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At first I was compelled to ignore the obvious repeating and po**********Probably has a lot of Spoilers, Read at your own Risk************************
At first I was compelled to ignore the obvious repeating and poorly edited writing style to hear the story. It wasn't well written but the nature of her abuse was horrific. It was like the train wreck you can't stop looking at the accident pictures because you are in shock.
About fifty percent into the novel, I began to realize I didn't believe her. I'm sorry if that makes me a horrible person as obviously a publisher and several other readers have bought every word of this novel as truth because it says so. But who says so? What makes it non fiction?
Now I can't figure out having finished the novel if she was delusional and believes the truth she's selling, if it was possibly true, if she was having a bit of revenge on daddy, or was the entire thing the rantings and ravings of a lunatic? I don't know only the author and her family really know. I tried to find something, anything to back up the novel as evidence and because there was never prosecution there is nothing. So I could be wrong. I would apologize if I were but it would take evidence not just an author comment on this review to convince me.
The problems I have believing this novel are numerous. Let's start with the disjointed memories. Sure, someone writing something painful like this may have this writing style but a good editor would have fixed this before publishing the book. Helped the thoughts organize themselves.
Next, let's examine the memories for a moment. Does a two year old have crystal clear detailed recollections of events in their childhood? Why were later memories so vague? Why does she go out of her way not to actually implicate anyone by name? She makes tremendous claims about the notoriety of her father's friends, even nationally but never once gives us a real name to go off of? Her own father who was so terrible is still just any old man walking down the street as she never gives a face to him. Incredulous. You want to tell your story, you spill all of his secrets and still don't give him away.
When she can't come up with something new to tell she seems to pull off the past and rehash an old memory with a new name, face, or place. Yes, abuse like this exists but how credible is it that every adult outside of her mother and grandparents she encountered in her lifetime was another pedophile and no one stood up for her or helped her? She lived with other friends in high school and none of their parents came to her aid? Very hard to believe. People can't mind their own business. Look at the extreme amount of pedophiles this one person encountered in about a four year time span. That alone seems unrealistic. Mom was unaware? Really? Dad took you to baths and bed alone and not once did she ever question it? Even when you developed boils? Let's not even mention the amount of tearing and physical damage done to a little girl's body by what she claims happened to her. Or the fact that no unwanted pregnancies ever occurred. It happened at twelve so that makes it harder to believe there was never a consequence or an STD if as many people shared her as she wants us to believe.
Next let's look at the amount of excuses and drudging up a repeat of excuses she has to explain herself. She acted bad in high school because, she didn't tell anyone because, she continued to visit her father and go on trips with him at 18 because...I'm sorry at some point a normal person has washed their hands of their father and no longer puts themselves in consistent danger by returning to visit again and again.
Her brother seemed like he could be a prominent figure in the beginning of the story and then he just disappears. Yes, he went to boarding school but there's no further mention on his take, his memories, and in fact all bond with her sibling is shattered by her teenage years. She has completely forgotten everything until she breaks down after birthing her child and all of this starts to surface. How much of this is real? How much of this is fabricated by her own mental condition, whatever that is?
Aside from prosecuting or legal action against her father I'd like to spend one brief moment on her teenage experience with Dan. Those who have read this will know what I refer to, trying hard not to overtly spoil everything. In that regard - there would be an incredible amount of pain in what was described. I find it hard to believe that doctors were so confused they never once checked for something like what happened. Then think about how angry one would feel. How could you not say a word? How did that tragedy not invoke the terrible memories she still claimed to be blocking? That would do more to trigger her childhood than anything else could. So it doesn't even make sense. I'm no psychologist but again, please disprove me. Just read the book first so you can use examples and really explain it to me.
The entire book could be truthful. Partial truths may exist between the shattered fabric of a mentally ill person's brain. However, there is no real case to be made for 100% truth and a big, big case to be made for fiction. There are many more examples of why I feel this way but I'm quite surprised in reading the other reviews no one else even briefly mentioned the possibility that this could be a work of fiction. That we could all be being duped by a writer....more