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Lying Awake

3.81  ·  Rating Details ·  2,334 Ratings  ·  369 Reviews
About this book - Mark Salzman's Lying Awake is a finely wrought gem that plumbs the depths of one woman's soul, and in so doing raises salient questions about the power-and price-of faith. Sister John's cloistered life of peace and prayer has been electrified by ever more frequent visions of God's radiance, leading her toward a deep religious ecstasy. Her life and writing ...more
Paperback, 192 pages
Published October 9th 2001 by Vintage (first published 2000)
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Josephine (Jo)
I enjoyed this book immensely. It is the fictional story of Sister John of the Cross. Sister John is a member of a Carmelite monastery on the outskirts of Los Angeles. For many years Sister John has struggled to find true knowledge of God, her spouse, she wants to feel his presence. After waiting for such a long time for an answer she starts having headaches, along with the pain comes joy, she starts having visions, she feels that her prayers and patience have been answered. Sister John is even ...more
Sarah
Sep 03, 2011 Sarah rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Sister John is a Carmelite nun who, after years of dedicated service, begins to experience visions of the divine in ecstatic, crystalline clarity. But these visions are accompanied by terrible headaches, and Sister John is encouraged to seek medical attention. When told by a neurologist that her experiences are likely the result of (curable) epileptic seizures, Sister John is forced to rethink everything she knows about spiritual life.

On the surface, this seems like a(nother) religion vs. scienc
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booklady
Mar 26, 2010 booklady rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to booklady by: Secretum Meum Mihi
Have you ever longed to know God? I mean really know Him, feel close to Him, sense His presence within or near you?

Sister John of the Cross, a cloistered Carmelite of middle age, waited for many dry years to know her Bridegroom. Then a few years ago she started having migraine-like headaches. With the onset of the headaches, she became able to engage in deep meditation and began having Divine encounters, which led to a best-selling book and notoriety for her convent just outside Los Angeles.

Ho
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Jeana
May 08, 2008 Jeana rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: good-fiction
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Anna
What a beautifully written book, written with such respect and curiosity for the monastic experience!

Basically, it is about a Carmelite Sister who learns that her religious visions (and migraines) might come from a small benign braintumor, and will she take it out, and risk loosing these visions?

I was afraid that it might be one of those science vs religion, easy-answers books, but it wasn't. It is a beautiful story about faith, doubt and everything in between.

My life couldn't be farther away f
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Marvin
Aug 12, 2009 Marvin rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: religion
A wise, gentle book with a very different feel from Salzman's earlier book, The Soloist. It is unashamedly filled with religious language, rendered faithfully and sympathetically. We really feel like we get inside the religious struggle of a longtime nun--and do so, miraculously, without psychologizing. This nun, who struggles for 25 years to know God, finally has a spiritual breakthrough just as she develops severe headaches that turn out to be caused by mild epileptic seizures. Does this mean ...more
Judy
Jun 28, 2012 Judy rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: my-2012-books
[Mark Salzman's Lying Awake is a finely wrought gem that plumbs the depths of one woman's soul, and in so doing raises salient questions about the power-and price-of faith.] - Goodreads

This book languished on my bookshelf for several years before I finally got around to reading it. It's a thought-provoking story about a nun in a very small cloister of Carmelite nuns in Los Angeles. Nearly all of the story takes place within these walls. Sister John has been here as a nun for many years, and yet
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Alicia
Dec 10, 2013 Alicia rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: the-stack
Beautifully written, sensitive. Don't be misled by the setting, this story is not about the monastery, a nun's habit, or migraines. I won't spoil it for you, I'll let you discover the story for yourself. Half way through tears ran down my cheeks, were they for a fictitious character in a novel? pg. 170, "If I serve Thee in hopes of Paradise, deny me Paradise. If I serve Thee in fear of hell, condemn me to hell. But if I love Thee for love of Thyself, then grant me Thyself." I believe this was bo ...more
Keleigh
Salzman's writing is quiet and precise, as unobtrusive as a nun's rustling skirts. It went a little slow at first, but gradually I grew accustomed to the slow and meditative pace, and became entirely engaged in the cloistered life of his characters. Sister John of the Cross faces a stark predicament involving a health condition, a form of epilepsy that produces rapturous mental states--a phenomenon shared by Dostoevsky, who described it in 3rd person in The Idiot:

"He remembered that he always ha
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La Tonya  Jordan
Jan 24, 2015 La Tonya Jordan rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Everybod
Recommended to La Tonya by: Cover to Cover Book Club
Shelves: favorites
This was an excellent and awesome novel. It revealed the soul of Sister John of the Cross. She thought her main purpose in live as a cloistered nun was to get as close to God as humanly possibly. It was only going through her illness of epilepsy she realized all God requires of us is our obedience and for us to continue to do his will. She lived a contemplative life for approximately twenty-five years and continued in this journey as a novice mistress at the end of the novel.

The book showed a si
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Sherry (sethurner)
"Sister John of the Cross pushed her blanket aside, dropped to her knees on the floor of the cell, and offered the day to God."

I'm not sure why, being raised Protestant, I wanted to read this slim novel, but I did. Perhaps I was curious about the daily life of a cloistered Catholic nun, or perhaps it was simply that I enjoyed Salzman's other books. I enjoyed this one too. Sister John is an interesting person, not at all certain of either her faith or her vocational choice. After years in the con
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Happyreader
Mar 02, 2008 Happyreader rated it it was amazing
Recommended to Happyreader by: Celia Pastoriza
Shelves: spirituality, fiction
A humane portrayal of the struggle to connect to something beyond oneself. A central question posed by this book is what makes a spiritual life worthwhile. Are positive religous states beneficial or addictive? As the priest says in response to Sister John's fears about losing her mystical experiences: "The problem is, you're still looking out for number one." Contrast that to the doctor's confession about almost quitting medicine during his first year of residency because he realized he had gott ...more
Jenny (Reading Envy)
Lying Awake is a Carmelite Nun's journey through ecstatic conversation with God and a decision about her health that is likely to remove that closeness from her life. The writing itself is sparse and internal, very much like the inner life I imagine a nun to have. Beautiful and kept me up reading late into the night.
Mark
It's been sitting there, slim and unattended, for a long time, sort of like me at a junior high party.
K
Feb 01, 2010 K rated it really liked it
Recommends it for: people who are interested in questions of spirituality
Sister John is a nun who, having struggled with doubt and disillusionment for years, is finally reaching the spiritual heights she envisioned when she first joined the convent. She is an inspiration to those around her, writing prolific devotional poetry to critical acclaim. When a neurological explanation for her newfound spirituality comes to light, everything is suddenly cast into doubt and she struggles with the dilemma of whether to relinquish her gift and have the brain surgery her doctor ...more
Mary
Oct 18, 2016 Mary rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Anyone who likes contemporary fiction
Recommended to Mary by: Library Book Sale
Somewhere outside present-day Los Angeles - cloistered inside a Carmelite convent - Sister John of the Cross spends her days in contemplation of the divinity of the Lord. While the pace of life within the walls of this holy place has remained unchanged for centuries, Sister John has dedicated her life to the service of others. She has used her God-given talents to bring recognition to her sisters and to her convent by writing inspirational and religious poetry. While she has spent her many years ...more
Stephen Gallup
Jan 09, 2011 Stephen Gallup rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This was a good one to read on the heels of The Power and The Glory , which I finished a couple weeks ago. Both novels concern hypervigilant, self-critical souls questing for God and unable to take comfort in potential signs of having made progress.

Salzman's character is a cloistered nun who for almost 30 years has devoted herself to chanting liturgies, meditating, and writing poetry about the soul's aspiration. She has now begun having severe headaches, which she almost welcomes as a small por
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Loran (Algonquiins)
Dec 04, 2016 Loran (Algonquiins) rated it it was ok
Lying Awake by Mark Salzman is a beautiful portrait of faith. It describes the struggle of one nun coming to terms with the price of her faith and how her decisions affect those around her. Sister John of the Cross believes the visions and headaches she has been having are divine ecstasies but a medical diagnosis reveals she has epilepsy due to a small growth on her brain. The majority of the book deals with Sister John, her reasons for turning to a cloistered life, and her struggle to decide wh ...more
Rachel Wagner
Jun 10, 2009 Rachel Wagner rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
One of the best books I have read in a long time. I LOVED IT. The story revolves around a nun who comes from a troubled home. As a child she clings to the nuns at school and decides to become one. (Btw this is not the cruel or goofy depiction of nuns we often see. They are good, holy women). As an adult she begins having violent visions of God where she feels compelled to write about what she has seen. To help others she publishes her writings, and they become popular. Unfortunately she finds ou ...more
Asya
Mar 13, 2010 Asya rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A gorgeous prose poem, a companion piece to the devotional/passionate/erotic poetry of the Beguines, St. John of the Cross, the testaments of all the mystics, medieval to modern, who have balanced sense and ecstasy and tried to make it a narrative and a life, put it into words, make it a daily experience you could live with. I found Sister John believable, human, and hard to pinpoint - traumatized girl, fat girl, mystic, middle aged woman, epilepsy victim, aging nun. For me, Salzman's narrative ...more
Marialyce
Mar 26, 2011 Marialyce rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: march-2011
What happens to your faith and your closeness to God when you find out that this closeness might be a result of a brain tumor? Do you go ahead and have the operation thinking that this rapture might end? These are the questions one finds portrayed in Lying Awake.

Although quite a short book, this novel packed quite a few things that people have wondered about for ages. Does God exist in our minds and hearts and if so is that enough to get one totally devoted to him? Sister St John of the Cross, i
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K
Aug 03, 2008 K rated it liked it
This is a small, simply written book about a current-day Carmelite nun who has passed years in her monastery feeling disconnected from her faith. She begins to have intense spiritual visions and experiences which she believes is the connection to God she has been working towards her whole life. At the same time these hyper-religious experiences are accompanied by severely debilitating pain, headaches and blackouts. She is forced to seek medical treatment and it is revealed that the visions are c ...more
Elliot Ratzman
Jul 12, 2013 Elliot Ratzman rated it really liked it
The appeal of the monastic life is evident to those attracted to martial arts and romantic versions of Buddhism. Salzman, whose previous books entailed his concern with things Eastern and Wise, has written a fantastic account of life in a Californian Carmelite convent. Salzman worked in a youth prison while he was struggling with writing this novel. In contrast to the chatter of teen felons in True Notebooks, this novel walks softly through the austere settings and stark schedules of the nuns; y ...more
Jeff
"Didn't [St.] Teresa also warn that the price of following a dream includes painful setbacks, even having to start all over again? Sometimes it means facing things that we think we can't face, to learn the depth of God's mystery and of our need for faith.

My God, I feel as if I am being torn apart."

Sister John of the Cross is going through her own "dark night of the soul." She sees the world through a kaleidoscopic lens, seeing spirituality in everything. However, she soon learns that her spiritu
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becky
May 27, 2009 becky rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
"An absentee father who demands that his children put him at the center of their lives and beg for his return."

this quote sums up how i would feel about being a contemplative nun like sister john. although i wouldn't choose such a lifestyle, Salzman treats this topic with great care and complexity. what i enjoyed about the book are the questions it raised about religious life:

is it selfish to give up your outside life for one of religious devotion?
is a contemplative nun just as worthy as a nun w
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Rachael
Sister John of the Cross struggled for years with her vocation. Then, she began getting blinding headaches, accompanied by writing spells that led to people returning to the Church. Now, a doctor says the cause is a small growth above her ear on her brain.
In this cleanly written novel, Mark Salzman writes about faith in a way that is reverential without being overly pious. He acknowledges the trials of cloistered life while allowing that there is dignity, honor and decency in it. He asks throug
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Gillian
Mar 05, 2014 Gillian rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
The story of Sister John, who joins the sisterhood of Carmel to know God more deeply. After experiencing a barren period in her spirituality, she begins to have mystical seizures which she believes to be answered prayer and evidence that she is with God after all. However, due to the extreme nature of the seizures and the following migraines, the mother superior insists that she consult a medical doctor, who diagnoses her with epilepsy and suggests a surgical cure. Sister John must now contempla ...more
Margaret
Jan 30, 2014 Margaret rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
A quiet, reflective book. Sister John of the Cross, a Carmelite nun in a small, closed order in Los Angeles is an inspiration to her fellow nuns for the depth of her devotion. Her debilitating headaches become worse, and in seeking treatent, it becomes clear that the epilepsy which causes her pain may also be the source of her visions. How should she then proceed? Should she seek treatment or not? Salzman treats the women of the convent with delicacy and respect. Nothing could be more alien to m ...more
Joanne Baines
Jun 29, 2009 Joanne Baines rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: book-club
I am awed by this book and all I could think when I finished it was "perfect". He doesn't need to tell you about the stark precision of the monastery because it's in the style of the prose. He doesn't need to describe the poetry that comes, unbidden, to the protagonist because you experience it at the same time that she does.

It's a simple plot line with a deep underlying question that could have easily been elaborated on or agonized over, but that is the key to the book, it's left to you to do
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Nancy (NE)
Oct 11, 2011 Nancy (NE) rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: fiction
Sr. John is a cloistered nun who, upon entering the life of a Carmelite, is not finding the spiritual growth and maturity she had expected. She comes from a dysfunctional family, who were probably a strong influence in her choice to become a religious. Years later, she begins to experience visions, powerful meditative states in which she has felt a divine presence, periods of intense creativity and writing, all of which eventually are diagnosed as a form of epilepsy related to a small tumor. Is ...more
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“It's a mean story, Helen fumed. An absentee father who demands that his children put him at the center of their lives and beg for his return. Sister Priscilla didn't think it was mean, apparently. She was so in love with God that she had married him, even though she would not see his face, hear his voice, or feel his embrace for as long as she lived. One of us, Helen, thought is flying blind.” 6 likes
“What if I have it all upside down? What if I'm the one who knows nothing of God, and the people in the world are actually interceding on my behalf with their ordinary daily struggles” 4 likes
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