"(...)I discovered that there are two kinds of death. There is ceasing to exist, usually accompanied by a funeral and loved ones in mourning. And the"(...)I discovered that there are two kinds of death. There is ceasing to exist, usually accompanied by a funeral and loved ones in mourning. And then there is emotional death born out of necessity and measured solely by the absence of grief it causes: the turning off the lights of oneself in order to shut down the feelings of beeing alive. Eventually I just checked out of the world altogether, leaving behind only my body, like a snail abandoning its shell. Sometimes I would catch myself in the mirror, surprised to see someone staring back at me, a stranger whose face I struggled to connect as my own, whose body was visible and intact despite the feeling that I moved through the world as a ghost."
INCREDIBLE. HYPNOTIC. HEARTBREAKING.
"MY MOTHER WORE the sun like a hat. It followed her as we did, stopping only when she stopped, moving when she moved. She carried her beauty with the naivete of someone who was born to it and thus never understood its value or the poverty of ugliness."
Dysfunctional family. A narcissistic mentally ill mother craves attention and adoration . A teenage girl who has been physically and emotionally damaged almost beyond redemption. A secret so big that she's blocked it from her own memory. Craving for mothers attention. Finding it in all the wrong places...
This story is told in waves between reality and flashbacks from childhood by an unreliable narrator with poetic strength. Writing style is captivating. The First Time She Drowned is dark, disturbing and complex story of a mother and daughter relationship that is both difficult and toxic. Painful and horribly raw. It is truly something that everyone needs to read. It's an eye-opener.
Congratulations Ms. Kletter - you are simply a gem of a find. You have definitely gained a lifelong fan. Wow. Just wow.
"Suddenly I don't even care that I fell, because of that brief moment when I stood, and I wonder if this is what other people seem to have that I do not -- this courage to fall because they have the memory of standing."...more
Jedna od najboljih knjiga našeg govornog područja koju sam pročitala...ikada. Započinje kao idilična obiteljska priča, a završava kao tragedija. JedvaJedna od najboljih knjiga našeg govornog područja koju sam pročitala...ikada. Započinje kao idilična obiteljska priča, a završava kao tragedija. Jedva čekam nabaviti ostale knjige ovoga autora....more
Dear Book, you broke my heart yet I'm loving you with all the broken pieces...
"I was alive. I burned brightly. And then I died, but notDear Book, you broke my heart yet I'm loving you with all the broken pieces...
"I was alive. I burned brightly. And then I died, but not really. Because someone like me cannot, will not, die like everyone else. I linger like the legends of the Blue Hole. I will always be here, in the offerings and people I left behind."
"May your eye go to the Sun, To the wind your soul... You are all the colors in one, at full brightness."
"But that´s not him, don´t you see? People like Theodore Finch don´t die. He´s just wandering."
It started pretty boring. This girl, Keaton, is really messed up and stupid (if you ask me). She has some issues and she's making all the wrong decisiIt started pretty boring. This girl, Keaton, is really messed up and stupid (if you ask me). She has some issues and she's making all the wrong decisions...
The story has some loopholes and I didn´t expect much from it but then it turned out to be a major mind-fuck!
I recommend it to my friends with slightly different taste for mind-fuck books. It reminded me a bit on Dark Duet series.
4 stars...5 stars...4,5 stars.. My professional deformations is to always give a higher rating, so to be true to myself, Ill give this amazing book 5 s4 stars...5 stars...4,5 stars.. My professional deformations is to always give a higher rating, so to be true to myself, I´ll give this amazing book 5 splendid stars!
I loved these characters, Alex is my hero and my girl crush, I admire her. And I loved Blue Eyed Boy or Miles. The story is definitely something different and writing style is really good.
Good work Mrs Zappia! Can´t wait your next book! You have another follower...
What a great book. Perfect reading. Cant write review right now cause I must find a second book...What a great book. Perfect reading. Can´t write review right now cause I must find a second book......more
My note to Brant, Lee and all the other guys from this book:
Unexpected things are those that change our lifes, and if I had to choose one word to descMy note to Brant, Lee and all the other guys from this book:
Unexpected things are those that change our lifes, and if I had to choose one word to describe this book it would be UNEXPECTED.
Books that are out of the ordinary have their own special appeal and this book I consider the unusual, the bizarre, and the new.
Firstly I hated the main female character , pretentious Layana. She was so much like Olivia from The Opportunistor Amy in second part of book Gone Girl. She is rich and spoiled, rotten cheater and you tell me, what a female character is allowed to get away with behaviour that? Well, this girl can get away with this! Why? I don´t want to tell you because i want that you all read this book.She is a main female characters who exhibits great resilience and courage. And I loved it!
Brant? Brant Sharp is a self-made billionaire, a true genius, and major philanthropist that just also happens to be gorgeous. A classical too good to be true male character. And...he has a big dark secret. And there comes Lee, our tortured hero. And then we have one wicked aunt/bitch Jilian.
Secrets, cheating and love triangle. You think you heard it all. Boy you are so wrong!
Alexandra Torre is obviously an evil genius when it comes to dropping small hints that aren’t really hints and making you HOPE for things you shouldn’t hope for. She is an excellent author. My point is that Black Lies is a total masterpiece. You think you know, but you have no idea until you read it.
Black Lies gets FIVE deliciously deceptive stars from me! ...more
"Sarah Clark felt like a freak for two and a half years. It started when she received a leather-bound copy of Othello for her twelfth birthday and en"Sarah Clark felt like a freak for two and a half years. It started when she received a leather-bound copy of Othello for her twelfth birthday and ended when her English teacher showed her exactly what was meant by the beast with two backs."
I don't have any idea on how to rate this book. I don´t even know what to think about it! That´s how confused I am right now. This book is too toxic, too dark, too twisted, too shocking, too depresing...simply too fucked-up. It´s definitely too much for me.
I hated main characters. They are almost despicable! Sarah Clark, as a 14 year old child, was a victim of abuse by her 24 years older English teacher and she liked it (because of a lack of parental warmth). Later, she had a sick sexual affair with him until he left her because of his family. As sweet sixteen she was raped and her family turned their backs to her. Her only "safe harbour" was her BFF Jamie, and she ruined him too... As a young woman (21) she is beautiful and smart, but she is also self-destructive sex-addict, she´s sad, broken and miserable... Mr Daniel Carr, her English teacher, is a manipulating, cruel, psyhotic bastard and sadistic pedophile... In my opinion, there is NO excuse for a man in Mr Carr´s position taking advantage of a girl who thinks she´s more grown up than she is. A teacher having sex with an under-age student is wrong in all kinds of ways, and nothing makes it right.
Who is The Beast in this book? They both are. And the beast could not be tamed...
Should you read this book? Frankly, I don´t know...
P.S. I'm surprised that noone of the characters in this book contracted STDs....more
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been Review from Way Too Hot Books
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been guilty all along..."
SHE is a 16 year old manipulative, cold, calculating and sadistic control freak and she is aggressor here. This Lolita , seed of evil, who's also the protagonist isn't even likable. She lives with her aunt and uncle who "don't understand her", and spends time drawing pornographic and sadistic sketches where she is the one in control and inflicting pain and humiliation on her female school friends. This book is written in the form of a letter that this girl is writing to her ex-lover, teacher, to explain her side of things...
"I wasn´t born innocent. My instincts were vicious, predatory, from the start. When I met you, I had been a voyeur as long as I´d had eyes. My very reflexes were sadistic. The ascent of my reason from the animal ways of infanthood served only to give a form to my state, as a painter gives shape to a colour. It seemed I learned to think in order to fantasise."
HE is the 34-year-old teacher and he begins by worshipping this girl from afar because he knows how morally wrong it would be for him to act upon his desire. He puts her on her a pedestal and becomes obsessed with her, but from afar. She initiates everything, she manipulates him and seduces and controls. She is really topping him from below. But...she teased and pushed and pushed "her darling" (the teacher) until his untamed sexual beast was unleashed and he hurt her in the unforgivable way. She awakened something violent and kinky in this poor guy and she is devastated just because that one time she wasn´t in control...
WHO IS GUILTY HERE? In this extraoridinarily dark psihosexual book they are both innocents: she´s inexperienced but manipulative aggressor, and he is naive but experienced victim.
"I understood that there is another path of innocence: that it can be attained like wisdom. I knew that I am a kind of Holy Innocent, after all. One of God´s special cases. Blundering around inside my own instincts, handicapped. I´m like a Holy Idiot; a retarded child who is closer to Heaven because of his disability. A kind of holy pervert, who struggles every day to be good"
It´s extraoridinary that author Cathy Coote was only 19 years old when she wrote this extremely complex book. Whole the time I was wondering where were aunt and uncle all this time and why they never done anything to stop her from running away from home. I thought that this was some plot hole. But, later I found out that in Australia, where this story takes place, the age of consent is 16.
BE AWARE: This IS NOT a romatic love story! Sexual scenes are too graphic and obscene. They were detailed, but I didn't think they were horrific. I can't recommend this as a general read, but for those interested in the subject matter of Lolita Complex or student-teacher relationship.
"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes youre speeding through it, missing the sign"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes you´re speeding through it, missing the signs and by the time you reach the end of it you have thoughts, recollections, and moments where you realize you haven´t really lived.
And that´s the thing about life. It goes way too fast. At least mine did..."
I waited so long to read this book and I have to admit that it was worth every minute of waiting. When I saw the cover first time, I thought it would be just another romantic happy ending. Boy, I was wrong...
Imagine modern Romeo and Juliet. Imagine what would happen if Romeo and Juliet were set in 1950s in America. Than put Juliet in Psych ward and see what will happen...
I can´t summarize the amazing experience I have had while reading this book. This series is one of my all-time favorites!
This time I don´t won´t to write long review with many reasons why you should read this book/series. Please my friends, trust me on this one and just read it.
I believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, bI believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, because no matter what I say, I won't be able to describe the strong feelings this novel evocates in me. I will just tell you, this is a story you don't want to miss.
Jenny rat is very realistic, raw, gritty, brutal, terrifying and painfully honest story of self-discovery. This is a kind of book that will give you a healthy dose of realism. It has the kind of characters that will make you feel their struggle, frustration, anger, pain and happiness as if it was yours.
Gianetta Chinchinello or Jenny Rat is 14 years old street child prostitute. She is been dealing with a very difficult situation for more than a few years: she was in incestuous relationship with her father and she blames herself for his suicide. Because of that she reminds me a lot of Nabokov’s “Lolita.” It was hard to get past the fact that she let him do the things he did and still stayed with him and loved him. It was almost like she had a sort of sick fetish for it - but later on in the book, bits and pieces are revealed that helped me to view the situation differently. Her mother hated her because of that, and after fathers death she was raising her to prostitute her to child molesters. After her mother left her, she became a street prostitute, surviving rape on the streets, malnourishment and sickness.
Jenny was a very inspirational character. She has some kind of split-personality: one half is sweet artistic Jenny, and second half is rot and evil Dirty Little Rat, and her life is struggle all the time.
"There is Little Rat, and there´s Jenny, both. Like the restaurant woman, two of us. I´m tired. I can´t think properly. Can´t decide what to do."
"I am a little slut, a filthy rat. I´ve been spoiled, dirtied and I´m twisted inside. It´s all I am. Just used up and twisted. There´s only one thing I can do now, one thing I am good for. That´s all I have for you."
And than we come to Michael Ingram, or Michelangelo, Jenny´s personal angel and savior. He is consulting engineer and he´s living alone outside of town because he has some kind of agoraphobia. After he saves Jenny, he visits her in the hospital and she opens up to him so Michael grows closer to her, as if she were his responsibility, his daughter. She has no place to stay when she leaves the hospital, and Michael wants her to live with him. With the help of social worker, she ends up in his home...
They both are struggling to survive in a world with time on its hands. This book is full of sociological and philosophical issues. Characters are coping by discussing some of the key themes of Existentialist philosophy and literature, and briefly mentioning some of the main existentialist authors. Existentialist theories bored the hell out of me in my high school, but in this book I found it captivating.
It's difficult to take a serious problem like abusive relationships, incest, domestic violence, prostitution and homeless teens and convert them into a story that captures reality without going over the top drama, but this author did a fantastic job here.
Overall, this book blew me away. It truly truly did. It was an emotional ride from the very first page. Mr Simons was not afraid to show his readers that life and stories aren't always sunshine and roses. People hurt other people. Life events can break you. Some situations are nearly impossible to deal with. Sometimes fighting and surviving is the only thing you can do. I highly recommend this book to everyone!
WARNING: Be aware of some violence, language, and sexual situations.
*I received a review copy of this title from the publisher via NetGalley*...more
Pretty good book. When I started reading it I thought this would be my next The Sea of Tranquility. I really wanted to fall in love with this book jusPretty good book. When I started reading it I thought this would be my next The Sea of Tranquility. I really wanted to fall in love with this book just like so many of my friends did. Unfortunately, I'm sad to say that I was a little disappointed. I'm not saying that this book was bad, because it wasn't. It was nicely written, had a nice pace and charming characters (especially Micha), but there was a certain lack of energy to it. This book didn't blow me away, but it held my interest long enough to finish it....more