This is an amazing book. It reminds me a lot on Before I Fall. An emotional rollercoaster is an understatement. Fall into Place definitely deserves aThis is an amazing book. It reminds me a lot on Before I Fall. An emotional rollercoaster is an understatement. Fall into Place definitely deserves a standing ovation because the author, Amy Zhang, is a high-school student! Bravo!!! *.*
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been Review from Way Too Hot Books
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been guilty all along..."
SHE is a 16 year old manipulative, cold, calculating and sadistic control freak and she is aggressor here. This Lolita , seed of evil, who's also the protagonist isn't even likable. She lives with her aunt and uncle who "don't understand her", and spends time drawing pornographic and sadistic sketches where she is the one in control and inflicting pain and humiliation on her female school friends. This book is written in the form of a letter that this girl is writing to her ex-lover, teacher, to explain her side of things...
"I wasn´t born innocent. My instincts were vicious, predatory, from the start. When I met you, I had been a voyeur as long as I´d had eyes. My very reflexes were sadistic. The ascent of my reason from the animal ways of infanthood served only to give a form to my state, as a painter gives shape to a colour. It seemed I learned to think in order to fantasise."
HE is the 34-year-old teacher and he begins by worshipping this girl from afar because he knows how morally wrong it would be for him to act upon his desire. He puts her on her a pedestal and becomes obsessed with her, but from afar. She initiates everything, she manipulates him and seduces and controls. She is really topping him from below. But...she teased and pushed and pushed "her darling" (the teacher) until his untamed sexual beast was unleashed and he hurt her in the unforgivable way. She awakened something violent and kinky in this poor guy and she is devastated just because that one time she wasn´t in control...
WHO IS GUILTY HERE? In this extraoridinarily dark psihosexual book they are both innocents: she´s inexperienced but manipulative aggressor, and he is naive but experienced victim.
"I understood that there is another path of innocence: that it can be attained like wisdom. I knew that I am a kind of Holy Innocent, after all. One of God´s special cases. Blundering around inside my own instincts, handicapped. I´m like a Holy Idiot; a retarded child who is closer to Heaven because of his disability. A kind of holy pervert, who struggles every day to be good"
It´s extraoridinary that author Cathy Coote was only 19 years old when she wrote this extremely complex book. Whole the time I was wondering where were aunt and uncle all this time and why they never done anything to stop her from running away from home. I thought that this was some plot hole. But, later I found out that in Australia, where this story takes place, the age of consent is 16.
BE AWARE: This IS NOT a romatic love story! Sexual scenes are too graphic and obscene. They were detailed, but I didn't think they were horrific. I can't recommend this as a general read, but for those interested in the subject matter of Lolita Complex or student-teacher relationship.
This book had me in a love/hate relationship. I found the first half of this book rather boring and very repetitive.This simply wasn't my cup of tea.
This book had me in a love/hate relationship. I found the first half of this book rather boring and very repetitive. I felt like the story was predictable and a little too dramatic at some points. I liked the writing style. It was poetic and beautiful. I didn't like the characters: Maise is anoying and self centered and Evan, or should I say Eric, is weird. Their teacher-student relationship has nothing to do with my opinion of them, and I have no issue with their age difference. In my opinion this even wasn´t pedophillia. I just didn´t fall in love with these characters or their story. The whole story sounded to me like Taming the Beast wants to be Slammed.
All in all it wasn’t my cup of tea and I won’t be repeating the experience anytime soon. 3 Stars is the best I could do. This book has some great reviews and you may enjoy it. But, it just wasn't for me....more
Reading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t stReading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t stop even if it hurts. We, masochistic readers, we know it, we understand it... and still, we do it. All we can do is suffer the pain, and tell ourselves it was well worth it. Sad things can be beautiful. That´s exactly what Autumn said and noone understood her. Well, Autumn and Ms Nowlin, we understand you and we appreciate the pain. It was well worth it...
Well, there was one weird girl...
...and she fell in love with her best friend but she didn't notice him like that.
...And than there was one big misunderstanding and they grew apart. They grew apart for four long years even though they saw each other on a daily basis.
“I've loved him my whole life, and somewhere along the way, that love didn't change but grew. It grew to fill the parts of me that I did not have when I was a child. It grew with every new longing of my body and desire until there was not a piece of me that did not love him. And when I look at him, there is no other feeling in me.”
...And just when life finally brought them together, this star-crossed lovers were separated by cruel fate.
I can see some of the roses still blooming in my mother´s garden. Brown on the edges and bright in other colors, their petals drooping downward, dying just as their lives have begun. They stayed past their time, and I´ve realized that I have too.
Do you want to know how they were separated? Just read this book! I promise you, you won't regret it! ...more
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, uReview posted on Way Too Hot Books
This book just blew me away!
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, unpredictable and beautiful. This book is a definite MUST HAVE!
An older man and a teenage girl. Bittersweet romance. Your first thought must be Lolita? High school teacher and troubled student. Sounds like a recipe for disaster or at least some jail time. But, although situations like this would ordinarily cause me to cringe because I´m a school teacher, I actually felt... hope for these two tragically broken people... This is a taboo romance story with student-teacher relationship in which there are no stereotypical predators or victims. These people are damaged, but are they monsters in this book? No, they just made some bad decisions and this sure is their complicated love story. Monsters are some other characters who ruined their lives in the start.
The story is told in Jenna's voice as she "confesses" the truth of an incident into a policeman's tape recorder. Her family is dysfunctional (Psycho dad/cheater, alchocolic mother, grandfather- pedophile, a brother away at war...) and she finds escape in delusions and pain (selfharm). She is a cutter and she spend some time in Psycho ward. Then she moves to a new school and meets Mr. Anderson. He becomes the only one who sees her and brings her to the truth, but he is just as broken as she is...
" I´d never heard a man cry before, Bob, but...it´s awful. (...) I think some man aren´t used to it and don´t know what to do with all that feeling. Their emotions are hexane ignited in their chests and rips them apart, and then they feel like they´re going to die-just as something was dying, at that moment in Mitch."
Two of them pull strength from each other's tragedies... but, at the same time, they destroy each other and themselves.
“They call it the drowning instinct. It´s when drowning doesn´t look like drowning. In real life, if the water´s very cold, a person can´t help but gasp. It´s reflex. The thing is as soon as water hits your lungs, your throat closes off, even it the water´s warm. Your body´s trying to protect itself, and the reality is that a lot more people suffocate than truly drown. Regardless, to people on land, especially when you´re really close to the end, you don´t look like you´re in trouble. You don´t scream, but that´s because you can ´t, and you don´t wave your arms either or expend a lot of energy flailing. You´re just there. So people don´t notice that you´re drowning. That´s me. I think I´ve been drowning all this time and doing it so quietly, even I didn´t know it.”
My favorite part is the ending:
"You probably want me to regret Mitch. You want me to see that he lied, was some kind of predator; that I´m the victim, like you said. But Mitch was broken, too, in his way and just as much a hostage to his past and his mistakes. Maybe by trying to fix me, he was also healing himself in the only way he knew how. Oh, I can just hear you now. You and every therapist who ever lived will say that I´m rationalizing, that I´ve identified with a monster, just like those kids do who are kidnapped and live in a cage for twenty years. You´ll want to see me as damaged somehow, and then you´ll try to cure me. Well, I got news for you, Bobby-o. Cured is just synonym for coming around to your way of thinking. Cured is the word you use when I finally agree. But here´s the problem with that, Bobby-o. You and the therapists can yammer until you´re blue in the face, but I just can´t agree with you and probably never will. Because Mitch gave me love. He handed me back my life and that doesn´t make me a victim."
Ilsa J. Bick has a way with words. This is possibly one of the most emotionally intense books I have ever read. This story has a bittersweet romance and a plot that leads you on an emotional roller coaster.
I recommend it to anyone who wants to read something that is neither black nor white, but just like the real life, very very grey....more
Well, I am a little, how could I say... disappointed.
I was literally bored for the first 75% of World After. All the time I kept waiting for somethingWell, I am a little, how could I say... disappointed.
I was literally bored for the first 75% of World After. All the time I kept waiting for something to happen. Maybe It's my fault. After reading Angelfall I had extremly high expectations for this book. Raffe doesn't appear in the book at all until the last 25% of the book and do I even have to say that World After without Raffe in the picture sucks. Last 80 pages were pretty awesome: there was action, battles, Paige goes wild and Penryn and Raffe were together after all this time but...last 80 pages were not enough for 5 stars.
Despite my disappointment, this book was solid, and I´m looking forward to the next instaliment....more
Do you remember the ´90s? Nirvana. Metallica. Red Hot Chili Peppers. U2.& R.E.M. Thake That, New Kids on the Block, Backstreet Boys & Spice GiDo you remember the ´90s? Nirvana. Metallica. Red Hot Chili Peppers. U2.& R.E.M. Thake That, New Kids on the Block, Backstreet Boys & Spice Girls. Famoust TV-shows: Friends, Step by Step, The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air... Windows 95 was The Best! We used to listen to the radio all day long just to record our favorite song of all time on a TAPE. Boom boxes and walkmans were such a great thing. We recorded stuff on VCRs and rented VHS tapes, not DVDs. We were getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons...
“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, bu“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, but it was extremely good! There were some sweet moments too, some good messages, jokes and sarcasm. Several times I have asked myself while reading this book: "Are schools really like that? Are we really like that?" Well, yes, we are! Chelsea is a perfect example for one half of teens, but she learns her lesson and moves on better then she was before.
This book should be taught in every school and read by the students and parents as well. It is definitely an eye opener because these things happen. Its not entirely fiction... ...more
Marriage. Babies. Aliens in Vegas. The freaking world was coming to an end.
Well, this book is not going to disappoint you! I dare you to set it down durMarriage. Babies. Aliens in Vegas. The freaking world was coming to an end.
Well, this book is not going to disappoint you! I dare you to set it down during it´s last hundred pages. I DARE YOU!
P.S. I laughed my head off when I read acknowledgments! "(...)Daryl Dixon from The Walking Dead also was a big help. Not sure why, but I think he and his cut-off shirt look good in my acknowledgments."...more
I love this book. It made me laugh and cry. I adored the characters, especially Drea, Justin and grandma. They were realistic and lovable. The writingI love this book. It made me laugh and cry. I adored the characters, especially Drea, Justin and grandma. They were realistic and lovable. The writing is witty and easy to read. This is another must-read!...more
(view spoiler)[This might sound bad or even horrible but the only good thing in this book is when Alaska dies. Sorry, guys. But this book was a huge d(view spoiler)[This might sound bad or even horrible but the only good thing in this book is when Alaska dies. Sorry, guys. But this book was a huge disappointment to me. (hide spoiler)]...more
This was such a sweet book about a family, friendship, love and music. Last 25% blew me away! I am a big fan of Jimi Hendrix and Kurt Cobain so this wasThis was such a sweet book about a family, friendship, love and music. Last 25% blew me away! I am a big fan of Jimi Hendrix and Kurt Cobain so this was pretty awesome to me. ...more
“Once upon a time, there was a girl who talked to the moon. And she was mysterious and she was perfect, in that way that girls who talk to moons are.“Once upon a time, there was a girl who talked to the moon. And she was mysterious and she was perfect, in that way that girls who talk to moons are. In the house next door, there lived a boy. And the boy watched the girl grow more and more perfect, more and more beautiful with each passing year. He watched her watch the moon. And he began to wonder if the moon would help him unravel the mystery of the beautiful girl. So the boy looked into the sky. But he couldn't concentrate on the moon. He was too distracted by the stars. And it didn't matter how many songs or poems had already been written about them, because whenever he thought about the girl, the stars shone brighter. As if she were the one keeping them illuminated..."