Tommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's b...moreTommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's be honest, this book is really great (thank you Tanja), but obviously, I'm a masochist... (less)
"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes you´re speeding through it, missing the sig...more"The road called life is long and winding. There are curves. Bumpes along the way. And sometimes...
Sometimes you´re speeding through it, missing the signs and by the time you reach the end of it you have thoughts, recollections, and moments where you realize you haven´t really lived.
And that´s the thing about life. It goes way too fast. At least mine did..."
I waited so long to read this book and I have to admit that it was worth every minute of waiting. When I saw the cover first time, I thought it would be just another romantic happy ending. Boy, I was wrong...
Imagine modern Romeo and Juliet. Imagine what would happen if Romeo and Juliet were set in 1950s in America. Than put Juliet in Psych ward and see what will happen...
I can´t summarize the amazing experience I have had while reading this book. This series is one of my all-time favorites!
This time I don´t won´t to write long review with many reasons why you should read this book/series. Please my friends, trust me on this one and just read it.
I believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, b...moreI believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, because no matter what I say, I won't be able to describe the strong feelings this novel evocates in me. I will just tell you, this is a story you don't want to miss.
Jenny rat is very realistic, raw, gritty, brutal, terrifying and painfully honest story of self-discovery. This is a kind of book that will give you a healthy dose of realism. It has the kind of characters that will make you feel their struggle, frustration, anger, pain and happiness as if it was yours.
Gianetta Chinchinello or Jenny Rat is 14 years old street child prostitute. She is been dealing with a very difficult situation for more than a few years: she was in incestuous relationship with her father and she blames herself for his suicide. Because of that she reminds me a lot of Nabokov’s “Lolita.” It was hard to get past the fact that she let him do the things he did and still stayed with him and loved him. It was almost like she had a sort of sick fetish for it - but later on in the book, bits and pieces are revealed that helped me to view the situation differently. Her mother hated her because of that, and after fathers death she was raising her to prostitute her to child molesters. After her mother left her, she became a street prostitute, surviving rape on the streets, malnourishment and sickness.
Jenny was a very inspirational character. She has some kind of split-personality: one half is sweet artistic Jenny, and second half is rot and evil Dirty Little Rat, and her life is struggle all the time.
"There is Little Rat, and there´s Jenny, both. Like the restaurant woman, two of us. I´m tired. I can´t think properly. Can´t decide what to do."
"I am a little slut, a filthy rat. I´ve been spoiled, dirtied and I´m twisted inside. It´s all I am. Just used up and twisted. There´s only one thing I can do now, one thing I am good for. That´s all I have for you."
And than we come to Michael Ingram, or Michelangelo, Jenny´s personal angel and savior. He is consulting engineer and he´s living alone outside of town because he has some kind of agoraphobia. After he saves Jenny, he visits her in the hospital and she opens up to him so Michael grows closer to her, as if she were his responsibility, his daughter. She has no place to stay when she leaves the hospital, and Michael wants her to live with him. With the help of social worker, she ends up in his home...
They both are struggling to survive in a world with time on its hands. This book is full of sociological and philosophical issues. Characters are coping by discussing some of the key themes of Existentialist philosophy and literature, and briefly mentioning some of the main existentialist authors. Existentialist theories bored the hell out of me in my high school, but in this book I found it captivating.
It's difficult to take a serious problem like abusive relationships, incest, domestic violence, prostitution and homeless teens and convert them into a story that captures reality without going over the top drama, but this author did a fantastic job here.
Overall, this book blew me away. It truly truly did. It was an emotional ride from the very first page. Mr Simons was not afraid to show his readers that life and stories aren't always sunshine and roses. People hurt other people. Life events can break you. Some situations are nearly impossible to deal with. Sometimes fighting and surviving is the only thing you can do. I highly recommend this book to everyone!
WARNING: Be aware of some violence, language, and sexual situations.
*I received a review copy of this title from the publisher via NetGalley*(less)
RECIPE: 1 cup of Stockholm Syndrome 1 innocent girl who was sexually abused as a child 1 sadistic truck driver/priest with troubled past 1 overly protective psiho/schizophrenic mother 1 truck and miles and miles of dirty road 1 dream of Niagara Falls Add the cruel reality and few cups of bad and selfish people. Blend it all together and read it for about 3-4 hours and you´ll get this awesomeness.
Wanderlust is the dark, frightening story of a naive young woman, kidnapped and held against her will by damaged man who seeks revenge to society. This is a story of survival. It describes two people that have managed to survive injustice and sexual abuse and they still maintained their humanity and a will to escape their circumstances. They are both fighters and they still have a capacity for feeling and emotion, perhaps even love. They still have hope in a better tomorrow.
This book scared me. It´s threatening, challenging and controversial. I loved Wanderlust because there was something so hauntingly beautiful about this book that captured my attention from the first chapter. I especially liked quotes in the beginning of each chapter from Evie´s book about Niagara Falls.
Ms Skye Warren deserves an applause, so I clap for her!
This definitely will not be the last book I will read of Skye Warren.
Warning: This book is not for the faint-hearted readers. If you are not 18 or above or if you simply cannot take tear-jerking books, do not read it.(less)
This is truly an EPIC love and war story with unique characters that are tragic, sad, scary, annoying but most o...more*Buddy read with Glass, Tanja, Iva...*
This is truly an EPIC love and war story with unique characters that are tragic, sad, scary, annoying but most of all lovable. Some parts had me crying and some had me mad. Even though Alexander´s and Tatiana´s story might be great, it´s few hundred pages too long for my taste.
ONE YEAR AFTER READING: Dear book, I can't get you out of my head for a year now. You deserve five-star treatment!(less)
Reading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t st...moreReading this book was like listening most hauntingly beautiful and sad song. You know it will make you sad and leave you heartbroken, but you can´t stop even if it hurts. We, masochistic readers, we know it, we understand it... and still, we do it. All we can do is suffer the pain, and tell ourselves it was well worth it. Sad things can be beautiful. That´s exactly what Autumn said and noone understood her. Well, Autumn and Ms Nowlin, we understand you and we appreciate the pain. It was well worth it...
Well, there was one weird girl...
...and she fell in love with her best friend but she didn't notice him like that.
...And than there was one big misunderstanding and they grew apart. They grew apart for four long years even though they saw each other on a daily basis.
“I've loved him my whole life, and somewhere along the way, that love didn't change but grew. It grew to fill the parts of me that I did not have when I was a child. It grew with every new longing of my body and desire until there was not a piece of me that did not love him. And when I look at him, there is no other feeling in me.”
...And just when life finally brought them together, this star-crossed lovers were separated by cruel fate.
I can see some of the roses still blooming in my mother´s garden. Brown on the edges and bright in other colors, their petals drooping downward, dying just as their lives have begun. They stayed past their time, and I´ve realized that I have too.
Do you want to know how they were separated? Just read this book! I promise you, you won't regret it! (less)
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, u...moreReview posted on Way Too Hot Books
This book just blew me away!
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, unpredictable and beautiful. This book is a definite MUST HAVE!
An older man and a teenage girl. Bittersweet romance. Your first thought must be Lolita? High school teacher and troubled student. Sounds like a recipe for disaster or at least some jail time. But, although situations like this would ordinarily cause me to cringe because I´m a school teacher, I actually felt... hope for these two tragically broken people... This is a taboo romance story with student-teacher relationship in which there are no stereotypical predators or victims. These people are damaged, but are they monsters in this book? No, they just made some bad decisions and this sure is their complicated love story. Monsters are some other characters who ruined their lives in the start.
The story is told in Jenna's voice as she "confesses" the truth of an incident into a policeman's tape recorder. Her family is dysfunctional (Psycho dad/cheater, alchocolic mother, grandfather- pedophile, a brother away at war...) and she finds escape in delusions and pain (selfharm). She is a cutter and she spend some time in Psycho ward. Then she moves to a new school and meets Mr. Anderson. He becomes the only one who sees her and brings her to the truth, but he is just as broken as she is...
" I´d never heard a man cry before, Bob, but...it´s awful. (...) I think some man aren´t used to it and don´t know what to do with all that feeling. Their emotions are hexane ignited in their chests and rips them apart, and then they feel like they´re going to die-just as something was dying, at that moment in Mitch."
Two of them pull strength from each other's tragedies... but, at the same time, they destroy each other and themselves.
“They call it the drowning instinct. It´s when drowning doesn´t look like drowning. In real life, if the water´s very cold, a person can´t help but gasp. It´s reflex. The thing is as soon as water hits your lungs, your throat closes off, even it the water´s warm. Your body´s trying to protect itself, and the reality is that a lot more people suffocate than truly drown. Regardless, to people on land, especially when you´re really close to the end, you don´t look like you´re in trouble. You don´t scream, but that´s because you can ´t, and you don´t wave your arms either or expend a lot of energy flailing. You´re just there. So people don´t notice that you´re drowning. That´s me. I think I´ve been drowning all this time and doing it so quietly, even I didn´t know it.”
My favorite part is the ending:
"You probably want me to regret Mitch. You want me to see that he lied, was some kind of predator; that I´m the victim, like you said. But Mitch was broken, too, in his way and just as much a hostage to his past and his mistakes. Maybe by trying to fix me, he was also healing himself in the only way he knew how. Oh, I can just hear you now. You and every therapist who ever lived will say that I´m rationalizing, that I´ve identified with a monster, just like those kids do who are kidnapped and live in a cage for twenty years. You´ll want to see me as damaged somehow, and then you´ll try to cure me. Well, I got news for you, Bobby-o. Cured is just synonym for coming around to your way of thinking. Cured is the word you use when I finally agree. But here´s the problem with that, Bobby-o. You and the therapists can yammer until you´re blue in the face, but I just can´t agree with you and probably never will. Because Mitch gave me love. He handed me back my life and that doesn´t make me a victim."
Ilsa J. Bick has a way with words. This is possibly one of the most emotionally intense books I have ever read. This story has a bittersweet romance and a plot that leads you on an emotional roller coaster.
I recommend it to anyone who wants to read something that is neither black nor white, but just like the real life, very very grey.(less)
When I started reading this book I thought it was going to be just another sappy love story. I was wrong! I usually don´t read romance novels, but I g...moreWhen I started reading this book I thought it was going to be just another sappy love story. I was wrong! I usually don´t read romance novels, but I got so tangled up in the story that I couldn´t put this book down. Well done Miss Fisher! I cannot wait for your next book! (less)
This book takes mind-fuck to a whole new level! And, you know me, I love mind-fucks, so I absolutely adore this book!!! It reminded me a lot on American...moreThis book takes mind-fuck to a whole new level! And, you know me, I love mind-fucks, so I absolutely adore this book!!! It reminded me a lot on American Horror Story Asylum TV-show so I simply devoured it. I was unable to stop thinking and questioning and wondering about every single thing that was going on in this book.
I'm now kicking myself for forgetting to read it sooner.
Sorry guys, I can´t write this review cause I must read the sequel like right now... (less)
I love this book. It made me laugh and cry. I adored the characters, especially Drea, Justin and grandma. They were realistic and lovable. The writing...moreI love this book. It made me laugh and cry. I adored the characters, especially Drea, Justin and grandma. They were realistic and lovable. The writing is witty and easy to read. This is another must-read!(less)
I can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lov...moreI can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lovely and painful and lonely and terrible all at once. You don´t belive me? Ask Sarah O´Brien. She found hope in the midst of the pain. Sarah's story elevated the deepest of pain to amazing heights. I think I may not ever forget her story.
Amazing. Thank you Kate Avelynn for writing this book. (less)
PREPARE YOURSELF: “Sticks and stones keep breaking my bones but these words, these words could kill you.” (quote from another book)
I've never read anything like this: so very realistic, intellectual and beautifully written. It´s by far one of the best books I've ever read but it is very sad and depressing, and in the same time it´s full of life and humor. This book left me in pain, and do you know what Mr John Green said about pain?
He said: " That´s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt."
"You don´t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices."
So, I will end this review with Hazel´s words to Mr Peter Van Houten: Mr Green, "...if you ever decide to write anything else, even if you don´t want to publish it, I´d love to read it. Frankly, I´d read your grocery list.
How to Kill a Rock Star was suggested to me by a friend.I knew the book would be good but I didn't realize it would be MINDBLOWING.
The main characters...moreHow to Kill a Rock Star was suggested to me by a friend.I knew the book would be good but I didn't realize it would be MINDBLOWING.
The main characters, Eliza and Paul, have struggled with hard times in their pasts. They are both trying to get by, Paul as a respected musician and Eliza as a music journalist. Eliza is a smart, but damaged girl. Paul Hudson is your typical rock-star. Cute, eccentric and crazy. But in a good way. A true artist. I wanted to kick Eliza a bunch of times throughout the book. She was making stupid and confusing decisions constantly.
Loring Blackman was my favorite guy here. He was my type of musician. He was kind, family man, patient, good looking, not eccentric like Paul. He kept his mouth shut on his feelings for Eliza, he understands she was engaged to Paul. I was so mad at Eliza because she used him to feel the void left after Paul. Yes, I understand what she did and why but she is hurt them both, Loring and Paul. I wanted to smack her for that!
This book is amazing, absolutely stunning, witty and funny. It´s filled with a lot of heartbreak, tears, laughter, and amazing quotes. The writing was one of the best I have ever read. I found a new fictional boyfriend, Loring... and the story was brilliant. I cried my eyes out not just once but a three times! I cannot wait to read this book again.
I don't want to write too much and give anything away. JUST READ IT!
Ms DeBartolo, thank you for a great read...
FAVORITE QUOTES: "Do not get on that train."
"Eliza has the sky in her eyes and I've always wanted to touch the goddamn sky."
"Fate is the magnetic pull of our souls toward people, places, and things we belong with."
“Break my heart? Is that what you just said? I have news for you; you didn't break my heart. My heart's fine. My heart's in the best shape of its life. You know what you did to me? You took an AK-47 and blew my soul open.”
“You can’t judge a man solely on his actions. Sometimes actions are nothing more than re actions.”
My child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the...moreMy child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the stars above Are just my memories.
And in your eyes the ocean And in your eyes the sea The waters frozen over With your longing to be free.
Yesterday you´d awoken To a world incredibly old. This is the age you are broken Or turned into gold...
How can I possible say that I loved this book when it broke my heart into pieces and I am still trying to recover from this emotionally intense and shocking reading.
Storyteller was quite the unforgettable experience: amazing, mind blowing, heartbreaking, bittersweet and emotional roller coaster. I have recommended it to all my friends. You NEED to read this book! You will feel its emotional weight long after you turned the last page.(less)
"Have you ever wondered what a human life is worth? That morning, my brother´s was worth a pocket watch."
ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS I´VE EVER READ! Harsh,...more "Have you ever wondered what a human life is worth? That morning, my brother´s was worth a pocket watch."
ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS I´VE EVER READ! Harsh, beautiful, sad, inspiring and utterly heart-breaking. This story really moved me. When someone mentions World War II, we usually just think of what the Nazis and Hitler did but we should remember that the Soviets were just as bad.
Everyone who read and liked Anne Frank´s Diary should pick this book up. Between Shades of Gray is powerful book and you will feel its emotional weight long after you turned the last page.
This is a story about a school shooting. But that wasn´t the most important piece of story. The most important piece was Valerie Leftman, the shooter´...moreThis is a story about a school shooting. But that wasn´t the most important piece of story. The most important piece was Valerie Leftman, the shooter´s girfrend.
The story is written from Val´s POV. Before the shooting, she and her boyfriend (Nick Levil, the shooter), created a hate list of people who treated them cruelly, or in their opinion, unjustly. This list turned out deadly when Nick decided to kill those on the list. The boyfriend committs suicide at the scene, but Valerie survives and she must live with this all while her life is falling apart. A year after the shooting, Valerie returns to her old school where there are only a few people who don't blame her for Nick's actions...
This story is about a girl who was both hero and villain. And a boy who was both monster and victim. And an enemy who was also a friend...
"I was molested. When I was twelwe. And everyone in the world knew it except for me."
I am left speechless. This story is real and unforgettable. It isn't a story about the forbidden teacher/student love that many fantisize about, this story is the realism behind what actually goes into the waters of female teacher to male student molestation, down the path of pedophilia. Writing is so realistic that sometimes I had a feeling that I was in the room with Mrs. Sherman and Josh.
This is the story of seduction and the life afterwards told by Josh Mendel, the victim who takes full responsibility for what an adult did to him when he was twelve years old. As a 12 year old boy he, like the every other boy in his class, had a crush on his history teacher, Mrs Evelyn Sherman a.k.a. Eve. Soon, he was sucked into a very adult and inappropriate relationship with her. The truth emerges when Josh attends a birthday party for one of his friends, Rachel, and a game of spin the bottle gets out of hand... Five years later, he´s a high school graduate without ever having a normal, healthy relationship, especially not one with a girl his own age. He is angry and hostile, and he fights his own inner feelings about Eve, even while battling a growing attraction with a Rachel, his old friend who revealed his affair long time ago...
Although he´s some kind of sport and math genius, Josh is traumatized and he feels permanently damaged. His family is dysfunctional and he gots these flickers from the past all the time:
"-there, yes, THERE- -God oh God oh God- -stop teasing me, you naughty...oh God yesss-"
"Lying there, I´ve figured out what the flickers are. They´re my punishment. It´s no coincidence that they started that day that I stood in Eve´s bedroom, taking my first stepstoward her, toward my sin, my downfall. The flickers are my past, constantly reignited, hammering at me from below and beneath and behind."
Was it an excellent book? Unquestionably. Why I gave it 4 (4,5) stars? Because it was too much baseball stuff in it.
My favorite quote:
"See, forgiveness doesn´t happen all at once. It´s not an event- it´s a process. Forgiveness happens while you´re asleep, while you´re dreaming, while you´re in line at the coffee shop, while you´re showering, eating, farting, jerking off. It happens in the back of your mind, and then one day you realize that you don´t hate the person anymore, that your anger has gone away somewhere. And you understand. You´ve forgiven them. You don´t know how or why. It sneaked up on you. It happened in the small spaces between thoughts and in the seconds between ideas and blinks. That´s where forgiveness happens. Because anger and hatred, when left unfed, bleed away like air from a punctured tire, over time and days and years. Forgiveness is stealth. At least, that´s what I hope."(less)