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Protective Love (Hidden Secrets #1)

4.2  ·  Rating Details ·  95 Ratings  ·  36 Reviews
**Due to sexual content, language and violence, this book is only suitable for ages 18 and up.**

Everyone has secrets… How far would you go to keep them hidden?
Kayla Williams knew all about secrets. She’s been burying it for the past sixteen years – and continues to do so. Though her parents and siblings were great, she’d torn herself away from them. She felt trashy, a was
Kindle Edition, 341 pages
Published January 24th 2014 (first published July 11th 2013)
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DNF @ 54%


I am going to keep this short. Protective Love by P.J. Belden was simply not the book for me. I think it all boils down to some of the decisions the author made.

For most of the book I felt like I was experiencing "huh?" moments constantly.


This is a book about a woman who has suffered unimaginable horrors and abuse for many years. It most definitely had the potential to be an incredible and extraordinary story. For me it simply fell short in its execution. I could not get past so many l
Sarah's Book Blog
Jul 21, 2014 Sarah's Book Blog rated it it was amazing
4.5 Stars!

“My secrets were mine to carry, not anyone else’s. I would not drag anyone else down with me. My secrets would remain that way for the rest of my life.”

This was a beautiful and an emotional read. A story about a girl who has survived 16 years of torture. Of pain and suffering. Taken on a journey or survival, healing, love and first….

First, if rape is a sensitive subject for you, this may not be a book for you. There are scenes where the main characters is raped and the author does an a
Aug 17, 2013 Allison rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: kindle-hdx
~Arc provided by the Author of an honest review~

5 Gut Wrenching Stars

"One day it will be your time to suffer through. One day I will be there smiling as you taste revenge at its best. You may have broken me and hurt me now, but it wont be like this forever and you will soon see what messing with a Williams girl means. Good luck, asshole."

Kayla Williams is 28 years old. She is broken, trusts no one and has pushed away everyone in her life that loves her. She is a veterinarian and devotes all he
Alissa Evanson- A is for Alpha B is for Books
A powerful and emotional journey of abuse, healing, and finding love.

**4.5 Gut wrenching stars**
Kayla is twenty eight years old and is a successful veterinarian who comes from a huge family of brothers, sisters, and amazing parents. I absolutely loved a few of her brothers. Carson, Eli and Jake were my favorite. I wish we would have seen more of Jake but we did get more of Carson and has his own book Fantasy Attraction that has already been released.

Kayla has one of the biggest hearts you’ll
Alison Jansen
I received an ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.
This book was interesting for me, it bought up a lot of conflicting emotions. I knew the subject matter would be intense, because I read the intro by the author, which I might add I appreciated because if someone just read the synopsis, it does not really give you an insight into what the real theme of the book was about. When it comes to books that have issues of mental illness or emotional issues, I am very particular about the de
Daniela Rodriguez
Jan 23, 2014 Daniela Rodriguez rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
*ARC provided for an honest review*

Reading this broke my heart. Kayla was going through hell for the last 16 years of her life, she was repeatedly harassed and assaulted right under the nose of her family and she could not say anything. I could not believe it went on for so long. I really really felt for her. She was a terrified, and cautious woman who deserved a happy life. Then along came Detective Jason Gold, who fell for Kayla immediately. At first sight he knew he wanted Kayla to be his. He
Kia-lin Klink-holmes
This book is a heart wrenching story about how sometimes even if you know someone and live with them on a daily bases you truly may not know them. Some people hide things so well family can't even see the pain that your suffering before its to late. This story will make you feel so sorry for kayla and what she has been through and what she has done to keep it from her family. Until enough is enough and she tries to fight past her fears and get her life back you will be on edge wanting to find ...more
Aug 12, 2013 B.J. rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I had to take a couple of days to process this book. It is raw, painful and gut wrenching. Your heart instantly goes out to Kayla but then you're amazed but the strength and resilience she shows despite all of the crap she has to face. I can't wait to read more from this author. She writes in such a way that she pulls at your emotions, digging deep inside and making to reevaluate what is truly important in life. Well done.
Allison Connors
Jan 11, 2014 Allison Connors rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
A sad but compelling account of a rape victim tortured by her attacker for 16 years right under her families' nose. Found myself screaming in my own head for someone to rescue her or for her to tell someone. Enjoyed watching her finally trust others and tell her story. Nice to see her heal and grow and learn to love, while bringing her attacker to justice. A tale of strength and courage. A well written book about a very tough subject. Will be looking for more by P.J. Belden.
Sep 13, 2013 Amanda rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
LOVED IT!!!!!!!
Kristy & Kayla - My Person's Books

ARC kindly provided in exchange for an honest review.

Heartbreaking is the first feeling that comes to mind while I was reading this book.

Kayla is a survivor, she has been through more than most people go through in a life time. In her short 28 years she has been subjected to 16 years of abuse and rape, some of which take place at her family home, at the hands of her brother, Carson’s friend, Alex. Never telling a sole in those 16 years, Kayla has pushed her family to the side and believes that
Stephanie ~
Jan 26, 2014 Stephanie ~ rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

My Review

Nightmare can't even describe what I am trapped in. A nightmare is something from which you wake up in a panic before realizing it was all a dream and real life isn't like that. No this is my life.

This book had me in knots! This book centres around Kayla and the heartbreaking story that is her life. Starting when she was 12 years old she has been repeatedly raped by a friend of her older brother. And the nightmare just has not ceased. No matter where she goes, what she does, he finds her and
Mar 31, 2014 Judy rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Over 18 due to violence and mature subject matter
Recommended to Judy by: P.J. Belden
Kayla Williams is a survivor. For years, Kayla has been sexually assaulted repeatedly. She constantly feels scared and completely alone. She blames and hates herself for not being able to fight hard enough to save herself. She long ago distanced herself from her loving family and continues to push them away. She believes that if she told anyone about the attacks it would not only put her life in danger, but she’d be endangering whomever she told.

Jason Gold is a police detective. He is a loner ex
Jacqueline's Reads
Apr 24, 2014 Jacqueline's Reads marked it as low-tbr  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: arc
Excerpt! is up !

Kayla's POV

Everything around me was disappearing. Sounds were beginning to muffle and my vision was going. A sudden sharp pain shot through my chest and the last of my breath left my lungs. The pain that had been constant was lessening. It was like I was going numb. Suddenly I felt like I was no longer part of my body. I felt like I was watching him hit, kick, punch and toss me.

There was a crashing noise and more noise sounded in the room. It was like someone else had come in
Feb 13, 2014 Michelle rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: loved
I was two chapters in to Protective Love, when I found myself wanting to slash the throat of one of the characters! It’s okay, I was supposed to hate him! This was a raw, emotional read. The author put me through the wringer, I felt hatred, sadness and shock, but it was balanced by plenty of romance and some hot scenes.

Kayla was violently, sexually abused from the age of twelve. Her attacker, Alex, was an acquaintance of her brother Carson. When he initially raped Kayla, he claimed it was to pay
Anny hernandez
Jan 27, 2014 Anny hernandez rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
***** I received an ARC copy for an honest review *****

First let me just say that this is the first book that I read from this author.

OH WOW I don't even know how to write this review, I have to say I read this story with tears in my eyes, I cried through the entire book, this is the type of story that some women could relate to. And I could tell you that I'm one of those woman.

This story is told from both point of view, I am gone keep this short cause I'm still with tears in my eyes and can't s
Nov 05, 2014 Abbie rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
~arc provided for honest review~

Kayla: My secrets were mine to carry, not anyone else's."

Kayla Williams had been keeping a horrifying secret from her family since the age of twelve. The night everything changed, her family noticed but did not seem to understand or probe too much. Sadly this torture continued through Kayla's adult life until one day she decided to take her life back into her own hands. Detective Jason Gold was doing a favor for his mother when he went to the Williams' home for
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Protective Love By P.J Belden
4.5 stars
Reviewed by Dani

*ARC provided for an honest review*

Reading this broke my heart. Kayla was going through hell for the last 16 years of her life, she was repeatedly harassed and assaulted right under the nose of her family and she could not say anything. I could not believe it went on for so long. I really really felt for her. She was a terrified, and cautious woman who deserved a happy life. Then along came Detective Jason Gold, who fell for Kayla immediatel
Laura Voss
Jan 26, 2014 Laura Voss rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4 Stars
I was given an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
This was another story that was heartbreaking to me. It's a story with so much pain and trauma I just wanted to jump into the book and rip Kayla out of there and help her myself. Kayla has been suffering for years being repeatedly attacked and harassed and her family has no idea. Kayla is keeping it from them and it just ripped me up that they didn't know and for 16 years did nothing. The repeated harassment and keeping it all inside lef
Jan 15, 2014 Danielle rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I was gifted a copy of this book for an honest review.
This is one of those very intense books that will make u mad make u cry and make u laugh it is a wonderful ride. I cant wait to read more about the Williams family. Jason finds Kayla and helps her to heal and admit to so many things that have ruined her life. Kayla is a remarkable lady and Jason is the kind of man every woman needs or wants at some point in their life. This story flows so well that u get so swept up in it that u pretty much i
This is the first book I've read by PJ Belden and she did not disappoint!

28 year old Kayla has suffered so much throughout her life, you feel the depth of her pain, hatred, sadness and strength.

She finally breaks and runs from an event, colliding with a man. A man that is about to turn her world upside down...

This heartbreaking beautiful story is about a girl who goes through life scared and broken. What she goes through, no women should ever to. When Kayla's secrets are revealed to her family
Feb 07, 2014 Shelli rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Heart breaking and a lot of tears but Amazing story. My Thoughts coming soon.....

When she was 12 and she is broken because of one guy who cross the line and could care less that he took her child hood away. No matter what she did or where she moved he still found her and took what he wanted. Kayla kept a secret from everyone including her family. After all these years it was still happening and know it was to late to tell. Until her white Knight appeared and changed her live forever. Come on a j
Rumpled Sheets Blog
Feb 02, 2014 Rumpled Sheets Blog rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: review
Emotionally intense and heartbreaking story that will tug at your heart strings.

My heart was broken for Kayla because of everything she went through. Because of the hell her life was.

Author did an amazing job in developing this story. In crafting the characters. In making you feel all the emotions.

Im looking forward to read more from the author in the future.

5 read

>>>ARC received in exchange for an honest review<<<
Leanne Martin
Mar 02, 2014 Leanne Martin rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Wow what an emotional, heart shattering, emotional read with a HEA in the mix.

Kayla is such a strong willed survivor to go through what she has and come out on top. With the help and love of family and friends she overcomes her obstacles and finds love in Jason.

Highly recommended to anyone whose heart can take it being shattered and pieced back together.
Apr 11, 2015 Petra rated it it was amazing
This was one of the most emotional heart felt books I have read in a long time and it was brilliant and great to read the author wrote it beautifully x
Kizzie Darker
One word....Beautiful
Aug 12, 2013 Colleen rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I love story with secrets and the dark atmosphere of romance
Maria Nickerson
Oct 28, 2016 Maria Nickerson rated it it was amazing
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Jul 22, 2014 OrchardBookClub rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Protective Love (Hidden Secrets #1)
by P.J. Belden

Reviewed by Amanda

This book is a heart breaking story of a rape victim that is assaulted for 16 years repeatedly. Kayla Williams is alone, afraid and never lets anyone in until she meets Detective Jason Gold. Such a gut-wrenching but beautiful story of how horrible someone's life can be but they still don't give up. Even when Kayla felt she would never have her dreams of finding love because she thought she was too damaged, she never gave up and l
Lisa Atherton
May 05, 2015 Lisa Atherton rated it really liked it
This was an intense, disturbing and horrifying read. Due to the subject matter and the intense descriptions this is not going to be for everybody.

Layla is living a nightmare being raped and abused since she was 12 years old. Never knowing when her attacker is going to strike next she lives her life in fear and pushes those around her away: part protecting them from her life and part blaming them for not recognising what was going on right under their noses and protecting her. Broken, she feels
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