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Out Of My Mind (You Make Me Live)

3.62 of 5 stars 3.62  ·  rating details  ·  1,365 ratings  ·  86 reviews
For four years Rafferty Jones and Nick Tucker have worked side-by-side as police detectives in their small Maine town. But lately, Rafferty's imagination has been creating fantasies about Nick--more specifically, about Nick and him together--that have shocked Rafferty. Detailed erotic scenarios a thirty-something, set-in-his-ways straight man shouldn't be imagining. He's b ...more
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Published January 1st 2007 by Amber Quill Press
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~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~
Aug 24, 2014 ~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~ rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to ~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~ by: Garrett Kenneth
3.5 stars

This was a very steamy, best-friends-to-lover, GFY/OFY story.

I could have done without Rafferty's assholish, hurtful drama fest, which was the main conflict in the story: I just cannot be gay and in love with my best friend! It's the end of the world. So I'm going to act like I'm 13 and run away from the problem.

Alas. Le sigh.

But I really liked the idea of two cops working and playing together (although the whole cop thing was incidental, as the focus was firmly on the relationship),
As I’ve said previously, I am a huge fan of the unrequited best friend - I love you but don’t want to lose you - romance at the moment. This was a great read and I am fast becoming a total junkie for M.L. Rhodes work.

There is something very sexy about having a secret love. Every look, inadvertent touch and word is layered with meaning and I think the tension that the author created was hot. Often authors stray into the gay for you shtick, which does not float my boat, so I think she handled Raff
Elisa Rolle
Rafferty and Nick are partners. Work partners. Both detective for police in Maine since 4 years. And Rafferty is married; or unless he was married since two months before. He has found his wife in bed with another man and immediately files the divorce. Strange he is not mourning too much over it. It's long that he has stopped to love and desire his wife. And instead he has begun to deside his partner... How could it be possible? He is straight! And so is Nick! Or not? One faithful night abroad w ...more
Sandi ♥'s way too many M/M books
Sep 11, 2014 Sandi ♥'s way too many M/M books rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Sandi ♥'s way too many M/M books by: Garrett Kenneth
3.5 stars It drove me crazy that they spent so much time inside their own heads instead of talking to one another. Raff made me extremely angry at one point ( might've been my mood ) And then set things right shortly after. But so much I liked and didn't like in the book. I did like Nick alot and felt for him about past which killed me. Thank you Garrett for this rec to help me build my snowman I heart you!
The story was ok. The summary made it seems mysterious and interesting.. the first steps into gay life for a former straight man.

[spoiler ahead]But the story was much to simplified. Raff needed only 2 months to develop a growing sexual attraction to his fours-years partner in the police force and only one stormy night to explore his new boundaries. For a man baffled by his new sexual orientation, he had no qualms about going down on a man. Followed of course by remorse and denial.

But everything
This did not work for me in any way shape or form. I am an absolute huge fan of GFY but this one just seemed ridiculous to me. I couldn't even suspend belief. It was without a doubt too unbelievable for me to even try. The first sex scene alone should have clued me in. It was hot but come on, no way would that happen. Seriously, even the real life stuff and the stories of the past were just unreal. No offense to the author at all, this is just my personal take on a book that it seems my friends ...more
Stacey Jo
Rafferty, or Raff, as Nick calls him, has been the best friend of Nick for the past four years. He's straight, and recently divorced after ending a fairly loveless marriage. He's been having a tough time dealing with feelings he's having for Nick. Feelings that he doesn't understand, because he's supposed to be straight, so why is he having these erotic dreams and desires for his best friend?

Nick is a gay cop, but no one, not even his best friend Raff knows about this. Things went bad at his las
Rafferty Jones is having a problem. After being partnered with Nick Tucker, side-by-side as a team of detective, after spending spare-time with him, after Nick helps him through Raff's accident and then his divorce, Raff realizes that he sees Nick in a different light. That he wants the younger man for something more than just mere friendship. Now, they are spending a weekend at Raff's boat, Out of My Mind, and Raff doesn't know how to control his desire. Except there is a secret that Raff doesn ...more
I’ve never read anything by this author before, but I’m definitely going to make up for that. Because I LOVED this story! I’m always a sucker for friends become lovers stories and for the GFY (gay for you) theme, especially when it’s been exercised so well as in this story. Raff and Nick both got to me, almost instantly, and I felt really connected with each of them. Ms. Rhodes shifts the point of view from one character to the other at the right moments to accomplish that. And OMG, the emotions ...more
Not much substance here and the sex scenes were blah compared to what I have been reading. Short read and the author didn't do enough for me to connect to the characters or become invested in their predicament. Just okay.
This book ends on my favorite m/m book shelf :) There are some moments I want to YELL at Rafferty because he hurts that sweet Nick so much :( I'd love to read more about their relationship especially when they are police officer. Plenty of hot scene as well. The POV on Rafferty and Nick were awesome. I did not get confuse with who is talking and who is doing the action. It was well written.
Trisha Harrington
This was a good read. It had some funny and sweet scenes. :)
So…this started out pretty good, but the storytelling was a bit too rushed and the ending felt a bit…unfinished. I really enjoyed the parts on the boat…but after that it just didn’t work so well for me.

Rafferty and Nick are partners on the local Police force, and they’re also best friends. They have known each other for four years, but two months ago, when Raff’s divorce was finalized and he moved in with Nick because he needed a place to stay, Raff started to develop different feelings for his
Oh no! This is a first for me. I am bumping a book off of my fuck yeah, 5+ stars shelf after a re-reading.

While I still loved this book, it just can't stand up to books like The Final Line, Point of No Return and Strength of the Pack, all of which were released after I read Out of My Mind the first time. But Out of My Mind will remain on my favorites shelf as one of the best friends-to-lovers books I have ever read. It is fabulous and not without some serious, delicious relationship angst. High
Hmmmm. 3.5 stars, maybe?

I'm a softie for closeted-cops-in-love stories. I love all the conflicting tensions between desire and career and danger and depending on one's partner and macho culture. So sue me.

And this one is also GFY...which I didn't really quite buy, unfortunately. The "straight" character goes from virginal to an expert in blowjobs on his first try. Ummm, right. On the other hand, he does freak out both before and after the act pretty gratifyingly. In fact, his various panic atta
Jul 26, 2011 Yvonne rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Yvonne by: kathleen
3.5 Stars For the GB Q3, rec.d by Kathleen. There's a lot I like about this 2 cops GFY storyline between Rafferty (formerly straight) & Nick (secretly gay). I liked that the author tried to capture the small New England area atmosphere with it's fishing community & unique way of talking. Rafferty & Nick had a nice comfortable chemistry throughout & there was a good balance between storyline & sex.

I think the author did take the easy way out a couple of times by not explorin
3.5 stars!!!
My... oh my! TBH I almost bailed out from the... fallout after their first night together, and the insecurities almost turned me off. Normally that would have me abandoned ship but I was glad I didn't this time. It made me smile in the end. 'Oh! Oh! Love! Madness! Euphoria!'

Intense emotions with a lovable busybody. :)
This was a nice, sensual, but too-fast read. I was still peckish when I finished it. I felt very sorry for Nick because of his past and the way Rafferty treats him the morning after. I understand, and even sympathize with what Rafferty's going through, but I still want to kick him in the teeth for hurting Nick. I think the story about Nick's past could have been hinted at a little more before the ending of the story to flesh out his character more. As it stood, his background came out after the ...more
This is a nice little tale of friends to missed being a 4 or 5 star read because it had a few parts that didn't ring true...specifically the first sex between the two guys...I just found the previously heterosexual partner too accepting of the sexual acts; then I found his freak-out to disproportional to what happened.

Having said that, the characters were likable & you wanted them to get their HEA...the internal dialogue & angst in the middle of the book drags a bit but overa
Bubbles  Hunty Honest & Direct Opinions
2.5 stars maybe

the first half is so boring it is almost all inner dialogue and is fairly repetitive. I think if that would have been toned down a lot it would have been better...

The one Guy was a huge jerk i liked him up until the second half but all the things he did to the other MC in the second half just made me hate him, he never did anything to redeem himself. just an apology at the end and all is forgiven blah blah... the other MC deserved a lot better
This is a very well written story with a very interesting plot. I do believe that it was too short. Many times in the story things are quickly wrapped up or smoothed over. I think it could have been an outstanding book if those issues were really dealt with and worked over. Instead it was always the easy way and quickly over. I did enjoy the characters and would have loved to have seen more growth in them through the story.
Mickie Ashling
Another good read by M.L. Rhodes. Best friend/straight guy turns gay after his divorce is an old theme but reads fresh and erotically charged in the hands of this talented writer. She's consistently good and I've never been disappointed with any of her books. I always turn the last page with a satisfied sigh. See for yourselves. Recommended.
Ryoma Gartre
I love when authors center more in the feelings than the sex, but this one have both, steamy & sweet sex, and believable feelings and characters development, the only complain i have is that is a little short, i love it so much that i wanted to see a little more of them, out of it it's perfect, definitely a worth reading.
I just reread this book, and changed my ratings from 2 into 4 stars. For some reasons, I didn't like it when I first read it, but now I quite liked the story and characters. They are not whinny or females with penis, which is quite nice.

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I really enjoyed this book. A little frustrating, but not overly so. Raff was a bit of a douche, but he came around. Loved Nick. Thought Nick was a bit easy on Raff and would have love to see how they handled work, but still very good.
Apr 16, 2011 Snowtulip rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Snowtulip by: Damon Suede
Shelves: m-m
Quick, sweet read. I thought the story needed to be longer to resolve some issues and I really felt for Nick. Still an enjoyable read.
Well-done m/m romance in which a recently divorced police officer struggles with his growing attraction to his (work) partner/best friend.
So sweet and sexy-as-hell, I usually don't like "tear-jerkers" but this one was not bad at all. Enjoyed greatly.
3.5 stars for some sexy angsty goodness!
Debra Strattford
Again, wonderful! I like sexual tension :)
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