Tommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's b...moreTommorow is my birthday, I´m due to give birth in 3 days and I'm scared to hell, so why the fuck I´m torturing myself with this kind of books? Let's be honest, this book is really great (thank you Tanja), but obviously, I'm a masochist... (less)
Well, it doesn´t have a cliffhanger like someone said to me. It has a happy ending. But this isn´t something special that I would like to reread. Thank...moreWell, it doesn´t have a cliffhanger like someone said to me. It has a happy ending. But this isn´t something special that I would like to reread. Thank god I haven't bought it yet...(less)
I believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, b...moreI believe there's a silent epidemic of great writers in Australia. Mr Martin Simons is just another proof of it!
I'm struggling with words right now, because no matter what I say, I won't be able to describe the strong feelings this novel evocates in me. I will just tell you, this is a story you don't want to miss.
Jenny rat is very realistic, raw, gritty, brutal, terrifying and painfully honest story of self-discovery. This is a kind of book that will give you a healthy dose of realism. It has the kind of characters that will make you feel their struggle, frustration, anger, pain and happiness as if it was yours.
Gianetta Chinchinello or Jenny Rat is 14 years old street child prostitute. She is been dealing with a very difficult situation for more than a few years: she was in incestuous relationship with her father and she blames herself for his suicide. Because of that she reminds me a lot of Nabokov’s “Lolita.” It was hard to get past the fact that she let him do the things he did and still stayed with him and loved him. It was almost like she had a sort of sick fetish for it - but later on in the book, bits and pieces are revealed that helped me to view the situation differently. Her mother hated her because of that, and after fathers death she was raising her to prostitute her to child molesters. After her mother left her, she became a street prostitute, surviving rape on the streets, malnourishment and sickness.
Jenny was a very inspirational character. She has some kind of split-personality: one half is sweet artistic Jenny, and second half is rot and evil Dirty Little Rat, and her life is struggle all the time.
"There is Little Rat, and there´s Jenny, both. Like the restaurant woman, two of us. I´m tired. I can´t think properly. Can´t decide what to do."
"I am a little slut, a filthy rat. I´ve been spoiled, dirtied and I´m twisted inside. It´s all I am. Just used up and twisted. There´s only one thing I can do now, one thing I am good for. That´s all I have for you."
And than we come to Michael Ingram, or Michelangelo, Jenny´s personal angel and savior. He is consulting engineer and he´s living alone outside of town because he has some kind of agoraphobia. After he saves Jenny, he visits her in the hospital and she opens up to him so Michael grows closer to her, as if she were his responsibility, his daughter. She has no place to stay when she leaves the hospital, and Michael wants her to live with him. With the help of social worker, she ends up in his home...
They both are struggling to survive in a world with time on its hands. This book is full of sociological and philosophical issues. Characters are coping by discussing some of the key themes of Existentialist philosophy and literature, and briefly mentioning some of the main existentialist authors. Existentialist theories bored the hell out of me in my high school, but in this book I found it captivating.
It's difficult to take a serious problem like abusive relationships, incest, domestic violence, prostitution and homeless teens and convert them into a story that captures reality without going over the top drama, but this author did a fantastic job here.
Overall, this book blew me away. It truly truly did. It was an emotional ride from the very first page. Mr Simons was not afraid to show his readers that life and stories aren't always sunshine and roses. People hurt other people. Life events can break you. Some situations are nearly impossible to deal with. Sometimes fighting and surviving is the only thing you can do. I highly recommend this book to everyone!
WARNING: Be aware of some violence, language, and sexual situations.
*I received a review copy of this title from the publisher via NetGalley*(less)
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, u...moreReview posted on Way Too Hot Books
This book just blew me away!
This book has stolen my attention right from its very first line. It´s stunning, scary, unpredictable and beautiful. This book is a definite MUST HAVE!
An older man and a teenage girl. Bittersweet romance. Your first thought must be Lolita? High school teacher and troubled student. Sounds like a recipe for disaster or at least some jail time. But, although situations like this would ordinarily cause me to cringe because I´m a school teacher, I actually felt... hope for these two tragically broken people... This is a taboo romance story with student-teacher relationship in which there are no stereotypical predators or victims. These people are damaged, but are they monsters in this book? No, they just made some bad decisions and this sure is their complicated love story. Monsters are some other characters who ruined their lives in the start.
The story is told in Jenna's voice as she "confesses" the truth of an incident into a policeman's tape recorder. Her family is dysfunctional (Psycho dad/cheater, alchocolic mother, grandfather- pedophile, a brother away at war...) and she finds escape in delusions and pain (selfharm). She is a cutter and she spend some time in Psycho ward. Then she moves to a new school and meets Mr. Anderson. He becomes the only one who sees her and brings her to the truth, but he is just as broken as she is...
" I´d never heard a man cry before, Bob, but...it´s awful. (...) I think some man aren´t used to it and don´t know what to do with all that feeling. Their emotions are hexane ignited in their chests and rips them apart, and then they feel like they´re going to die-just as something was dying, at that moment in Mitch."
Two of them pull strength from each other's tragedies... but, at the same time, they destroy each other and themselves.
“They call it the drowning instinct. It´s when drowning doesn´t look like drowning. In real life, if the water´s very cold, a person can´t help but gasp. It´s reflex. The thing is as soon as water hits your lungs, your throat closes off, even it the water´s warm. Your body´s trying to protect itself, and the reality is that a lot more people suffocate than truly drown. Regardless, to people on land, especially when you´re really close to the end, you don´t look like you´re in trouble. You don´t scream, but that´s because you can ´t, and you don´t wave your arms either or expend a lot of energy flailing. You´re just there. So people don´t notice that you´re drowning. That´s me. I think I´ve been drowning all this time and doing it so quietly, even I didn´t know it.”
My favorite part is the ending:
"You probably want me to regret Mitch. You want me to see that he lied, was some kind of predator; that I´m the victim, like you said. But Mitch was broken, too, in his way and just as much a hostage to his past and his mistakes. Maybe by trying to fix me, he was also healing himself in the only way he knew how. Oh, I can just hear you now. You and every therapist who ever lived will say that I´m rationalizing, that I´ve identified with a monster, just like those kids do who are kidnapped and live in a cage for twenty years. You´ll want to see me as damaged somehow, and then you´ll try to cure me. Well, I got news for you, Bobby-o. Cured is just synonym for coming around to your way of thinking. Cured is the word you use when I finally agree. But here´s the problem with that, Bobby-o. You and the therapists can yammer until you´re blue in the face, but I just can´t agree with you and probably never will. Because Mitch gave me love. He handed me back my life and that doesn´t make me a victim."
Ilsa J. Bick has a way with words. This is possibly one of the most emotionally intense books I have ever read. This story has a bittersweet romance and a plot that leads you on an emotional roller coaster.
I recommend it to anyone who wants to read something that is neither black nor white, but just like the real life, very very grey.(less)
“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, bu...more“Hate is... It's too easy. Love. Love takes courage.”
A fantastic read: nothing more, nothing less. Yes, it was difficult to read and very intense, but it was extremely good! There were some sweet moments too, some good messages, jokes and sarcasm. Several times I have asked myself while reading this book: "Are schools really like that? Are we really like that?" Well, yes, we are! Chelsea is a perfect example for one half of teens, but she learns her lesson and moves on better then she was before.
This book should be taught in every school and read by the students and parents as well. It is definitely an eye opener because these things happen. Its not entirely fiction... (less)
I can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lov...moreI can´t eat. I can´t sleep. I can´ work... This book haunts me! I can't erase it out of my memory. This book will stay with me forever!
Life can be lovely and painful and lonely and terrible all at once. You don´t belive me? Ask Sarah O´Brien. She found hope in the midst of the pain. Sarah's story elevated the deepest of pain to amazing heights. I think I may not ever forget her story.
Amazing. Thank you Kate Avelynn for writing this book. (less)
PREPARE YOURSELF: “Sticks and stones keep breaking my bones but these words, these words could kill you.” (quote from another book)
I've never read anything like this: so very realistic, intellectual and beautifully written. It´s by far one of the best books I've ever read but it is very sad and depressing, and in the same time it´s full of life and humor. This book left me in pain, and do you know what Mr John Green said about pain?
He said: " That´s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt."
"You don´t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices."
So, I will end this review with Hazel´s words to Mr Peter Van Houten: Mr Green, "...if you ever decide to write anything else, even if you don´t want to publish it, I´d love to read it. Frankly, I´d read your grocery list.
This was such a sweet book about a family, friendship, love and music. Last 25% blew me away! I am a big fan of Jimi Hendrix and Kurt Cobain so this was...moreThis was such a sweet book about a family, friendship, love and music. Last 25% blew me away! I am a big fan of Jimi Hendrix and Kurt Cobain so this was pretty awesome to me. (less)
Let´s talk about power. By the domestic polity, myth dictates that parents are endowed with disproportionate amount of it. I´m not so sure. Children?...moreLet´s talk about power. By the domestic polity, myth dictates that parents are endowed with disproportionate amount of it. I´m not so sure. Children? They can break our hearts, for a start. They can shame us, they can bankrupt us and I can personally attest that they can make us wish we were never born.
This book was painful, disturbing and complelling. Writing is fantastic. I´m a mother of hyperactive toddler, and this book will haunt me for quite a while.
Lionel Shriver is now one of my favorite writers! (less)
“If you have a sister and she dies, do you stop saying you have one? Or are you always a sister, even when the other half of the equation is gone?”
HEA...more“If you have a sister and she dies, do you stop saying you have one? Or are you always a sister, even when the other half of the equation is gone?”
HEARTBREAKING. TEAR-JERKING. DEEP AND EMOTIONAL.
This book was very touching, makes you think of what you would do in that same situation. The ending was absolutely surprising, yet alone completely shocking and upsetting. It´s life changing story. I look at the whole world a little differently now, and I hug my daughter a little bit tighter and little bit longer.
This book can leave a person speechless. I highly recommend this book to everyone! Forget the movie, read the book! (less)