(less)
"That's not what it's really about. The essence of it is...is losing myself, my self, and belonging to him completely. Being taken, an...moreHot As Hell!!!!!
"That's not what it's really about. The essence of it is...is losing myself, my self, and belonging to him completely. Being taken, and not just physically. Everytning else is what I need to get me there."(less)
"You've got no rights over him. You don't own him. Isn't that what you wanted? Isn't that what you asked him for? You can't even remember how many peo...more"You've got no rights over him. You don't own him. Isn't that what you wanted? Isn't that what you asked him for? You can't even remember how many people you've had since you met him. He does it once, and you are breaking fucking glasses over it. Half of the General Criminal coffee room would probably choke to death laughing if they could see you now. Pathetic fucking hypocrite."
Warrick you made it so easy for him, so easy.(less)
I loved the atmosphere! I loved Adrien! I loved the feel of his bookstore! I loved Lisa! I loved the bad guy! And this Riodan guy has such a...moreLoved it!
I loved the atmosphere! I loved Adrien! I loved the feel of his bookstore! I loved Lisa! I loved the bad guy! And this Riodan guy has such a promising start.....
"You know, this won't be an easy thing, Adrien." An officer-involved shooting was not going to be fun, righteous or not. "The investigation you mean?" "No." He gave me that crooked smile. "No, I don't mean that." I stared out at the first blush of sunrise lighting the surrounding Chatsworth hills. Despite myself, I started to smile. (less)
"This is my body, my representation in the world, controlled by my mind. I can make it do what I want. What I tell it to do. This is my body.
Only it w...more"This is my body, my representation in the world, controlled by my mind. I can make it do what I want. What I tell it to do. This is my body.
Only it wasn’t. I was Toreth’s, willing and desperate and aching to be taken. Thinking about it, about bolts in the wall and blindfolds and Toreth fucking him in chains, blanked out the noise around him, leaving him scrambling for words when the next group approached." (less)
"He looked up, looked into Warrick's eyes, and suddenly the anger was gone and he wanted him. It took his breath away, dulled the noice of the room ar...more"He looked up, looked into Warrick's eyes, and suddenly the anger was gone and he wanted him. It took his breath away, dulled the noice of the room around them. A drug hit, delivered straight into a vain and flooding his whole body at once."(less)
and I absolutely adore Toreth my sweet psychopath!!!! So vulnerable, so emotional, so scared like a lost puppie........moreI loved this one so very much!!!!!
and I absolutely adore Toreth my sweet psychopath!!!! So vulnerable, so emotional, so scared like a lost puppie......"Jealous, irrational, demanding and utterly unreasonable covers most of the relevant attributes" how can anyone NOT love him........
"Don't go yet. I want five miuites, that's all. One minute. I want you. This could be the last time I see you. This really could be the last time. I want you to - " Toreth
"I want it to stop. That's all. I just want it to stop being like this every fucking minute of every fucking day. Because I don't think I can-" Toreth
After Midnight is a spin off in the "In the Company of Shadows" series by Santino and Ais, it is a stand-alone but fans of the series will certainly love it.
This is the kind of m/m book that I really love, set in a dystopian world, cruel and pragmatic, and without the "kiss and make up" ending.
After a mission gone bad and a major lapse of judgment Agent Adam Blake finds himself to coexist with Gordon Frost. Gordon is everything I don't like in a human being, he is a drug dealer, he is a drug addict, he is insecure, he is promiscuous, and he has zero self-respect..... He can bent and roll over just to make everyone around him happy but usually he accomplishes the exact opposite.
Adam Blake is in serious trouble, the Agency (that we know and "love" from ICoS) is ready to take him off the picture but General Carhart (<3) is ordering him to infiltrate the underground organization that is trafficking the drug Pandora, the same organization that Gordon works for.
This is not a book about love; After Midnight is a book about choices, the small ones that help us make it through the day but the big ones also, the ones that defines us and the ones that makes us who we are.
Adam is a fighter, an assassin but he is also a protector!
““Pandora mutes your feeling. The purpose is to lower your inhibitions-to make you not care about the consequences of what you do.” “Yes.” That was why he liked it. “That”, Adam continued, “is a bad thing.”
Gordon, is a child, a lost soul but he can turn into a fierce fighter whenever his loved ones are in trouble.
“He focused on trying to capture this moment, on not forgetting. There was something special about coming so close to death and managing to escape. He know he would want to remember when he was sober and looking for a moment in his life when he hadn’t been completely fucked.”
There is no HEA in this book, but there is rarely any HEA in real life, and you may feel a little unfulfilled by the romance but the characters are alive and the world is absolutely gripping. If you are a fan of the series then with this book you’ll get another piece of the puzzle, if you are new to this world then you may have an appetite for the rest of the characters that live in it. Either way everybody wins!
P.S This book was given to me by a dear friend who has her name in the Acknowledgments page, Thank you and Congratulations!(less)
I finished last night! And I’ve been trying to thing what to write in this review, how can I sum up a story like this one?! And since I cannot find a...moreI finished last night! And I’ve been trying to thing what to write in this review, how can I sum up a story like this one?! And since I cannot find a proper path I’m just going to share some thoughts…… I love these guys Dan and Vadim (him a little more) and I’m so happy they finally got their HEA!!!! After a lot of tears last night today I have a big smile on my face and it’s all because of them.
My favorite points in this installment are: *BEWARE SPOILERS AHEAD*
1)Their isolation in the beginning of the book, I felt so heartbroken and so betrayed on their behalf, both wrapped up in their own problems Dan’s self pity which was essential though for the maturing of his character and Vadim’s career-seeking was also a must since he had to support them both (not the actual truth) but it was also necessary for his character to obtain objective because Vadim cannot function without an objective.
2)Konstantinov!!!! I felt tremors in my body just by mentioning his name when I saw him I nearly freaked out! I can totally relate with Vadim and his mental breakdown although I would like to see more of him during his treatment and his struggle to reach the light. It was absolutely unnecessary for me to watch Dan doing the honey-bunny with Jean during that period of time!!!!!
3)Katya and their children. It was a moment I was expecting and it turned out beautifully, not all mellow but with the proper dose of honesty. And I liked how Vadim found his children, with Nikolai a deep friendship and although we didn’t see much of Annouska I liked the way he described her in the end: “Whereas Anya was much like he’d been when he was young. Aloof, masked, fierce in her dedication to follow her own way, whatever the cost, whatever the sacrifice. A narcissist of the highest order.”
4)Their domestic life! I fucking loved watching them in their house, behaving like a totally normal couple with the cooking duties and the coffes at the kitchen table! Totally abso-fucking-lutely loved it!!!!! And no one not even George or Jean are going to take that image away from me!!!!
5)Bonus points to Beouvais and St. John and of course to Dima and Markus gay couples with steady relationships based in honesty and love, the exact same thing as Jean (!#*!*$&!#%&$#@#!)
6)And finally their wedding, not in a million years I could have thought that I could actually be invited to their wedding!!!!! From the way Vadim actually proposed to Dan and the flat and practical logic behind the actual cause. I actually didn’t understand how the tears started running from my eyes but at some point I couldn’t read and my hubs started shouting what was wrong!!!!!!!!!! The kilt, the steel rings, the all essential lapis lazuli and most of all their family! Dunkan calling Vadim brother: ““We have long ago welcomed you into our family.” Duncan said to Vadim, with his warm smile, arms open, “let us welcome you once more, brother in law.” Vadim embraced him with no second thought, just the word “brother” held a strange magic for somebody who couldn’t imagine how it could have been, growing up as a team, sharing blood like that. Brother and sister in law.” Dan saying “I love you” to Maggie using after all those years her name instead of Ma’am! Dr. Williams being so proud at Vadim and the life he accomplished despite everything that has happened to him. And the actual ending of this journey Vadim and Dan lying in bed happy and married just sharing the same dream right at that point. “”And in the meantime, the world has changed Just for us.” Vadim grinned, liking that preposterous idea. “They ended the Cold War, made marriage possible…” Just for us. As if. But it was a nice indulgence to joke about it. “Sure, just for us.” Dan chuckled softly. “And they made sure they put a lot of people into the world, just for is, to have friends, mates, and family.” The most joyful and optimistic thought! Just imaging the world changing to accommodate me !!!! But Vadim and Dan deserved it and they deserve much, much more!
Well, that was just about all I had to say! During this journey I came across many things I didn’t like, things that freaked me out and raised my blood pressure to high and dangerous levels and there are all connected to infidelity. It is something that’s quite hard for me to understand and to consent but I’m not going to mention them here, I’m going to remember Dan and Vadim always with such a sweetness which almost amazing even to me. I love those guys! (less)