Those are the words that come to my mind when I think of Elizabeth Scott's Living Dead Gir...moreDisturbing. Heartbreaking. Terrifying. Devastating. Tragic.
Those are the words that come to my mind when I think of Elizabeth Scott's Living Dead Girl. After finishing it late last night, I'm still trying to catch my breath and desperately trying to get rid of the weight that seems to have settled on my chest. But I think it will be a long time before this happens because what has happened to "Alice" in the book can happen to a child in real life...probably has happened.
This book is a real eye-opener to the world most of us are unaware of, sadly. The reader of this book needs to have a strong heart to take in all the unbearable cruelties. The scenes are not too descriptive and graphic, but the author tells them in a way where you know exactly whats going on. You might not want to believe it is what you think it is, which leaves you wondering,often. I had to put this little book down a countless amount of times just to take in all the information. I really felt for Alice and wanted to rescue her every dreading moment I read.
Did I like the story? Honestly, no. I don't like stories about children being sexually abused. Was it well-written? Absolutely. Should every parent read it? Absolutely. Should teens read it? I want to say yes but I´m not so sure, it's scary. All I want to do now is scoop my little daughter up and never let her go.(less)
I expected much more from it than what I got, so I was, to say the least, disapointed.
For the start...good p...more"The Lisbon girls made suicide familiar."
I expected much more from it than what I got, so I was, to say the least, disapointed.
For the start...good points are that the author captured the essence of suburban life in 70's (America) and he draws you into the mysterious world of the Lisbon girls as they go down in depression, eventually ending in their mass suicide. This book describes not only death of those girls, but death of their childhood/youth and their neighbourhood as idyllic place to live.
Personally, it was a bit boring and it dragged on and on about unimportant subjects. I thought the story development was poor and there wasn't a single character I could really 'feel'.
CHARACTERS: The neighborhood boys are fascinated and obsessed with the Lisbon sisters and they are here investigators/storytellers. These boys aren't realistic, fretting about the neighbor girls but never talking to them, stealing their stuff (Diary? Soap? Makeup? Shoes?) to idolize it. Weird boys worshipping weirder girls for no apparent reason other than they have to make the book go. They don´t even recognize them one from another for Christ sake! The boys were one-dimensional, they are lacking depth and richness, and there was no character development whatsoever.
Lisbon sisters, Therese (17), Mary (16), Bonnie (15), Lux (14) and Cecilia (13), are blondies and they are perfect in every way in the eyes of their weird neighbours.
Their lives are controlled by overprotective and mental parents. They kill themselves because they had no real lives and future.
"In the end, the tortures tearing the Lisbon girls pointed to a simple reasoned refusal to accept the world as it was handed down to them, so full of flaws."
The sisters seemed so underdevoloped and two-dimensional. Everything we know about them is knowledge of their obsessed neighbours/stalkers.
This book to me, seemed more about the boys obsession with the girls, than their troubles or the suicides (or mental/religious parents).
I recommend this book not to teenagers but parents who are controlling. This will show you that if you do not let your children have some fun or enjoyment than you might just loose them.
FAVORITE QUOTES: "With most people suicide is like Russian roulette. Only one chamber has a bullet. With the Lisbon girls, the gun was loaded. One bullet for family abuse. One bullet for genetic predisposition. One bullet for historical malaise. One bullet for inevitable momentum. The two other bullets are impossible to name, but that doesn´t mean the chambers were empty."
"It didn´t matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls, but only that we had loved them, and that they hadn´t heard us calling, still do not hear us, up here in the tree house, with our thinning hair and soft bellies, calling them out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time, alone in suicide, which is deeper than death, and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together."(less)
"I was molested. When I was twelwe. And everyone in the world knew it except for me."
I am left speechless. This story is real and unforgettable. It isn't a story about the forbidden teacher/student love that many fantisize about, this story is the realism behind what actually goes into the waters of female teacher to male student molestation, down the path of pedophilia. Writing is so realistic that sometimes I had a feeling that I was in the room with Mrs. Sherman and Josh.
This is the story of seduction and the life afterwards told by Josh Mendel, the victim who takes full responsibility for what an adult did to him when he was twelve years old. As a 12 year old boy he, like the every other boy in his class, had a crush on his history teacher, Mrs Evelyn Sherman a.k.a. Eve. Soon, he was sucked into a very adult and inappropriate relationship with her. The truth emerges when Josh attends a birthday party for one of his friends, Rachel, and a game of spin the bottle gets out of hand... Five years later, he´s a high school graduate without ever having a normal, healthy relationship, especially not one with a girl his own age. He is angry and hostile, and he fights his own inner feelings about Eve, even while battling a growing attraction with a Rachel, his old friend who revealed his affair long time ago...
Although he´s some kind of sport and math genius, Josh is traumatized and he feels permanently damaged. His family is dysfunctional and he gots these flickers from the past all the time:
"-there, yes, THERE- -God oh God oh God- -stop teasing me, you naughty...oh God yesss-"
"Lying there, I´ve figured out what the flickers are. They´re my punishment. It´s no coincidence that they started that day that I stood in Eve´s bedroom, taking my first stepstoward her, toward my sin, my downfall. The flickers are my past, constantly reignited, hammering at me from below and beneath and behind."
Was it an excellent book? Unquestionably. Why I gave it 4 (4,5) stars? Because it was too much baseball stuff in it.
My favorite quote:
"See, forgiveness doesn´t happen all at once. It´s not an event- it´s a process. Forgiveness happens while you´re asleep, while you´re dreaming, while you´re in line at the coffee shop, while you´re showering, eating, farting, jerking off. It happens in the back of your mind, and then one day you realize that you don´t hate the person anymore, that your anger has gone away somewhere. And you understand. You´ve forgiven them. You don´t know how or why. It sneaked up on you. It happened in the small spaces between thoughts and in the seconds between ideas and blinks. That´s where forgiveness happens. Because anger and hatred, when left unfed, bleed away like air from a punctured tire, over time and days and years. Forgiveness is stealth. At least, that´s what I hope."(less)
My child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the...moreMy child, I know you´re not a child But I see you running wild Between those flowering trees. Your sparkling dreams, your silver laugh Your wishes to the stars above Are just my memories.
And in your eyes the ocean And in your eyes the sea The waters frozen over With your longing to be free.
Yesterday you´d awoken To a world incredibly old. This is the age you are broken Or turned into gold...
How can I possible say that I loved this book when it broke my heart into pieces and I am still trying to recover from this emotionally intense and shocking reading.
Storyteller was quite the unforgettable experience: amazing, mind blowing, heartbreaking, bittersweet and emotional roller coaster. I have recommended it to all my friends. You NEED to read this book! You will feel its emotional weight long after you turned the last page.(less)
I can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lov...moreI can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lovely and painful and lonely and terrible all at once. You don´t belive me? Ask Sarah O´Brien. She found hope in the midst of the pain. Sarah's story elevated the deepest of pain to amazing heights. I think I may not ever forget her story.
Amazing. Thank you Kate Avelynn for writing this book. (less)
♥ ♥ ♥ Buddy read with Miss, Iva, Purple & lot of other BDB fans ♥ ♥ ♥
I am a huge fan of the series and Qhuinn is one of my favorite characters but...more♥ ♥ ♥ Buddy read with Miss, Iva, Purple & lot of other BDB fans ♥ ♥ ♥
I am a huge fan of the series and Qhuinn is one of my favorite characters but I've got to admit that i was looking foward to an ending. This book was a little bit slow and all the extra side stories really bothered me. Qhuinn and Blay deserved HEA, but the ending was a little bit sappy for my taste. Ultimately LOVER AT LAST was a good read but it most definitely was not as good as Lover Awakened and Lover Reborn. I'm looking forward to Trez's story.
P.S. I wish the whole world could look upon a Brotherhood and start accepting homosexuality.(less)
This book takes mind-fuck to a whole new level! And, you know me, I love mind-fucks, so I absolutely adore this book!!! It reminded me a lot on American...moreThis book takes mind-fuck to a whole new level! And, you know me, I love mind-fucks, so I absolutely adore this book!!! It reminded me a lot on American Horror Story Asylum TV-show so I simply devoured it. I was unable to stop thinking and questioning and wondering about every single thing that was going on in this book.
I'm now kicking myself for forgetting to read it sooner.
Sorry guys, I can´t write this review cause I must read the sequel like right now... (less)
“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, bu...more“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, but it was extremely good! There were some sweet moments too, some good messages, jokes and sarcasm. Several times I have asked myself while reading this book: "Are schools really like that? Are we really like that?" Well, yes, we are! Chelsea is a perfect example for one half of teens, but she learns her lesson and moves on better then she was before.
This book should be taught in every school and read by the students and parents as well. It is definitely an eye opener because these things happen. Its not entirely fiction... (less)
I have been meaning to read this books for years now. But, somehow, never got to it. Thankfully, I finally picked up this amazing story of facing and...moreI have been meaning to read this books for years now. But, somehow, never got to it. Thankfully, I finally picked up this amazing story of facing and overcoming your fears, of accepting yourself, of having strenght to love again and being loved. Kendra touched my heart very deeply.
Scars is very powerful book. The author, Cheryl Rainfield, is a former cutter and an abuse survivor, and that fact makes Scars even more chilling than it would have been otherwise. The story is so real that I did not want to put the book down, I read it all in one sitting, and I was not disappointed. It's fast-paced, suspenseful, educational, and most of all, emotional. I loved the author's use of art as a language, I loved also the mystery surrounding the abuser and I loved her therapist Carolyn. I admire Kendra the most because of her strength and determination, most of all I admire her strenght to move on and to forgive her ignorant mother after all the bad things that happend to her. Scars isn´t just book about pain, to me, it´s about coping and recovery.
This is a must read. Jaw dropping book. It is heartwrenching. It will never leave you.(less)
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, u...moreReview posted on Way Too Hot Books
This book just blew me away!
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, unpredictable and beautiful. This book is a definite MUST HAVE!
An older man and a teenage girl. Bittersweet romance. Your first thought must be Lolita? High school teacher and troubled student. Sounds like a recipe for disaster or at least some jail time. But, although situations like this would ordinarily cause me to cringe because I´m a school teacher, I actually felt... hope for these two tragically broken people... This is a taboo romance story with student-teacher relationship in which there are no stereotypical predators or victims. These people are damaged, but are they monsters in this book? No, they just made some bad decisions and this sure is their complicated love story. Monsters are some other characters who ruined their lives in the start.
The story is told in Jenna's voice as she "confesses" the truth of an incident into a policeman's tape recorder. Her family is dysfunctional (Psycho dad/cheater, alchocolic mother, grandfather- pedophile, a brother away at war...) and she finds escape in delusions and pain (selfharm). She is a cutter and she spend some time in Psycho ward. Then she moves to a new school and meets Mr. Anderson. He becomes the only one who sees her and brings her to the truth, but he is just as broken as she is...
" I´d never heard a man cry before, Bob, but...it´s awful. (...) I think some man aren´t used to it and don´t know what to do with all that feeling. Their emotions are hexane ignited in their chests and rips them apart, and then they feel like they´re going to die-just as something was dying, at that moment in Mitch."
Two of them pull strength from each other's tragedies... but, at the same time, they destroy each other and themselves.
“They call it the drowning instinct. It´s when drowning doesn´t look like drowning. In real life, if the water´s very cold, a person can´t help but gasp. It´s reflex. The thing is as soon as water hits your lungs, your throat closes off, even it the water´s warm. Your body´s trying to protect itself, and the reality is that a lot more people suffocate than truly drown. Regardless, to people on land, especially when you´re really close to the end, you don´t look like you´re in trouble. You don´t scream, but that´s because you can ´t, and you don´t wave your arms either or expend a lot of energy flailing. You´re just there. So people don´t notice that you´re drowning. That´s me. I think I´ve been drowning all this time and doing it so quietly, even I didn´t know it.”
My favorite part is the ending:
"You probably want me to regret Mitch. You want me to see that he lied, was some kind of predator; that I´m the victim, like you said. But Mitch was broken, too, in his way and just as much a hostage to his past and his mistakes. Maybe by trying to fix me, he was also healing himself in the only way he knew how. Oh, I can just hear you now. You and every therapist who ever lived will say that I´m rationalizing, that I´ve identified with a monster, just like those kids do who are kidnapped and live in a cage for twenty years. You´ll want to see me as damaged somehow, and then you´ll try to cure me. Well, I got news for you, Bobby-o. Cured is just synonym for coming around to your way of thinking. Cured is the word you use when I finally agree. But here´s the problem with that, Bobby-o. You and the therapists can yammer until you´re blue in the face, but I just can´t agree with you and probably never will. Because Mitch gave me love. He handed me back my life and that doesn´t make me a victim."
Ilsa J. Bick has a way with words. This is possibly one of the most emotionally intense books I have ever read. This story has a bittersweet romance and a plot that leads you on an emotional roller coaster.
I recommend it to anyone who wants to read something that is neither black nor white, but just like the real life, very very grey.(less)
"Crazy people lighting cars on fire, all the cars, until whole streets seem to be lined with signal fires. Fires to light the path. Th...moreImagine this...
"Crazy people lighting cars on fire, all the cars, until whole streets seem to be lined with signal fires. Fires to light the path. The sick putting out their dead. Mass graves. People killing other people with guns and knives. Looting. Beatings. People jumping from tenth-floor windows. Then, the empty city. Day. Night. Empty."
After the "dying", most of the world is wiped out. There are only few survivors (they think so), and they are living in military base. And then comes beautiful Eva...
Eva. She's not the first woman. She is The Last (well, they thing she is). She ate an apple and it brought her lots of trouble. Not with God, but with all mighty Major Smith and his 17 men. All mighty Major decided to give her her first husband for next six months and all the rest will have the pleasure to watch their sexual activites. Her partner's name was't Adam. He was John, Avery, Jason, James, Jake... She was very wicked and wise woman and she had a plan... This selfless women with a heart of gold will bring the peace in this little society with sex. Loads and loads of sex. I know how this sounds. Like a first class porn. But belive me, it's not. She has a high purpuse and it works psychologically by using the sexual therapy. At the end, which is not happy at all, she finds love, happiness and forgiveness in this harsh new world.
23 years after Eva we will meet Eva's children, Cain and Abel Gareth and Nadia.
This second part of book, two decades after the "dying" from deadly virus, the rest of the survived world is fallen apart.
"It's like societies just menage to check the brutality of human nature, but as soon as there's a tear in the fabric, fear, hate, horrible violence come spilling out"
Nix is a second heroine we meet in this book. She is a fighter in the man's world. With only few survivors where men outnumber women ten-to-one, where woman is property and is nothing better than a object which gives a birth, she is trying to save as many females from this harsh world as possible. After all abusing and killing in her life, she doesn't belive in love, and then she meets Gareth, bad boy with golden heart in this cruel world . They are finding the road from victim to freedom and hope of healing from sexual abuse (she as a victim, and he as a abuser), and at the end, they found all this in love.
This futuristic horror is like nothing i've ever read! Its dark and disturbing, sad and hot as hell, horrible and beautiful. It shows us fear of worst kind and monsters, but it shows us and the other side- humanity, sacrifice and kindness. There is no happily ever after in this book and don't expect it. Overall, great writing, a wonderful plot, hot scenes, deep and twisty character psychology. I highly recommend it to everyone! This book is one that will stay with you forever.(less)