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Hiding in Hip Hop: On the Down Low in the Entertainment Industry--From Music to Hollywood

3.06 of 5 stars 3.06  ·  rating details  ·  230 ratings  ·  50 reviews
Entertainment industry insider Terrance Dean takes a personal, provocative look at stardom and sexuality, through his own experiences of life on the down low.
Hardcover, 305 pages
Published May 13th 2008 by Atria Books (first published 2008)
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I tore through this book, but more to get it off of my shelf than anything else.

I don't really understand why a man who spends an entire book talking about how secretive his lifestyle is and how coming out would disrupt everything he and his 'down low brothers' are doing would then write a trashy expose slyly outing homosexuals in the entertainment industry.

The only aspect of the book that I found interesting was the (shallow) analysis of the black community's ways of addressing sexual topics l
Nov 25, 2008 Cate rated it 1 of 5 stars
Shelves: cnf, memoir
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Nikhil P. Freeman
If you want to write a memoir, write a memoir. If you want to write a salacious tell-all book, then do it. However, do not try to mix the two, because when you do it fails miserably.

The blind item parts were an absolute mess. His life story was interesting, but I did not like how homosexuality was equated with molestation. Little gay boys and gay girls unfortunately are raped every day. The last thing that needs to happen is that when they find their voices and come of age is for some uninformed
If you hope, by reading this, you will find out
the "scoop", on who is and is not SGL, in the
entertainment industry, you might be slightly
disappointed. What he reveals is so cryptic,
that it may puzzle you further, than confirm
those you may already suspect. Even when
he speaks about someone, and you go, "Aha!",
he later says something else about the person,
that makes you think, "Well, ok, that couldn't
have been Missy Elliott then...". Also, I might
add, I sort of doubt all these already established
Journey to accpeting oneself hidden within gossip on the film and music industries Terrance Dean is a black man seeking to find himself. Coming from a broken home where his mother was a drug addict and prostitute and never knowing his father, Dean wants to escape. Most of the book is about his time in Los Angeles and New York, making his mark in Hollywood, the media and music industries.

After being sexually molested by a male babysitter and reluctantly engaging in sex with an older female teenag
Kimberly Hicks
Jan 14, 2015 Kimberly Hicks rated it 3 of 5 stars
Recommends it for: Memoir Lovers (Discretion is Advised)
Recommended to Kimberly by: Amazon
I wasn't really sure how to feel about this book. For starters, I don't feel as though I learned anything new that I didn't already know, however, having said that, I think the biggest disappointment for me was that I found the title of this book to be a bit misleading. Of course, one reading the title would think this is a book about men on the down low in the hip hop industry--and indeed that's what Terrance wrote about, but it was just surface speaking about the matter, and not really talking ...more
Kimberly Reese
It is terry first book and i chat with him on fb and i told him i love it but i wish he would gave names
Nov 18, 2009 Cookie added it
Recommends it for: No one
Recommended to Cookie by: no one
Ha ha

I figured all the build-up to "exposing" these folks was a bunch of Bulls*** teasing in order to sell books.

All the people who bought this crap were bamboozled.

Who gives a rat's cunt "why" he is gay? I could give a fu** about him getting diddled a little as a youngster and his subsequent "struggles".

Cry me a river....we all have had bad things happen. And often times much worse than someone touching their little wee-wee a couple of times as a kid.

"I'm so confused and traumatized at 30 (and
There were lots of excuses about why Dean had as much sex as he had. He felt like he had never been loved and God had abandoned him. I admit that my heart hurt to read him talk about how his family died of AIDS because God was punishing him for being gay. I hated that no one talked about his childhood molestation. I hated that the church people failed to deliver him and yet he still believed that God hated him. I wish he had worked that out in the book but maybe that's the point. That kind of se ...more
So much to say about this book... not much of it is good though. This book reads like a Tyler Perry movie/urban novel/blackbuster. At first, it's funny. It's a page turner. But after so long the redudancy grows annoying. For a while (and I mean A LOOOOONNNNGGG time) the author is in denial. He blames everyone (his family, the church, his job, the opposite sex) when it was him that was really the problem. He is irresponsible, indulgent, and careless.
I also don't agree with the title. This books
Jon O
Jul 28, 2013 Jon O rated it 3 of 5 stars
Shelves: gay
At some points, I was lost. The author kept going back to an earlier slot of time that I lost track where the author was supposed to be... I thought the author was already in New York and yet, another chapter started with him saying that he was in Los Angeles and was asked to go to New York.

It felt like several scenes were repeated, to describe the 'down low' of the gay black community. It was either someone with an altered name to protect the real identity in another gay scene, and another gay
Let's face it: books that dish about steamy sexual relationships with celebrities are sordid and trashy but addictive. There's something about reading about famous people and seeing that they have the same issues and weaknesses as us mere mortals that is compelling. That's partly what made Karinne Steffans' franchise so interesting.

But this book? With the possibility of being really good, Terrance Dean just disappoints. He's talking about gay men in an industry that thrives on a homophobic image
I really wanted to like this book, but I can't get past the first few chapters. It's poorly edited and the prose jumps around without any rhyme or reason. Also, one thing that bothers me is that the author claims to be raised in a very religious family but doesn't bother capitalizing the word God or His/Him/He when referring to his deity of choice.

Anyway like I said, I put the book down after a few chapters and found I really wasn't all that interested in picking it back up. From the beginning v
Susan Washington
Hiding in hip hop is addictive!

Hiding in hip hop is addictive!

it's very insightful and a real page Turner. I kept putting the book down only to pick it back up ten or twenty minutes later. I finished it in twenty four hours. Trying to figure out who the artists he was talking about were was interesting also.
(FROM JACKET) Everyone wants to know the truth about their favorite celebrities' heart's desires. Within the masculine culture of Hip Hop and Hollywood, there is a well-known gay subculture that industry insiders are keenly aware of but choose to hide. Terrance Dean worked his way up for more than ten years in the entertainment industry from intern to executive, and has lived the life of glitz and bling along with Hollywood and Hip Hop's most glamourous. With a family full of secrets and working ...more
"The question is: what function will this book perform in a culture always eager for yet another reason to demonize Black men as dangerously duplicitous? What are the power differentials in the entertainment world where white lesbians like Ellen are more out than Black lesbians or gay men? Does simply being out solve the problems of an industry that makes enormous profits while paying pittances to some? Ellen’s at the height of her popularity and lauded for her outness. But we forget that she wa ...more
A rather lackluster memoir to say the least with the usual "I grew up the poor son of a crack-ho and then a mean guy touched me and then I liked dudes" song and dance. It gives kind of a dark view of the entertainment industry based on who you know who you are will to bang to get ahead. I could sympathize a bit with Terreance as a fellow Queer black but for the most part I just wanted him to stop talking about the various dudes he was banging and drop some names. If you too plan on picking up th ...more
Very interesting , only if I could have figure out what industry persons he sleep with. Okay yes he was hiding out at MTV, he didn't expose any body. The book wasn't written well at all very repetitive . Terrence had sex with any and everybody. These DL books all have the same back drop they all want love like heterosexual folks , it appears that will never happen. Dean did a good job at revealing the current patterns of these DL brothers. All I have to say these young ladies need to be very car ...more
Bobby Christon-Walker
This book was interesting. Initially, I purchased it thinking that it would be a scathing tell-all book, like Confessions of a Video Vixen, but it was more of a book about this one guy’s life. There were parts where he bounced around in his timeline. For example, in one chapter, he’d be leaving college and dealing with that, but by the next chapter, he was an accomplished producer for MTV. He should have had a different editor or should have referenced the flashbacks before he went to the next c ...more
This book has the wrong title. It's not really an expose of gay men in hip-hop. It's a memoir of Terrance Dean himself. He's lived a complicated life--came from a broken home, there was AIDS, drugs, a struggle to climb up the corporate ladder, too much casual sex and not enough love. Here and there Dean treats us to blind items of who might be gay in hip-hop. It's hard to guess who he's talking about half the time, though. Some are obvious guesses though. Not always well-written (there are sever ...more
J. Bentley
I think Thia mannas overly delusional and living in a fantasy. He descriptions are repetitive. The beginning about his upbringing was interesting but beyond that it gets pretty redundant! He almost comes off as a hypocrite. And forget about finding about down low celebs. Names are withheld and descriptions are vague enough that it could be numerous people. I almost feel that some of the things he writes are not true. His numerous sexcapades are described in detail. Its a quick read but i found m ...more
This book originally caught my attention thinking that it would be a tell-all, but it fell short of the mark. I understand that some anonymity was necessary because of the sensitivity inherent in such a book, but there were not enough clues to even make an educated guess of who these individuals were. Maybe, I'm just too curious. It was mostly about this guy's sexuality, which is fine, but it didn't seem to present itself this way. It was interesting though and well written, but it just sort of ...more
Jennifer Mackintosh
This was an interesting view into two areas I'm not terribly familiar with: hip hop culture and down low culture.

I think Mr. Dean was very open and honest about how his choices affected his life. He was clear about both the temptations and penalties. The book ends on an abrupt note but I suspect that's another example of being true to life. He could have claimed to be over his impulses to hide his sexuality or to have undergone other personal revolutions. Intead, he shows a day to day struggle t
Disclaimer: i didn't even get half way.
The book was interesting. Made me really question all the men I have dated in the past. Even though of course they aren't in the industry or anything. What I liked about the book is stopping and thinking what actor or rapper he was speaking on in the book. I don't know if I was wrong in my thoughts but I was pretty shocked at what faces popped into my head as possible down low brothers. What I didn't enjoy too much is he was constantly repeating himself over and over. Or even contradicting himse ...more
OMG this book is off the hook. He just puts it out there on all the down low men in the hip hop world. The only thing he does not give out there real names of who these actors and hip hop artist are. But he gives you hits here and there on which they might be. And if you are into hip hop you can guess who they are. Women you got to watch you back, shit after reading this. I had to say god how many more down low brothers are there. HMMMMMM!!!.........
This may not be the best written memoir ever, but Dean is able to be very candid about his life, the problems he had with his family growing up, and what it's like being a down low man. I got great insight into the world of hip hop, and what it's like to be gay or down low in that world. The most intriguing thing about this book were the intriguing hints about famous people on the down low. Some were obvious, others impossible for me to guess!
It was off to a slow start. I had to put it down for a moment but I did meet the author at the Harlem Book Fair...he has a new book coming out and said he has been touring and receiving good reviews. A wonderful, warm and friendly personality. I also met the model on the cover of the book and he is coming out with a calendar real soon!

At its best, this book reads like a light-hearted soap opera with a few obligatory "I considered suicide" moments. There's little that is remarkable here, and, frankly, the story is nothing new. The writing is average at best with very little attention given to repetitive phrases and words much less repetitive chapters.
As far as self-revealing autobiographies go, this one is good. Dean's writing is warm and conversational. Of course there has always been the myth of the so-called gay rapper...but Terrance is gracious enough to point out the truth of it.
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