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Suicide Notes

3.93  ·  Rating Details  ·  13,498 Ratings  ·  926 Reviews
Fifteen-year-old Jeff wakes up on New Year’s Day to find himself in the hospital. Make that the psychiatric ward. With the nutjobs. Never mind the bandages on his wrists, clearly this is all a huge mistake. Jeff is perfectly fine, perfectly normal—not like the other kids in the hospital with him. They’ve got problems. But a funny thing happens as Jeff’s forty-five-day sent ...more
Paperback, 295 pages
Published September 7th 2010 by HarperTeen (first published October 1st 2008)
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Wendy Darling
Believe it or not, this is actually a really funny book. You wouldn't think so based on the title and the subject, but 15-year-old Jeff will have you laughing out loud throughout his story. He's in a mental hospital because he tried to slit his wrists on New Year's Eve, he's surrounded by kids who are clearly crazier than he is, and his doctor (nicknamed "Cat Poop") doesn't seem to understand that there's nothing wrong with him and won't leave him alone. Neither will the various patients who com ...more
This book is an stealthy, cat-like emotional NINJA...

The story started off all whistling and nonchalant like it was going to be a light dose of fluffy teenage angst. Then, halfway through, it crept up behind me, tapped me gently on the feelings and slipped silently into my core to snuggle...Ninja style.

We start off meeting 15 year old Jeff who has just awoken on New Year’s Day after a botched suicide attempt to find himself involuntarily committed to a mental treatment facility for 45 days. Of
Feb 01, 2016 Nancy rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Nancy by: Thomas
Posted at Shelf Inflicted

Suicide Notes has 45 chapters, each one representing a day in the life of 15-year-old Jeff, who is in the psychiatric ward of a hospital after his suicide attempt on New Year’s Eve.

Trust me; this story is not nearly as depressing as it sounds.

Jeff is quick, witty, sarcastic, and absolutely hilarious as he manages to evade any “real” discussion with his psychiatrist, Dr. Katzrupus, also known as Cat Poop, about what made him try to kill himself.

During his 45-day “sente
"Seven little crazy kids chopping up sticks;
one burnt her daddy up and then there were six.
Six little crazy kids playing with a hive;
One tattooed himself to death and then there were five.
Five little crazy kids on a cellar door;
One went all schizo and then there were four.
Four little crazy kids going out to sea;
One wouldn't say a word and then there were three.
Three little crazy kids playing in the zoo;
One jerked himself too much and then there were two.
Two little crazy kids playing in the sun;
Jun 08, 2015 Arianna rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4 Stars!!

"That sounds so weird: kill yourself. It makes it sound like you tried to murder someone, only that someone is you. But killing someone is wrong and I don't think suicide is. It's my life, right?"

“Suicide Notes” it was like nothing I’ve expected. Despite the title and despite the blurb this was a quite entertaining read. It’s a YA novel/coming of age/realistic fiction that was interesting and refreshing and hold my interest not only with its plot, but with its main character as well
It feels a little weird to say that I felt a book about a 45-day program in a juvenile psychiatric unit was really funny. But it was—in parts. This book, written in journal entries from day one of the program until the last day, focuses on Jeff’s evaluation of why he tried to kill himself. His voice is reminiscent of Holden Caulfield, only he doesn’t call everyone phonies—just whackjobs.

Jeff introduces us to the other young adults in the unit, some of whom come and go during his stay. He also h
Sep 19, 2011 Limonessa rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Limonessa by: Maja (The Nocturnal Library)
Shelves: ya-lit, favorites
What struck me most about this book - and unsettled me, to be honest - is the brutality of it, sugarcoated by Jeff's self-deprecating irony, witticism and sarcastic outlook on adolescence. He is one of those characters I particularly appreciate in teen lit for their no-nonsense attitude, for just telling things how they are. An honest, non-emo voice.

The themes approached in this book are not light, despite seemingly narrated in a light-hearted way: teen suicide, familial dysfunctions, personal

“If you ever manage to become perfect, you have to die instantly before you ruin things for everyone else.”

It was my third book of Michael Thomas Ford and he didn't disappoint me. The first one, The Road Home, a contemporary romance about coming home with a nice unexpected twist of mystery in it, has sparked my interest for his works. The second one, Full Circle, an amazing epic story of love, friendship and male bonding, touched me greatly and made me feel and think about even days after I
Jeff isn't crazy. He isn't like all the nut jobs in the psych ward he finds himself in. He doesn't use drugs to get high, and he doesn't have an eating disorder that makes him throw up his latest meal every ten seconds. However, he does have bandages covering his wrists like a mummy and he does recall getting into an argument with his best friend Allie, and he's pretty sure it had something to do with her boyfriend Burke. While Jeff spends the next forty-five days in the hospital under a special ...more
Richard Derus
Rating: 2.5* of five

All the points are for the ending, which is entirely worth the long, tedious, acne-inducing slog to get there.

Seriously...does the world NEED to hear about adolescence anymore? Is there something we missed, as adults, while going through that training ground for evil demons called "junior high" (that's middle school for the under-fifty set)? If so, is it something that we actually *need*? more. No no no. Poke me with a fork, I'm done.

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Natalie Monroe
4.5 stars

"That sounds so weird: kill yourself. It makes it sound like you tried to murder someone, only that someone is you. But killing someone is wrong and I don't think suicide is. It's my life, right?"

There was a period in my life when all I read were issue-driven contemporaries. Eating disorders, suicides, rape... the works. But then all that excess of Jodi Picoult and Laurie Halse Anderson made me seriously depressed and I moved on to the bestselling Paranormal Romances at the time. Boy,
I used to think this was sort of a contemporary YA cult, for some reason, but I just realised that not many of my friends have read it. In any case, it should be a cult, if nothing else because it's a book that can help. It can help teens understand themselves and others and it can help adults understand teens.

It's divided in 45 chapters, one for each day Jeff spends in the psychiatric ward of a hospital following his failed (duh) suicide attempt, but it feels like 45 minutes. I gobbled it up in
Jul 20, 2011 Jo rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Jo by: MaWen
4.5 stars.

“It’s a really crappy feeling to realize that your entire outlook on your life can be controlled by some little pill that looks like a Pez, and that some weird combination of drugs can make your brain think it’s on a holiday somewhere really sweet when actually you’re standing naked in the middle of the school cafeteria while everyone is takes pictures of you. Metaphorically. Or whatever.”

High Points.
I actually choked with laughter on my panad at approximately 90% of this book. The oth
Aug 30, 2011 Catie rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Catie by: Maja, Flannery, Jo
Shelves: read-in-2011, ya, lgbt
This is a very successful and fully realized first person point of view. Jeff’s feelings and experiences are enveloping. In some ways I feel like the major themes in this book need to be spoiled, because it will attract more readers. But on the other hand, I think that it was a real stroke of genius for the author to leave us in the dark. Jeff would rather forget and reject himself, and so by extension, do we. We only come to realize what Jeff is going through in small degrees, which perfectly m ...more
Maja (The Nocturnal Library)
4.5 stars
After an attempted suicide, Jeff wakes up in a psychiatric ward where he is forced to spend the next 45 days. He doesn’t want to and he’s determined not to cooperate, but his stay isn’t optional and his parents refuse to take him home. Finding their son almost bloodless in a bathtub isn’t something they particularly want to relive, and if the psych ward is what it takes to keep him alive, that’s where he’ll stay for as long as it takes.

Jeff handles his situation with lots of denial wra
Aug 10, 2015 Thomas rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favourites

“Just because your life isn’t as awful as someone else’s, that doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck. You can’t compare how you feel to the way other people feel. It just doesn’t work. What might look like the perfect life—or even an okay life—to you might not be so okay for the person living it.”

This book is so important & powerful. It portrays so many themes and messages so perfectly with such authenticity that Jeff is one of the most uniquely realistic chara
Ley *you matter even if you don't think so*
If you haven't read this, you need to soon.

I love Jeff. He's sarcastic, funny and easy to relate to. He says some very witty things, and for a book about suicide, there were some pretty funny moments that made me LOL. He also says some very introspective things too.

I like that (view spoiler)
Nov 25, 2015 Sarah rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2015, ebook
This was kind of an average read for me. I didn't think it was really deep or hilarious. There were a few things that Jeff said that made me laugh but I didn't actually like him until like 2/3's of the way in. He became bearable then (and also said some insightful things - listed below). He was snarky and mean and I wasn't impressed at all. I always have an issue with unreliable narrators like Jeff. I mean he doesn't tell us the whole story straight away and I don't understand why not.(view spoi ...more
Sercan Vatansever
İntihara teşebbüs eden Jeff'in akıl hastanesinde geçirdiği 45 günlük anılarının anlatıldığı bir kitap.
Yüzümde bir tebessümle verilmek istenen mesajı okumak zevkliydi. Jeff zeki bir karakter ve güzel laf çeviriyor. Kitap boyunca çocuğun neden intihara teşebbüs ettiğini bulmaya çalışıyorsunuz. Açıkçası nedenini öğrenene kadar kitabı daha çok sevmiştim. Kitap boyunca bu nedeni destekleyecek şeyler olmadı çünkü.
Mar 30, 2016 Jana rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
This had zero emotional impact on me. It wasn't even bad or boring, but it just didn't affect me at all.
Finished reading: April 13th 2016
Rating 3,5qqq

“I'm still kind of a mess. But I think we all are. No one's got it all together. I don't think you ever do get it totally together. Probably if you did manage to do it you'd spontaneously combust. I think that's a law of nature. If you ever manage to become perfect, you have to die instantly before you ruin things for everyone else.”

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C Steiner
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Kat (Lost in Neverland)
Jul 20, 2013 Kat (Lost in Neverland) rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: People who aren't squeamish with major teenage issues
Recommended to Kat (Lost in Neverland) by: Demo

Jeff wakes up one morning to find himself in a mental health clinic with his wrists bandaged. As it turns out, he's been put into a 45-day program at the clinic after he attempted to commit suicide.
Jeff meets the other patients, who he finds all to be crazy and totally not like him. I mean, he's not crazy, right? According to what he tells his doctor, he didn't even have a reason to kill himself.
As the weeks pass, he grows to like the other crazies in the clinic and realizes thing about himsel

Let me tell you something, seeing your name and psychiatric ward on the same piece of paper isn’t the best way to start your day.

Suicide Notes was a quick, witty, funny yet raw novel about Jeff, a 15 year old boy who attempted to commit suicide. After being admitted to a psychiatric hospital, Jeff has been told he will be completing a 45 day program to help understand and treat his mental health 'issues' and get his life back on track.

Jeff was sarcastic and straight forward, his thoughts were no
Sep 04, 2013 Cindi rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: m-m, 2013, ya-lgbt, on-ya-blog
4.5 stars

Full review can be found at Greedy Bug Book Reviews.

Suicide Notes is told in first person from Jeff's point of view. Jeff has been placed in a psychiatric facility for forty-five days after a suicide attempt. Each day at the facility is chronicled in Jeff's own words. While the subject of the book is quite serious (and should be taken as such) there are a few humorous parts as well. Jeff is a typical fifteen-year-old boy and his words and actions prove this. There is an interesting cas
Apr 25, 2016 Elifnaz rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Kitap hakkında söyleyebileceğim en kısa şey şu olur: Beklenmedikti.
Kitaba başlarken depresif bir şey bekliyordum. Oysa kendim de şaşırdığım üzere bazı yerleri son derece eğlenceliydi.
Türk olma sınırları içerisinde okuyanlara anormal gelebilir ama ben öneriyorum.
Kitabı daha iyi anlatmak, hakkında daha fazla konuşmak istiyorum ama bu sadece kitabın sürprizini bozmak olur. O yüzden okuyun da kitap hakkında tartışabilelim!
Actual rating: 3.5 stars [spoiler free review]

Warning: In the book and in this review,mental illness and suicide are mentioned.

The second half of Suicide Notes was much better than the first. A character struggles with (coming to terms with) their sexuality, and I always enjoy reading about that. Nevertheless, I have some issues with the book, mainly with the author's choice of words.

I really liked the following quote: “And just because your life isn’t as awful as someone else’s, that doesn’t me
I'll say it flat out: I detested this book. If I had read it ten or fifteen years ago, I may have thought it was okay, but this isn't the early nineties anymore. Gay kids don't always have to hate themselves and try to commit suicide. Even if it does actually happen sometimes in real life, isn't it better to STOP writing books about how troubled and messed up gay kids are, and focus instead on writing books about how gay kids lead, I don't know, happy and productive lives? Think Alex Sanchez, Da ...more
Lottie Eve
Jul 23, 2013 Lottie Eve rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4.5 Stars!

Oh, Suicide Notes... This novel was like a little box filled with all kinds of different emotions. Laughter, anger, sadness, heartbreak, confusion, laughter, and more. Suicide Notes was able to bring out so many different emotions. And yes, I know that I wrote laughter twice, but seriously, this book is hilarious. You really wouldn't think that a story with such sad things in it could be so funny, but Ford managed to form a meaningful story that is as funny as it is full of impact.

Jason Bradley
Jun 09, 2014 Jason Bradley rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: ebook, humor, fiction, gay
I really enjoyed this book. Jeff's witty sense of humor was perfect and the secondary characters were colorful and amusing. But this story was more than comedic, it held a deep message. I connected with the story and felt for the struggle of the characters.
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Michael Thomas Ford is the author of more than fifty books, for both young readers and adults, in genres ranging from humor to horror, literary fiction to nonfiction. As a writer for young adults he is the author of the popular "Circle of Three" series (writing as Isobel Bird); nonfiction books about spirituality (Paths of Faith), the AIDS crisis (Voices of AIDS), and the gay community (The World ...more
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