My Heartbeat

My Heartbeat

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Ellen loves Link and James. Her older brother and his best friend are the only company she ever wants. She knows they fight, but she makes it a policy never to take sides. She loves her brother, the math genius and track star. She is totally, madly in love with James, his face full of long eyelashes and hidden smiles. “When you grow out of it,” James teases her, “you will...more
Hardcover, 160 pages
Published April 29th 2002 by Houghton Mifflin Books for Children
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eva steele-saccio
Apr 13, 2007 eva steele-saccio rated it 5 of 5 stars Recommends it for: YA readers
This book is really, truly wonderful. The writing is unbelievably good, but it's difficult to put your finger on exactly why. I love the understanding of teenage love that it conveys--the feeling that you are saying so much, declaring your undying love with mere gestures and common phrases when really you are simply asking the boy of your dreams to pass the bread. Freymann-Weyr also captures silence as communication ever so perfectly: its contrasting power of conveying anger and hurt and its abi...more
Britta
This is a great book. It's well-written and not longer than it needed to be.

Ellen is 14 and her brother, Linc, is 16 (although he skipped a grade, and so he's a senior in high school). James, 17, is Linc's best friend, and since Ellen has no other friends, he's her best friend too. The three of them spend all their time together, but even so, she's taken aback when a classmate asks her if Linc and James are a couple.

The story takes a lot of twists and turns, but never loses sight of its message:...more
Elizabeth
Jul 03, 2008 Elizabeth rated it 2 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition Recommends it for: teen girls who are looking for a quick read.
This is the story of an adolescent girl with a crush on a bisexual boy who might or might not be in a relationship with her brother, a near-genius who refuses to admit that he's gay.

Only that summary makes My Heartbeat sound far more interesting than it actually is.
Tatiana
Aug 01, 2011 Tatiana rated it 3 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Tatiana by: Printz
Shelves: printz, 2011, ya, ala-ya-2003
The only reason I see for awarding My Heartbeat Printz Honor in 2003 is its ultra-liberal, non-judgmental approach to teen sexuality.

The novel's premise is indeed edgy: 14-year old Ellen has only two friends - her older brother Link and his best friend Jason. Ellen has a bit of a crush on Jason, but no one acts on it until it is brought up to Ellen that the closeness between Jason and Link can only be explained by these two boys being a couple. When Ellen raises the question of her friends' hom...more
Emily
Jul 03, 2007 Emily rated it 4 of 5 stars Recommends it for: anyone who needs a break from their other book for one night.
Yes it's from the "Teen Lit" shelf! What are you gonna do about it?! That's the thing, teen lit is really good! This writer is amazing and the writing was like butta', and I wish I made up some turns of phrases that she used. The main character (14-yr-old girl, who esle?) is learning to SEE things. Not just to look, but to see, like an artist does, while struggling with her family who handles struggle and problems by not talking about it, but carefully arond it:
"If I never develop the gift of cl...more
Eileen
I loved My Heartbeat. It is a well written story with interesting and believable characters. Some of the deep questions raised are about identity, belonging and the ability to truly know yourself and others.

Sexual identity is a key theme. Ellen has been good friends with Link and James. It is not until she attends highs school and a classmate suggests that Link and James might be a couple, that Ellen considers that they might be gay. There is no easy answer to this question. James has had sex w...more
Sara
Ellen loves her brother Link and his best friend James more than any other two people in the world; but things get much more complicated when a girl at school asks if Link and James are a couple. Are they gay? What does gay even mean? When she decides to ask, things get even more complicated than before and Link and James no longer speak to each other. Ellen has always thought James was super cute, but is it okay to date a boy who used to date your brother? Is it okay to date a gay boy at all?

Th...more
Justin
Snapshot: Ellen loves her older brother Link, and loves his best friend James even more. When she confronts the two of them with a question about their relationship, the boys' friendship seemingly ends. Can Ellen bring them back together, or will she instead replace her brother as James' confidante?

Hook: The cover shows three expressionless characters, one of which is trying to separate the other two. A heart hovers over the trio. The inside cover brings an important topic to the forefront, the...more
Isamlq
It’s both simple and complicated.

SIMPLE: I found myself liking the simplicity that Ellen represented, (but doubting her a little.) I found myself wondering if I’d ever been as innocent as her or as ready and compliant she was because of how she felt for them. With her, everything was simple. There was a surprising lack of drama from this fourteen year old girl (that could have been because she was just fourteen - even if she seemed much younger,- or maybe was because, as James put it, she was c...more
Adriana
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Patrice Sartor
GENRE: Fiction: Realistic fiction, problem solving, romance.

SUBJECT/THEMES: Homosexuality, bisexuality, familial loyalty, inability to express feelings, romantic crushes, sibling relationships.

SUMMARY: Ellen is very attached to her brother Link and loves him dearly. She also has a long-standing tremendous crush on Link’s best friend and constant companion, James. Sometimes Link and James argue and cannot get past their differences. Other times it seems they have such a tight connection that they...more
Holly
Aug 23, 2010 Holly rated it 4 of 5 stars
Recommended to Holly by: Angie
Ellen and her brother Link attend an elite, private high school in Manhattan. He is an incoming senior researching Ivy League schools. She just received Rollerblades for her 14th birthday. Link’s a math whiz and a genius, while Ellen is happy to be average. Link likes his best friend James, but Ellen likes “super cute” James too. The three of them form an unlikely friendship, in which Ellen loves them equally. She’s perfectly content and comfortable to have no other friends her age or gender in...more
Beth
Feb 02, 2009 Beth rated it 3 of 5 stars Recommends it for: older teens
Ellen McConnell is looking forward to joining her brother Link and his best friend James for her freshman year at prep school, but she is in for a rude awakening. Shortly after her arrival at school, she witnesses an argument between the two boys that puts a significant strain on their relationship. Subsequently, Ellen and James begin spending time together and eventually become a couple, creating a love triangle (Burkam, 2002). Ellen eventually realizes that her brother is gay but has not yet...more
Shaya
When my librarian announced this as one of the award winning books we had to pick from, I rushed to it. I was so excited because I love the whole "forbidden love" thing. So I checked it out, and read it in a whole day. I'm greatly disappointed. I love the way Garret Freymann-Weyr wrote this, but two things bugged me;

1) Link and James didn't end up together. At first I thought James just used Ellen as a rebound because he really showed no interest in her before, only interest in Link. It kind of...more
Jan
Although this book was an award winner when it was first published in 2002, I didn't find it to be everything it was cracked up to be.

The family in this novel are overeducated Manhattan snobs obsessed with their own intellectual pretensions, which makes them distinctly unlikable. Although this is an interesting look at how adolescent sexuality can be defined in many different ways, I couldn't get past the annoying characters, who were a bit too precious for my taste.
Stephanie
O.....M.....G. This book is a friggin diamond in the middle of a giant coal bucket. I L-O-V-E-D every inch of it, right down to the commas, from front to back and upside down. When I bought it I thought it was just going to be some cutesy little story about a girl figuring out that her brother is gay, but omg, it is so much more than that. There's laughter, there's tears, there's confusion, there's love, there's acceptance, and most importantly, there's truth: there's truth in the message that n...more
Racy-tay
I absolutely loved this book. It has its faults; I really had no desire to read about privileged kids in NY, hear yet another preachy moment about the dangers of teen sex complete with pregnancy and AIDS, but I still absolutely loved this book. As a teen this is what I would have wanted to read without realizing it. I love the characters and they resonate with me. The main character is a girl who adores her brother and desperately wants to know him. Her family can't communicate, they are bad wit...more
Dain Mun
Ellen is a 14 year old girl. She loves two boys the most. One is Linc who is her older brother. The other one is James who is the best friend with Linc and Ellen. They all hang out together. Suddenly the questions comes if Linc and James are together. But they don't know what they feel exactly. James has slept with other men but Lin hasn't. He refuses to define their relationship and label himself as a gay. Because the problem isn't solved, their friendship torn apart. Linc doesn't want to deal...more
Laura Leonard
Apr 16, 2008 Laura Leonard rated it 3 of 5 stars Recommends it for: people who liked Hard Love, Postcards from No Man's Land & "Hello," I Lied.
Ellen, 14, has always envied the closeness shared by her brother Link and his best friend James. Some people at their school think James and Link are a couple. When Ellen asks them, Link backs away and James and Ellen grow closer, eventually becoming a couple themselves. Ellen also confronts "unwritten" laws about homosexuality held by many people in society, including her father.

Helen
I'm still quite torn about this book--I loved many things about it, but there were plenty more that unsettled and, quite frankly, irritated me. Like some of the reviews on Amazon, I did feel the characters and their families were very pretentious, but I became less annoyed about that when it became clear they all had various problems of their own, and their living and financial situation was just something I had to take as is for the purposes of the novel.

I found it difficult to relate or form a...more
Katie
I really did not like this book.
First of all it was classist. Although the homophobia behind the action may be similar, paying off one's son is disgusting. The talk of Ivy league schools and other high-brow examples turned me off (especially when it was the bulk of the book).
Secondly, what started out as the main story (the relationship between the boys) turned out to be non-important at the end.
Thirdly, who in their right mind would really be okay with their sister dating someone they were in...more
Christina
Nov 06, 2007 Christina rated it 3 of 5 stars Recommends it for: teens who like relationship books
Shelves: realistic
A good story about relationships. The main character, Ellen, starts to question why her older brother is so close to his best friend. Gradually she realizes they are gay, and this affects her feelings for both of them. What happens when you find out the guy you like as "more than a friend" won't ever like you that way back?
Bridget
I have to admit I had my doubts as I began to listen to this on CD. The narrator is only 14 and it seemed to play a bit young at the beginning. However, there was much more depth here than I first saw. There are lots of questions asked by Ellen, the protagonist, about "seeing people", being gay, sex, relationships, the use of silence as communication. I think the best part of this book was all the question-asking Ellen did. She asked questions and got opinions and thought hard about really big i...more
Judy (Geeky Reading)
~3.5/5
[Also available on my blog.]


This book kind of surprised me. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not, it just wasn’t what I was expecting.

My Heartbeat is about Ellen and her brother Link and Link’s best friend James. Only, maybe James isn’t only his best friend. Link and James have been friends forever, really close, and spend practically all their time together. Which makes some people wonder if, maybe, they aren’t only friends. When someone mentions this to her, she starts wondering, a...more
Todd
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Shelley Daugherty
A very moving story about a 14 year-old girl who is struggling to figure out whether her brother and his best friend are a gay couple or not. This book explores that moment of realization with an honest view from young eyes. Little does she know, the two boys have never thought they would have to explain their situation and this causes a rift between the two of them. But who are they without each other and is there any good way to broach this situation and not offend anyone. Beautifully honest....more
Lucia
I had to listen to most of this audio book twice but I may not have been in a listening mind when I started. This books focuses on the emotional issues of gay relationships, teen angst while figuring out one's sexuality ( that seems so lightly put), and family relationships and dynamics.

(The following statment could be considered a spoiler)
I think the part that bothered me so much was the fact that the young girl was only 14 and pushing herself into a sexual relationship. I know this happens al...more
Sarah
Kinda cute YA book about very priviledged kids who talk about Great Literature a lot. It's a love triangle, with issues of sexual orientation. Cool thing is it addresses bisexuality in a very natural way. But the characters were annoying and unrealistic...And it's weird for a 14 year old to date an 18 year old who is truly in love with her brother...Plus he acted like a father to her and was sometimes condescending. Not a great example of a good relationship. Although he was very mature about se...more
Hannah
I really enjoyed reading this book. It is sweet, slightly unrealistic, and just generally lovely and easy to read. I got lost in the story pretty much immediately. what I particularly liked was how the characters had depth to them, and believable flaws that an actual real life person might have. It didn't have a happy ending, which is a shame, but I guess it wasn't really the kind of book destined to have an 'ending' of any kind anyway. It is like a small snippet of someone's life, and I almost...more
Victoria
This book didn't really pull me in like all of the other books I have read, but it definetly was worth the read. I mean, considering I stood up until 12 o'clock in the morning to finish reading it, I'd say that I was pretty interested in it. It's really just about this girl who's trying to figure out whether or not her brother is gay for his best friend of not, but then she ends up dating his best friend and her brother ends up dating a girl, just to prove to other people that he wasn't gay. Thi...more
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Garret Freymann-Weyr (née Weyr) was born and raised in New York City. She inexplicably went to college in North Carolina (UNC-Chapel Hill) and, just as inexplicably, got an MFA in film (NYU). She now lives outside Washington, D.C. with her husband. She has written five books for young adults, one of which, somewhat inexplicably, won a Printz honor. Her work has been sold to countries including the...more
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“Not that there’s anything wrong with geeky," Link says before Dad has a chance to. Geeky is one of Dad’s favorite words, and I listen with glee to my brother’s imitation of our father: "Geeky people often have that which is most valuable in this life." Link pauses here for effect, so that James and I can join in, shouting Dad’s favorite phrase, "A mind with its own heartbeat.” 3 people liked it
“I'd love it if the first time I spent the night with a girl it was because she was tired," James says. "I'd love it if it were you.” 1 person liked it
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