"Sarah Clark felt like a freak for two and a half years. It started when she received a leather-bound copy of Othello for her twelfth birthday and en...more"Sarah Clark felt like a freak for two and a half years. It started when she received a leather-bound copy of Othello for her twelfth birthday and ended when her English teacher showed her exactly what was meant by the beast with two backs."
I don't have any idea on how to rate this book. I don´t even know what to think about it! That´s how confused I am right now. This book is too toxic, too dark, too twisted, too shocking, too depresing...simply too fucked-up. It´s definitely too much for me.
I hated main characters. They are almost despicable! Sarah Clark, as a 14 year old child, was a victim of abuse by her 24 years older English teacher and she liked it (because of a lack of parental warmth). Later, she had a sick sexual affair with him until he left her because of his family. As sweet sixteen she was raped and her family turned their backs to her. Her only "safe harbour" was her BFF Jamie, and she ruined him too... As a young woman (21) she is beautiful and smart, but she is also self-destructive sex-addict, she´s sad, broken and miserable... Mr Daniel Carr, her English teacher, is a manipulating, cruel, psyhotic bastard and sadistic pedophile... In my opinion, there is NO excuse for a man in Mr Carr´s position taking advantage of a girl who thinks she´s more grown up than she is. A teacher having sex with an under-age student is wrong in all kinds of ways, and nothing makes it right.
Who is The Beast in this book? They both are. And the beast could not be tamed...
Should you read this book? Frankly, I don´t know...
P.S. I'm surprised that noone of the characters in this book contracted STDs.(less)
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been...more Review from Way Too Hot Books
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been guilty all along..."
SHE is a 16 year old manipulative, cold, calculating and sadistic control freak and she is aggressor here. This Lolita , seed of evil, who's also the protagonist isn't even likable. She lives with her aunt and uncle who "don't understand her", and spends time drawing pornographic and sadistic sketches where she is the one in control and inflicting pain and humiliation on her female school friends. This book is written in the form of a letter that this girl is writing to her ex-lover, teacher, to explain her side of things...
"I wasn´t born innocent. My instincts were vicious, predatory, from the start. When I met you, I had been a voyeur as long as I´d had eyes. My very reflexes were sadistic. The ascent of my reason from the animal ways of infanthood served only to give a form to my state, as a painter gives shape to a colour. It seemed I learned to think in order to fantasise."
HE is the 34-year-old teacher and he begins by worshipping this girl from afar because he knows how morally wrong it would be for him to act upon his desire. He puts her on her a pedestal and becomes obsessed with her, but from afar. She initiates everything, she manipulates him and seduces and controls. She is really topping him from below. But...she teased and pushed and pushed "her darling" (the teacher) until his untamed sexual beast was unleashed and he hurt her in the unforgivable way. She awakened something violent and kinky in this poor guy and she is devastated just because that one time she wasn´t in control...
WHO IS GUILTY HERE? In this extraoridinarily dark psihosexual book they are both innocents: she´s inexperienced but manipulative aggressor, and he is naive but experienced victim.
"I understood that there is another path of innocence: that it can be attained like wisdom. I knew that I am a kind of Holy Innocent, after all. One of God´s special cases. Blundering around inside my own instincts, handicapped. I´m like a Holy Idiot; a retarded child who is closer to Heaven because of his disability. A kind of holy pervert, who struggles every day to be good"
It´s extraoridinary that author Cathy Coote was only 19 years old when she wrote this extremely complex book. Whole the time I was wondering where were aunt and uncle all this time and why they never done anything to stop her from running away from home. I thought that this was some plot hole. But, later I found out that in Australia, where this story takes place, the age of consent is 16.
BE AWARE: This IS NOT a romatic love story! Sexual scenes are too graphic and obscene. They were detailed, but I didn't think they were horrific. I can't recommend this as a general read, but for those interested in the subject matter of Lolita Complex or student-teacher relationship.
"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes you´re speeding through it, missing the sig...more"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes you´re speeding through it, missing the signs and by the time you reach the end of it you have thoughts, recollections, and moments where you realize you haven´t really lived.
And that´s the thing about life. It goes way too fast. At least mine did..."
I waited so long to read this book and I have to admit that it was worth every minute of waiting. When I saw the cover first time, I thought it would be just another romantic happy ending. Boy, I was wrong...
Imagine modern Romeo and Juliet. Imagine what would happen if Romeo and Juliet were set in 1950s in America. Than put Juliet in Psych ward and see what will happen...
I can´t summarize the amazing experience I have had while reading this book. This series is one of my all-time favorites!
This time I don´t won´t to write long review with many reasons why you should read this book/series. Please my friends, trust me on this one and just read it.
TWO CHAPTERS in and I could not put this book down! I really hate bullies, but I love this story. To say the two main characters, Tate and Jared The B...moreTWO CHAPTERS in and I could not put this book down! I really hate bullies, but I love this story. To say the two main characters, Tate and Jared The Bully, had sparks is putting it mildly. I found myself re-reading the same page over and over- it was THAT good. Ms Douglas surely pens plenty of tasteful, hot scenes that keep the pages turning. If you enjoy new adult books and especially if you love a new adult love story, this is an amazing tale for you. It reminds me a lot on The Secret of Ella and Micha, but it´s way better. This was the first book by Penelope Douglas and I must say I will be looking for more books by her. I highly recommend this book!(less)
I believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, b...moreI believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, because no matter what I say, I won't be able to describe the strong feelings this novel evocates in me. I will just tell you, this is a story you don't want to miss.
Jenny rat is very realistic, raw, gritty, brutal, terrifying and painfully honest story of self-discovery. This is a kind of book that will give you a healthy dose of realism. It has the kind of characters that will make you feel their struggle, frustration, anger, pain and happiness as if it was yours.
Gianetta Chinchinello or Jenny Rat is 14 years old street child prostitute. She is been dealing with a very difficult situation for more than a few years: she was in incestuous relationship with her father and she blames herself for his suicide. Because of that she reminds me a lot of Nabokov’s “Lolita.” It was hard to get past the fact that she let him do the things he did and still stayed with him and loved him. It was almost like she had a sort of sick fetish for it - but later on in the book, bits and pieces are revealed that helped me to view the situation differently. Her mother hated her because of that, and after fathers death she was raising her to prostitute her to child molesters. After her mother left her, she became a street prostitute, surviving rape on the streets, malnourishment and sickness.
Jenny was a very inspirational character. She has some kind of split-personality: one half is sweet artistic Jenny, and second half is rot and evil Dirty Little Rat, and her life is struggle all the time.
"There is Little Rat, and there´s Jenny, both. Like the restaurant woman, two of us. I´m tired. I can´t think properly. Can´t decide what to do."
"I am a little slut, a filthy rat. I´ve been spoiled, dirtied and I´m twisted inside. It´s all I am. Just used up and twisted. There´s only one thing I can do now, one thing I am good for. That´s all I have for you."
And than we come to Michael Ingram, or Michelangelo, Jenny´s personal angel and savior. He is consulting engineer and he´s living alone outside of town because he has some kind of agoraphobia. After he saves Jenny, he visits her in the hospital and she opens up to him so Michael grows closer to her, as if she were his responsibility, his daughter. She has no place to stay when she leaves the hospital, and Michael wants her to live with him. With the help of social worker, she ends up in his home...
They both are struggling to survive in a world with time on its hands. This book is full of sociological and philosophical issues. Characters are coping by discussing some of the key themes of Existentialist philosophy and literature, and briefly mentioning some of the main existentialist authors. Existentialist theories bored the hell out of me in my high school, but in this book I found it captivating.
It's difficult to take a serious problem like abusive relationships, incest, domestic violence, prostitution and homeless teens and convert them into a story that captures reality without going over the top drama, but this author did a fantastic job here.
Overall, this book blew me away. It truly truly did. It was an emotional ride from the very first page. Mr Simons was not afraid to show his readers that life and stories aren't always sunshine and roses. People hurt other people. Life events can break you. Some situations are nearly impossible to deal with. Sometimes fighting and surviving is the only thing you can do. I highly recommend this book to everyone!
WARNING: Be aware of some violence, language, and sexual situations.
*I received a review copy of this title from the publisher via NetGalley*(less)
This is truly an EPIC love and war story with unique characters that are tragic, sad, scary, annoying but most o...more*Buddy read with Glass, Tanja, Iva...*
This is truly an EPIC love and war story with unique characters that are tragic, sad, scary, annoying but most of all lovable. Some parts had me crying and some had me mad. Even though Alexander´s and Tatiana´s story might be great, it´s few hundred pages too long for my taste.
ONE YEAR AFTER READING: Dear book, I can't get you out of my head for a year now. You deserve five-star treatment!(less)
"Crazy people lighting cars on fire, all the cars, until whole streets seem to be lined with signal fires. Fires to light the path. Th...moreImagine this...
"Crazy people lighting cars on fire, all the cars, until whole streets seem to be lined with signal fires. Fires to light the path. The sick putting out their dead. Mass graves. People killing other people with guns and knives. Looting. Beatings. People jumping from tenth-floor windows. Then, the empty city. Day. Night. Empty."
After the "dying", most of the world is wiped out. There are only few survivors (they think so), and they are living in military base. And then comes beautiful Eva...
Eva. She's not the first woman. She is The Last (well, they thing she is). She ate an apple and it brought her lots of trouble. Not with God, but with all mighty Major Smith and his 17 men. All mighty Major decided to give her her first husband for next six months and all the rest will have the pleasure to watch their sexual activites. Her partner's name was't Adam. He was John, Avery, Jason, James, Jake... She was very wicked and wise woman and she had a plan... This selfless women with a heart of gold will bring the peace in this little society with sex. Loads and loads of sex. I know how this sounds. Like a first class porn. But belive me, it's not. She has a high purpuse and it works psychologically by using the sexual therapy. At the end, which is not happy at all, she finds love, happiness and forgiveness in this harsh new world.
23 years after Eva we will meet Eva's children, Cain and Abel Gareth and Nadia.
This second part of book, two decades after the "dying" from deadly virus, the rest of the survived world is fallen apart.
"It's like societies just menage to check the brutality of human nature, but as soon as there's a tear in the fabric, fear, hate, horrible violence come spilling out"
Nix is a second heroine we meet in this book. She is a fighter in the man's world. With only few survivors where men outnumber women ten-to-one, where woman is property and is nothing better than a object which gives a birth, she is trying to save as many females from this harsh world as possible. After all abusing and killing in her life, she doesn't belive in love, and then she meets Gareth, bad boy with golden heart in this cruel world . They are finding the road from victim to freedom and hope of healing from sexual abuse (she as a victim, and he as a abuser), and at the end, they found all this in love.
This futuristic horror is like nothing i've ever read! Its dark and disturbing, sad and hot as hell, horrible and beautiful. It shows us fear of worst kind and monsters, but it shows us and the other side- humanity, sacrifice and kindness. There is no happily ever after in this book and don't expect it. Overall, great writing, a wonderful plot, hot scenes, deep and twisty character psychology. I highly recommend it to everyone! This book is one that will stay with you forever.(less)
I have been meaning to read this books for years now. But, somehow, never got to it. Thankfully, I finally picked up this amazing story of facing and...moreI have been meaning to read this books for years now. But, somehow, never got to it. Thankfully, I finally picked up this amazing story of facing and overcoming your fears, of accepting yourself, of having strenght to love again and being loved. Kendra touched my heart very deeply.
Scars is very powerful book. The author, Cheryl Rainfield, is a former cutter and an abuse survivor, and that fact makes Scars even more chilling than it would have been otherwise. The story is so real that I did not want to put the book down, I read it all in one sitting, and I was not disappointed. It's fast-paced, suspenseful, educational, and most of all, emotional. I loved the author's use of art as a language, I loved also the mystery surrounding the abuser and I loved her therapist Carolyn. I admire Kendra the most because of her strength and determination, most of all I admire her strenght to move on and to forgive her ignorant mother after all the bad things that happend to her. Scars isn´t just book about pain, to me, it´s about coping and recovery.
This is a must read. Jaw dropping book. It is heartwrenching. It will never leave you.(less)
Ladies and gentleman, a standing ovation for Tiffany Reisz!!!
Stunning! One of the best novels I have ever read. The Angel amazed me. It is dark, haun...moreLadies and gentleman, a standing ovation for Tiffany Reisz!!!
Stunning! One of the best novels I have ever read. The Angel amazed me. It is dark, haunting, and utterly seductive. This is not your classic romance story, but holy hell if it doesn't include some of the most amazing descriptions of true love that I have ever read. This wasn't just dark erotica. This was a heart-breaking story about people who keep coming together and falling apart. It does certainly contain many elements of a psychological thriller too. This was a truly unique experience.
And thank god for Nora! FINALLY a strong woman. A real woman. A femme fatale. A beautiful, hedonist, and wild woman. Ms Reisz, you are my personal Queen of the Universe!
If I could give this book more stars I would. The next book, The Prince, can't get here fast enough!
I can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lov...moreI can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lovely and painful and lonely and terrible all at once. You don´t belive me? Ask Sarah O´Brien. She found hope in the midst of the pain. Sarah's story elevated the deepest of pain to amazing heights. I think I may not ever forget her story.
Amazing. Thank you Kate Avelynn for writing this book. (less)
Let´s talk about power. By the domestic polity, myth dictates that parents are endowed with disproportionate amount of it. I´m not so sure. Children?...moreLet´s talk about power. By the domestic polity, myth dictates that parents are endowed with disproportionate amount of it. I´m not so sure. Children? They can break our hearts, for a start. They can shame us, they can bankrupt us and I can personally attest that they can make us wish we were never born.
This book was painful, disturbing and complelling. Writing is fantastic. I´m a mother of hyperactive toddler, and this book will haunt me for quite a while.
Lionel Shriver is now one of my favorite writers! (less)
My child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the...moreMy child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the stars above Are just my memories.
And in your eyes the ocean And in your eyes the sea The waters frozen over With your longing to be free.
Yesterday you´d awoken To a world incredibly old. This is the age you are broken Or turned into gold...
How can I possible say that I loved this book when it broke my heart into pieces and I am still trying to recover from this emotionally intense and shocking reading.
Storyteller was quite the unforgettable experience: amazing, mind blowing, heartbreaking, bittersweet and emotional roller coaster. I have recommended it to all my friends. You NEED to read this book! You will feel its emotional weight long after you turned the last page.(less)
"Have you ever wondered what a human life is worth? That morning, my brother´s was worth a pocket watch."
ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS I´VE EVER READ! Harsh,...more "Have you ever wondered what a human life is worth? That morning, my brother´s was worth a pocket watch."
ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS I´VE EVER READ! Harsh, beautiful, sad, inspiring and utterly heart-breaking. This story really moved me. When someone mentions World War II, we usually just think of what the Nazis and Hitler did but we should remember that the Soviets were just as bad.
Everyone who read and liked Anne Frank´s Diary should pick this book up. Between Shades of Gray is powerful book and you will feel its emotional weight long after you turned the last page.