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Now I See You: A Memoir

3.8 of 5 stars 3.80  ·  rating details  ·  1,324 ratings  ·  216 reviews
At nineteen years old, Nicole C. Kear's biggest concern is choosing a major--until she walks into a doctor's office in midtown Manhattan and gets a life-changing diagnosis. She is going blind, courtesy of an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and has only a decade or so before Lights Out. Instead of making preparations as the doctor suggests, Kear decides to carpe di ...more
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Published June 24th 2014 by St. Martin's Press
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Now I See You is a memoir written by Nicole C. Kear. Fresh into adulthood, Nicole was diagnosed with retinitis pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease. In her book, she discusses life, work, love, motherhood, and her emotional journey in general since receiving her prognosis of blindness within ten years’ time. One thing I loved about Nicole’s story is the humor she adds while discussing random experiences that people with healthy vision often take for granted. Although humor is likely her own pe

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Self-deprecating, unflinchingly raw and ultimately quite moving, this memoir was surprisingly hilarious and devastating at the same time. Given a life-changing diagnosis and told that she is ineluctably going blind, a kick-ass and gritty nineteen-year-old decides to literally "rage, rage against the dying of the light" and fight the odds with all that she can muster.

An incredible story of stubbornness,
I would never have guessed that a memoir about going blind from a degenerative retinal disease could be so full of humor. At the age of 19, Nicole Kear found out she had retinitis pigmentosa, an eye disease where she would first lose her peripheral vision, and eventually be blind in 10-15 years. With a "seize the day" attitude, she decided to travel, have a series of one-night stands, finish a degree in drama at Yale, and search for acting jobs in California and New York. She only told her famil ...more
Now I See You: A Memoir is the story of a young woman who is diagnosed with Retinitis Pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease that causes her to slowly go blind.

I loved this book. I almost didn't start it, because I wasn't really in the mood for anything too serious and I was afraid it might be kind of a somber read. I was so wrong! I thoroughly enjoyed reading about her life. I was fascinated to hear about her struggles and how she would eventually overcome them. I laughed out loud at her very
Carole (Carole's Random Life)
This review can also be found at Carole's Random Life

I received an advance reader edition of this book from St. Martin's Press and Net Galley for the purpose of providing an honest review.

4 Stars

I do not read this type of book very often. I am really more of a fiction reader because my reading goal is simply to be entertained. Every once in a while a book outside of my usual fiction reading catches my attention as this book did. A book that tells the story not of someone who suddenly goes blind
ARC for review.

Blindness. A fascinating topic. However until I read the incredible [book: Blindness}
by Jose Saramago (which was more dystopian versus blindness-centered) my experiences with blindness in literature were pretty much limited to Mary Ingalls and the Helen Keller biography that I believe every 1970s female elementary student used for a book report (I swear the only biographies with female subjects in my elementary library were that one and one on Amelia Earhart, so I'm definitely g
First, the positive.

Thank you NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the eARC of this book for me to read and review.

Now for the negative.

I don't do self-depracating humor. This book is full of it. It makes me completely non-sympathetic and negative towards the author, who obviously had a very difficult medical diagnosis thrust on her at a very young age.

There was a ton of repetition in the book of her being afraid to face her diagnosis and to DO anything positive about it and her fear to talk ab
Most folks have deal-breakers for reading matter: gratuitous violence, F-bombs, and the like. One of mine is a memoir where the couple, or in this case protagonist, gets all TMI about a need to have kids, or in this case, another one.

"In the middle of our carnal embrace, David paused for a prophylactic and I stopped him. 'Don't use one,' I whispered." I actually stopped reading early next chapter with her telling her toddler son, "It doesn't hurt. I'm just working hard to grow a baby in my bell
Judy Collins
A special thank you to St. Martin's Press and NetGalley for an ARC in exchange for an honest review.

NOW I SEE YOU, by Nichole C. Kear, an uplifting, emotional, and humorous journey—a memoir about a courageous young woman and her personal battle with a degenerative eye disease—retinitis pigmentosa (RP).

She was told by her doctor, no one in her family has it. Essentially the photoreceptor cells in her retina, the ones that turn light into electrical impulses for the brain are dying. The night vi
Kathy Cunningham
Nicole C. Kear's NOW I SEE YOU is a funny, sad, terrifying, and uplifting memoir about her very personal battle with a degenerative eye disease. Nicole was nineteen when a doctor diagnosed her with retinitis pigmentosa (RP), an untreatable genetic condition that would render her blind within fifteen years. She went from being a normal college student fretting over things like boyfriends and disappointing jobs to worrying about what would happen to the rest of her life - would her condition mean ...more
I'm so glad I read this! It's a funny, fresh and frank memoir of self-acceptance-- in Nicole Kear's case, accepting and navigating vision loss. At 19, she was diagnosed with retinitis pigmentosa, an inherited eye disease causing gradual retinal degeneration, eventually leading to blindness. She takes the news as a shameful secret to hide, and also as a personal dare: seize the day! Forget her doctor's exhortations: don't drink, don't smoke, stay close to home. She travels, studies at clown colle ...more
Sep 14, 2014 Lisa rated it 4 of 5 stars
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In fourth grade, my class had a discussion about whether we would rather be deaf or blind. If asked today, I'd give the same answer I did then: I'd rather be deaf. Since I was born deaf, I don't know any different, but that could be a blessing.

In Nicole Kear's case, she was born with sight, so she knew what she would be missing. But I can't imagine being in this world never having seen any of it. And if I had been born hearing and lost it later in life, that would be a tough adjustment, as it w
I liked this book. But then again, I love memoirs. I am always curious about how other people live their lives. And this one is particularly interesting: The author is a mother of three who has Retinitis Pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease. She is diagnosed at age 19, and this is her story of denial and refusing to accept her diagnosis and its increasing limitations as she gets older. She is smart and funny, and so is her writing. Never in the story does the reader feel sorry for her, and whi ...more
Mostly I laughed my way through the book. On a couple of occasions I reached for tissues (especially the Green Eggs and Ham part). Kear's story is very captivating and one that will stay with me.
This book was a train wreck. That's all I have to say!

Memoirs are not exactly a go-to genre for me but after reading Nicole Kear’s Huffington Post article, Reading After Dark, and some of her blog posts I felt compelled to pick up her book. I’m happy to say Now I See You was all I wanted it to be and more. It almost feels wrong to say this in response to a memoir about going blind but this was one of the most entertaining and fun books I’ve read in a long time. Kear has a gift with words and her writing style
Now I See You: A Memoir, by Nicole Kear

Kear's memoir of how she deals with her devastating Retinitis Pigmentosa diagnosis at age 19 is often laugh-out-loud funny. She discusses her almost pathological resistance to her illness and much of the book details how she refuses to come to terms with her impending blindness. Even as a young mother, Kear is still unable to share her misfortune and ask for much needed help, often putting herself and her children in danger. This was where the book became d
When she was just nineteen, Nicole Kear was diagnosed with an eye disease that would gradually rob her of her vision and would likely leave her blind within a decade. At first, she responds the way you might expect a nineteen-year-old to respond: by living it up, determined to experience as much as she can while she can.

As she's closing in on her 30th birthday, Nicole is a new mom with a significantly decreased field of vision. She's trying to teach her kids to read words that she herself can n
Janette Noe'
Having the same same eye condition as Nicole Kear, I was intrigued to read this book. In fact, a coworker brought it to my attention and suggested we purchase it for the library (I am responsible for purchasing books for our local library). Anyway, reading this book was like looking at my life experiences in may ways. One of the things about slowly losing your vision is that you adapt to the unnoticeable changes along the way so there really is no reason to tell anyone - you just do things a lit ...more
Jamie McQuiggan
I liked her writing style and voice - it was interesting and light and touching. It's a quick read and I enjoyed it... mostly.

I had some serious problems with HER (like her handling of her disability, and her family's too... honestly.) and I'm not sure how that should impact the star rating. I am horrified when I think about how her denial impacted the safety of others... not just her kids and herself but society at large as she was driving at night to avoid having to admit she couldn't see at
Elizabeth Willard
This was a tough one for me. As a human being and a mom of young kids, I really wanted to read this book, to get insight into what seems like one of the scariest things that can happen to you - going blind. And this book will give you that... sort of. It was difficult for me to relate to the author and her continued insistence on refusing to tell people about her deteriorating sight, despite pratfalls, inability to drive, and complete loss of a social life. Her secret causes problems in her marr ...more
*Review based off an ARC acquired through Goodreads' First Reads*

I'm not a big nonfiction reader; my forays into that genre had been limited to the scope of the classroom, but my interest was peaked when I happened upon Now I See You. I'll be the first to admit it caught my attention because the title is very similar to a certain movie I had quite enjoyed, but I become particularly interested when I saw it was about blindness, not to mention the unique circumstances behind the condition. I'd pas
Aizel Macaldo
I read an ARC. :)

I loved it! I don't read memoirs much because I'm afraid I might find them boring and dragging, but not Nicole's memoir, Now I See You.

I really liked her style of writing. I did not find any boring parts at all. Despite her RP and inner struggles, she was hopeful. Yes she was in denial for a long time, but her love for her children won. The fact that she was able to write her story in a light manner made me admire her. She's humorous and very inspiring. :)

I also liked her gran
Enlightening. This woman finds out late in high school that she is going blind from retinitis pigmentosa. She behaves in similar fashion as my mom did. - floating down the river of denial for years as her vision fades. She shares her path of motherhood as her vision continues to fade. Hit home!
Rose Zivkovich
Humorous and shocking all in one...allowed me to be grateful for all that I have!
April Brown
What ages would I recommend it too? Twenty one and up.

** Overdosing (nigh every single page) of cursing and too much time on multiple sexual encounters.

Length? MA couple of days.

Characters? Memorable, several characters.

Setting? Real world, mostly New York and California.

Written approximately? 2014.

Does the story leave questions in the readers mind? Ready to read a blindness memoir that is appropriate for all ages.

Any issues the author (or a more recent publisher) should cover? Yes. The amount
4.5 stars

A fast paced memoir by Nicole Kear who finds out at nineteen yeas old that she has an untreatable eye disease retinitis pigmentosa, and only has about ten years of vision left before she goes legally blind. She goes against the grain and instead of preparing for blindness decides to carpe diem and make the most of the vision she has left living a very carefree life and keeping her vision problems a secret. This at times is bothersome to some readers, but hey it's a memoir so cut her som
Simply amazing! I am not a fan of nonfiction to be honest, but this book is hilarious and very touching. The way the author wrote it, you would think it is fiction. I came into this book with a not-so-open mind, but it changed my mind completely.
19 year old Nicole went in for an eye exam one day and unexpectedly got some bad news. She was diagnosed with a rare disease that no one in her family has even heard of. This disease, retinitus pigmentosa, will make her lose her eye sight completely wit
Wonderful and unputdownable! I love true stories that inspire and this does just that. Nicole poignantly tells the story of her life going blind. It's terrifying to be diagnosed with an incurable degenerative eye disease at the tender age of 19, the anxieties of it always looming over you and the impact it has as you carve your identity in the adult world and how you want to live it.

Despite the heavy diagnosis, Nicole's storytelling is the perfect mix of humor and tear-inducing. She is witty, fu
How can a true story about a college student diagnosed with progressive blindness be such a good book? The author is a gifted storyteller; her amazing ability to describe complex emotional situations invites the reader to experience them as well. Her first response to the unexpected diagnosis is complete denial; she embarks upon a lifestyle intended to have maximum experience with no emotional involvement. She has the requisite over-involved family, wild adventures and devoted boyfriend. She win ...more
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Nicole is the author of the new memoir Now I See You (St. Martin's), chosen by People magazine and Amazon as a Best New Book, and by Glamour, Redbook, Fitness and Martha Stewart Living as a Must-Read. Her work appears in the New York Times, Good Housekeeping, Psychology Today, Parents, American Baby, as well as Babble. Salon and xoJane. Her column, “Dispatches from Babyville,” has been running con ...more
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