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The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star

4.11 of 5 stars 4.11  ·  rating details  ·  18,234 ratings  ·  1,339 reviews
In one of the most unique memoirs of addiction ever published, Mötley Crüe's Nikki Sixx shares mesmerizing diary entries from the year he spiraled out of control in a haze of heroin and cocaine, presented alongside riveting commentary from people who were there at the time, and from Nikki himself.

When Mötley Crüe was at the height of its
Paperback, 413 pages
Published October 28th 2008 by VH1 Books (first published September 18th 2005)
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I have to start out saying I was never a Motley Crue fan when they were huge. To the best of my memory, they only had two songs I can truly say I liked: 'Shout at the Devil' and 'Dr. Feelgood.'

Having established that fact, I was blown away when I heard 'Life is Beautiful' on my favorite internet radio station ( I immediately had to find out who this Sixx AM band was. AMG provided a wealth of information. Sixx AM is a project put together by Nikki Sixx of Motley Crue fame. The alb
Nov 26, 2007 Jesse rated it 5 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Those with strong stomachs
I don't know what it is about Motley Crue, but they're absolutely fascinating to read about. Bassist/founder/main songwriter Nikki Sixx dug up these old diaries that cover almost every day of his life in 1987. When the band wasn't touring, Sixx was near death in his bedroom closet taking heroin, cocaine and other drugs nonstop. After most entries are current anecdotes by many people in Sixx's life at the time: band members and managers, girlfriends, family etc. It's amazing Sixx is still alive a ...more
I only give this 2 stars for having funny little details about Vanity and GnR. This is not only a study in decadence but also a study in misogyny and white privilege. Isn't Nikki a n- - - - -? Why can't he say that word? Women = Trouble didn't you know?
I feel like ranting....apparently you get to be a self-indulgent prick if your father abandoned you and your mother left you with a grandmother/grandfather that adored you. Your life is so freaking hard....Really I don't know how you resisted a ne
My own personal hell dimension consists of Dawson Leery's crying face covering every surface while the audio of this book plays on a loop. No lie nor hyperbole, this is the most misogynistic, self-indulgent, whiny, piece of exaggerated material I have ever read. And really, that's saying something since I read both Tucker Max and Anais Nin.

1. We all have crappy parents and even crappier childhoods. Anyone who tells you differently is either lying or part of the 1%. Normal is an illusion. And as
'Welcome to my nightmare.'

On December 23, 1987 Nikki Sixx, bassist from Motley Crue, overdosed on heroin and was pronounced dead, but was miraculously revived by paramedics with two injections of adrenalin to the heart. The Heroin Diaries are his personal diary entries the year leading up to this day.

'My bones were heart was pounding...I thought I was going to explode. I'm glad I have you to talk to, to write this down...I tried to keep it all together, but then I gave in to the mad
A better title would have been a "Year in the Life of a self-absorbed, drug-addled, whining rockstar." The book isn't awful. Nikki Sixx has some decent writing chops, but so much of the book is taken up with the same defeatist, whining, self-hatred that by the fifth or sixth month of it, you find yourself skipping over the boring entries. One of the book's saving graces is its format - the addition of "after the fact" notes from a variety of people makes the stories so much more interesting. Hea ...more
This book is a compilation of Nikki Sixx's diary entries from 1986/1987 along with comments by those who knew him then. Let me say, I give Nikki Sixx a lot of credit for doing this as well as those who commented in the book. This took a very strong person to look back and read these entries; acknowledge the person he was; and actively ask those who were close to him (often participants in madcap antics) during this dark time to comment on him. Very in your face (what else would a diary of a rock ...more
Sep 25, 2007 Jp rated it 5 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: anyone with interest in recovery or a Motley Crue/Nikki Sixx fan
This was an absolutely fascinating book. Obviously, I am a big fan, particularly of Nikki's songwriting from the beginning to present so I've anxiously waited for the release of this book for several years. I am also a recovering addict and this was truly compelling, touching, at times rather raw but honest, and I simply could not stop reading. I knew the basic story but didn't know the brutal details. Wow. I found myself feeling lost and alone as I read the pages of this journal, knowing just w ...more
What a ride. Although I loved Motley Crue back in the day, I was young and had no idea the life they led as rock stars. Sex, drugs, Rock and roll was the theme back then but I never knew the depths of the darkness it led Nikki too.

One of the last paragraphs that I loved

You know, it's pretty easy reading this book to see why I was angry and confused for all those years. I lived my life being told different stories: some true, some lies and I still don't know which is which. Children are born in
Erin Muir
Jul 06, 2008 Erin Muir rated it 5 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: people with addiction struggles
I read a snippet of this book by Nikki Sixx (of Motley Crue fame, former bass player) since it's a bonus on the CD when you slip the disc into your computer. All IO can say is, wow. This man is incredibly brave and I hope his terrifying experience heal people! And, the diaries are not only fascinating, but funny, smart, painful. Intuitive, amazingly. Nikki Sixx kept a journal of his experience on beaucoup drugs and the people surrounding him, Motley, and his drug life throughout the 80s. Now, he ...more
Hunger For Knowledge
It has been a few years since I read this amazing book about drug addiction but wanted to share some thoughts about it, as it indeed was a book that made me think as well as understand the mind of an addict a little better (if non-addict ever can, which I highly doubt).

This was a very open and honest one year journey to Sixx's addiction and to his struggles with it, experienced through his diary notes and song lyrics, combined with interesting graphics on the many pages of the book.

It was not a
This was really good. I was so glad when it arrived in the mail, I opened the package and I had this beautiful glossy-paged thing in my hands. This book just looks good. Then you actually get down and read it. This book shows Nikki's diary excepts from Christmas Day 1986 to the same day a year later. I'm sure the name makes it obvious that a lot of this book focuses on drugs. In fact, pretty much all of it does. It's easy to see just how meaningful this book could be to other addicts. I'm not an ...more
Am I the only one who is skepitcal of the fact that Nikki Sixx kept a diary during the height of his heavy drug using days? And that he began his entries with "Dear Diary?" Even I didn't do that in 1987, the year that The Herion Diaries spans, and I was a 14 year old girl then.

Whether or not these stories were actually chronicled by Nikki in '87, the ones about the band and their '87 tour are interesting. The ones about Nikki shooting up in his closet at home and hallucinating become rather tir
Amy Arsenault
This book was awesome.

It's in diary form (over the course of one year) so instead of him having tried to remember the year he was writing about, it was all right there as it happened. There were additional comments from other people on certain periods of time or events which gave you a better picture of what was going on and another outlook on the situation. It was very honest and open. A lot of people talked about the repetition, but that's the ways of life for most drug addicts. I felt like Ni
This is a riveting read, I burned through this book within two days. I appreciate Nikki's fulfilling his vision of complete honesty when he decided to publish this... nothing is sugar coated in this sad, vicious diary of a rock star on drugs and out of control with plenty of money to fuel his habit. The debauchery recounted in the book is tempered with some pretty witty insight from Nikki (as of 2006) and by others who were willing to go on the record in the book to comment on the events as they ...more
Lindsay Coats
I read this before I gave it as a gift to my Motley loving brother. Very interesting. I can't believe how f*d up these guys are and all they went through, but I can't help but wonder how much of it actually happened. If he was that messed up on junk, how did he actually keep a legible and comprehesible diary? I'm intrigued though at how junkies become junkies. If it's addictive, why do you even do it once? I'm naive, I know. This book did however give me hope for the human race. Nikki Sixx has t ...more
Jade McDonough
Okay, so it's not the world's best written book ever. Imagine that, the bassist and songwriter for Motley Crue isn't the greatest writer ever. That being said, this is one of the most compulsively readable books I've read in awhile. As in, given everything going on in my life and all the things that have a tendency to derail me from reading anything at all, I still could not put it down. I read it in two days and neglected to do much of anything else.

Sometimes a little bit of fluff is good for t
Liz Mclain
May 25, 2010 Liz Mclain rated it 5 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: people who like brutal honesty
Don't be a hater and think that my unrelenting love for Nikki Sixx is the reason that I gave this book 5 stars. Because seriously, when you have that type of lust/love for a human being that beautiful then that last thing you want to read about is the shitting, puking, and lack of hygiene that dominates Nikki's tale of heroin addiction. That is what you get here. The book alternates between his actual diary entries from 1987 with commentary from him and those around him that wacthed him spiral d ...more
Where to start with this work of fiction.....actually; no more like this work of; I'm gonna dupe my fans because I need the money. To start with Nikki Sixx is a massive D-Bag. He's a 50+ year old man and he has no deeper insight of himself or his past than he did when he was a 20-30yr old supposed massive junkie. Alarm bells should have rung in my head when he tells the reader that if this book helps one person who is as messed up on junk as he was then releasing this book was all worth it????!! ...more
I am a huge fan of Nikki Sixx and Motley Crue is my favourite band ever. This book is absolutely amazing. It shows you what crazy things happened on tour, in the studio and at home. It's funny, scary and sometimes even poetic. It really gives you an insight into what he was going through and how drugs took such a big effect on him, causing all sorts of hallucinations and many other things. It is also good that peple featured in the book wrote about how they remember the experiences and what they ...more
Spoiler alert - I review the entire book with this entry.

August 11, 2013

I picked up a copy of the Nikki Sixx book "The Heroin Diaries" from the library and started reading it today. For those of you who don't know him, he is generally credited as the "brains" and main creative force behind the band "Motley Crue". I'm on page 133 of 413 and his story really is as the title suggests. For the first 133 pages, he spends a lot of time in his closet in a paranoid state of confusion, worried that someo
Rebecca Haslam
It's been a long time since I've read an autobiography as gripping, shocking and yet ultimately inspiring as this. As a member of one of the biggest bands in music history, Nikki Sixx lived his dream - but struggled with the biggest of those 'rock star' demons - drink, and most notably, drugs.
The book chronicles one year in his life; the touring, his home life, family problems, addictions - this man dealt with more in a year than many of us do in a lifetime - and he's still here to tell the tale
rating: 3/5

Should be re-titled A Year in the Life of an Entitled and Bloody Rich Rock Star Who Squandered his Fortune on Heroin while Behaving Like a Complete Asshole. It is what it is.

At the end he writes that he hopes his diary helps others clean up. I am really happy for him (I am, not being sarcastic here) that he was able to get his life in order. But the reality is that most people with a heroin addiction don't have massive amounts of cash to cushion their fall. Not to mention that within
it's interesting and sad that in their heyday this was nikki's life. BUT...for some reason it doesn't sit with me. i don't know...i love motley and have a special place for nikki but i don't know if this book rings true. if he was the THAT messed up - how in the hell did he write in his journal pretty much daily?? how did he even know the day!? the time? i don't mean to slag - if it's his account i guess you have to take it for what it is but... it just seems a bit contrived to me. at least in t ...more
May 07, 2008 Cat rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: anyone who works with musicians/artists
"How is Nikki Sixx still alive?" is the question I was asking myself after finishing this book. Coming from the industry side of things, it's a real treat to get inside the mind of a psychotic artist (because they're all nuts in my opinion.) Even if he was high out of his mind on heroin, coke, pills, alcohol and any other kind of poison you can imagine, his diary still tells a compelling and intricate story about the life if a musician left to deal with his sordid past while still trying to live ...more
Jenn Nunez
Feb 17, 2008 Jenn Nunez rated it 4 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Motely Crue fans, GNR fans, any 80s hair metal band fans,
Recommended to Jenn by: my husband
WOW. Just wow.

This is literally excerpts from Nikki Sixx's (bassist, lyricist, leader of Motley Crue) diary from 12/23/1986 through 12/25/1987 - during this time, the Crue was on the rise, they were touring for Girls Girls Girls, and Nikki was an alcholic, a coke-head & a heroin junkie. He literally died, AND CAME BACK, TWICE in this year.

Disturbing, insane & riveting... this is a gruesome & honest look at what is probably a year in the life of most junkies.

I am a music fan. I am a
The Heroin Diaries: A Year in The Life Of a Shattered Rock Star by Nikki Sixx and Ian Giffins. This book is about Nikki Six, bass player for the popular 80s metal band Motley Crue. It takes place in the late 80s when the Crue is on top of the world. When Sixx was addicted to heroin he wrote a diary that included everything he did, felt and saw. The book begins with him naked under his Christmas tree with a needle in his arm wondering why he didn't have friends or family with him. The book also r ...more
Kolleen Book Obsessions
That was intense! He is a fantastic writer. The way he describes his paranoia & his deep depression, it was so raw.

Bonnie Mcneely
I found Nikki's lack of personal hygiene much more shocking and disturbing than his drug and alcohol abuse.
What I learned from this book is don't do drugs!
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Definitions courtesy of Dr Lemuel Pillmeister (also known as Lemmy)

Addiction - When you can give up something any time, as long as it's next Tuesday.
Cocaine - Peruvian Marching Powder. A stimulant that has the extraordinary effect that the more you do, the more you laugh out of context.
Depression - When everything you laugh at is miserable and you can't seem to stop.
Heroin - A drug that helps you to escape reality, while making it much harder to cope when you are recaptured.
Psychosis - When everybody turns into tiny dolls and they have needles in their mouths and they hate you and you don't care because you have THE KNIFE! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!”
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