Well, well, well...What have I just read? I butterflying love my girl Glass who recommended this"Beat, beat, pause. Contract, expand. Inhale, exhale."
Well, well, well...What have I just read? I butterflying love my girl Glass who recommended this book to me and I love Collleen Hoover and I love this book and Ridge and Warren and everything in between.....more
Tommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's bTommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's be honest, this book is really great (thank you Tanja), but obviously, I'm a masochist... ...more
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been Review from Way Too Hot Books
"My darling, all of this is my fault. I know you think your to blame for what happened. You’re wrong, my love. I’ve been guilty all along..."
SHE is a 16 year old manipulative, cold, calculating and sadistic control freak and she is aggressor here. This Lolita , seed of evil, who's also the protagonist isn't even likable. She lives with her aunt and uncle who "don't understand her", and spends time drawing pornographic and sadistic sketches where she is the one in control and inflicting pain and humiliation on her female school friends. This book is written in the form of a letter that this girl is writing to her ex-lover, teacher, to explain her side of things...
"I wasn´t born innocent. My instincts were vicious, predatory, from the start. When I met you, I had been a voyeur as long as I´d had eyes. My very reflexes were sadistic. The ascent of my reason from the animal ways of infanthood served only to give a form to my state, as a painter gives shape to a colour. It seemed I learned to think in order to fantasise."
HE is the 34-year-old teacher and he begins by worshipping this girl from afar because he knows how morally wrong it would be for him to act upon his desire. He puts her on her a pedestal and becomes obsessed with her, but from afar. She initiates everything, she manipulates him and seduces and controls. She is really topping him from below. But...she teased and pushed and pushed "her darling" (the teacher) until his untamed sexual beast was unleashed and he hurt her in the unforgivable way. She awakened something violent and kinky in this poor guy and she is devastated just because that one time she wasn´t in control...
WHO IS GUILTY HERE? In this extraoridinarily dark psihosexual book they are both innocents: she´s inexperienced but manipulative aggressor, and he is naive but experienced victim.
"I understood that there is another path of innocence: that it can be attained like wisdom. I knew that I am a kind of Holy Innocent, after all. One of God´s special cases. Blundering around inside my own instincts, handicapped. I´m like a Holy Idiot; a retarded child who is closer to Heaven because of his disability. A kind of holy pervert, who struggles every day to be good"
It´s extraoridinary that author Cathy Coote was only 19 years old when she wrote this extremely complex book. Whole the time I was wondering where were aunt and uncle all this time and why they never done anything to stop her from running away from home. I thought that this was some plot hole. But, later I found out that in Australia, where this story takes place, the age of consent is 16.
BE AWARE: This IS NOT a romatic love story! Sexual scenes are too graphic and obscene. They were detailed, but I didn't think they were horrific. I can't recommend this as a general read, but for those interested in the subject matter of Lolita Complex or student-teacher relationship.
Well, it doesn´t have a cliffhanger like someone said to me. It has a happy ending. But this isn´t something special that I would like to reread. ThankWell, it doesn´t have a cliffhanger like someone said to me. It has a happy ending. But this isn´t something special that I would like to reread. Thank god I haven't bought it yet......more
I believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, bI believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, because no matter what I say, I won't be able to describe the strong feelings this novel evocates in me. I will just tell you, this is a story you don't want to miss.
Jenny rat is very realistic, raw, gritty, brutal, terrifying and painfully honest story of self-discovery. This is a kind of book that will give you a healthy dose of realism. It has the kind of characters that will make you feel their struggle, frustration, anger, pain and happiness as if it was yours.
Gianetta Chinchinello or Jenny Rat is 14 years old street child prostitute. She is been dealing with a very difficult situation for more than a few years: she was in incestuous relationship with her father and she blames herself for his suicide. Because of that she reminds me a lot of Nabokov’s “Lolita.” It was hard to get past the fact that she let him do the things he did and still stayed with him and loved him. It was almost like she had a sort of sick fetish for it - but later on in the book, bits and pieces are revealed that helped me to view the situation differently. Her mother hated her because of that, and after fathers death she was raising her to prostitute her to child molesters. After her mother left her, she became a street prostitute, surviving rape on the streets, malnourishment and sickness.
Jenny was a very inspirational character. She has some kind of split-personality: one half is sweet artistic Jenny, and second half is rot and evil Dirty Little Rat, and her life is struggle all the time.
"There is Little Rat, and there´s Jenny, both. Like the restaurant woman, two of us. I´m tired. I can´t think properly. Can´t decide what to do."
"I am a little slut, a filthy rat. I´ve been spoiled, dirtied and I´m twisted inside. It´s all I am. Just used up and twisted. There´s only one thing I can do now, one thing I am good for. That´s all I have for you."
And than we come to Michael Ingram, or Michelangelo, Jenny´s personal angel and savior. He is consulting engineer and he´s living alone outside of town because he has some kind of agoraphobia. After he saves Jenny, he visits her in the hospital and she opens up to him so Michael grows closer to her, as if she were his responsibility, his daughter. She has no place to stay when she leaves the hospital, and Michael wants her to live with him. With the help of social worker, she ends up in his home...
They both are struggling to survive in a world with time on its hands. This book is full of sociological and philosophical issues. Characters are coping by discussing some of the key themes of Existentialist philosophy and literature, and briefly mentioning some of the main existentialist authors. Existentialist theories bored the hell out of me in my high school, but in this book I found it captivating.
It's difficult to take a serious problem like abusive relationships, incest, domestic violence, prostitution and homeless teens and convert them into a story that captures reality without going over the top drama, but this author did a fantastic job here.
Overall, this book blew me away. It truly truly did. It was an emotional ride from the very first page. Mr Simons was not afraid to show his readers that life and stories aren't always sunshine and roses. People hurt other people. Life events can break you. Some situations are nearly impossible to deal with. Sometimes fighting and surviving is the only thing you can do. I highly recommend this book to everyone!
WARNING: Be aware of some violence, language, and sexual situations.
*I received a review copy of this title from the publisher via NetGalley*...more
Reading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t stReading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t stop even if it hurts. We, masochistic readers, we know it, we understand it... and still, we do it. All we can do is suffer the pain, and tell ourselves it was well worth it. Sad things can be beautiful. That´s exactly what Autumn said and noone understood her. Well, Autumn and Ms Nowlin, we understand you and we appreciate the pain. It was well worth it...
Well, there was one weird girl...
...and she fell in love with her best friend but she didn't notice him like that.
...And than there was one big misunderstanding and they grew apart. They grew apart for four long years even though they saw each other on a daily basis.
“I've loved him my whole life, and somewhere along the way, that love didn't change but grew. It grew to fill the parts of me that I did not have when I was a child. It grew with every new longing of my body and desire until there was not a piece of me that did not love him. And when I look at him, there is no other feeling in me.”
...And just when life finally brought them together, this star-crossed lovers were separated by cruel fate.
I can see some of the roses still blooming in my mother´s garden. Brown on the edges and bright in other colors, their petals drooping downward, dying just as their lives have begun. They stayed past their time, and I´ve realized that I have too.
Do you want to know how they were separated? Just read this book! I promise you, you won't regret it! ...more
This book was a bit melodramatic for my taste and at times repetitive. I enjoyed the story, but reading the same plot 3 different times can get a bitThis book was a bit melodramatic for my taste and at times repetitive. I enjoyed the story, but reading the same plot 3 different times can get a bit old. I loved the way that their story ended. Despite the tragedy that those last few pages held I think that it was the perfect ending to Caleb & Olivia´s story.
Overall, the books are well written and have amazing and utterly messed up characters. I'll definitely check out other books by this author.
BTW, I don't buy the explanation on what went down on Caleb's "cheating" incident...
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, uReview posted on Way Too Hot Books
This book just blew me away!
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, unpredictable and beautiful. This book is a definite MUST HAVE!
An older man and a teenage girl. Bittersweet romance. Your first thought must be Lolita? High school teacher and troubled student. Sounds like a recipe for disaster or at least some jail time. But, although situations like this would ordinarily cause me to cringe because I´m a school teacher, I actually felt... hope for these two tragically broken people... This is a taboo romance story with student-teacher relationship in which there are no stereotypical predators or victims. These people are damaged, but are they monsters in this book? No, they just made some bad decisions and this sure is their complicated love story. Monsters are some other characters who ruined their lives in the start.
The story is told in Jenna's voice as she "confesses" the truth of an incident into a policeman's tape recorder. Her family is dysfunctional (Psycho dad/cheater, alchocolic mother, grandfather- pedophile, a brother away at war...) and she finds escape in delusions and pain (selfharm). She is a cutter and she spend some time in Psycho ward. Then she moves to a new school and meets Mr. Anderson. He becomes the only one who sees her and brings her to the truth, but he is just as broken as she is...
" I´d never heard a man cry before, Bob, but...it´s awful. (...) I think some man aren´t used to it and don´t know what to do with all that feeling. Their emotions are hexane ignited in their chests and rips them apart, and then they feel like they´re going to die-just as something was dying, at that moment in Mitch."
Two of them pull strength from each other's tragedies... but, at the same time, they destroy each other and themselves.
“They call it the drowning instinct. It´s when drowning doesn´t look like drowning. In real life, if the water´s very cold, a person can´t help but gasp. It´s reflex. The thing is as soon as water hits your lungs, your throat closes off, even it the water´s warm. Your body´s trying to protect itself, and the reality is that a lot more people suffocate than truly drown. Regardless, to people on land, especially when you´re really close to the end, you don´t look like you´re in trouble. You don´t scream, but that´s because you can ´t, and you don´t wave your arms either or expend a lot of energy flailing. You´re just there. So people don´t notice that you´re drowning. That´s me. I think I´ve been drowning all this time and doing it so quietly, even I didn´t know it.”
My favorite part is the ending:
"You probably want me to regret Mitch. You want me to see that he lied, was some kind of predator; that I´m the victim, like you said. But Mitch was broken, too, in his way and just as much a hostage to his past and his mistakes. Maybe by trying to fix me, he was also healing himself in the only way he knew how. Oh, I can just hear you now. You and every therapist who ever lived will say that I´m rationalizing, that I´ve identified with a monster, just like those kids do who are kidnapped and live in a cage for twenty years. You´ll want to see me as damaged somehow, and then you´ll try to cure me. Well, I got news for you, Bobby-o. Cured is just synonym for coming around to your way of thinking. Cured is the word you use when I finally agree. But here´s the problem with that, Bobby-o. You and the therapists can yammer until you´re blue in the face, but I just can´t agree with you and probably never will. Because Mitch gave me love. He handed me back my life and that doesn´t make me a victim."
Ilsa J. Bick has a way with words. This is possibly one of the most emotionally intense books I have ever read. This story has a bittersweet romance and a plot that leads you on an emotional roller coaster.
I recommend it to anyone who wants to read something that is neither black nor white, but just like the real life, very very grey....more