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Good Girl. Obedient Wife.

Porn Slave.

Deep Throat Was Only The Beginning…

Linda Boreman was just twenty-one when she met Chuck Traynor, the man who would change her life. Less than two years later, the girl who wouldn�t let her high school dates get past first base was catapulted to fame she could never have imagined in her wildest dreams�or worst nightmares. Linda Boreman

Paperback, 288 pages
Published January 1st 2006 by Citadel (first published January 1st 1980)
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Yesterday, I reviewed Inside Linda Lovelace, one of the books Lovelace wrote while she was still inhabiting the personality of the sex-toy 60s porn star. I consider I am honour bound also to review Ordeal, the book she wrote after leaving the porn industry. It's a very disquieting read. Lovelace completely denies all her earlier testimony. She says that, for years, she was regularly raped and brutalised by her partner, Chuck Traynor. Traynor controlled every aspect of her life and forced her int ...more
Yasmin Selena Butt
Possibly the most upsetting autobiography I've ever read.

I read it when I was in my teens and it appalled me the life this poor woman led. I'm not anti-porn at all, but I am 100% anti-coercion and exploitation. Love and sex are gifts, not means of abuse. Rating this as 5 stars to say I really liked it feels all kinds of wrong. I didn't like it, it messed me up for a while, but reading it was eye-opening and it blew my mind, that a man, Chuck Traynor, was capable of doing this to another person.
*•.♥.•*Sabrina Rutter*•.♥.•*
I couldn't put this down! This is the first memoir I have ever read about someone in the porn industry. Is it an amazing story? No, not really, but it was definantly interesting. If what she says is true then she definantly titled this book correctly because that was definantly an ordeal.
I for one would have let the perverts kill me before I would submit to some of the things Linda did. She says that what happened to her could happen to anyone, but I disagree. I would have never allowed someone
Jane Freese
I heard about this book years ago and wouldn't have read it except that a friend of mine wanted to know what I thought of it. This has to be one of the most compelling memoirs even written. In a recent article in Poets and Writers by the son of Mike McGrady (the writer who helped Lovelace with the book), he described how terribly his father and Linda were treated after the publication of the book See, It wasn't until feminists such as Gloria Steinem and ...more
I happened to be reading this harrowing memoir of the now-deceased '70s pornstar, Lovelace, at the same time I was reading Sir B.H. Liddell Hart's history of World War II, and it occurred to me that if space aliens had gotten hold of both these books and done the same reading they might easily conclude that Lovelace's sexually abusive and violent Svengali husband/exploiter, Chuck Traynor, was a far worse human being than Adolf Hitler.

There's been a lot of scuttlebutt throught the years about the
Edwina Hall Callan
Reading this book is like coming upon a house on fire or a wreck on the highway, you don't want to look and yet ... you can't look away.
Your heart is racing while your eyes are desperately seeking some sign of life, searching for a survivor amidst all the blood and destruction.
And Linda survives, not only does she survive but she thrives.
After years of living in a nightmare world from the deepest pits of hell, she escapes.
She finds a man who loves her for her, not for the Lovelace Legend.
She has
Aug 28, 2014 Victoria rated it 5 of 5 stars
Shelves: dv
I found out about this book from the documentary, "The Real Linda Lovelace" (which I also highly recommend!). The most moving aspect was that "Linda Lovelace was not a good actress." Nevertheless, "you had to be a good actress to fake her reactions." It is a heartbreaking story about abuses that can simply happen to anyone (and if you think otherwise, you need to educate yourself on the seasoning process). And it is even more heartbreaking to consider that stories such as this are either disbeli ...more
A trash classic. It's a little sad just how earnestly Gloria Steinem, Andrea Dworkin, Catharine MacKinnon & Co. took it. Ladies, you kinda missed the point.
Jean louise Finch

Sorry this review is a little all over the place as I attempt to get my thoughts together.

I am really trying very hard to get through this book. I watched the movie Lovelace, it doesnt even scratch the surface, and I will tell you, Ive seen Deep Throat and I am terribly uncomfortable at the thought of having watched this movie with the star being violently abused and forced into pornography...

If she was: rumor has it that the abuse she details is over h
Rachel T
5 out of 5 for this reader folks!

How does one even begin to review a book like this? I think this had to be the saddest, most emotional biography book I have ever read. I felt physically ill at certain times through this book at the abuse this woman went through. To come out, and live somewhat a normal life as she did and to be brave enough to put these words out there for people to read renders me speechless.

This is the biography of Linda Lovelace. Linda's pornography film "Deepthroat" was the
Yuska Vonita

ATTENTION! If you're under 21 y-o, please do not read this review. It contains explicit and graphic sexual descriptions that might be offensive.

I've read many porn stars and ex-porn stars memoirs, but nothing can beat Ordeal. It's the most sadistic and disturbing book I've ever read.

The story begins when Linda Boreman had a car accident. She met Chuck Traynor who seemed so sweet. Later, Linda found that Chuck is a monster who physically, verbally, and sexually abused her. From then on, her night
I first heard about Linda Lovelace in the tabloids when Lindsey Lohan was going through her addiction issues and was replaced by Amanda Seyfried for the role of Linda Lovelace in the "Lovelace" film. The Lovelace story caught my attention so I decided to read more about it, and found this book somewhere along the way.

My reaction when I first began reading this book was probably the same reaction many people had: "Why didn't she just get away? She could've told someone. Called the police while he
I suppose I am very much in the minority with this. I had never heard of 'Linda Lovelace', until I read there was to be a film made about her. It prompted me to search online. This lead to a documentary on you-tube about her life and this book.

Linda Lovelace was a woman who starred in a porn film in the 1970s. It became mainstream and she became well known worldwide. She was represented as the face of hedonistic sexuality and met film stars and the strange Playboy tycoon Hefner. However there w
Hasnain Bahleem
The minute i stopped reading this book, my first thoughts were!
" we people are sick, not sick with disease but sick in mind! Without our humanity
We are no more than downright animals. "
This was probably the most depressing autobiography I have ever read. The title ordeal suits perfectly. U might be thinking what inspired me to pick up this book out of the whim,well yesterday i was searching for a suitable movie to watch and i stumbled upon, a movie which was called as 'love lace,' sure Amanda
Feb 21, 2011 Bridget rated it 2 of 5 stars
Recommends it for: porn theory graduate students
I have pretty mixed feelings about this book. I've read my share of porn autobiographies (Traci Lords, Jenna Jameson) but I figured I should head to the source of these memoirs to the original. I don't want to cast aspersions on what Linda Lovelace said she experienced but it's difficult to believe some of the level of detail that she or her ghost writer went with in this book. Particularly as she makes a point of saying early in the narrative that she doesn't remember huge hunks of time while s ...more
The recent 2013 film is almost like a feel-good movie compared to the book. That movie is like a walk in the park on Sunday morning compared to the horrific reality "Linda Lovelace" had to deal with day-in day-out while living with, or rather: under, the sadistic psycho pervert Chuck Traynor, who ruled over her with an almost literal rod of iron. Linda came from a family in which little love was shown and physical abuse was an everyday occurrence. And when she met Chuck she hoped to have found a ...more
Jordan  Perkins
OMG! This book is not for the faint of heart that's for sure, it makes 50 shades look like Grimm's fairy tales! It's raw, graphic and so filthy you'll need a shower after reading it but for all you kinky freaks out there (in practice or in fantasy)...this one's for you. I couldn't put it down and finished in one setting. It's a lot like a gruesome, car crash - it's horrifying to look at yet you can't take your eyes away. I give this book five-stars because I'll be the first to admit that I loved ...more
This book is probably mostly true. I can buy Chuck being an awful human being. What I have trouble with is that she was either a) the most spineless person in existence, or b) valued her 'life' far more than she valued her autonomy. It's very hard to understand how she could hate every minute of being with him, but never, ever left. I could understand if she felt like she identified with him at the time, but according to her she never did. I find this, as an abused person, very hard to believe. ...more
Richard Cosgrove
Porn stars. They live glamorous lives, spend all day having sex, lounging by pools, getting paid for being pleasured. Right?

Err, no.

Though it may be a popular (though hopefully less and less popular) misconception, the brutal honesty and truth of one of the most well-known porn stars of all time, Linda Lovelace, reveals that not only is the life of a porn star anything but glamorous, it’s also dangerous, degrading and soul destroying.

Ordeal tells the truth behind the façade that Lovelace’s previ
I have so much to say about this book that I don't know where to start. Firstly I do honestly believe this woman had a horrible life, was forced into things and beaten but I also think there is an element to the book that doesn't ring true. She starts out saying how innocent she is and how she knows nothing of sex but then in a brief sentence mentions that before she met Chuck she had a baby which was given up for adoption - I find that odd, to me it seems like it was thrown in there because it ...more
zoe nicol
Sep 05, 2007 zoe nicol rated it 5 of 5 stars
Recommends it for: everyone
This book stands as a record as to why so many of us are terrified of the implications of modern pornography. Deep Throat, a movie viewed by just about everyone I know, documents the worst of the sex industry--women who performed under coercion. While the book doesn't make a specific political commentary, it's a reminder that all sex workers deserve much more than mere dollars and amplifies the voice that the profession should be a choice.
Benjamin Rothman
Excellent book. You would almost expect it to be a "tell-all" with lots of dirty details about the world of the first real "porn star". There is a little of this, but mostly it is a multi-faceted story of the life behind the fame; and it came as a surprise.
On one level it's the very frank and tragic story of a naive young woman who found herself in the abusive relationship to end all abusive relationships and how she eventually found the strength to escape. This level not only reveals somethin
Deidra Lassalle
It was a difficult book to read because it forces you to look at the disgusting undertones of men. I have read many critics who were around her disagreed with her wanting to participate. Do I believe she had an abusive husband? Absolutely but what level of showmanship was she delivering. I found the comments about Hugh Hefner very disturbing but believable. Sad the depths of sickness humans go to.
Horrifying. Absolutely horrifying.
The writing was atrocious, but I forgive it because she isn't a 'writer' - she was just a regular person telling her story.
This was beyond disturbing. I don't know how much of her story is true, but if it's factual, I'm disgusted that people like this exist, that women are used in this way, and that society as a whole seems disinterested in the horrors perpetuated by the porn industry.
This was my first foray into a memoir written by someone involved in the por
This book is terrible. The abuse that Linda claims to have suffered is horrible and unimaginable but that does not excuse for poor story telling. There is little to no mention of her and Chucks every day life, the author just jumps from one bad situation described in shaky detail to another. I researched the content of this book quite extensively and found very little to back up Linda other then her passed lie detector test in 1979 - which we know did not substantiate most of her memories in thi ...more
I feel wrong giving it 5 stars and saying I really enjoyed the book when Linda went through such terrible things.
But I did enjoy the read. I thought it was written well. It had a nice flow to it making it easy to read.
I found I had to keep reminding myself everything I was reading was real. It's hard to imagine these things happened to her and maybe happening or might happen to others beside her.
I feel bad for the things Linda had to go through in life. It makes me grateful, but fearful. Gratefu
Linda Lovelace

“What kind of man pays $45.00 to rent a woman anyhow? What kind of man prefers make-believe love over real love?”

Este libro relata los hechos acontecidos antes, durante y tras la filmación de Deep Throat (famosa película pornográfica de los años 70 que alcanzaría un éxito sin precedentes) desde la experiencia vivida por su protagonista, Linda Lovelace.

Linda es una joven que se recupera en Miami en casa de sus padres tras haber sufrido un accidente automovilístico en Nueva Yo
In total there have been three "memoirs" of Lovelace' s experience - one written by Chuck Traynor, one a composite of the truth and what would sell, and this. I imagine this is as close to the truth as we will ever get, as horrifying as it is.

In reading this, you don't want to believe it - you don't want to believe that anyone could be as brutal as Chuck Traynor or as victimized as Linda Lovelace. You want to believe that she, to some extent, took part in her life. That any normal, sane person
Lindsey Lewis
While the writing style was lacking - after all, Linda Lovelace was not an author by trade - the story is one that all women (and men, it applies to everyone) should read. I hear a lot of people refer to Lovelace in unkind terms or referencing the act she was forced time upon time to commit without being aware of the truth behind the camera.

The entire time I was reading, I imagine I looked something like this:

And at other times like this:

*full review forthcoming - this was an emotionally devasta
Rachael Ryan
I'm not sure that I can rate this book. It was a harrowing read but interesting. I have finished this book and I still don't know what I think of it.
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Linda Susan Boreman, better known by her stage name Linda Lovelace, became famous after starring in the 1972 hardcore porn film Deep Throat. She later became a spokeswoman for the anti-pornography movement.

Deep Throat was notable for beginning a brief fad of porn chic; it was also the inspiration for Bob Woodward's name of his secret Watergate source, W. Mark Felt. Boreman later stated that she re
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