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Finding Zach (Finding Zach #1)

4.04  ·  Rating Details  ·  3,700 Ratings  ·  405 Reviews
For five years, Zach Tyler, son of one of the world s richest software moguls, was held hostage, tortured, and abused. When he is rescued at last from the Venezuelan jungle, he is physically and psychologically shattered, but he slowly begins to rebuild the life he should have had before an innocent kiss sent him into hell. His childhood best friend David has lived those y ...more
Paperback, 252 pages
Published May 7th 2010 by Dreamspinner Press (first published May 2010)
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MsMiz (Tina)
Mar 14, 2011 MsMiz (Tina) rated it really liked it
Shelves: glbt-all, kindle-mobi
Dear Person who recommended this book -

Next time it may be quicker to have you plunge a knife in my chest, dig around a bit, cut out my heart, toss it on the ground while rolling it in dirt and rocks. Then have my heart run over by a couple of cars at which time you can put it back sew me up for the HEA. Basically, that is what this book did. Tragic and beautiful what us mere mortals can overcome.

Heather K (dentist in my spare time)
Rowan Speedwell.... HOLY CRAP! You killed this one! I loved it. I loved this book so hard. It tore me down and then put me back together. I cried and clutched my kindle and could NOT put it down. Easily makes my 2013 favorites list. ::Standing ovation::

Yet again, this is another book that I refused to read the blurb of before I started. I went into this book blind and was totally shocked and horrified during the first chapter of the book. I was beside myself and, frankly, still am when I think
'"You don't have to win the game, Zach," David said quietly, "you just have to play."'

While not quite what I expected, Finding Zach didn't disappoint. Although what happens was truly awful, and my heart was aching for Zach the entire time (both for trying to live in the now and glances from the past), it's also sweet, full of hope and emotional in that positive way. Like when Zach realizes David loves him and that he loves him too, that he needs him, and dealing with it all after everything th
May 14, 2013 Christina rated it it was ok
2.5 Stars

This book was like being on a seesaw. I'm going to be the odd one out here, but I didn't believe Zach's story. There were so many touching and heart-wrenching parts that drew me in to Zach's pain and his heart but there was always something that tore me out of the story. Notably, pointless POV changes, frequent angsty misunderstandings, and head-hopping. This story had so much potential. There were some flashes of beautiful writing but as a whole it wasn't well executed.

I was happy the
Nick Pageant
Aug 16, 2014 Nick Pageant rated it really liked it

Spoilerish Review!

So, I read this book in french with Mish. It could be that I missed something and it deserves an extra star, but I'm going for four. I gained a whole new level of respect for Giulio, Marco, and Marte while reading this book. To read in a second language is a real challenge and I'm amazed by these three, and all my other friends who read in a second language.
This is not an easy read emotionally. There is a lot of physical and sexual abuse in the MC's background. I don't mind rea
Heather C
What to say? Where to begin? The books I love always seem to leave me speechless! Soit seemsthis is another one of those books.

So I think I will just make a list opinions:

I read it straight through all in one day

I had no idea what it was about before I started.

I loved every word of it.

It was beautiful

It was sad, but I didn't cry.

It was angsty, but not too angsty for me.

It felt real.

Zach was stronger than anyone gave him credit for.

David had the patience of a saint.

There was a
Oct 19, 2012 Susan rated it really liked it

*sigh* Oh, to be loved as David loved Zach.

“Finding Zach” is a book equal parts horrific, tragic, heartbreaking, sensual, victorious, and loving. It touches on themes of kidnapping, abuse, family, young love, healing, and PTSD. You’d think you’d go dizzy with ALL of that. But, I found myself just feeling FULL at the end…in the best way…

The loveliest part of this book, and the center of everything, is the relationship between Zach (a boy kidnapped and tortured at the age of 15 for 5 years) and D

This was about a young man of 15, kidnapped, tortured, raped, held prisoner in a cage, treated like his captors dog for 5 grueling years. Then by a fluke Zach is saved and given back to his family. this book was about Zach's path back, the courage, the strength, the will to not give up.

And this was about his best friend David, and David's guilt over what he perceived as his part in Zach being kidnapped. And David finding a way to convince Zach that he loves him and wants to be with him.

I loved t
Serena Yates
Aug 31, 2010 Serena Yates rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: gay
This is an amazing story about the ability of the human spirit to endure the most horrendous situations - and come out, if not unblemished, whole enough to have another go at leading a fulfilled life.

It is not a book where I can simply say "I loved the book" and give a list of reasons. The truth is, I didn't love all of the book because the thought of a human being, Zach in this case, having to go through such suffering and torture is not something I can "love" reading about.

The reason I gave it
Jun 19, 2011 Imogen rated it liked it was not as angsty as I'd hoped, which was disappointing. This story has the potential to be quite an emotional roller coaster ride, but it fell short of expectation. It might sounds a little messed up on my part, but Zach was not emotionally damaged enough for me. Considering how f*cked up, figuratively and literally, he was by what happened to him, I thought he should have been a bit more, I don't know...unbalanced? skittish? insane? ...something that would more strongly conveys how t ...more
Jan 16, 2014 SueC rated it liked it
Shelves: boib-read
Yes, oh yes. My dear friends, this is what I've been waiting for... I's been so long since I've felt moved by an honest-to-goodness romance. And Finding Zach has romance in abundance.

Here's the things I'd like you all to know.
- It made me cry tears of joy
- It is now in my favorite reads of 2013
- It was a pleasure to read. There was no fuss in the writing, just words that somehow carried the story along. Really effortless reading
- The sex scenes are delicious
- The secondary characters were are d
May 12, 2010 Betryal rated it it was amazing
It was a fawking bloody disaster....

Gotcha! Caught your attention didn't I? Just yanking but it works. LOL Well, relax, I'm not talking about the book. I'm talking about the story in and of itself. The cluster fawk of events, the circumstances and what made this story so gut wrenching, hard to stomach and one that should win an award for best novel for 2010. So far.

What this story brought on was: I was sickened by the details of pain, the suffering, the years of endless torture and mistreatment
Jan 16, 2014 Cory rated it really liked it
This is definitely not your boy meets boy, boy dates boy, boy has sex with boy, and boys live happily ever after type of story. It's so much better than that.

If you read the blurb about the book, you pretty much know what happens to Zach. Abducted and tortured for five years, and then rescued and returned home. This is the story of not only how he was before he was kidnapped, but how he is after.

There are definitely parts that aren't easy to read. But the main focus of the book surrounds the re
Kaje Harper
Apr 23, 2012 Kaje Harper rated it it was amazing
Shelves: m-m, intense
One of the things I liked about this book was that it surprised me several times, in ways both large and small. Given the abuse that Zach suffered, I thought the timeline was realistic. Years of therapy and residual PTSD were appropriate. I liked the fact that the guys reactions to each other weren't always predictable. They interacted in ways that carried both echoes of their past teen relationship and the stresses of their current post-major-trauma situation. This book was at some moments funn ...more
Lisa Arbitrary - AttentionIsArbitrary M/M Blog

4 Strong Stars -

Powerful. This book gives us a hard, deep look behind the effects of utterly inhuman treatment and how, for Zach Tyler, he even begins to find himself again.

Hatred, anger, torture, inhumanity, shame, a beaten and defeated spirit how can a human be whole again? Through love, tough love, friendship, devotion, sex, tenderness, honesty and patience. It's all in this one book, an amazing journey that may not be for everyone. I very much recommend this read, if you can stomach some
Once in awhile, you find a book that is beautiful and touching, that when you read it, you want to know what happens (and keep turning the page) but at the same time you want to savor it. And when you finish, you take a deep breath, knowing that you have experienced a wonderful story, then you want to start reading it again, just because.

That is how this book for me. It's an emotional story, my heart breaks a lot for Zach and David. Both characters are amazing. Zach is fucked up but he is not da
Monique ~ Sinfully
Jul 08, 2012 Monique ~ Sinfully rated it it was amazing
This was an Audio book. Great story, great characters, heartbreaking at times...but I loved it....:D
Anyta Sunday
Oct 23, 2014 Anyta Sunday rated it it was amazing

Lovely, touching, emotional.

My poor aching heart.
Jun 02, 2013 ElaineY rated it it was amazing

This just barely made 4 stars for the reread but Paul Morey did a 5-star job once again. I'd just about buy anything Morey does:)

This time round, I felt the book would have been better with at least 50 pages less. I got frustrated that listening to audio made it difficult to skip pages but I did get impatient enough to try - and did it successfully, which convinced me the story should have been trimmed down.

3.5 Stars for The Blog Of Sid Love.

For those who need a summary of this book it's behind the spoiler which is NOT a spoiler. I've just shortened this review for the benefit of the busy skim readers.

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Jo * Smut-Dickted *
Re-Read: For the I-don't-know-what time. Every bit as good to me. Firmly a favorite. Gets me emotional. Outstanding!

It WAS amazing. Great characters and story - and the perfect length. Zach's torture and slavery was heartbreaking. His desire to overcome his past was heartwarming...and although I didn't originally like David too much (he seemd kind of weak to me) I grew to love him. Highly recommended!
Nikyta *Miss Forgetful*
I must say this was a phenomenal book. I expected to bawl my eyes out but I only teared up a little at the beginning and at the end and it wasn't as angsty as I was anticipating. However, this book pulled my heartstrings like crazy and because of that, made me love it even more. ^_^

Zach was held captive in the Venezuelan jungle for five years as, literally, a pet. When he's finally found, he's physically and emotionally messed up and because of that he can't even talk, having had to adapt to the
Lilia Ford


It's a really gripping premise, and I was so engrossed I read the book through in practically a single sitting. Though we learn enough about Zach's experience to respect how hellish it was, thankfully the author does not exploit its lurid potential at all. This is not a sick non-con pet/slave story; above all it is a book about trauma and the messy, painful, uneven process of healing from it--not just for the victim but his family and loved ones too. I found it moving and insightful much of t
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One of the best books about the abuse victim.

Read by one of my favourite narrators, Paul Morey, the story of Zach and David made me experience the whole range of emotions and sob my heart out.

I loved the first half of the book so much I thought it will go straight to my favourite shelf. Unfortunately, I've found the rest of the story weaker. Something was missing from that part. Perhaps it was the predictable twist of the plot in the end or the lack of suspense. I certainly expected a bi
Oct 20, 2012 Heller rated it really liked it
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Kade Boehme
Mar 15, 2012 Kade Boehme rated it it was amazing
I can't believe I never wrote my review for this one! I'm ashamed! This has to be one of my favorites. Poor Zach went through hell and Speedwell didn't make it pretty or easy, while keeping it from going over the top. Zach road to healing is long and he is so damned broken yet strong in the most inspiring way. Even when he's being a total dick he is such an endearing guy, which is just amazing since he grew up in the jungle with his captors who made him a dog... and i do mean quite literally.
Jul 07, 2013 Wade rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: own, audio-book
First let me say… Oh My Gosh! Now that that is out of the way I also have to say I didn’t READ it. I LISTENED to it on audio. I bought this on a recommendation. (A big step I might add to spend more money on an audio book when I hadn’t read it first.) I only own 4 audio books because they are expensive. (To me anyway.) I by those that I love already so I have something interesting to listen to when reading isn’t an easy possibility. I bought “Zack” when I was looking for something new and someon ...more
May 08, 2010 Perpetua rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
It was amazing! Be prepared to want to throw the computer/ebook reader out the window on ocassion and there will be a need for tissues a TON of them!!!!
Nika (Off to Neverland)
My rating: 4.5 stars

An amazing story about two amazing people: a boy who became a damaged man and the man that helped him become whole.

“The last thing I remember is walking out of the airport in Costa Rica. It was humid, but cooler than I'd expected…”

Zach Tyler was fifteen years old when he was kidnapped from a Costa Rica airport by a Venezuelan paramilitary group. He was held hostage for five years, even though his parents had paid the ransom. Finally though, he was found by US forces and taken
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An unrepentant biblioholic, Rowan Speedwell spends half her time pretending to be a law librarian, half her time pretending to be a database manager, half her time pretending to be a fifteenth-century Aragonese noblewoman, half her time… wait a minute… hmm. Well, one thing she doesn't pretend to be is good at math. She is good at pretending, though.

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