**spoiler alert** Initially upon finishing the book, I gave it three stars solely based on the writing quality. The book jumped around a lot in terms**spoiler alert** Initially upon finishing the book, I gave it three stars solely based on the writing quality. The book jumped around a lot in terms of writing style, front daily, almost compulsive writing, to spaced out bits and then month-long time gaps of writing. If this was to be the example of a realistic teenager's journal of a girl suffering with anorexia, there would not be this sort of gap. The writing was unrealistic, and the plot went from an entirely slow buildup to a too-fast end that seemed designed for shock value more than anything.
Upon further thought, this book is not only poorly written, but is also trigger-laden and designed with a pitiful portrayal of a girl who is suffering with an eating disorder. In the middle of the novel, the therapist that she sees describes her as having obsessive-compulsive behaviour, something that isn't shown in her eating habits, and definitely isn't shown outside of her running for exercise other than her one impulsive move to clean out her room of clutter to make it more simplistic. That was described as a need to keep things 'neat and organised' to key in her behaviour. Additionally, she's in denial about her disorder and then sees the medical issues that she faces but THEN goes back to being in denial like she hadn't realised what was wrong with her which she had just a few pages before. She was recovering, dropped weight, went back to a semi-state of recovery and then seemed to conveniently forget everything in the span of one conversation. If this was supposed to be accurate and this was her personal diary there would be a buildup not a sudden break.
The thing that angered me the most about this book was the overall reaction to her eating disorder. The only realistic portrayals I found were in Jack, Jill, and her friend on the track team (I've forgotten her name at the moment). Her parents wanted to help get her better and yet they were letting her driver her car around and allowed her to skip meetings with her therapist? Even if her mum was a nurse who had to be at the hospital and her parents weren't together, there were ways to ensure that she made meetings. Wintergirls by Laurier Halse Anderson is a great example of a family who actually shows desire for their daughter to recover. Granted, not all families are like this example and I understand that, but don't write an overly concerned mother and a somewhat concerned father and then have them do nothing when it comes down to making sure their daughter recovers.
I found a lot of problems with this book, but the thing that disturbed me the most was that it seemed to try and be a hook for teenagers to enjoy the glamour of an eating disorder without the reality of the consequences and that it is a disease. Despite the mentions that it is a mental illness, there was no visible health ramifications aside from her fainting twice. It lacked a moral other than the end of the book, and it was just a trigger-filled crock of bad writing and plot holes. I thought that this book would be worth a read, and instead I found it to be a good lesson on how not to handle the writing of a sensitive subject that should be talked about more instead of glamourised....more