I cannot put into words how lovely and lush this book was. The way it was told, the shifting POVs and dates, wove layers into the story that a linearI cannot put into words how lovely and lush this book was. The way it was told, the shifting POVs and dates, wove layers into the story that a linear timeline would have never been able to express. This book reminded me why I love to read.
It's that feeling of knowing there is something bigger in the world, outside of you, and getting to experience it through a medium that can be so diverse and thought provoking. Words and literature can make our worlds richer and we benefit from the perspective it gives us.
This is how you write a novel. This is how you build a world. Stunning. Absolutely stunning....more
I loved this book. Completely steamy and character driven. I could read about Kate and Trevor forever. If you're looking for a down and dirty, but somI loved this book. Completely steamy and character driven. I could read about Kate and Trevor forever. If you're looking for a down and dirty, but somehow sweet romance read? This is your book :)...more
I suffer from mental illness. There are very few organizations I respect that I respect like TWLOHA. In respecting TWLOHA, I of course know the name JI suffer from mental illness. There are very few organizations I respect that I respect like TWLOHA. In respecting TWLOHA, I of course know the name Jamie Tworkowski. So, naturally I had to read this book, not just because of the author, but because...I always feel too much.
I definitely felt too much while reading this. I probably should have read it sooner. This book was high on the list of what I asked for and received for Christmas in 2015.
I'm glad I waited til now. Because it reminded me of some very important things I've forgotten in the glorious mess my life has been this year. It reminded me of my heart and it reminded me I matter.
If You Feel Too Much is a collection of poems, essays, and introspection on a life and the many that have impacted it. It's a stellar reminder of why i probably shouldn't be capitalized. It reminds you of the beautiful possibilities and serendipity of life. It tells you of hope and sadness and everything in between.
Back when I still went to church, after my last hospitalization, when I was writing my testimony, a family friend told me to 'never give the devil more glory than you give God.' Jamie accomplished that beautifully.
I needed to take a walk after I read this book. Some things hit too close to home and entirely too close for comfort. I had to sort through my feelings for a bit, after which I realized:
I'm very very very glad Ms. Lazarus wrote this book.
Free of Malice is one of the most detailed, accurate, unique, and liberating books I've read in a good minute. It's uses of 'notes' from Laura's psychiatrist, a code to hear a song that a character (inspired by the author's real life friend who sings said song) sings during a scene, and scenes written from another character's perspective, enrich the storyline and brings an authenticity to the descriptions and processes in the book.
When Laura Holland is assaulted and it changes everything. From her marriage, her job, her home, the landscape of her mind, and more, she experiences a complete upheaval of everything she's ever known. When her husband makes an appointment with a therapist, Laura begins to grapple with her issues. I found Laura to be quite cathartic. When you read this book you take the journey with her. You, in a way, shadow her PTSD and anxiety. Her hyper-awareness and paranoia are palpable in nearly every page as well as her frustration at the lack of an easy answer. This is never an easy thing to go through and the author never allowed us to forget that.
The characters of Barbara Cole and Thomas Bennett fascinated me. Barbara, the therapist, is never anything less than a consummate professional. She actually reminded me of many therapists I've visited. There's a scene where Laura experiences the disconnect a lot of patients have with their therapists, where she realizes that Barbara is not her friend and that helping her is Barbara's job. She doesn't know her, even though Barbara knows a lot about her. It's not an ugly, dramatic thing by any means, but it's honest. It was very refreshing to not only see that, but see a therapist portrayed in a way that wouldn't cause someone to lose their license and livelihood in real life. There were also some things mentioned in the book pertaining to patient confidentiality that I nerded out over, because it was so accurate. I also enjoyed the inclusion of EMDR therapy.
Thomas, who we get to know a lot better than Barbara, kind of jumps off the page. Between the descriptions of his body language to his expressions and mannerisms, I felt like I could see him right in front of me. Thomas is alive in every exchange. It must be said that the amount of research that had to have gone in this for the author is remarkable and it didn't sacrifice truth for plot, as many procedural dramas do. The description of Georgia's legal system is jarring. You get a real taste of how unfair things can be and how people can use the legal system to their advantage.
And the description 'thriller' is well deserved. You don't get to relax for a single second in this book. You're constantly kept guessing and, just when you thought it might go another way? It hits you with a completely different angle. The conclusion was excellent and very satisfying.
Free of Malice is one of the best, not to mention honest, debuts that I've read. Laura's journey was authentic and realistic. While her investigative journalism definitely took some very unhealthy detours, it's a very rewarding read from start to finish. I cannot wait to see what else Ms. Lazarus has in store and hope that she brings her impeccable attention to detail with her....more
I need to stress how excited I was about this book. Meg Cabot was a huge part of my childhood. Every single book she had out, even the adult ones, eveI need to stress how excited I was about this book. Meg Cabot was a huge part of my childhood. Every single book she had out, even the adult ones, even the few she had under nom de plumes? I read them. I still own most of them (there was a tragic 'decluttering' of shelves when I first got a NOOK and I've regretted it ever since, let's not mention this again yes?). My freshman year of high school, which was 2004-2005, I inhaled every Meg Cabot book I could find. To this day I have alerts set up for when she's got a new book coming out, Meg has never disappointed me.
Firstly, as someone who has spent time in a mental hospital much like Six North? This is oddly similar to my experience. As I read I found myself remeFirstly, as someone who has spent time in a mental hospital much like Six North? This is oddly similar to my experience. As I read I found myself remembering the people I met in there, the people I wonder about, that I hope got better, the one I don't because I talk to her every day.
There were wayyy more rules there. Also, while they gently discourage keeping contact with other patients in this book and allow their patients to exchange contact info? We had to sneak ours out. I don't keep contact with most of them for the exact reasons the characters stated in the book. You're in there for a reason.
Patient to patient support is actually a really hot debate in mental health care right now, because if you're both doing well or trying to do well, it can be amazing. But just like Craig talks about tentacles? This person could be detrimental to you especially if they encourage your downward spiral.
I've been trying to read this book for two years. I bought it after reading a memorial post for the author who committed suicide in December 2013. I finally read it cover to cover in November 2016, and it was the perfect time to read it.
Mental illness is so overwhelming. The way Craig speaks in this book, reminds me of being 17 and my first hospitalization and now, at 26. It's overwhelmed, frantic, tired, resigned, numb, resentful, exhausted, annoyed, escapist, and a million other things. The way it describes depression, through Craig's own and his view of the other patients, is a kaleidoscope of ways and all so real and valid.
They, the patients & narrator, all realize they're messed up and have their own problems, which makes them more accepting of others. It reminded me of the community of book bloggers who openly talk about their mental illnesses and are fighting to shatter stigma, the people I'm very proud to call friend.
Craig was honest and realistic, anxiety palpable, and it was visceral. If you've been in that mindset, it's easy to fall back so while Craig is an extremely well rounded character, he's also relateable. Every sentience resonated for myself or someone I know/knew.
This is a hard review for me to write. The thing is? It should be hard. Eating disorders, racism, and homophobia should never be a light topic in anyThis is a hard review for me to write. The thing is? It should be hard. Eating disorders, racism, and homophobia should never be a light topic in any situation. This is a heavy book and, for a lot of people, it isn't going to be a their cup of tea. Perhaps the most distressing thing is that, for all that we talk about anti bullying? Hate is still alive and well in far too many lunch rooms. This is one of the better books I've read in the recent years that truly tackles these subjects. Immense in it's realism on the subject matters it tackles, M.B. Mulhall deserves every award in the book for not taking the easy route on this. It's gritty ,and at times very hard to handle, but the way Mulhall crafts the story allows it to be the punch in the face it should be.
It's been over 24 hours since I finished this book and I'm still grappling with myself and my need to do this book the kind of justice it did for the kid who's scared to come out of the closet, the kid who feels the immense pressure to be perfect, or the kid who walks with their shoulders hunched, hoping to God the student body won't tear them down for something so far beyond their control such as race or sexual orientation. Still I'm going to attempt to do this book some semblance of justice.
Ian has a lot of secrets. From his home life to his sexuality to the way he stays in his weight class. He's breaking under the stress. Underneath all that baggage though? Ian is a great person. He will do anything to protect the people he loves. Even if it means he'll take the fall for it. In the beginning, he has one good friend and, luckily for Ian? Clay is a good friend. Clay has his moments, just as we all do. He's human. he has moments where he is an ass and he says things that no one should ever say about another person, even if it is over jealousy. But, in the end, bro are bros because Clay's got Ian's back no matter what.
I want to make it clear that this Ian's story. It's about his struggle with his parents, his future, and trying to be true to himself. His home life isn't ideal, it's clear his mother loves him but, as often is the case? His mother is loyal to his father. No matter how much she loves her son, she'll never choose Ian over her husband. Ian's father is a leech on society who is content to live off the system while reliving his glory days. Discontent with the way his life turned out he is determined to have Ian live as he does. He wants him to quit school, a constant mantra of his was something along the lines of '8 years was enough schooling for me, why do you need more.' He constantly tried to tear his son down for 'not being good enough.'
Ian needs control. However when twins Julian and Mei Li come into town? It turns his entire world upside down. It makes the lines he's set for himself blur. For the first time in his life he's attracted to another man that's in the same school as him. And the town Ian lives in is very narrow minded and very white. I'm not saying that all towns are like this, but I know a lot of towns here in the south that are just like it. Justin and Mei Lei are treated awfully from the get go and Ian's ex girlfriend targets her from the minute they lock eyes.
I loved the friendship between Ian and Mei Lei and how it progressed. I also loved how it was a completely separate thing from what he had with her brother. She became like his sister in a way.
Something very very wonderful about this story is that is was not just about the romance. I said before that it was Ian's story and I was serious. This is about his battle with himself and against his outward demons. That being said? The romance was omg steamy. I definitely had to fan myself a few times.
I did like the end result of the book. I liked the resolution. It showed that, even in a narrow minded place, there are still a lot of people that see the person, not the orientation.
Whether the reader realizes it or not? Ian was lucky in so many ways. Not everybody else is.
It's a great book. I hope you'll pick it up. I promise it's worth every word....more
Like many of my fellow nineties children,I grew up with Sabrina--err Melissa. In fact, when my parents "needed" to punish me? My love for the TGIF linLike many of my fellow nineties children,I grew up with Sabrina--err Melissa. In fact, when my parents "needed" to punish me? My love for the TGIF lineup was so legendary that it was the ultimate punishment. So, from the very minute that I heard she was writing a memoir I sat in front of the computer, counting the days religiously.
The minute I got the book I started tearing into it like it was a rare steak.
It was not a disappointment. The book is funny, witty, and candid. You feel as if you're talking to a new friend over drinks in a bar. What I mean to say is that while, honest and candid, it's a slightly superficial look at it. Melissa never really goes into detail about emotions, but keeps a steady pace throughout the book.
There's a lot of name dropping, but, somehow? It didn't come off conceited. It just was like she was saying, "these are my people" with a shrug and a smile. She doesn't claim to be perfect in this book, not in any way. In fact? She kind of makes you feel safe and like it's okay to make mistakes.
Some of it is a little jaw dropping. Other parts are going to make you want to laugh until you can't breathe. Then there will be times you want to hug her and other times you want to roll your eyes.
It's a good read. A quick one, but if you've been a Melissa fan at any age? Read it. You'll love it. If you aren't a fan and you never have been? It might not be your cup of tea.
Review: So I don't like crime novels. I love procedural shows and I enjoy observing people, but I don't really delve into this genre. However L.K. HilReview: So I don't like crime novels. I love procedural shows and I enjoy observing people, but I don't really delve into this genre. However L.K. Hill wrote the book so I was like, ehh I'll try it.
L.K. Hill is an alarmingly talented and evil woman.
Because once again I am frothing at the mouth for a sequel. Once again I want to hit something because I have too many questions and I want to tweet to the heavens and back that if you don't read this book and like it I question your sanity.
This book is triggering. I'm not even going to go through the list, but if you're squeamish of anything taboo you need to steel yourself before reading it. (And no I'm not going to tell you not to read it because this book is THAT FREAKING GOOD) However, the triggering material is dealt with tastefully and with respect to the matter of which it pertains to.
Kyra is an amazing, multi faceted character. I love being inside her head, viewing her thought process. She's observant and she understands people. I mean this woman understands people on a mentalist level and you don't even realize it until the middle of the book. She's smart, resourceful, and gritty. She's got steel in her spine. This is the woman that I think we need to see more of in fiction. She's not the girl who allows herself to collapse when the world around her spirals. She handles her business...and then, like any human being, collapses afterwards. It's an admirable trait.
Gabe is a solid beginning for a character. Though we see into his mind and we are given glimpses into his machinations, we don't really know him yet. This is his story too, that much is clear. However, how much of it is his we have yet to learn.
The secondary characters are likeable and fleshed out enough that you can feel for them, fill in their features and give them personality. In fact, this entire book is rife with imagery that gives you a specific mental picture of what kind of world we're being drawn into.
L.K. Hill once again writes a book that is intricate and detailed, starting a whole other series that most authors will probably froth with envy over once she's complete. I don't even know how to accurately describe this book. I just know that it has that potential, the same one Interchron has, and the same one that has spawned any epic and critically acclaimed series of the decade. I look forward to more. I probably would pay her bills for a year and give her extra money so that she could finish this series and let me read it. I don't have those means however.
I can find nothing lacking in this book. L.K. Hill is as talented as ever and I, as a reviewer/reader/amateur writer, am at odds with my awe of this series and quality of the writing as well as being rabid for the next installment, and caught between utter fan worship-belieber level-devotion and hating her more than a little bit for consistently being this good.
Hats off again Liesel. Again you have set up a perfect first novel for what I fervently hope will continue to be a fast paced and gripping series....more
I love these books. It's predecessor, Go Ask Alice, had the same vibe as well. Both were about girls who got into a world they thought they could contI love these books. It's predecessor, Go Ask Alice, had the same vibe as well. Both were about girls who got into a world they thought they could control and ended up in way over their heads. I think that I related a lot more to the girl in this book (we'll call her Lucy) because it was set closer to my time in high school and I could remember a lot of the things in the book happening to my friends, if not myself.
It tackled the subject of peer pressure alarmingly well. It also handled addiction and the allure of it all very aptly. As I read about Lucy's friends spiraling into that world and saw how devastated she was that they were going on without her, that they didn't have time for her anymore, I felt her need to fit in. It was very visceral. Her ache to be accepted by the people she loved and her need to be a part of their world, even if it was at the expense of her relationship with her brother or her parent's trust, was very raw. I remember feeling that way at her age and at other points in my life. I remember being on parts of her journey not too long ago.
It's not easy to say no. Not when everyone looks like they're having so much fun or your friends are pressuring you to do it or when you may lose your very best friend to another crowd if you don't participate. And once you say yes? It gets harder to say no. You think "meh, what's one more time?" and do it again. Then you're offered something harder and it's better. You don't always get addicted to the drug. Sometimes you're just addicted to the high and willing to use whatever you have to to get back there. And THAT is more dangerous than any drug. That desperation.
Lucy's journey was harrowing. It squeezed the life out of me so many times. I'd have to remind myself to breathe in multiple different parts. And then the end. How it all ended? I'd love to say that this book was a scare tactic and it was being dramatic, but I've seen stuff like this happen for years and years. And I've seen it happen EXACTLY how it happened to Lucy. So read it as a cautionary tale.
I don't know that this exact story happened to a girl and that this is really her journal, but I've seen similar ones happen to friends, family, acquaintances, and strangers.
I'm actually giving this a 3.5, but here's my review crossposted at my book blog Vicariously!
This book...was nothing like what I expected. Coming fromI'm actually giving this a 3.5, but here's my review crossposted at my book blog Vicariously!
This book...was nothing like what I expected. Coming from Chris Colfer, of Glee fame, I expected something uplifting and funny. What I got? It was funny, most definitely, albeit in a twisted kind of way. It was, however, not uplifting. It was unrealistically realistic, a contradiction on so many levels.
So Carson Phillips wants to go to Northwestern. He wants to go there so bad that a) it's the only school he's bothered to apply to and b) he's worked his butt off to get the credentials to get there. Only problem? Colleges aren't satisfied with good grades and a couple extra-curriculars anymore. They want you to show initiative, be innovative, and Carson gets the amazing idea to start a literary magazine. His issue? Getting people to participate. No one likes Carson, save Mallery, so getting help is gonna be difficult. Luckily Carson comes up with a solution: He'll blackmail his classmates into helping him. And it works.
Carson Phillips is an amazing anti-hero. He seems so distinctly prickly. He comes from a podunk little town where he doesn't fit in, his family is alarmingly dysfunctional, he has no friends, and the only person who he actually loves is losing their mind to dementia. He is not a well liked person, which is probably not helped by the fact almost every word that comes out of his mouth is laced with derision and condescension. He doesn't hide the fact that he finds everyone surrounding him classless, beneath him, and idiotic. He's constantly dreaming of the good life where he's at the top of the food chain, people fawning over him. He's a snob, a very loveable and snarky one, but a snob.
It would be very easy to hate Carson, just by reading this review, or by the first three or four chapters of the books. But the thing is...his life is so incredibly awful. His mom is basically a pill junkie who lives off what his father decides to give them since he walked out all those years ago and wants to tear Carson down so that he'll stay with her for the rest of his life (how this manifests in the book is awful by the by). His parents aren't divorced because his mom won't sign the papers so they fight, scream, and Carson's mother just cries. His grandmother, the woman who was his rock, who made sure he was gonna be as okay as possible, reassured him that he was loved? She's in a home with her brain deteriorating from dementia. Sometimes she doesn't remember him. And those kids he's so condescending to? They're just as, if not more, awful to him. And don't even get me started on his dad.
Since the book is really about Carson's life, no other characters really get developed, which is sad, because some of the caricatures characters have a lot of potential. If watching Carson grow from a selfish, bitter, holier-than-thou, vindictive, one prozac prescription away from happiness-like humanoid, into a real kid, one who realizes he's not the only person in the world, and whom starts to care about the kids he's blackmailed. Of course he does it with a flair only Carson is capable of and a quip asking why they chose him as a therapist. And through the completion of his literary magazine he finds out that not everyone is what they seem.
The ending isn't a shocker so much as...wow. I can't believe they let it end like that, You'd be extremely hard pressed to find that kind of finality in any YA today. It's a black comedy to the highest degree. And maybe you kind of learn something....more