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How It Feels

3.26 of 5 stars 3.26  ·  rating details  ·  432 ratings  ·  79 reviews
"I had no idea how free we were. That's how free I was."
An old friend, a best friend, a first love and the dreamer Neil Cronk who connects them all...

Four schoolfriends are on the verge of adulthood and the next 12 hours will change the course of their lives... Friendships will be broken, virginity lost, love unleashed and secrets buried.
A decade later, one is dead, one is
Paperback, 371 pages
Published November 1st 2010 by Picador
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For various reasons I came to this book expecting great things, more than that, I anticipated that it would open up a bit of that magic, the kind that alters you subtly but surely among your people, so you see them all a little better. Why we place that kind of hope, and the burden of that hope on an author and his novel makes me a tad guilty, but I was so right with this book.

I read it in one sitting, overly fast, but I spent a lot of time marvelling over the rightness of the prose, the dead-o
Kee Kee
The main character is arrogant, egotistical and imploding (i.e. an arse) and it's hard to sympathise with him. I understand that the story is about intensity of youth, which can be stupid and destructive, but these things make How it feels an uncomfortable read.

I suffered through the first third of the book, waiting to understand the real motivations of Neil Cronk and his circle of troubled boys, but it became apparent midway through that they had no effing idea either. Each one is young, dumb
I found this book to be extremely depressing. The writing seems to be really well done, and I can visualise the whole thing as it happens. I can easily see it being a movie, but the subject matter wasn't my cup of tea. It is extremely removed from my own experience of high school and being a young adult, that i couldn't relate to it. I was really glad when the book was over, just so i could put the whole experience behind me. As well written as it is, I wouldn't recommend it to anyone to read.
Dominica Lowe
"Swanna's eyes were somehow harmless, like cardigans"

"I half-spewed some lemon chicken and punched the wall. My fist hurt because I had just punched the wall with it"

I would have liked this book more if I didn't read it.
Hmmm, what to say about this one. I'm a little torn. I suppose I should say firstly that I couldn't put this down but at the same time I didn't enjoy it. It was like watching a train crash in slow motion, I couldn't tear my eyes away but it was horrific. This book contains some of the most hideous characters I have ever encountered. They are ALL very unlikeable, particularly the protagonist, Neil who is just about the most repulsive character ever. This is a book about selfish, narcissistic, ego ...more
Jacinta Fintan
After spending four days with Brendan Cowell's main character, Neil Cronk, it has taken me a week to figure out what sort of head trip Cronk took me on. All I can come up with is that it's a bit like sex with the ex. Oh so good and oh so wrong. Particularly when the ex resembles all those remnants of the past that were littered with druggy 90s lost-its.

You know, the friends you knew, people you cared about, parts of your family, ex boyfriends and all those romances that existed in your own head
A coming of age sob story about on of the most licentious and odious character I've come across yet.

How It Feels was for me, painful to read as Neil (protagonist) writes about a good decade of his life where he manages to repeatedly betray, forsake, decieve and hurt his friends who never seem to stop caring about him, although I can't imagine why. I feel like Neil's drug taking almost becomes a way to legitimise some truly inexcusable behaviour, and then I realise, drugs or not, that he was a je
Sunny Naicker
I have very mixed feelings about this book; growing up in a small coastal town in Australia I could certainly relate to Neil and his friends, who could of been my friends; and the relationship between these friends is tender, raw and touching and certainly cuts to the heart of this story. However it all seems to unravel into a narcissistic, shallow and solipsistic mess and by the end of it I left liking no one and my initial empathy turned to sympathy and eventually absolute apathy for these sha ...more
There is a certain kind of middle-brow bloke-lit that I am drawn to read even though it frequently rubs me the wrong way, and How It Feels falls into this camp, or at least has one foot in it. I am actually quite a fan of Brendan Cowell's acting and screenwriting efforts; I think there is a wonderful realism in his work that comes across in this novel. What I didn't like - and this is not necessarily a specific criticism of Cowell but of bloke-lit generally (I define this as people like Venero A ...more
I have to warn you that you will need a strong stomache to handle this one. It wasn't the casual, chick-flick romance I was looking for, but still it took me into a world I have never thought about before and let me see how people in these situatiosn struggle and think that life is useless.

Other reviews have made mentions of a lot of sex and drugs (and I couldn't agree more!), but that's how life is for some of us, right? It kinda scares me to see Brendan Cowell (who I loved in "I Love You Too")
I found it very hard to like Neil. He's self obsessed, annoying and, at times, totally oblivious to the havoc he wrecks upon all those around him. Maybe it's a guy thing? Maybe it's how teen/post-teen guys think and behave, but it just made him so hard to like. Not that it makes this a bad book, but it does bring up a big question - can you like a book and hate the main character?
In the end, the book wasn't bad. Sure there's more sex, drugs and violence than you can poke a stick at, but I don't
Banafsheh Serov
Four teenage friends living in Sydney’s Southern Shire, have finished their final exams and are about to embark on different paths. In one wild, drug and alcohol fuelled end of year celebrations their lives change forever and friendships are broken.

This is a strange and unusually crafted novel. I confess I left it half way through mainly because of my irritation with Neil and his narcissism. The characters live on a daily orgy of promiscuous sex, alcohol and drugs that seem over exaggerated and
This book engulfed me beyond anticipation, that's for sure.
Definately bluntly humourous, which complements the raw language used in Cronk's drug-induced experiences of his adult life and youth. This is one of those books that has moments filled in (numerous) paragraphs that leave you gripping onto the words and their meaning. The ending got to me, not just because it was the 'ending' and I had to farewell a very, very troubled protagonist but for the ill-fated desperation Neil/Cronk felt in the
I have mixed feelings about this book. The beginning is beautiful and the analysis of Cronulla was really interesting as well - The Shire is portrayed as a haven for white racists (however, no mention of the bra boys). Whilst I really enjoyed the writing style - at times really beautiful and poetic, I thought the book was a tad badly edited (lots of obvious typos), and to be honest I found it all a little disappointing. Like 'The Slap' - it is so hard to connect with characters who are such self ...more
Ms Tlaskal
Definitely for older readers 16 + as it is very explicit in places.

There is not one false note in this novel. Every sentence is true and real. Here is a real antidote to the grotesque depiction of 'The Shire" on TV. As a theatre director Cowell skillfully weaves the time sequence of the narrative to explore every facet of the intoxicating love triangle between his alter-ego Neil Cronk (!), his best friend and his first love. A true insight into an extraordinarily creative man's mind, I will neve
So, how does it feel? Like a nightmare. From an artistic perspective, this is a masterpiece. (For this reason and this reason only I'll give it 4 stars.) ButI can't for the life of me work out why the world needs it. The story, rife with drug-taking, sex and every unimaginably disgusting act a human is capable of, holds all the fascination of a four car pile up on the highway: something you don't want to look at but just can't help yourself. Similarly, it leaves you feeling ashamed and disgusted ...more
I read this quickly and that means I must have liked it. It kind of felt odd reading a story that was so close to home in many ways, which then made it even more strange when many events seemed so over the top and unreal (does that make any sense?). Everything is so dramatic and full on, but I guess that's the point, hence, the title...
Looking forward to the follow up novels (no pressure!) where the focus is more narrow and he doesn't feel like he needs to chuck everything in the mix. Bloody goo
Brooke Carter
I really don't know what to think of this book. It's one where the blurb doesn't doesn't prepare you properly- in a bad way. It tries to make it sound like it's going to something with a lot of wisdom or at least the main character learning something or at the very very least be someone you can relate to.

As a person currently in my final year of uni I absolutely did not feel that way. The book felt like an exaggeration of all the different ways you can not have your life together. As well as sa
Why didn't Brendan Cowell just write a memoir? Having not denied majority of this story happened to him directly, this story lacks imagination. An egocentric, self indulgent, and recycled piece of work - I could have sworn I have read this story before? It's well written and funny at times - I'll give him that - but above all reeks of self pitying, lazy, tormented artist that's all too easy to despise! We've heard it all before! Cowell should stick to acting.
Helen Morrison
A favourite, in line with other Australian brutal realists like Helen Garner (monkey grip) or Christos Tsiolakis (the slap). It wont be some peoples cup of tea, but for me I loved the raw Australian humour and recognizable situations and setting. As David Williamson once said "we [Australians] have to stop being embarrassed by ourselves."
Emma Linton
‘How it Feels’ is dark, poignant and depressing. So why did I read it from cover to cover, in a single sitting? I was accompanied by an ever-present feeling of discomfort, yet I was still completely hooked to this story throughout its entire course.

Cowell shows an astounding ability to bend and manipulate language in unique ways, to create mesmerizing insights and imagery. Evidence of this is randomly scattered in the novel, wound into the observations and perspectives of Neil, the protagonist.
Jan 12, 2011 Lisa rated it 3 of 5 stars
Recommended to Lisa by: Gift from Greg
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Steve lovell
A 'Sunday Telegraph reviewer reckons (Brendan) 'Cowell looks destined to be one of Australia's finest novelists'. I wonder what book of this author he/she was reading to make that assertion. I sincerely hope it wasn't this one!

Now I like Cowell – still best known, I think, for his acting. I have loved him in such television and cinematic features as 'Love My Way', 'I Love You Too' and 'Save Your Legs'. Listening to him being interviewed by Ellen Fanning for 'The Observer Effect', he comes acros
Not a good read in that the subject matters (copious amounts of drugs and sex, suicides pervading several characters lives) were so unrelatable to me, yet I couldn't put this book down. It was depressing but intriguing. Harshly written, reminds me of Helen garner books, or as some other reviews suggest, tsiolkos, there is nowhere to hide with these ugly characters and their troubles lives. Enjoyed it and hated it at once. 2.5 stars. Don't think I would recommend it.
This is a book about life. It is beautifully written and well-detailed, almost reading like biography at some points. The book starts off with brilliant force, evoking everything a teenager in love would feel. The middle was a little tiresome for me, and lacked the force of the first and third parts, but is still in keeping with the rest of the book and fits well in the greater scheme of the book. Brendan Cowell is a writer to come almost out of nowhere, with his previous writing experience comi ...more
Lucas Russell
A bit raw and crass for me. I appreciate the need for hard language. It went beyond what was necessary. The main protagonist made so many bad decisions it was it was painful. The frustration I felt with the main character helped me through to the end of the book.
Having seen the author in the drama series "Love my way" i was interested to see if he could write as i dont mind him as an actor.

I had it in the back of my mind that this book had an element of truth in it and couldnt work out where Neil began and Brendan (the author) ended. Then when i read about the author on the cover - there was some similarity about where they both grew up and went to Uni.

There was a lot of drug/sex references in this book entwined with suicide themes which disturbed me as
Sep 25, 2014 Art rated it 4 of 5 stars
Shelves: sydney
Incredibly depressing novel set in the Sutherland Shire, a part of Sydney that I truly hate. It might be hard for readers who live outside Sydney to believe that it is in reality exactly as bad as this book makes out. People that live there never escape.
Melissa Burtt
Wow - Great read - I didn't want to rush it - but read the last half in a few hours - it hooked me in. I am disappointed it is over really. Intense characters and events without being unbelievable.
This book was slowly but surely captivating. Wonderful prose, well constructed & an interesting, realist piece of writing. The description of childhood, adolescence & beyond growing up by Sydney's beachside suburbs is quite right on the money. I particularly enjoyed the character depiction of those who managed to be different & escape the conservative parochialism of the beachside suburbs. There should be many more of these gritty, coming of age depictions of contemporary Australian ...more
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