This book was not at all what I thought it would be. From the jacket, it makes it sound as though it's going to be funny - a kind of dark humor that IThis book was not at all what I thought it would be. From the jacket, it makes it sound as though it's going to be funny - a kind of dark humor that I usually really like. There were moments to be sure, but really, this book was just sad. Not in a bad way though, more in the "I want to lunge in this book and give Leigh a hug" kind of way. Sometimes I wanted to smack her, too. However, I got it - I got why she held herself back from embracing life, and it wasn't as though her parents were any big help. Her parents were kind of really neglectful and terrible. One scene gave me a different side of Wade (Leigh's dad), and it made me see him a bit differently. Not enough to completely think he didn't need to step up and be there for Leigh (a few driving lessons were not going to cut it).
Really, this book is about Leigh grieving for her friend, for the life that she once had but lost, for having to move and adjust to living life in a cemetery. She became the saint, in a manner of speaking, that Dario said she was. She just shouldered so much and eventually she broke and it was beautiful and moving when she did. It brought me to tears. I love that she finally was able to grieve and let it all go and it was nice to see her metamorphosis that was not at all forced or sudden. It was done realistically which I completely appreciate.
This was one of those books where I didn't feel the writing was all that strong, but I couldn't put it down either, and I was intrigued enough to wantThis was one of those books where I didn't feel the writing was all that strong, but I couldn't put it down either, and I was intrigued enough to want to read the next two books. I don't mean to say the writing was bad, but the dialogue threw me at times. The teens didn't really talk like teens, and Belly still acted like a 10 year old at times. She spent all this time wanting to be seen as matured, but then she did and said childish things.
I liked both Conrad and Jeremiah, but I did think Conrad was a bit of a dick and wondered why Belly bothered. I liked Cam, I felt like he was a calming influence on Belly and was sad to see him so abruptly dropped. I did have a hard time seeing Jeremiah as anything but the class clown. That made it difficult for me to see him as a real romantic contender for Belly's heart.
I liked Belly's mother and Susannah, but they didn't feel all that developed to me. Still, I was sad that Susannah was sick again (and rather saw that one coming from the start).
I am intrigued enough to read the rest of the trilogy despite not being sure if I really liked this one all that much.
So, Belly is dating Jeremiah at the start of this and all seems pretty great until Belly finds out that during a Ross and Rachel kind of break, JeremiSo, Belly is dating Jeremiah at the start of this and all seems pretty great until Belly finds out that during a Ross and Rachel kind of break, Jeremiah had sex with some girl during spring break in Cabo. Jeremiah's way of atoning for this fuck up? He proposes.
And Belly accepts!
Not only are they too young for this and ill-prepared but why was this the answer to their problems?! Was it just a way to bring Conrad back into the picture so he could fuck with Belly's heart again? Jeremiah became a bit of a douche. Like a frat boy douche that you knew meant well and was a really good guy, but had to get partying and all that junk out of his system first. Conrad, pre-med, was kind of above all that. So was Belly.
I kind of felt like Jeremiah's character took some unnecessary hits. I wasn't really Team Conrad or Team Jeremiah to begin with. I felt like Belly needed something other than them in her life.
I was pleased with the ending even if I still thought that Conrad was an ass. Even in his confession to her about how he still loved her he was a jackass. And then to attempt to take it all away and say he was drunk just for the sake of pride...? No. It just made him look like an ass to do that. Even in taking blame he still managed to blame Belly for his mistakes.
How did I find myself sucked into this series? I'm such a sucker.
Belly on Conrad:
As for Conrad every time he opens his mouth:
He's such an ass! MoreHow did I find myself sucked into this series? I'm such a sucker.
Belly on Conrad:
As for Conrad every time he opens his mouth:
He's such an ass! More than once I wanted to just smack the shit out of him. We get it, Conrad, your mom died and your Dad is an ass and you're sad, but that doesn't mean you treat the people that are trying to help you and love you like shit.
I thought I wanted Belly to end up with Conrad. Then I thought maybe even Jeremiah. But really, I would prefer she end up with someone who deserves her. I'm not sure these two do.
This book was wonderful. There were times when I felt the urge to cry because of the flashbacks Amy had of her family when it was whole. I felt her paThis book was wonderful. There were times when I felt the urge to cry because of the flashbacks Amy had of her family when it was whole. I felt her pain. It made me want to call my Dad and tell him I love him.
It was perfectly paced and I really liked the injection of pictures and factoids about each state. It made their trip feel very real, like I was a passenger with them. With this "epic detour" Roger and Amy went on, Amy was finally able to put some ghosts to rest so to speak. She was finally able to get to a place where she could heal. And Roger was able to put to rest a few things as well.
A thrilling sequel to The Program! I enjoyed this book, as we got a little bit deeper into Realm's character. He's the one that you like one minute anA thrilling sequel to The Program! I enjoyed this book, as we got a little bit deeper into Realm's character. He's the one that you like one minute and loathe the next. And then kind of feel sorry for. Plus, we get deeper into The Program and just how terrible they really are and all they are willing to do to keep their program going. I'm still not sure how I feel about Dallas...I kind of disliked her for a while and I know that in the e-book novella, she is in it with Realm. I am curious about him, because man he is a fascinating character...if a bit of a jackass.
This was an interesting sort of book. The narrator was rather detached in the way he reported on some things which I found an interesting choice...somThis was an interesting sort of book. The narrator was rather detached in the way he reported on some things which I found an interesting choice...sometimes an irritating choice. I am still not sure if that was because of the "wallflower" aspect of observing without any emotion behind the observation, or if it was due to the fact that as Sam deduced at the end, he was never really present in anything that happened, he just let them happen. (A throwback to how he was taken advantage of by "fragile aunt Helen?). I thought a few times that perhaps Charlie had some form of Aspergers.
Charlie's detachment to things caused me to have a certain level of detachment. He talks about Michael (his friend who committed suicide), and he talks about how much he cried, but I felt like I just couldn't really grasp Charlie's sadness about it. It was just kind of like "Well, this happened and that happened and I felt very bad about it." I suppose I was just looking for more.
There was so much crammed into this 213 page book: abuse, suicide, abortion, homophobia, rape - and I for the most part felt like these issues were skimmed over. How many people did Charlie know that suffered some kind of horrific abuse? Sam, his sister, his mother, Brad, Aunt Helen, his Dad. It just felt too much like the author wanted to cram all these things in a book because he wanted to start a discussion about it, or for us to feel deeply about it, but the narrative left me feeling disengaged from what was going on and from all the crying Charlie did.
The ending was rather abrupt. There was no real lead in to Charlie remembering what his Aunt Helen did to him. It all felt rushed and wrapped up a little too quickly. I'm not sure what I was looking for, but just MORE.
Wow. Just wow. This book was raw and very rough to read in a few areas. This is about a teenager named Valerie whose boyfriend shoots up their school,Wow. Just wow. This book was raw and very rough to read in a few areas. This is about a teenager named Valerie whose boyfriend shoots up their school, killing and wounding several people. People think that Valerie had something to do with it because of their Hate List. It was a list of people that they hated. But where Valerie was just venting, Nick was plotting. Valerie missed the cues that he was really serious about how much he hated these people and wanted the dead. But who would think: hey, I think he's going to go on a rampage.
The thing that I liked most about this book was that Nick was not painted as just this monster who did this horrible thing and should then be condemned and hated by everyone who loved him before. No. Valerie still loves Nick because she saw a different Nick. A softer Nick. And Nick is still loved by his best friend, too. Plenty of people saw Nick as someone with rage in his heart and just a bad seed. You don't often get the OTHER side of the situation when it comes to these things. It made me hurt for Nick as well, knowing that he had these hidden depths that the world would never know him for because all they would remember was that he was the monster that shot up his school. What Nick did was wrong - anyone doing something that heinous deserves to be punished for their crimes. However, some people are not ALL bad, and some people are not ALL good. Granted, yes, there are truly evil people in this world (Eric Harris, Columbine), but some people are suffering and we just don't know it.
I loved this book. It was a real meditation on every person that suffers when a tragedy like that happens. How those left behind are left to pick up the pieces, and how the media can be a dangerous thing indeed in these kind of cases.
I really liked this book, even if it did get a little depressing at times. The subject matter was not light, but it was real. It ended on a positive nI really liked this book, even if it did get a little depressing at times. The subject matter was not light, but it was real. It ended on a positive note, which I am always a fan of.
At first I wasn't sure I was going to like Mandy, the pregnant teen and the other narrator besides Jill. She kind of irritated me at first and I just kept picturing some trashy trailer park teen. As her story unfolded though, I began to understand her better and felt bad for her for the things she had to go through.
I really liked the depiction of Jill and Dylan's relationship. I've had relationships like theirs - where you nitpick at each other and don't really get the other person and it's always tense and a little awkward. And of course I loved Jill's budding relationship with Ravi. Sometimes it was hard to read, but I liked that Jill clicked with him and was able to share with him her grief over losing her Dad in a way that she couldn't with her Dylan and even her "friends".
Christ. This book slayed me. It was just so raw. I saw myself in Oliver, and I saw myself in Althea, even though I felt as though I am nothing like eiChrist. This book slayed me. It was just so raw. I saw myself in Oliver, and I saw myself in Althea, even though I felt as though I am nothing like either of them. I think it was mostly I could relate to their relationship and their situation.
Spoilers ahead, don't continue if you don't want to know.
This is the first time I've read a book about guy and girl bff's that don't end up together. And in a way, I don't think it would have worked if they did even if I was still holding out hope until the bitter end. These two could bring out the best and worst in each other and maybe that would not have worked for them at all. Althea needed to find herself, her place in the world that was independent of Oliver, and Oliver needed to do the same without Althea. Although I felt that Oliver knew who he was and what he wanted. His disease didn't do him any favors and it fucked him up, but he was still Oliver. He still knew who he was. Althea did not know who she was at all, except angry, very very angry.
My heart still hurts for Althea not getting what she wanted, but I liked that she knew she would survive without Oliver. She might carry that hurt around for a while, but she would eventually put it behind her. I hope anyway. It's what I want for her. I have to say, also, that this is the first time a book has made me sad and no died! ...more
I'm not sure I can even think of the words to review this book. I think I am still in shock. It gutted me, and yet it ended on a hopeful note...Wow. JI'm not sure I can even think of the words to review this book. I think I am still in shock. It gutted me, and yet it ended on a hopeful note...Wow. Just wow. ...more