If I Can't Have You: Susan Powell, Her Mysterious Disappearance, and the Murder of Her Children
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If I Can't Have You: Susan Powell, Her Mysterious Disappearance, and the Murder of Her Children

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In If I Can't Have You, bestsellingauthor Gregg Olsen and co-author Rebecca Morris investigate one of the 21st Century’s most puzzling disappearances and how it resulted in the murder of two children by their father.

Every once in a great while a genuine murder mystery unfolds before the eyes of the American public. The tragic story of Susan Powell and her murdered boys, Ch...more
Hardcover, 336 pages
Published May 20th 2014 by St. Martin's Press
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Alisi ☆ needs to stop starting new books ☆
I felt like this after finishing this book:

I'm disgusted by the police. I had no idea that the circumstantial case was so strong against Josh Powell. Those poor kids shouldn't've died. I mean, it would've been terrible if the only thing the police had against Josh was his wife's disappearance. That wouldn't lesson the tragedy. It's just the fact that they had so much against him. Enough to, at the very least, terminated his parental rights.

Let's see: a) they found Susan's blood in an area that J...more
Kiirsi Hellewell
Even knowing this story intimately, inside and out, as I do, I still couldn't put this book down. I learned several things that even I didn't know. It was accurately factual and well-researched, and told Susan's story very well. The authors did a wonderful job.
"Mommy's in the trunk...Mommy and Daddy got out...And Mommy never came back.

I'm thinking unless you've lived on another planet the last few years, most everyone is aware of the basics of this sad story. Utah wife and mother Susan Powell goes missing after the husband takes the two young boys *camping* to a very remote location in the middle of the winter and in the middle of the night at that. Comes home the next day and spends hours cleaning out his van and areas in the home instead of taking p...more
Ruth Turner

I found this book to be flat and emotionless. It was like reading a newspaper article.

Nevertheless, it's a heart breaking story and I feel that at least part of the tragedy could have been avoided.
I can remember reading bits and pieces about the Powell family on the internet. Just like everyone else, I was spellbound by this story. Hoping for a happy ending. Even though Susan was missing. I was praying for the two little boys, Charlie and Braden. It seemed like the boys were going to get their happy ending until that unthinkable act by their father took them away.

I am familiar with Mr. Olsen's work as an author. I can not imagine writing a book like this. I don't know how Ann Rule does i...more

I rated this book 4 stars and not 5, not because I didn't find it absolutely compelling, but because I was really frustrated with the ending. Not the book ending, the story's ending.
This was a sad, SAD story, I couldn't put the book down because I was hoping to find some closure for that poor family. The role of the police in this crime is unbelievable, they could have prevented Josh's heinous crime and save those poor kids.
The book was really well written and researched.
This is a well-written account of the Susan Powell disappearance and subsequent murder of her children that played out locally in Utah a few years ago. There are not a lot of good guys in it. The evil and perversion of a family, the slow movement of the the police, and the helplessness of everybody else makes this a difficult book.
After many years of training--from Nancy Drew to Erle Stanley Gardner to Mary Higgins Clark, with advanced training by Patricia Cornwell and John Sandford and,k semina...more
I read this book in three days, not just because of the book's extreme readability, but because I couldn't stand to be a part of the evil of the events described therein for much longer than that.

Like many others, I followed this case compulsively when it was in the news. The book reports, in great detail, of what happened. But more than that, it functions as a reminder of other important things:

1. Susan's family (I'm clearly referring to the Coxes here) have suffered nearly more than one can po...more
Robert Miller
This book examines the disappearance of Susan Powell who went missing in 2009 from her West Valley City, Utah home she shared with her husband Josh Powell and two sons Charlie and Braden. Early on, Josh becomes a suspect and only minimally cooperates with the police claiming he had been camping with his boys when Susan disappeared. The authors do a good job of describing the time sequence of the investigation and characters who play central roles; they explain why Josh, his father Steve and brot...more
Sheila DeChantal
If I Can’t Have You is a powerful and disturbing true retelling of the disappearance of Susan Powell and the eventual murder of her two young sons. It is always hard to put into words what I think of a true crime read. Bizarre, engaging, the human psyche occasionally blows my mind.

True Crime authors Gregg Olsen and Rebecca Morris did an amazing recollection of the details of this sad senseless occurrence of not that many years ago. I listened to this on audio and narrator Kevin Pierce handles th...more
I always enjoy true crime stories because they give me a chance to try to solve a crime as well as providing insight into the criminal mind. This one was fascinating, partly because part of the story takes place in Washington and partly because it simply didn't have to happen. It was also heartbreaking because the crime is never solved; nor is the victim's body ever found. There wasn't much to solve, though, since it seems clear from the very beginning what probably happened. The book tells the...more
This book has two major flaws. First, there's just not enough material to make this book of this length interesting. We all know that poor Susan Powell is dead and we all know it was because of her husband, Josh, and an undetermined number of his creepy family members. But because Susan's body has never been found, her husband can never be brought to justice by a trial, and none of the remaining Powells are talking, there's not really too much to write about.

Second, what there is to write about...more
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+ My favorite GO true crime novel.

+ A very tough emotional read. Incredibly well researched. It was very clear that authors were invested in the story. This is lacking in a number of true crime stories, including ones written by this author.

+ had moments where segments of the story felt off and thrown into the story. I couldn't figure out why they were put in at that moment or what they added to the story at that time.
This book is horribly disturbing, but I already knew that going into it. I've always believed Josh Powell was guilty in what I am going to call the murder of Susan Powell, and this book didn't do anything to change my mind. We may never know what happened to Susan's body, but the demented details of what Josh, his father, and his brother Mike have done will forever haunt my thoughts. This book was an incredibly interesting glimpse into their lives. Though I new much of the story from the news, t...more
Ariel Uppstrom
Though the true crime story was interesting in its disturbing nature, the fact that it is unresolved made me wonder why someone would bother writing a book about it. What also made me not like the book was the writing style. Even though I could have looked up the crime and gotten a summary before reading the book, I wanted there to be some mystery as the crimes unfolded. However, the book wasn't written to create that suspense. It was clear from the beginning what happened which made the differe...more
I do not know why I wanted to read this. I sort of regret it, but now I know that true crime is best left to Wikipedia entries for me.
Although this book gives a little more insight into what life was like in Josh and Susan Powell's home, expands on their background story, and fills in some of the blanks of this bizarre and twisted case, there's no helping the fact that when you're finished reading it you're STILL frustrated that Josh Powell was never arrested and held accountable for whatever it is he did to his wife. Why did the police wait so long to act? Why couldn't they see what all the rest of us could see and keep those...more
I have never heard off this case although being in grad school and working could account for keeping to myself.
I am very picky when it comes to true crime authors and wasn't sure whether to pick this up but I am so happy I did. Gregg Olsen does an amazing job at accounting for everything that happened and although it goes back and forth sometimes; I understood why, so many details and so many people to give statements. I read this book in less than 36 hours and could not put it down. I found it...more
This was an interesting, but also very horrifying story about a marriage gone terribly wrong. Susan Powell disappeared in December 2009, and she nor her body have ever been found up to the present day. Her husband no doubt murdered her, and his family, a sick group of individuals except for the oldest daughter Jennifer, probably knew exactly what happened to her. Her husband, Josh Powell, killed himself and his five and seven year old sons, when he learned that custody of the boys was probably g...more
Sarah Peterson
I first heard about Susan Powell on a TV show. I can't recall which, it may have been Dateline. This was before the murder, and even before Steve Powell's arrest. From what I can recall, the TV show didn't seem to go after Josh so much at the time, but this was probably because it was early on and, as the book states, the police didn't release most of the investigation until 2013.

Later, I saw on another TV show, Inside Edition, I believe, that Steve was spouting off his theories and playing som...more
Thought I'd just read a little of the beginning because I'm already reading a couple other books, but ended up not being able to stop until I finished it in one sitting. Living in Salt Lake City, this story has never been far from my mind as we all wondered why Susan Cox Powell's obvious murderer had not yet been arrested. This book filled in many details but I still can't understand how the West Valley City Police could let the murderer slip away to kill again. That same abundance of caution is...more
I'd heard about Susan Powell's case before; I live in western Colorado, not too far from Salt Lake City, so she was on the news fairly frequently when she first went missing. Plus I'd seen some segment on Investigation Discovery (I'll admit it; I'm an ID addict) about the case, too. But the book added a lot of information and details to the case.

The title pretty much gives everything away, if the reader hasn't heard of the case before - Susan goes missing, is still missing, and her children are...more
David Putman
Most of the book appears to be based on police records or other published sources and as such I enjoyed this part. Unfortunately there are a few statements made as though they are fact which appear to be biases of the authors (e.g., statements not tied to a comment such as "...Powell believed...". For example one statement said the the LDS church teaches it's women to be submissive. I went to the web page LDS.org and searched on the word submissive. The responses were in relation to being submi...more
Nancy  W'f
I have been interested in the Susan Powell case pretty much since the start, as I was in Utah on vacation when she went missing. I am not a reader of true crime books, so I can't really compare this book to titles that are similar, but I thought that the authors had a good grasp on the case, which I followed in the media. I liked the fact that the authors wrote in short chapters, and seemed to have all the available facts at their fingertips. It was interesting to find out some aspects of the ca...more
Mimi Fintel
What can I say? I like true crime books. This book was very interesting and laid out exactly the sequence of events leading up to and following the strange disapperance of Susan Powell and the later murder and suicide of her sons and husband. It appeared her husband had a hand in her disappearance along with one of his brothers and his dad. Susan Powell's family probably will never retrieve their daughter's body or find out exactly what happened to her. The only person still alive that might kno...more
Pretty good, possibly a smidge better than Ann Rule's take on it, which is hard to write. I wish Olsen would have gone into more information on Michael Powell but that's my only substantial complaint.

Another difficult read in terms of subject matter because it seems like Susan had all of these friends and family and yet no one did much to get her out of an abuse marriage (please, dude starved his own kids while she's making the money, WTF?), but really the subtext seems to be that Susan wouldn't...more
Steven Howes
This is one of those books that I found hard to put down while, at the same, it almost made me sick to my stomach. Most people are aware of this case but the authors do a fair job of filling in the gaps - at least they did for me. This is one of the worst cases of pure evil I have ever read about. It is easy to second guess what occurred in the end but it seems to me that perhaps Susan Powell's two sons could have been saved if the police had arrested the father. They appeared to have enough evi...more
Kendra Stejskal
I wasn't sure I wanted to read this book because of the heartbreaking story, but once I started I did not put it down much. I live in the Puyallup area, and Josh and the boys used to come into the library I worked at. I don't know what it was, but something about them always intrigued me. I would hear later about Susan's disappearance, and then was heartbroken later to see what Josh did to the boys. I never talked with them, but I remember the boys' adorable faces and watching them play together...more
I followed this story from the beginning when it first took place. I am so sorry for Charlie and Braden. They were caught right in the middle of everything. I could say so much about the crimes committed in this whole mess. It is hard for me to understand so much of what took place. Why? I just find I want to ask that question to everything that took place. I wonder why Steven Powell just doesn't tell what he knows. What does he have to lose? It's because he just cannot be truthful with anyone o...more
Having been very interested in this case due to it's close proximity to my house, it was infuriating to hear the full extent of the evidence against Josh Powell and the lack of action from the West Valley City Police Department. It was sickening to hear about the cartoon porn collection that he had on his computer. It is absolutely heartbreaking that a mother and her two little boys could be killed by the man who vowed to always love and protect them in such a heartless and violent way. I feel s...more
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A New York Times bestselling author, Olsen has written seven nonfiction books, three novels, and contributed a short story to a collection edited by Lee Child.

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