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3.26 of 5 stars 3.26  ·  rating details  ·  595 ratings  ·  75 reviews
Secret Ceremonies is the story of the awakening of Deborah Laake, who came of age in the early seventies in a manner that would have appeared out-of-step but certainly not tumultuous to an outsider. At a time when her generation was protesting a war and transforming national headlines into a saga of campus violence, she was instead a typical Mormon girl who experienced her ...more
Paperback, 384 pages
Published March 5th 1994 by Island (first published April 1993)
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A compelling story that shows the danger of letting an organization control your thoughts and self-esteem. This is an extreme case, but tales of psychological abuse similar to this are all too common in the Mormon Church. Deborah Laake's memoir is vivid in detail, intelligent, and ultimately very moving. Deborah committed suicide years after this was published, but her book remains a warning to those of us left behind.
I was working at the library and saw this book as I checked it out to a patron. Interested, I put it on hold for myself. I picked it up early this morning to read because I couldn't sleep, and surprisingly, have already finished it.

It's surprising because truly, this book didn't hold my interest like I thought it would. I was born and raised a very devout Mormon, and only left the Church a couple of years ago after I starting questioning doctrine that I had held as absolute truth all of my life.
Twiggy Strauss
I thought this would be the next step after reading "The Banner of Heaven" to get more insight on the rituals of Mormonism. This was more of a personal narrative with some discussion of the rituals involved in being a Mormon wife. The author also never offers any take home points about women's role within the religion, while she touches on it briefly throughout the narrative.
Lauren orso
i read this book because of some research on it i did ( ), and it is decidedly NOT SILLY.
fascinating. convinced me that mormonism is a cult.
I have this book in hard cover. I have read this book at least 3 times myself. I first found it in paperback in my early 20s. The book cover and the title is likened to a fiction book. This book is non fiction and the complete title is:
"Secret Ceremonies: A Mormon Woman's Intimate Diary of Marriage and Beyond"

In my early 20s, I passed the book to a friend at work and I never saw that copy again. That copy was passed around to just about everyone where I worked.

I am not good a writing reviews b
If you want to be convinced that Mormonism is a cult, then this is your book! It's one woman's story of her experiences in the Mormon church, beginning with her marriage as a student at Brigham Young University. It comes across as sensational and tell-all and doesn't attempt to be balanced. I can't deny that it was interesting... but it's defintely one woman's story with no attempt at a greater sense of cultural or historical perspective.
A client gave me this book to was shocking but I am unsure how much is true. It is the story of a girl raised in the mormon church and her struggles in marriage along with details of the church practices. May be offensive to members of the church and I don't recommend taking everything she says as the truth.
A poorly written, almost Harlequinesque, highly sensational account of an ex-Mormon woman's experiences at BYU, in the temple, and in marriage. Not worth the paper it was printed on. If you have questions, ask a real Mormon rather than relying on stuff like this...
Nancy L.
Horrifying and illuminating.
Yet another memoir by a woman who desperately needed mental health support but, guided by fundamentalist church leaders (all men) was told to cleave tighter to her church and submit to and obey her husband. "If only you were a better wife you wouldn't be so unhappy!" Add to this the complication (in my mind, a complication) that the fundamentalist church leaders were from the Mormon church and it was definitely very difficult for her. So difficult to separate the notion of a loving God from the ...more
Althea Ann
This non-fiction autobiography purports to be an expose of the Mormon religion, but is really just an expose of one woman's unhappy life.

I haven't learned anything I didn't know about Mormonism from this book, but I have learned more details than I really ever needed to know about a stranger's sex life!

The book isn't very well written, either, but it has the same weird appeal as that of a daytime talk show, where you can't really figure out WHY the guests want to reveal these sordid and intimate
I lived in Utah for a number of years and reading books relating to the dominate religion of the area has provided a lot of insight into the culture of that state.

I can see how beliefs that one is raised with can really stick in your sub-conscious, and mold your behaviors long after you consciously choose to leave them behind. Mormonism is a very strange belief system, and I truely wonder at the highly educated individuals with whom I am acquianted who are members of the LDS Church (and folks, I
Living in a huge Mormon community, it was eye opening to read this book. It shows how the LDS church values male priesthood authority above all else. How a female cannot get to the celestial kingdom (the highest level of heaven) without having a husband to bring her there. If I had any thoughts of ever entertaining this religion, this book sealed the deal not too.

I felt the author has a lot of mental health issues, not sure why, if she was born with her issues or if they were caused by her chu
I was drawn to this book because my biological dad and his family are Mormons and I was curious about the weird rumors I'd heard about the religion. This book starts out spilling all the juicy details, then veers off into this woman's battles with depression, low self esteem and possible mental illness. It's an interesting read.
Facinating look at a part of Mormonism...the author commited suicide after the book was out.
Laake's story of her young adulthood as a Mormon is very easy to read although the content is somewhat disturbing. Her religious aspirations to be pleasing to God found their earthly home in bad marriages which assured her way into heaven and damning her when they failed. In spite of oaths that would require bodily harm if she shared any information about the secret ceremonies, Laake allows her readers to join her in the Temple ceremonies which bound her to her first husband in this life and the ...more
I found this book interesting, but also tiresome and dreary. The first 3/4ths are a chronicle of going from one relationship to another, it's more a story about "the men in my life" than "my life". And it got on my nerves. The last part was when she finally broke through that whole thing of living through men and started living for herself and it got much better right before it ended.
This author revealed way more about the ceremonies in the Mormon Temple than any other I've read. She was also gr
I picked up this book because of Martha Beck's mention in her awesome Leaving the Saints. She was recalling her "temple marriage," and my interest was piqued when she referred to Laake's book as far more revealing than hers about inner Temple practices.

So, meh. I thought Laake's style was horrendous and disjointed and I'm snobby enough to find sentences such as: "I never got completely clear on the nature of Eugenie's disorder" intensely irritating. I'm not a perfect writer, but... well, I gues
This wasn't what I expected. I am fascinated by the history of the Mormon church and its secretive ceremonies. You do get glimpses into these topics, but the book is really about one woman's journey into self discovery. It was an interesting read, just not what I was expecting.
Feb 02, 2008 Darth rated it 2 of 5 stars
Recommends it for: Any Mormon or otherwise religiously raised woman, who is in an unfulfilling marriage
Shelves: non-fiction
This was okay, but not great. From the title I did expect something more concrete than a few oblique and anecdotal references to the "Secret Ceremonies" in the title...
I am thinking the publishers replaced the original title with this one to make it seem more Tell ALL ish....
The subtitle is much truer to the story line.
In the end it was a good read, and worth my time and all...
The story of a woman who started her life as a fairly mindless sheep among the flock, and eventually came to consciousn
This was the first book I read about the Mormon religion. It is the author's life experience in the Mormon religion, discussing how she was raised, the ceremonies that are supposed to be kept secret to the general public, her marriage and her eventual ex-communication from the Mormon church. I found it to be an excellent introduction into discovering some of the mysteries of the religion and explanation of how the membership behaves in families and in public. I would recommend this book to anyon ...more
Mormons have been in the news a lot lately, so this book is timely (even though it was written years ago.) The author was born a Mormon and was quite devout for much of her youth, but a bad marriage and other events gradually led to her falling away from her religion. The process of disaffection is well told, and includes a bonus, laugh-out-loud scene involving temple garments (aka magic underwear.) The book is marred, however, by the fact that the editor seems to have dropped dead about two thi ...more
The title and descriptions of this book suggest a slightly trashy, vaguely prurient look at secret Mormon rituals. It really is not that. While some Mormon ritual appears in the book, it really is about the role of women (or, more exactly, the perspective of one woman on the role of women) in a conservative Mormon culture. It is fairly well-written, despite occasional curious and quaint phrasing (such as referring to sex with a deeply disliked husband as "lovemaking"). the book is strongest in i ...more
Felt like the author needed to justify her reasons to leave Mormonism.
I am not LDS but it was written like many "ex-______" books are; with an axe to grind. Why couldn't she just say, "I was raised LDS but it's not for me..."?
Even her details of the private temple ceremonies was not worth it since there are other sources for that info.
It is worth noting that the poor woman suffered from Depression and tragicly later took her own life.
Cannot blame that on ANY faith. Depression is always tragic
Stacy Robinson
This book graphically depicts a woman going through a sacred place and the rites associated with it. I know that some of the things in this book are completely false, whether the rules have changed or the standards have changed. I do beleive that this book was written in a way where the reader can ultimately understand how the main character grew up sheltered and rebelled only to want to belong to the church again. She was a depressed woman and ended her life after a battle with church leaders a ...more
It was educational & enlightening to me to read a book by a former LDS woman. It really helped me to wrap my brain around what it is like to be a mormon & of the "ins & outs" of that system. It saddened me to see all that she struggled with & in the end never coming to an understanding of true Biblical freedom from bondage. I understand better just how much being raised in that organization affects your life forever after, even after you leave.
David Horney
interesting tidbits about "secret" mormon stuff, but what private institution doesnt seem odd to outsiders? most of her problems stem from her well documented struggles with mental illness, undoubtedly influenced by the patriarchal, fundamentalist society she grew up in. ms laake details several suicide attempts in this book. she was ultimately successful in taking her own life in february of 2000.
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Mary Allred
This is an interesting book. I grew up Mormon. I now know it's a cult. This book reminded me of many things I was told/taught growing up that sound crazy now but I accepted because I was a child. Some parts were pretty slow and hard to keep my attention.
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