Small time drug deals, touring with the Grateful Dead, and a passion for growing pot filled Jen’s world before she met Greg. But the first time she goSmall time drug deals, touring with the Grateful Dead, and a passion for growing pot filled Jen’s world before she met Greg. But the first time she got off a flight, strolled over to the baggage claim in her carefully chosen new outfit and picked up two brand new flowered suitcases filled with eighty pounds of Mexican swag pot, she felt like she had found her true calling in life. The adrenaline rush of getting away with something big along with the money Jen would make was a new kind of high she’d never before experienced. Jen was instantly addicted. Making money organizing drug runs around the country was intense. Greg and Jen were a money making duo like none other. Life with Greg was exciting for a while but it wasn’t long before it became a cat and mouse game – then a complete nightmare.
Words like belittling and narcissistic were not in Jen’s vocabulary. Later, learning these words helped her disconnect from the mental torture. The tension would build as Jen protected Greg’s reputation while he isolated her from friends and family. Then there would be an incident of abuse which confused Jen. At first it was lying, hurtful words and actions but quickly escalated to guns at her head, knives, and the use of her son to manipulate and control her. The honeymoon phase would be another fabulous trip to Hawaii or resort hopping around the world. Jen didn’t see the cycle or even understand abuse. The drugs and alcohol allowed her to tolerate and numb the pain until her spirit dwindled down to a shadow of nothingness. How could she escape the far reaching sabotage of any attempt at her freedom? Could there be a way out? Could Jen find a way to spare her son from this drug infested violent existence that would surely crush his soul?...more