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A Note of Madness (Flynn Laukonen #1)

3.95  ·  Rating Details ·  799 Ratings  ·  107 Reviews
Why is this happening to me? he asked himself desperately. What is wrong with me?

Life as a student should be good for Flynn. He's one of the top pianists at the Royal College of Music, he has been put forward for an opportunity-of-a-lifetime concert, and he's got great friends. But beneath the surface, he's falling apart.

On a good day he feels full of energy and life, but
Paperback, 305 pages
Published February 15th 2007 by Definitions (Young Adult)
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May 19, 2012 Kat rated it it was amazing
A few months ago, I read Ms. Suzuma's book, Forbidden - which was the first book I've ever read that made me cry (not just a bit of moisture, full on tears!). Immediately I went to see what other work she had published, and picked up A Note of Madness, her debut novel.

I knew from the beginning this book would be another tough read, but it was so worthwhile. Ms. Suzuma writes with an intensity that is impossible to walk away from - I was incredibly emotionally invested in this book right from the
Tabitha Suzuma
Oct 20, 2009 Tabitha Suzuma added it  ·  (Review from the author)
Life as a student is good for Flynn. As one of the top pianists at the Royal College of Music, he is put forward for a big concert, the opportunity of a lifetime. But beneath the surface, things are changing. On a good day he feels full of energy and life, but on a bad day being alive is worse than being dead. Sometimes he wants to compose and practise all night, at other times he can't even get out of bed. His flatmate Harry tries to understand but is increasingly confused by Flynn's erratic mo ...more
Annie Brewer
Dec 29, 2011 Annie Brewer rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: Fans of Forbidden and Tabitha Suzuma
WOW! WOW! WOW!!!! This was awesome awesome awesome!!!! I read this in 24 hours and I was sucked in from the start. It's amazing and emotional and shows you firsthand what people with depression and bipolar go through. Their lives are so difficult and hard to imagine. I went through the highs and lows that Flynn went through. Me heart broke for him over and over again. I cried and stared wide-eyed at my kindle, my heart raced so fast at certain parts at his thoughts or when he was at his lowest. ...more
Dear Tabitha, thank you for sending me such a fabulous book!

A Note of Madness is a compelling story, very moving, heart-breaking, emotional and a gripping read!

For someone who works with young people in education I found this story very helpful and informative on the subject of mental illness.

Tabitha loves to chalenge herself with taboo themes. Her style of writing totally draws you in to Flynn's world and makes you really understand how he is feeling. Honestly and beautifully written.

Overall: 4
Noha Badawi
This book...




Oh my god I'm utterly in awe with this book. Tabitha Suzuma really doesn't mess around. She knows how to make you F E E L something; and oh boy this book made me feel EVERYTHING.

I really, really, really don't know how to express my opinion on this one.

But I can tell you something : Please read it. Please. Flynn's story deserves to be heard and acknowledged. Yes, it's dark at times and it will make you feel like something is t
Jan 11, 2009 Wico rated it really liked it
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Oct 01, 2012 Vishy rated it it was amazing
I read Tabitha Suzuma’s ‘Forbidden’ last year. I liked it so much that I wanted to explore other works of hers. Whenever I discover a new writer and like one of her/his works, I try to read the first book of that writer. So I thought I will get Tabitha Suzuma’s first book, ‘A Note of Madness’. I finished reading it yesterday. Here is what I think.

‘A Note of Madness’ is about a classical music student, Flynn. Flynn discovers one day that his emotional state moves to sudden extremes. One day he fe
Joy (joyous reads)
Jan 08, 2012 Joy (joyous reads) rated it really liked it
Shelves: tbr
Have you ever wondered how madness begin? Is it really just a chemical imbalance that a mere prescribed pill can stave off? Since he was four years old, Flynn had always known music is in his future. Some could consider him as a virtuoso - but that's not how he sees himself. His days are a cycle of crippling depression and brilliant music composition. When he was chosen to play at the prestigious Royal Albert Hall, pressure builds to an explosive point as he struggles to keep his insanity away.

This book.....I LOVE IT.I LOVE IT.I.LOVE.IT.
It's a beautiful madness,crazy,energetic and dramatic.
I love everything about this book,the story,the characters,the challenge,the trauma,EVERYTHING.
At first,when Flynn was going all loco because of the concert before I knew
about "Bi Polar Disorder" he reminded me of the movie Black Swan,I thought
he was just seeking for the non-existent perfection like Natalie Portman.
Then,I thought with all the mood swings,that he's schizophrenic.
Harry,is just the bes
Jess Lister
Aug 01, 2012 Jess Lister rated it liked it
Don't get me wrong- I loved this book. It was a great read, really gripping and at times I was really moved. Flynn's journey through colour and illness with all it's up's and down's was enthralling, but at times I found myself quite frustrated with the book- I felt it wasn't very realistic and moved too quickly. Although understandably most of the emphasis is on Flynn, I wanted much more development in some of the other characters- I felt they were just props rather than actual features and it b ...more
Ringo The Cat
Mar 09, 2011 Ringo The Cat rated it it was ok
Shelves: ya, contemporary
The cat had Tabitha Suzuma’s Forbidden in her Amazon basket for a while before she finally ordered it (much of this was due to Joanna Kenrick who suggested reading some of Suzuma’s writings). Anyways, the cat’s a bit autistic, so instead of reading the current cult hit Forbidden first, she decided to start with Suzuma’s debut A Note of Madness.
Flynn is talented pianist at the Royal College of Music in London, he’s got a small circle of good friends, a loving family, but when he starts to prepar
Feb 26, 2013 Tiffany rated it really liked it
This book is by the author of Forbidden and the main reason that I fell in love with that book, and Tabitha Suzuma, was the ability to really see in Lochan's head and feel the mental illness from a first hand perspective. I remember saying something in my review of Forbidden about the first half of that book really focusing on Lochan and I could have read an entire book of just that. Well A Note of Madness is that book I was hoping for! So why did I give it 4 stars when I gave Forbidden 5 stars? ...more
This book gave such a sobering portrayal of bipolar disorder and mental illness in general. I'm so glad it exists.
*.Amaia.* BlackMagicRose
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The writing is amazing. It starts with the musings about madness in the prologue, and it just doesn’t end. I devoured the book, submerged myself in its emotions and felt every one of them. Suzuma writes amazingly about both the ups and the downs – the fevered excitement just exudes from the page, and the lonely despair grabs you and doesn’t let go.

Another thing I really enjoyed about the writing was that every description was laced with memories. I’ve said before that I’m not a very visual pers
3 stars (I don`t know how to rate this novel at all )

so this is the second novel that I read by Tabitha Suzuma Tabitha Suzuma

First this author is really good writer and storyteller like she knows exactly what being bipolar patient like ... and her descriptions of all the emotions that Flyn felt was so good

I really felt boring after reading the half of this novel everything kept going from bad to worst and good thing happened only at the end (thanks God this novel is short
My expectations was sky high to this book and it didn't disappoint me at all. You get a really intense insight in what you can go from being well to mentally ill and it means.

I instantly felt connected with Flynn, besides from the talent his just an ordinary guy which means that this sickness could happen to everybody.

There's so many powerful scenes which is unforgettable and even thought I found it difficult with connection to the book when I first picked it up, I'd a hard time putting it dow
Oct 27, 2012 Dottie rated it really liked it
The question now is whether or not I go on to read A Voice in the Distance. I like where this one ended. Why ruin my illusion that Flynn managed to beat his beast of a disease with Jennah by his side? Why subject myself to another Forbidden-esque breakdown? Whyyyyy?

Because I'm an incorrigible masochist, that's why. And as long as Flynn and Jennah don't end up like Lochan and Maya, I'm inclined to give the sequel a go...eventually.
Roanne Araneta
Aug 14, 2012 Roanne Araneta rated it really liked it
He just looked at her and smiled...

That is so creepy.

But it's funny too actually. I really like Flynn. Though I must say he's not exactly the book-boyfriend type, nonetheless I find him quite adorable especially when he's crying or becomes too shy and ocassionally when he's manic.

Ah so this is what it's like to be bipolar.
Jun 18, 2015 Faizan rated it really liked it
what a book, a must read for everyone who want to see inside bipolar disorder

Check Review here.. Of series.

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Aug 28, 2011 Suchevane rated it it was amazing
Recommended to Suchevane by: Liz
Shelves: to-buy
Wow!!! Awesome, awesome, awesome!!!! Wasn't sure i'd like it, honestly, but my friend raved about it, and i'm glad i read it! Gotta add it to my collection!
Apr 24, 2016 Izzyfw rated it really liked it
3.5 good but not as good as the book forbidden written by the same author. Though I really liked this book and I am eager to read the rest of Tabitha's work!
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Nov 01, 2011 Ddpjclaf rated it really liked it
As with the first book of hers that I've read, Tabitha Suzuma has made me all jealous of her writing ability. That way she has to enable her readers to *feel* everything her main character feels is downright amazing. I envy that skill. I want it.

A Note of Madness is Ms. Suzuma's debut novel, and I was lucky enough to receive a personalized signed one from the fanfiction contest! I'd been wanting to read this book for some time but just hadn't gotten around to ordering it. Truth be told, I was ki
Michelle (Fluttering Butterflies)
A Note of Madness by Tabitha Suzuma is a really hard-hitting read. It wasn't easy reading about Flynn's experiences with bipolar disorder, and at times I felt almost overwhelmed with emotion whilst reading this book. So much of what Flynn experiences and feels are portrayed in such a way that it was very difficult for me to separate myself from Flynn. Despite having no previous experience with manic depression, I really felt like I had a much better understanding after reading A Note of Madness ...more
Feb 18, 2017 Georgia rated it liked it
Shelves: owned, 2017-reads
I really enjoyed this, as a psychology student this was a unique perspective into mental health and how other people see it and how it is dealt with. I always find it so interesting to get into the mind of someone dealing with things like this. I felt like I should have figured it out that he has bipolar 2 or manic depression as I was going through the book like okay he is definitely depressed then I thought he had anxiety as well but wow I should have predicted it, especially as I have read abo ...more
The longer I think about this book, the more I like it. I give 4.9 points, because in the beginning, I couldn’t get the hang of it. It was too much of an unfamiliar territory for me with all the practicing on the piano and composing.

But I could still feel the pressure weighing on Flynn and his hyperactivity/lethargy wearing him down. I felt his pain and could nothing but feel for him.

I heart his brother Rami and his friend Harry. They care so much about Flynn. I love how they do everything with
Joshua Boiser
I have never read a book before that epitomizes depression and bipolar disorder this accurate and genuine. Flynn was so emotionally disturbed that it had gotten to the point that his sheer existence made him mull over taking his own life. The unmitigated pressure from his upcoming concert and his friends and society had crushed him and he has become irreparably broken. All he felt like doing was to cry and soak his pillows with his tears and sleep and drift away. Tabitha Suzuma has beautifully p ...more
Nov 13, 2010 Annika rated it it was ok
A Note of Madness didn't turn out to be what I had originally expected.

The book tells us the story of Flynn, a music student and pianist at the Royal College of Music in London whose life spirals out of control as he develops a mental illness.

When I first read the summary I expected a story about someone with a deep depression and what I got was slightly and yet so much different.

I had quite a few problems with A Note of Madness. Because of those I continually checked how many pages I still had
May 13, 2010 Emma rated it really liked it
Shelves: teen
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Tabitha Suzuma was born in London, the eldest of five children. She attended a French school in the UK and grew up bilingual. However, she hated school and would sit at the back of the class and write stories, which she got away with because her teachers thought she was taking notes. Ag
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“I would give anything to escape myself, Flynn thought, just for a day, just for a minute even. Just to know what it was like to think differently, to feel differently, and to not be me.” 31 likes
“But whichever form it took it brought with it, in those moments of bitter anguish, such a desperate surge of hope that it was almost untouchable, and flitted away like a golden butterfly into the bright blue sky - beautiful, unreachable and completely transistent.” 26 likes
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