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Suicide Watch

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18-year-old Vincent Hazelwood has spent his entire life being shuffled from one foster home to the next. His grades sucked. Making friends? Out of the question thanks to his nervous breakdowns and unpredictable moods. Still, Vince thought when Maggie Atkins took him in, he might’ve finally found a place to get his life—and his issues—in order.

But then Maggie keels over fro...more
Paperback, 220 pages
Published December 20th 2012 by CreateSpace (first published December 18th 2012)
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Wow, this book... *takes deep breath*
Review is coming tomorrow! I just need some time to gather my thoughts a bit.

"If she's in a better place, why are the rest of us trying so hard to stay where we are?"

You know... Writing a review for this one doesn't get easier the more I've thought about it and tried to gather my thoughts. I just don't have any words for it. Well, I have words, I just don't know how to express them to make this book justice. It's such a sad, true, thought-provoking, sweet, a...more
My advice...don't read my review. Go make your own opinion of this book...before my review SPOILS it for you.

**4.6 Touching and Heart-rending Stars**
I need you, I need you. I need something.

Suicide Watch equals, sadness, extremely emotional thoughts and feelings, a need for oblivion, madness and heart breaking circumstances, where suicide is the answer.
A book that will deeply affect you, have your heart aching and push you to the edge of your comfort.
A realistic story, 
when surrounded b
I honestly cannot write a review for this book. Not now, probably not ever. Also, I'm choking up again.

I'm not going to talk about plot/characters or anything of the sort. I just want to mention a couple things.
This book is the kind of book that makes you want to change all your other ratings to one star because there is just so much distance between those books and this one, the kind of book that instantly enters your list of favourites and starts kicking the others in the balls just for the fu...more
Trisha Harrington
This book has broken my heart and this review comes from my heart.

I read this book and fell in love with the character Vince. He was someone who could appear unsympathetic and cruel. His life had not been easy and loss seemed to be all he knew. I found it hard to imagine a life where he was so unwanted. It was a heartbreaking way to start off the book. He sees suicide from the beginning, it's always there and become a part of him.

I feel in love with Casper after we met her. She was like a breath...more
not bad.

two stars—as per goodreads ratings guidelines—because it was okay.

i found the first person present tense distracting, as i did the parentheticals. some characters served no function that i could detect, and some were drawn far too clumsily to be effective. the bit with (view spoiler) annoyed me three different ways.

but the thing that drew me to this story and into a totally coincidental buddy-read with author-buddy Alexis Hall was pretty well-re...more
This book needs a better review so here it goes...

The boy that talks to us in this book is Vince. Vince is a lonely boy, his emotions overwhelm him all the time, he goes into panics and just becomes a mess. The only person that has stuck by him is his foster mom Maggie, except the day of his high school graduation she has a heart attack and dies. Vince officially is alone in the world with absiloutely no one who cares about him.

His thoughts become dark and he's feeling a lot of despair. Even tho...more
Read in December 2012.

Suicide Watch is surely one of those books that stay with you for a long time. It’s about a friendship of three broken and forgotten teenagers. Casper, a girl in the last stages of cancer, Adam a boy whose mother doesn’t seem to know he even exists and Vincent, a lonely boy suffering from panic attacks. All three of them are toying with the idea of committing suicide.

The characters are so pained and hurt, but still the story provides hope and love for the sick, lonely and f...more
Emma Sea
I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That was beautiful and heartbreaking and poignant and hopeful and . . . just so marvellous.

Huge thanks to Jenn for naming this author as a best of 2012 for her: would never have tried it otherwise.
Kaje Harper
4.5 stars. This is a well written book about three teenagers who all have reasons to find life bleak and hopeless, and who come together first online and then in person, to discover that sometimes human contact can ease that bleakness. And sometimes it can't.

I thought the author did an admirable job of taking the reader into the mind of a near-suicidal teen, and particularly of finding ways to express his emotions clearly and vividly, but without overwrought angst. Vince has good reasons for his...more
♥Laddie♥ (Lee Lee)
I Could Not Sleep Until I Wrote This

About fifteen minutes ago I wrote a status update where I said that I wanted to sleep on my feelings for this book before I reviewed it. The problem is that it's so heavy on my mind that I can't sleep.

This book is so sad, poignant, and beautiful that it's indescribable and there is no way I'm going to do it any justice. I started this book after it was recommended to me. I'd just finished a book that left a bad taste in my mouth and I was looking for one that...more
MsMiz (Tina)
This book just was...


There is not a soul who cannot identify with at least someone or something in this book.
Jamie Manning
I honestly don't even know where to begin with this review. I had every intention when I began reading this one to sit down right after and write up a review for it, but by the time I reached the end, that notion was long forgotten, buried beneath the pain and hurt and ultimate happiness York's words left me with. I can honestly say that it's been a while since I've stayed up really late to finish a book, and even longer than that since one grabbed me like this one did. I finished it at about 3a...more
Jul 16, 2013 Gina rated it 5 of 5 stars  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Gina by: Tina
Shelves: m-m, favorites
This is an outstanding, take my breath away, make me stare off into space not knowing how to express my feelings kinda book! This was about a friendship of 3 broken and forgotten people. People that some of society do their best to brush off and ignore. If you are looking for an m/m romance this is not what this book is about. This story is much deeper than that, and I have to say I stayed up all night to finish it. When i looked at my clock and it said 3:30 am, I got a glass of water and just k...more
Beautifully stark, and haunting. I love that the author has pulled no punches, but still didn't fall into melodrama. The characters are the kind that stay with you, and I love the process they have to go through to come out the other side. There is no magic cure, no one person that makes everything better, they have to reach out to others to heal.
May 12, 2013 April rated it 5 of 5 stars
Recommends it for: fellow loners
Recommended to April by: Emma Sea
“But living is getting to be far too lonely.”

Gorgeous, painfully relatable. Loved Vince, Casper, Adam. Cried all the way through. I'm the female equivalent of Vincent Hazelwood and this is something I’m still coming to terms with.

“Once upon a time, I lost everything and I was so alone. The sadness, the hurt, it all seemed so infinite. When you're wandering alone in a storm, you can't see the end, or if there even is one, and how close it might be. I'm still wandering, but maybe I don't feel so...more
Awilk -never sleeps-
I am sitting here at my computer trying to decide what to write. How can my feeble words express how this book touched me. How this book made me cry. How at the end it took my broken heart and started to put it back together again.

I don't have enough talent with words to express how this book affected me. All I can say is that this was one of the most powerful, most emotional things I have ever read, and these characters will now and for always have a special place in my heart.
Oh, this book. It broke my heart and then taped it back together. Dark, moving, and hopeful. Beautifully written.

Warning: There are some intensely personal thoughts and feelings in this review. Read it and I’m sure you’ll know a few more things about me than maybe you wished to. I thought about editing them down or out, but in the end I decided I wanted people and maybe especially the author to know how much this book touched me. God this book touched me so much. I know those kids, I was one of those kids everyday struggling, wondering if anyone would notice or care if I wasn’t here anymore. If I hadn’t ha...more
Alexis Hall
So I accidentally read this at the same time as Julio. Review comes with trigger warnings for suicide, suicidal ideation and the occasional glancing reference to sexual abuse. It also contains spoilers which are likely to comprise a significant chunk of my musings, so while I won’t be able to stick them in a tag, I will let you know when they’re about to hove into view.

Okay, are we sitting comfortably?

I think I was more positively disposed towards this than Julio. It was well-written, well-chara...more
18-year-old Vincent Hazelwood earns his high school diploma after years of moving from foster home to foster home, dealing with bullies, and feeling apart from the rest of his peers in general. His guardian, Maggie Atkins, made it all possible: she understood him and cared for him in a way no one else could. When Maggie passes away, Vince drops to rock bottom, and he only finds solace in a website called Suicide Watch. Amidst the desperate and depressed souls on this site he meets Casper, a girl...more
I have always liked Kelley York's writing style, since Hushed, with its simplicity, practicality and sincerity. It is truly fitting and effective to portray vividly and realistically the harsh life in general, as well as ones of Vincent, Adam and Casper. It easily went to my mind, my heart with a powerful strength in which I breathed and felt with the characters's emotions, especially Vincent's. Sad, lonely, desperate, suicidal Vincent.

There wasn't a book before that made me tear up as much as t...more
I wasn't sure what to expect when I started this book but wow the writing pulled me in right away. It was a hard read at times because it touches on a sensitive topic but it also made me laugh and cry. I related to the main characters, Vince, Casper and Adam even though the story is told from Vince point of view. Casper, I loved her, so full of life and strong even though she is dying of cancer. It was emotional, heartbreaking and so full of hope. Recommended!
Wow I can't review this accept to say it was heartbreaking, sad and beautiful so I'll say this...

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
First book of the new year I read and it goes out with a big fabulous BANG!!!! I cracked this sucker open, sucked every word through my brain and hugged my kindle when I was finished. This was my favorite type of book to read so I may be bias but IMO was the whole shebang.

It's sad and difficult to get through at times, but the journey to the end is worth it.

Nyrae Dawn
A beautiful and heartbreaking, yet hopeful book with characters who take up residence in your heart.
Vincent has a hard life. A product of the foster system, he’s moved from home to home and never been able to find the right fit. So when he lands with Maggie and she takes care of him in the best possible ways--not by smothering him with emotion or with unreasonable strictness--but in ways that cater to Vince’s personality and his story. With Maggie, it seems, things might actually work out for the best.

So it’s fairly easy to see why Maggie’s death nearly destroys the fragile facade of Vince’s...more
Kelley York's contemporary thriller, Hushed, was a book I absolutely loved. Archer, the sarcastic young adult Dexter and his sad/funny (sort of funny) story has wormed its way into my heart, and Kelley York moved on to my auto-buy list. I've bought her vampire novel, Hollowed, read a few pages, but it didn't quite capture me the same way as Hushed did (I think I'm burnt out on vampires right now), so for now it stays on the 'maybe someday' shelf. Then I saw Suicide Watch and I knew. The cover,...more
Jenny - totallybookedblog
Jointly reviewed for :


Jenny: Well G, every now and then we read a book that touches our soul, has such a profound effect on us that the mere thought of writing a review feels somewhat daunting. I know you’re feeling the same way as me here. How do you I effectively put into words the feelings I’m experiencing after reading Suicide Watch? How do I adequately communicate to others the level of my emotions – how do I convey the sadness, beauty and hope of a story that w...more
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Vincent’s life has been a series of ups and downs (mainly downs). Abandoned by his parents when he was young, Vince has been shuffled around between foster homes his entire life. When he’s sent to live with a woman named Maggie, he’s certain that she’ll abandon him, too. Much to his surprise, Maggie sees something in him no one else has, and despite some bullying at school, and not having any friends, Vince feels like he at least matters to someone.

But then Maggie dies of a heart attack the day...more
4.5 stars. Gentle sad book read in an afternoon. The story is told from former foster child Vincent's pov in the first person. Beatles fan Vincent meets cancer sufferer Casper and shy lonely Adam through a website called 'Suicide Watch'.

'The idea of not being a kid anymore terrifies me. I am an adult and I have been hurled out of the world of boys and girls into the fray of men and women, and expected to function as a grown-up when I never functioned very...more
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Once upon a time, Kelley York was born in central California. And it's there she she still resides with her wife, step-daughter, and way too many pets. Kelley is a sucker for dark fiction. She loves writing twisted characters, tragic happenings, and bittersweet endings that leave you wondering and crying. Character development takes center stage in her books because the bounds of a person's charac...more
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“I can physically see the effort it takes for him to open his mouth and force out the words. He's spent so much of his life not being seen, not being heard, that he's forgotten how to realize anything he says does hold weight and is important.” 14 likes
“The idea of not being a kid anymore terrifies me. I am an adult and I have been hurled out of the world of boys and girls into the fray of men and women, and expected to function as a grown-up when I never functioned very well as a kid.” 12 likes
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