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I am Not a Serial Killer (John Cleaver #1)

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John works in his family's mortuary and has an obsession with serial killers. He wants to be a good person but fears he is a sociopath, and for years he has suppressed his dark side through a strict system of rules designed to mimic "normal" behavior.

Then a demon begins stalking his small town and killing people one by one, and John is forced to give in to his darker nat
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Published March 30th 2010 by Tantor Media (first published 2009)
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Travis I'm really disapointed it went supernatural. I was enjoying this more when I thought it was like a teenaged Dexter. Now it's just another fantasy…moreI'm really disapointed it went supernatural. I was enjoying this more when I thought it was like a teenaged Dexter. Now it's just another fantasy story it's not as much fun. :((less)
Bob Defendi This one is fairly dark, but here's a good benchmark: The opening chapter involves work in a mortuary and it's the goriest thing in the book. It…moreThis one is fairly dark, but here's a good benchmark: The opening chapter involves work in a mortuary and it's the goriest thing in the book. It didn't bother me, and if you have a chance to read that chapter, you'll know that if you can handle it, you can handle everything after. I've seen Dan hand the book to a potential customer at a con and just have them read that chapter to see if the books for them.(less)
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My reaction when a third of the way through the book “IT” happened was something like…

For those of you that have read the book, you know EXACTLY what I am talking about. For everyone else, let me explain as best I can without any spoilers.

Our story begins in a small town with a wonderful introduction to John Wayne Cleaver. John is 15 years old boy who is obsessed with serial killers. This obsession is the result of he himself having many of the traits and characteristics of a serial killer and
Dan Wells
Dec 30, 2008 Dan Wells rated it it was amazing  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
Quite possibly the best book ever written.
Jan 01, 2011 Flannery rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Flannery by: Linda
John Wayne Cleaver lives in a mortuary. But before you go thinking this is all fun and games like My Girl (well, at least before Thomas J and the bees), you should know that John Wayne is a killer. Well, at least he thinks he is. As a teenager, his internal monster makes life considerably harder, especially because John feels no connection to his peers and little to no emotion. I Am Not A Serial Killer follows John as he deals with having a serial killer in his town--Will being so close to an ac ...more
Ever since Hannibal Lector flirted with Clarice Starling by telling her about his favorite recipes, it seems like every other thriller features some kind of deranged but brilliant serial killer. It’s gotten beyond boring, but occasionally some writer will manage to come up with a fresh perspective on the genre. Jeff Lindsay’s Dexter series put a unique twist on the notion of the serial killer. (Or at least he did until he wrote the utterly crappy Dexter in the Dark.) Now Dan Wells is taking a ne ...more
Jul 17, 2013 Vilda rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: YA horror/thriller readers who likes paranormal twists!
Rating: 3,5 stars

"In other words, I was really good at pretending to be normal. If you met me on the street, you'd never guess how much I wanted to kill you."

Writing a review for this one is kinda hard! Lets just say that I Am Not A Serial Killer was definitely a very different read, but real good. Not quite mind-blowing, but good and one never losing my interest.

It was so interesting to be in John's head! He might not be a serial killer, but he thinks he'll become one if he doesn't stick to
Feb 11, 2011 Stacy rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: `
I wanted to read this book because of my fascination with serial killers and the intriguing slant in the main character's relationship with himself.
While reading, I was put off by Wells' writing style. It came off as juvenile in that he writes as though he doesn't trust his readers to figure out fairly obvious things for themselves. He posts many unnecessary/rhetorical questions that the reader is (hopefully, or rather should be) already wondering about on her own. It's muddled in redundancy.
Chelsea ❤Peril Please❤ (of BADGER and Snake)

You are evil, said myself. You are Mr. Monster. You are nothing. You are me.

Well well well...what an odd slice of fun this was. Simplistic and understated, this book really doesn't try to be anything other than what it says it is, making for not only a fun, easy read, but a very touching one, as well. It's not easy to read about a diagnosed sociopath...well, at least not for the average person. For me? It felt more authentic and real. I became entwined and engrossed with this character in the
Jason Brown (Toastx2)
I think my wife is a serial killer waiting to be unleashed on the world.

I had not heard of this novel but ran across a Powell’s Books author reading late last month by Dan Wells. I read a summary of his recent book and then scheduled appropriately to go and listen to him. Jenn went with me and whispered creepy serial killer/mass murderer stats in my ear.. it was disturbing how much she knew.. When Dan asked people to name 5 killers in order to win a t-shirt, she stayed quiet and named 14 under h
Oct 01, 2011 Priscilla rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Very nice, Mr. Dan Wells. Very nice, indeed.

First Impressions:
1. Slow at first, but after 100 *BAM*! What I'd like to call a 'double tap twist'. Not one, but two twists in the span of 2 pages!
2. I really enjoyed the therapy sessions between John and Dr. Neblin.
3. The plot was a general 'good'. The twist made things more interesting.
4. Book focuses on character analysis of John's character. VERY interesting, reading from the mind of a sociopath. Sometimes though, he makes really stupid decisions.
Oct 17, 2013 Cynn rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

«La noción de que yo fuera un sociópata no era nueva para mí; sabía desde hacía mucho tiempo que no conectaba con los otros. No les entendía y ellos tampoco me comprendían a mí, y fuera cual fuese el lenguaje emocional que utilizara, aprenderlo parecía estar fuera de mi alcance.»

En I Am Not A Serial Killer nos encontramos con una historia realmente perturbadora y extraña en la que tenemos como protagonista a John Wayne Cleaver,un chico de 15 años que a pesar de que aparenta ser normal está en
1.5 stars

Despite the obvious similarity to Jeff Lindsay's Dexter series and the overwhelming feeling of revulsion from a YA-ish novel wallowing in the realm of real-life serial killers, I still was somewhat intrigued by Dan Wells' I Am Not a Serial Killer and plowed through the the first 100 pages like a starving man breaking a fast with an Italian BMT from Subway...

...but then realized that the delicious sandwich I'd been nom-noming on was made of inedible food stuff. (Wax? Offal? Fecal matte
Mar 02, 2010 Annalisa rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: dark psychology and crime thrillers without the grit
Recommended to Annalisa by: Cami
John Wayne Cleaver knows he's a sociopath. He loves fire; he's curious about the insides of animals (and the dead bodies that come to mortuary owned by his mother); and he was a bed wetter. Anyone fascinated by serial killers (like John, okay and me) knows those are the three characteristics attributed to serial killers. In fear of his own dark potential, he follows rules to keep up the appearance of a normal teenager and keep himself safely away from danger. Then a serial killer strikes his tow ...more
Coos Burton
"No soy un serial killer" fue para mí un gran descubrimiento, definitivamente es de aquellos libros por los que no daba mucho, pero me terminó sorprendiendo de una manera positiva. Me gustó la forma en la que la historia está narrada, al ser del género young adult yo esperaba un tono mucho más light que el que me encontré. Los crímenes en esta novela están perfectamente construidos y detallados, como para revolverle las tripas a quienes estén dispuestos a adentrarse en los avernos de un adolesce ...more
Jun 01, 2009 Stan rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I actively avoid horror in books, movies, or on television. Ironically, I had a hard time putting this book down, and finished it in what is (for me) record time (three days).

Wells creates a main character that is simultaneously disturbing, sympathetic and likable. What amazed me even more than that was Wells' ability to forge the character in such a plausible way that I ended up seeing things through the eyes of John Cleaver: sociopath.

I'll admit that there's some gore in the book, but I give c
Sep 08, 2010 seak rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2011
4.5 Stars

What a surprisingly good book. The pacing was great, the plotting tight, and John Wayne Cleaver is a great, if not utterly bizarre, kid with whom to enjoy the ride. Seriously, this was one of the weirdest books I've ever read, let alone enjoyed this much.

What are the three things 95% of serial killers have in common? Bed-wetting, pyromania, and animal cruelty...and John has all three.

The story is told in first person by John Wayne Cleaver, who recently entered high school...and also h
2016 Reading Challenge 27#: Un libro de misterio que involucre un asesinato

Este libro es tan bueno por muchas razones. Una de ellas es que el protagonista es un sociópata, y yo amo estar en la mente de esas personas que no tienen corazón.

Normalmente los asesinos en serie son, en realidad casi siempre, esclavos de sus compulsiones. Matan porque tienen que hacerlo y no pueden evitarlo.

John no es capaz de sentir como los demás, por no decir que no es capaz de sentir en lo absoluto. Él, se esf
Apr 25, 2010 Jess rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: i-own
Truthfully, I'm not sure what to rate this! John Cleaver (the MC) is so fascinating, but he's not always likable. But he's not supposed to be. And the writing is so good that I'm not sure what to rate it: a 3, 4, or a 5.(3 because I usually like my characters more likable, 4 for plot, and tension, 5 because the writing is amazing.)
I'm not really sure who I'd recommend this to. It's dark and disturbing, but the most disturbing thing is just how much I enjoyed it.
Don't get me wrong, I like John
Feb 21, 2010 Jessica rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: youngadult, fantasy
Apparently, it really is "always the quiet ones." I've known Dan Wells for a couple of years. He's nice, unassuming, Battlestar Galactica fan, so not unlike most of the people I know, really. But it turns out that Dan has intimate knowledge of embalming techniques and is a walking serial killer encyclopedia. Not to mention he possesses a talent for writing scenes which will make you regret eating lunch. Ever again. (I will also never be able to eat liver or anything that looks like liver ever ag ...more
Oct 26, 2010 Lou rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: july-read, audio-book
John cleave has all the makings of a killer that 'McDonald triad' theory cruelty to animals, pyromania and bed wetting and his name to boot has strains of killing in it as he is son of Sam, Sam Cleaver and cleaver as in a weapon of choice to murder. I learned a bit about embalming, sociopaths, serial killers and formaldehyde in this story. He was dissecting animals by the age of 8 and increasing in behavioral problems and had to regularly visit a psychologist. With all this happening to a now 15 ...more
Jamie L
Apr 05, 2010 Jamie L rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
This book was ridiculous for too many reasons to count.
Biggest complaint: felt like it was written by three different people and NOT in a collaborative sense. More of a I-don't-feel-like-writing-anymore-so-I-handed-it-off-to-my-friend sort of way. IDK, maybe the author has MPD or something.
Next: I HATE it when a teenager is the narrator/1st person in the book but the language is that of a 35 yr old English PhD. I have another book in this list with the same issue and I didn't like that book eith
Oct 25, 2016 Cheryl rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A quirky book that blends a few genres together to make an interesting story. The hero is high school freshman John Wayne Cleaver, who's interested in serial killers and diagnosed by his therapist as having antisocial personality disorder. He lives over his family's mortuary, where he assists his mother with the embalming. John knows he has certain tendencies in common with the serial killers he studies, so he strictly keeps all such urges under control.

But when multiple unresolved murders occur
Dec 30, 2015 Laura rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Honestamente, me pareció malisimo. Muy obvio, básico, lleno de cliches y súper repetitivo con algunas cosas que quedan muy claras de entrada y que no son necesarias machacar en nuestras cabezas una y otra vez. Un fiasco total
Literary Ames {Against GR Censorship}
As a cross between TV shows Six Feet Under and Dexter for a YA audience (hmm, really?) this was a fascinating and insightful look into the sociopathic mind of a fifteen-year old boy as he attempts to take down a demon serial killer that goes on a rampage in his small town. Strong stomachs are required for this gruesome psychological thriller with undertones of black humour. Or a sick bag.

First off, I must say, sociopathy is becoming popular, is it not?

I referenced Six Feet Under for the fami
Jan 29, 2017 Suna rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
No sabía qué esperar de este libro, pero me terminó gustando bastante. Lo más interesante fue el protagonista John. Su posición ante el mundo es muy diferente a lo que he leído antes. Me agradó mucho las escenas con Dr. Neblin y las conversaciones que tenían. John, siéndo un sociópata, es todo un personaje que me sorprendió a través de todo el libro. ¡No puedo esperar a leer la secuela!
Aaron Vincent
Originally posted here

It’s not unusual to encounter a book claiming that its main character is not an ordinary boy. There are those born with the ability to master magic, or sired by a powerfuly deity inheriting his/her extraordinary powers, or someone who has the ability to wield a legendary sword. John Wayne Cleaver is not an ordinary boy but he is not the type expected to save the world. In fact, he may be the one to endanger it.

John Wayne Cleaver is a clinically diagnosed sociopath and he ha
Cait (Paper Fury)
I'm going to stay nice and calm during this review. You know, calm. Ha. Ha.


But I will be calm. I promise.

If you're looking for a freaky YA book, this is it. I'm not a YA horror expert, or anything, but this is the most scary book I've read. Which is why it got 5-stars, of course. Who doesn't like to be freaked out of their fuzzy socks?

Characters? Our narrator is 15-year-old John Wayne Cleaver. He has sociopathic think of a person w
Dec 17, 2015 Anyelis rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Este libro ha sido otra de las mejores sorpresas que he leído este año. Con un ambiente, personajes muy bien pensados y una historia entretenida que no podrás parar de leer. Si debo admitir que hubieron algunas cosas que no me creo del todo, y algunas otra que predeci fácilmente pero ya les hablaré más a detalle en mi reseña.
Maria Benitez
Jul 05, 2016 Maria Benitez rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Le doy las 4 estrellas no por que sea un libro que contenga un mensaje especial o que te vaya a servir para la vida (o quizá sí... la moraleja de luchar contra tus monstruos no está nada mal...), si no por lo entretenido que ha sido de leer.
No se si será porque los libros que leo los retratan de una manera especial o que el problema es mío, pero todo lo que leo de asesinos en serie no me da "miedo", más bien me acaban agradando por como los autores van metiéndose en sus mentes.
Este es el caso de
Tann Medi
Feb 02, 2016 Tann Medi rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
4.5 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐Me engancho desde sus primeras páginas nunca había leído desde la perspectiva de un personaje tan perturbador con deseos constantes de asesinar.
Además de que me lleve una grata sorpresa al ver que tenía cierto contenido sobrenatural :0
Muy pronto les traeré la reseña.
John Wiltshire
Jul 24, 2015 John Wiltshire rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: given-up-on
I got to..."You're bike is..." and decided this wasn't for me. If that's the standard of the editing...
Nah, to be totally honest, I gave up when the main character, who is trying to persuade us he's a cool kind of guy, admitted to frequent acts of animal torture...
He'd be dead in my world.
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Dan Wells is a thriller and science fiction writer. Born in Utah, he spent his early years reading and writing. He is he author of the Partials series (Partials, Isolation, Fragments, and Ruins), the John Cleaver series (I Am Not a Serial Killer, Mr. Monster, and I Don't Want To Kill You), and a few others (The Hollow City, A Night of Blacker Darkness, etc). He was a Campbell nomine for best new w ...more
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“I've been clinically diagnosed with sociopathy,' I said. 'Do you know what that means?'
'It means you're a freak,' he said.
'It means that you're about as important to me as a carboard box,' I said. 'You're just a thing - a piece of garbage that no one's thrown away yet. Is that what you want me to say?'
'Shut up,' said Rob. He was still acting tough, but I could see his bluster was starting to fail. He didn't know what to say.
'The thing about boxes,' I said, 'is that you can open them up. Even though they're completely boring on the outside, there might be something interesting inside. So while you're saying all of these stupid, boring things I'm imagining what it would be like to cut you open and see what you've got in there.”
“In my biology class, we'd talked about the definition of life: to be classified as a living creature, a thing needs to eat, breathe, reproduce, and grow. Dogs do, rocks don't, trees do, plastic doesn't. Fire, by that definition, is vibrantly alive. It eats everything from wood to flesh, excreting the waste as ash, and it breathes air just like a human, taking in oxygen and emitting carbon. Fire grows, and as it spreads, it creates new fires that spread out and make new fires of their own. Fire drinks gasoline and excretes cinders, it fights for territory, it loves and hates. Sometimes when I watch people trudging through their daily routines, I think that fire is more alive than we are–brighter, hotter, more sure of itself and where it wants to go. Fire doesn't settle; fire doesn't tolerate; fire doesn't 'get by.'
Fire does.
Fire is.”
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