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I'm Looking Through You: Growing Up Haunted: A Memoir

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From the bestselling author of She’s Not There comes another buoyant, unforgettable memoir—I’m Looking Through You is about growing up in a haunted house...and making peace with the ghosts that dwell in our hearts.

For Jennifer Boylan, creaking stairs, fleeting images in the mirror, and the remote whisper of human voices were everyday events in the Pennsylvania house in whi
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Published January 15th 2008 by Broadway Books (first published 2008)
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Look, I don't give books three stars. I'm just torn toward four and I'm torn toward two. Anyway, I just copied this from a thread I started on a messageboard, if the tone seems weird and it seems really long.


Fuckin Jenny Boylan, man. This is her new book: I'm Looking Through You. I wish I could remember more about her last one, She's Not There, because she is becoming the biggest Oprah-approved voice of trans women in the world and it'd be nice to track her progress. But I read She's Not Ther
There are many things to admire in Boylan’s latest memoir. Certainly her prose conveys consistently her quirky and entertaining personality and ironic sense of humor, while the sheer extraordinariness of her story, both with its ghosts and her life-long journey to become Jenny after living over 40 years as James, offers much to captivate a reader’s attention. However, what I found most impressive was the structure of the book. It is a brilliantly framed memoir with all of the themes central to t ...more
I'd been wondering how Boylan could fit her trans-sexual background, along with the story of growing up in a haunted house, under a single premise, but it actually works well. Her being "banished" up to the haunted attic as a teen when the family moves in, rather than being encouraged to take the available bedroom on the second floor where her folks and sister slept, gave the book a rather sad start, but she got through that okay, without being traumatized.
Linda Lipko
A fascinating story woven with the backdrop of a trans gender young man haunted both by his physical identity and the physical haunting of a house in main line Philadelphia. It is a very poignant, at times sad and then humorous book. I deeply admire the struggle of the author and the way in which she wrote this moving story. The call to be real and to "find ourselves" is one in which we all struggle to achieve on varying levels.
I liked this a lot better than _She's Not There_, which is funny, since I got into reading JFB because of her story of growing up trans, that takes center stage in _She's Not There_. _I'm Looking Through You_ was just far more engaging-- palpable. It was more satisfying rather than less, for me, because it tells her life story from a fantasy point of departure, the concept of a haunting. This book develops that concept by capturing it from a dozen different angles, in seemingly unrelated life ex ...more
I really recommend this book to everyone if only to understand more about trans* people. Although, it should go without saying that this is her own personal perspective and story. Boylan ties in her experience living in a haunted house with her adolescence. I met Jenny Boylan when she spoke at Grinnell and she really is as humorous in writing as she is in real life. This is really the first book I've read where I've actually met the author, so that was a weird experience. I found myself reading ...more
K. Jarboe
I really loved this book, largely in part because Jenny reminds me a lot of my MtF partner in personality, but it's also a great story about the fear of imposing on those you love with who you really are, and some of the costs and delights of finally asking to be seen. I love the supernatural as a metaphor.

The familiar narrative of suffering by denying the queer self, and then using that suffering as the basis of legitimacy for finally existing as queer, is an important but hopefully soon to be
I read Jennifer's first memoir She's Not There which is amazing and everyone should read it. I was excited to find out she had written another memoir. Jennifer is haunted not only by the ghosts in her house, but by her body. It was hilarious, heartbreaking, and beautiful. I loved it.

"In the meantime, I am sustained by a saying of my mother's: "It is impossible to hate anyone whose story you know" (25).

"How is it, I wondered, that some people manage to integrate their lives, and live in the mome
Eva Mitnick
I'm not ordinarily a memoir-reader (had to add a new bookshelf category in order to review this book), so the fact that I read this entire memoir cover-to-cover says a lot about its appeal. The author was born a biological male but always felt like he was living a lie, one that haunted him well into his marriage and young fatherhood. He was also haunted by actual ghosts in the old house where he spent his childhood, and so this book is really about putting all his ghosts to rest. Eventually, he ...more
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I had no idea who Jennifer Boylan was when I picked this up, and I assumed from the title it was merely about growing up in a haunted house. Boy, was I ever mistaken! This wonderfully humorous, serious and melancholy memoir talks of Jennifer's haunted childhood. She was haunted by spectres and strange circumstances in her home, aptly named Coffin House (for the man who built it was named Coffin). But these spectres were merely reflections of her own personal haunting - the feeling of being born ...more
This is an odd listening experience ( I'm experiencing as an audio-book) because the author is also reading the memoir and singing various lyrical snippets since the main character is a performing musician. Also, the character is both Jenny in present-day and Jimmy in the 1970s. I didn't know it was about a transgendered person, but I am interested to see how this persons life story goes...

The start may not have been the most smooth entrance to her life's narrative, but the rest of it is written
I enjoyed this book almost as much as the previous She's Not There; both are strong, well written memoirs full of the laughter and heartbreak that run through many family stories. But there is nothing trite about this family tale, for while the presence of ghosts is nothing new, the author's struggle with gender identity and then acceptance of transexuality is not a familiar challenge for most readers. Jennifer Finney Boylan shares her story with honesty and humor and I was glad to follow her jo ...more
When I added this book to my must-read list, I thought it seemed pretty straightforward-- a girl who grew up in a haunted house talks about how it affected her. And yeah, I guess that's what the book is about, except that the girl was a guy when she was growing up. We went out to dinner with friends while I was immersed in Growing Up Haunted and they asked what I was reading. When I told them it was about a transsexual who grew up in a haunted house they actually laughed at me. And then I realiz ...more
I picked this up at a sale having flipped through it but not really knowing anything about the author. Once I started reading, I had vague recollections of seeing her on Oprah, but I didn't let that deter me. I found the book to be surprisingly funny. I love the tone and the fact that Boylan does not take herself too seriously, but she doesn't take that to an affected, snarky extreme the way so many writers seem to. I enjoyed the fact that it was a fairly light read that was still very well writ ...more
I'm not sure how she convinced someone to buy the idea for the book. "Ok, so, since the first memoir in which I discuss being transgendered was a hit, I will tell the same story but also talk about how my house was haunted and I can see ghosts." The thing is, the ghost parts sound made up. Especially because in a book about how she's seen these spirits her whole life, she hangs out with a ghosthunter and is all eye-rolly and skeptical of the fact that there are ghosts. Wait, whaaaaat? It's like ...more
Kelly MacIver
I'm almost done with this ( thanks to a snow day). It was very well written, and also hilarious for sure.
"The anemone of my anemone is my friend.". And that's just one example.

I don't pretend to understand what people who are transgendered feel. At all. But I do wonder what all the big surgery, and all that is involved, is good for, in the end. Just to look different? Again, I admit I don't completely understand.

That being said, I can relate to a lot of her references to books, music, etc, whi
Boylan certainly knows how to tell stories. I love the way she weaves together her past and present. As Boylan puts it, she is searching for a way to resolve her male history with her female present, to feel like one person instead of two, and in the final dream scene, she asks her former self (an awkward young boy) if he's really not angry that she's done away with him. It's a poignant moment and a moving memoir, and I recommend it. (It was especially fun to read having just finished reading Gi ...more
What haunted this author? What continues to haunt her? Apparently she grew up in a haunted house, but as a boy. Now, after being transgendered, she has written a wonderful reminiscence of her experiences in this ghostly home, as well as her own self haunting. Was she haunted by what she was not? Is she haunted by what she used to be? Is there longing for what might have been, or is there not? She certainly seems to experience some eerie visions in old buildings. I loved Boylan's writing style, a ...more
Feb 02, 2008 V rated it 2 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: transgendered persons, and those trying to understand them.
While the book is easy to read, and rather entertaining at times, it starts off grabbing your attention but ends up "Omg is this over yet". Its not about actual ghosts or haunted houses, but about herself being haunted. You start to get the point about 2/3 through the book, the rest is just pounding it in.
Jeanne Grunert
A good book and, although I hate to use the term, a "haunting tale". Jennifer Boylan writes well. She seems to be someone who can see ghosts easily. I was a little annoyed at her publisher for not mentioning her whole sex-change operation and the sections on transgendered issues. Don't you think you should mention that when you create a blurb about a book? I bought the book thinking I was reading about a woman growing up in a haunted house. Instead, I read a book about a boy who yearned to be a ...more
Jonathan Walz
Thumbs up. At turns hilarious and poignant, as one would expect from the Notorious JFB.
Franny Burd
I had no idea when I picked up this book that it was authored by a transexual. Which explains why I was so confused at the beginning of the book when she was referring to hersef as a boy named Jimmy. Anywho, once I caught on I really enjoyed what I was reading. The author is an extremely sensitive soul who is not afraid to bare it all - good and bad - to her readers. There were many moments when I wish I could time travel to the 70's, hug Jimmy and tell him everything was going to be ok. By the ...more
I have to admit that I didn't know what this book was about when I added it to my to-read shelf. I love haunted houses books, and I quickly scanned the description of the book and added it. So when I started reading it, I was like, "What?" because I apparently live under a rock and have never heard of Boylan and her changes in life. And again, I have to admit that I was at first put off because I didn't want to read a book about a transgender, I wanted to read about a haunted house, dang it! But ...more
Last week Boylan published an interesting essay in The New York Times, in which she imagined how her late father, a successful banker from Philadelphia, might have spoken to the current members of Congress. Boylan mentioned she is transgendered: her sexual orientation didn't interest me, but her background did. She had attended the Haverford School and lived on the Main Line, where my parents owned a house and where I lived during graduate school. She and I both hold degrees in English, so excep ...more
I've been on a memoir kick lately and this one by Jennifer Boylan is quite enjoyable. Boylan's irreverent wit knows no boundaries, and her candid descriptions of what it was like to grow up as a boy wishing she was a girl revealed to me a heretofore unimagined life. Boylan's plight struck me as heartbreaking - yet her courage and perseverance are ultimately inspiring. What is this life but our search to uncover who we really are and who we really want to be? At its core, Boylan's memoir is an un ...more
Another memoir from the author of She’s Not There, this is a book about all types of hauntings. The first half of this book is beautiful. It’s Ms. Boylan at her best, and when she’s at her best, there are few people with a better command of the English language. Halfway through the book, though, everything changes. While the first half is a delicate coming-of-age story that weaves between past and present and emotions of every stripe, the second half is rushed, with odds jumps between time perio ...more
I ended up enjoying this memoir more than the previous one by JFB, She's Not There: A Life in Two Genders. Many have commented that this one, while beautifully framed and written, is more uneven. She's Not There seems so tidy, with all the loose ends tied up neatly, and I found it almost dispassionate and detached, even while the title hints at the ongoing inner conflict. This version is a lot bumpier and I felt more of the author's unresolved feelings.

Several things may account for my more pos
Rhonda Rae Baker
What an incredible book – you will not want to miss this one! Full of love and compassion as well as honest thoughts and humorous antics that relate to everyone, you will be taken on an adventure of soul proportions. One that could actually change the way you live your life and most definitely the way you think about or treat others.

Something drew me to this book and I'm blessed that I followed my heart. There were so many details here that I could relate to...many things to ponder and learn fro
Karen Powell
This was a book that I couldn't put down, and I found it a quick, fascinating read. The entire memoir is centered around the metaphor of a haunting: There's the physical haunting that the author felt in her old house when she grew up, and the idea that the author felt haunted in her own body while growing up the wrong gender.[return][return]The author's humor is present throughout the book, but it is bittersweet, cultivated through years of feeling odd and unaccepted, by others and herself. She ...more
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Jennifer Finney Boylan is a widely praised author and professor.

Edward Albee summed up her oeuvre in 1988: -- "Boylan observes carefully, and with love. [Her] levitating wit is wisely tethered to a humane concern…. I often broke into laughter, and was now and again, struck with wonder."

Jenny's memoir, She's Not There, published by Broadway Books in 2003, was one of the first bestselling works by a
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